lover beside

Chapter 421

In fact, in this world, is there really someone who is ignorant of their illness?If it can really exist, it would be an extraordinarily good fortune from the heavens.If you don't know, you won't worry, and if you don't worry, your illness will not affect your daily life.

But Qing Huan knew that he was far from being so lucky.

Although a year of peace has passed, and although her body has not shown any abnormalities, how can she not see the cautiousness of everyone around her?If it was really just a fever, or it was really just for her senior high school entrance exam, how could she be so cautious?It was as if she were thin china, ready to fall to the ground in jerky pieces if not handled with care.

There are some things, even if no one says it, she knows it herself.So she was already secretly making some arrangements.

For example, deliberately choose that travel route.Of course, it is because Qing Huan has always been fascinated by the mysterious land in the west, but he does not know that it is a route to the Buddha. There are Buddhist temples and ancient temples all the way, there are miracles on snow mountains all the way, and believers pray to the sky all the way.She walked all the way, kowtowed her long head in the bottom of her heart, measured the distance with her own steps, and every step was a faithful prayer.

Under the snow-capped mountain, everyone said that it is the most efficacious holy mountain. If you can see the sunrise on the snow-capped mountain, all your wishes will come true.Regardless of the coldness in the ice and snow, she knelt down in the holy snow field under the snow mountain, and entrusted the most important person in her heart to the gods and Buddhas all over the sky.

Is there really a god in this world?She didn't dare to confirm it, but she believed that good wishes would definitely be able to accompany that person.

If one day she leaves, who else will help her take care of that young boy?To protect him from harm, to watch him do things out of line?

father?Now that he has his own brand new happiness, his new wife and his youngest daughter will definitely be the top people in his heart. Even if he still worries about that young boy, he will be powerless after all. ,Is not it?
So, what about mother?The situation is similar, the mother is about to have her own brand new family and happiness, and the mother has suffered for so many years, how can she bear to break the smile on her mother's face again?
She knew she was abrupt, but she really believed in Ziheng.Although still young, Ziheng's character and identity are enough to give her a stable mood.If she goes in the future, Ziheng will definitely help her look after Gu Qingjin.Of course, the premise is that she really has emotional ties with Ziheng...

Maybe it was really unfair to Ziheng, but she also swore that she would devote herself wholeheartedly, love Ziheng with all her strength, and give him all the time she had left.

Everything was going well, she was intoxicated by a little bit of the quiet time that was lingering with warmth, but——everything was broken by Qing Jin!
Dad said that Qing Jin was "looking for death", of course she understood that it was just an adjective that Dad said inadvertently, but this word was like a heavy hammer, which made her suddenly understand——Qing Jin might really be looking for death , not as an adjective to describe the degree of exaggeration, but really as a plain verb!

Qing Huan pulled Qing Jin in the sweltering heat and darkness of the small attic, and asked in surprise, "It's because of my illness, isn't it?"

Qing Jin was startled, surprise flashed in her eyes, but was immediately covered by the night, "Are you sick? Let me touch it, do you have a headache?"

Qing Huan sighed and lowered his head, grabbed Qing Jin with his fingers and said softly, "Qing Jin, promise me a wish, okay? I just hope you are well, and I hope to see your light shining among thousands of people Get up, I don't want to see you in such a mess, you should be a dazzling person..."

Qing Jin shook her hand, and held Qing Huan instead, "I'm sorry, it was all my fault. I promise you Qing Huan, I will show you the light in this life!"

How do you know if someone values ​​you enough?It doesn't depend on how many promises he made to you, but how much effort he used to fulfill these promises.Qing Jin agreed to Qing Huan, but she really let Qing Huan see his efforts step by step.

During Qing Huan's freshman year at BJ, she kept receiving good news from Qing Jin.His mathematics performance has been valued by many key universities, and many schools have extended an olive branch to him for recommendation.Qing Jin even took the initiative to ask the head teacher to call Qing Huan and tell her about his situation at school regularly.

Even the stepmother called to say good things about Qing Jin.Saying that Qing Jin knelt down in front of her and Father Lin to apologize after returning home...

