lover beside

Chapter 281

Hi, everyone, I'm Kerr.

Well, I know that some of the beauties staring at me don't like me - but it doesn't matter, anyway, since I was born, there are more people who don't like me than people who like me, I'm used to those so-called cold eyes and Barbed words, so I'm not afraid.

Forgot where I saw a poem (or was it a jingle?) that said "We are all God's children", oh where is God?What's his house number?What is his phone number?Anyway - I can't find God, even if it is true as the poem says, "We are all God's children", then I am also a child forgotten by God.

God has forgotten me, so beauties don't like me, I can totally accept it.If I want to blame, I will blame God, hehe...

Oh, by the way, I have to tell the beauties a moment: In fact, what you are reading now is a diary of mine written by Kerr, which was written in the sixth grade of elementary school, that is, the author has to push back a few days after telling this story. It's the year!

Look, it’s better for me to take you on a time shuttle and show you my "Secret Diary of a Girl"...

In your disapproving eyes, I can still show my happy smile.

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Speaking of me, I have a close relationship with a word - "wild".

When I was born, because my father was not around, many gossip neighbors called me a "wild species"!I'm too lazy to argue with them, I don't want to tell them my dad is in jail.Because no matter what crime my dad committed, he is still perfect in my heart. I don't want others to know that my dad is a criminal.If they want to call me "wild species", that's fine, anyway, I won't lose a piece of meat because of it.

It's just—when Mom hears, I see the sadness in her eyes.

But I'm fine, I'll pat my skirt and stand up, hold my mother's hand, look up, and tell my mother happily, "Mom, Dad is the most perfect person in this world. I love my mom and dad!"

Dad is not by my mother's side, so I have to shoulder the responsibility of comforting my mother.

Another "wild" - I think I look like weeds.

The kind of small ones that grow on the side of the road, inconspicuous, even covered with dust, but they are tenacious and tenacious, no matter they are trampled on by people or run over by wheels, they still survive tenaciously , tenaciously stretched out its crushed body, facing the wild grass in the sky.

In fact, this feeling has always been hazy in my heart. Later, after watching the Taiwanese idol drama "Meteor Garden" and seeing Shancai's words, I suddenly understood in my heart that I myself am also a weed.

Weeds are good, and weeds have the happiness of weeds.

There is also a "wild", that is "wild girl".I grew up with no toys, no dolls, and no princess dresses, so I couldn't play with little girls, and they ignored me; so I rolled up my trouser legs and rushed into the boys' mud.They played wars and attacked the hills, and I attacked the hills; I lost the quiet look of a girl, but left a string of laughter in my memory.That's enough, isn't it?

It's not like someone who wore a straight white shirt, elegant trousers, and polished black leather shoes all day long when he was a child... Are you tired, you really look like a little old man!

Oh—really, why am I talking about that little old man again?
Although his name is Mu Yang, I think he is a ghost without sunlight, and he is always with me.

He doesn't like me, I already knew that.Every time he sees the mud all over my body, those two eyebrows will wrinkle like caterpillars, as if I owe him hundreds of pennies—why, he has his life, I have mine How to live, why is he staring at me?

Since he doesn't like me, he still doesn't go away: I play in mud, and he stands a few meters away and looks at me; I charge with the boy to attack the hill, but he gritted his teeth and turned away; I went with the boy to catch crickets at night , he insisted on asking the driver to wait by the side of the road...

Well, well, I know it's because he's Aunt Ching Huan's son.Aunt Qing Huan asked her to take care of me and to treat him as my elder brother.But who said I must need an older brother?Who said I have to take care of him?
I am a wild species + wild grass + wild girl, a person like me has tenacious vitality, so I don't want him to take care of me!

We are all God's children - he is the favored child of God, and I will always be the abandoned child of God!The more I was with him, the more I saw his clean, neat and gorgeous everything, the more I realized this!
Just as there is light in this world, there must also be shadows that block the light.He is shining, I am black.So—forget it, we shouldn't cross paths.People who don't like me, why should I be friends with you? !

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Cough, I have to admit, in fact, I still have a shameful decision in my life——

That was the year he was in elementary school.I never went to kindergarten before. My mother’s salary is so low that it’s not easy to afford food, clothing, housing and transportation for the two of us. How can I ask my mother to send me to kindergarten?Although—I always envy the children in the yard, seeing them carrying beautiful schoolbags, holding the hands of parents...

Mu Yang is also good. He often comes to tell me interesting stories in the kindergarten, and occasionally even secretly carries the best toys in the kindergarten back in his schoolbag and brings them back for me to play with.So I have regarded Muyang as my "kindergarten" and my dream of campus life.

But he was going to school, he was going to leave me——I was a little dizzy, and pestered my mother that I had to go to school too.

My mother didn't have the money to send me to kindergarten anyway, so she simply sent me to school directly.I asked a few people to change my 5-year-old age, and I was successfully sent to the first grade and Mu Yang's class...

I was too young to understand my feelings at that time.Now I seem to suddenly understand—I don’t want to stay where I am and look at his back as he walks away step by step.I want to catch up with him, if not overtake him, at least be beside him.

See the same scenery on the road as him, appreciate the same scenery as him.

Like light and shadow.Like - we are all God's children.

Though he is favored and I am forsaken.But that's okay, we're all God's children anyway.

As long as, by his side...

(End of this chapter)