What makes Qing Huan even more gratifying is that Qing Jin once followed other people on stage in some small dance halls to pretend to be a male model, but was discovered by a scout from an internationally renowned modeling agency... Qing Jin didn't have any systematic training In the third year of high school, I didn't spend much time on it, but accidentally ranked among the top three in an internal competition organized by their company, and had the opportunity to participate in the national competition!

In fact, whether it is mathematics or modeling, those are areas that Qing Huan does not understand. Even those achievements are not the most important to Qing Huan; what is important is that Qing Jin can see that Qing Jin is working hard It was enough to be alive so that she could see the light gradually flickering on his body.

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On the contrary, it was she and Ziheng who gradually had some ripples.

In fact, it was not Ziheng's fault, but that he was too good.That kind of appearance is always the most attractive among the crowd; coupled with that kind of family background, often just a mere rumor will attract many girls to come to him on their own initiative.In this regard, Qing Huan is actually just indifferent, she believes in Ziheng's character, and she subconsciously doesn't want to restrain Ziheng too much.

But it never occurred to him that the trouble would still take the initiative to provoke her.

Ziheng is in the School of Economics and Management, and she is in the School of Fine Arts. The distance between the two is neither too close nor too far away, so even though some people in the School of Economics and Management know of her existence, not many people know her.This day, Qing Huan returned to the dormitory from the library with the books borrowed from the library. On the way, he passed a small forest. Qing Huan was pulled into the woods by several girls, and unexpectedly saw the arrogantly beautiful girl.

"You are Lin Qinghuan? Tsk, it turns out to be so ordinary! Why are you by Ziheng's side!"

That girl, even though Qing Huan didn't dare to confirm it, she roughly knew the identity of that person.Different from her own calmness, this girl is very beautiful and arrogant, and she also often comes to the Academy of Fine Arts.Obviously, the girl is more outgoing and knows many people, so she likes to go shopping in various colleges and find delicious canteens.

Qing Huan smiled quietly, "You are Qiao Xi, aren't you?" Qiao Gaoguan's daughter, she is also from L province after all, how could she not know anything about it?
Qiao Xi was taken aback, she didn't expect Qing Huan to know her, let alone Qing Huan was so calm, "You know me?"

Qing Huan smiled, "Qiao Xi, in fact, you just asked me the question, you should ask Zi Heng. Even if you look down on my mind, please don't underestimate Zi Heng's wisdom. As Zi Heng, with Qiao Xi If you can really be together, it will be the icing on the cake, a strong alliance, how could Ziheng not think of this? But since Ziheng doesn't accept you, then the key lies in Ziheng himself."

Qinghuan sighed softly, and the coated paper photography magazine in her hand made her arm ache, "Actually, Qiao Xi, you should be able to tell that I, Lin Qinghuan, am an ordinary girl who can be drowned in the sea of ​​people, so I don't I can't threaten you. But since Ziheng doesn't accept you, then the reason must not be me. So, Qiao Xi, what's the use of you coming to me? You should go to Ziheng and ask him clearly. "

"You!" Qiao Xi was startled, and was once again shocked by Qing Huan's neither humble nor overbearing, "Since you know that you are not as good as me, why don't you take the initiative to leave Ziheng?"

Qing Huan smiled helplessly.Such a girl, even though her family is famous, even though she is as beautiful as a flower, but she can't stand on the same level as Ziheng ideologically.Even if Ziheng marries her in the future, how can she help Ziheng?A man in a high position or in the business world must need a wife who is as calm and wise as him. If he gets into trouble every day, even if he is a fairy, which man will not be bothered?
"Qiao Xi, you said that I should take the initiative to leave Ziheng... But I want to ask you a question: Why should I take the initiative to leave Ziheng? Even if I am ordinary, I am happy to be with Ziheng. From Ziheng's perspective , if I'm not what he likes, why would he let me be called his girlfriend? Since I like him, and he likes me, I only need to care about Ziheng's gaze, so why bother because it's irrelevant? A few words from outsiders and give up your own happiness with your own hands?"

What Qing Huan said was calm and calm, like the thin golden light under the swaying green leaves.However, Qiao Xi's expression changed again and again, until she almost jumped up in anger, "Lin Qinghuan, you, don't be too rampant!"

Qing Huan could only sigh again, "Qiao Xi, you use the word 'crazy' so ridiculously. Compared with you and me, who is more qualified to be rampant? Whose expression is more hysterical? I'm just telling you quietly , if you don’t want to listen, then I’ll go away. This is the Academy of Fine Arts, if I remember correctly, Qiao Xi, you’re not from our academy, are you?”

Qing Huan smiled quietly.In fact, the most unwise thing for girls to do is to call at the door before they are ready.What else is left but to end up humiliating oneself?Even if he is the daughter of a high official, he is the only one who is sad.

Qing Huan came out of the woods, but saw Zi Heng standing in the sun smiling.The man who was originally dressed in white was smiling like a villain.

Qing Huan also laughed, "You need to buy a ticket to watch the show. Bring the money."

Ziheng smiled and held Qing Huanbai's open palm, black stars shone in his eyes, "I gave you my whole life, okay?"

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"Your condition is very good recently. Qinghuan, you are an obedient patient. It is really not easy at your age to not be overjoyed or sad. Even if you don't say it, I understand." Shen Mulin took off The stethoscope looked at Qing Huan and smiled kindly. The 27-year-old man has a calm face beyond his age.

In fact, Qing Huan had always suspected that the glasses on Shen Mulin's nose were not short-sighted glasses at all, he was wearing them just to hide his eyes.It is always a little scary for a 27-year-old man to have so much insight in his eyes; what's more, he is a doctor himself and has enough professional qualifications to gain insight into people's bodies.If the body and mind are clearly seen by an outsider, who would not be worried?
Qing Huan smiled quietly, "Actually, the world outside of me always moves according to its own laws. Whether you feel the time is quiet or thrilling, it may all depend on your own state of mind." Qing Huan blushed a little while saying that , raised his eyes to look at Shen Mulin, and saw a trace of narrowness in his eyes without any surprise.Qing Huan also laughed, "Why, you think what I said is idealistic, don't you? It's over, I have been educated in materialism by the country for so many years, but when it comes to looking at people and things, I am still so idealistic. If my philosophy teacher hears I'm sure I won't be allowed to pass this semester."

Shen Mulin also smiled, exuding the childishness that should belong to his age, "It doesn't matter whether he is materialistic or idealistic, they are originally two coexisting views of people looking at the world, who can say which one is the whole which one is absolutely wrong? As long as people can use them to find what they want, it’s enough—Qing Huan, as you always tell me, as long as you always know clearly what you want What, the pressure in my heart will be much easier."

Qing Huan laughed, "Dr. Shen, you should change your career to become a psychologist."

Shen Mulin laughed exaggeratedly, "No! When I was in the United States, I saw a lot of classmates who were studying psychology and they all became neurotic. To be a good psychologist, you must first be prepared to be someone else The 'emotional trash can', but the accumulation of those 'garbage' is too much, beyond the capacity of the doctor himself, and the doctor himself will become a patient..."

Shen Mulin said and stared quietly at Qing Huan, "What about you? When will the pressure you carry alone in your heart become 'garbage' and be emptied from your heart?"

Qing Huan walked back to school, liking the feeling of wandering quietly among the crowd.Although I like quietness, I don't reject the prosperity of the fireworks in the world.

Dr. Shen Mulin's words still rang in her ears again and again, but she didn't feel heavy, and just smiled quietly.

Some thoughts have been depressed for a long time in the bottom of my heart, and they will become heavy "garbage"; but some are not.Those are the treasures in your heart, and you would rather hide them in your heart all your life and not let anyone know.

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The second update later~~~
[Dear ones, Sue apologizes to everyone.I stopped updating yesterday because of my cervical spine pain.Because of long-term writing, I have a problem with my neck. I caught up with the temperature drop in the past two days, and my neck hurts so much that my whole head hurts. I didn’t dare to write a manuscript. As for people, we should also pay attention to protecting our cervical spine! 】

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