Xiaoshou, be good, open the door

When Chang Fei stood in front of the building of the family members of the faculty and staff of that famous university, his heart was beating fast. He knew that the answer he wanted was inside that door. It's a bloody process.

Taking a deep breath, Chang Fei cheered himself up in his heart, and then knocked on the door.

The door opened, and the neat and tidy second bedroom was filled with a pleasant and elegant fragrance of books. The gray-haired professor stood up and looked at Chang Fei. The old woman with white hair who opened the door brought tea.

Chang Fei looked at the professor, the cold and hard lines on his face were 8 points similar to Pei Che, because this similarity made Chang Fei feel closer to the professor, he whispered: "Uncle, I am Chang Fei, The one who called you is also Pei Che's boyfriend."

Pei Che's mother also sat down. She looked at Chang Fei, and it took a long time to let out an admiration from her heart. Pei Che's eyesight has never been bad.

The professor is also neatly dressed at home, and he looks like he can walk up to the podium at any time. Although he no longer needs to give lectures, he looked at Chang Fei and said, "Chang Fei, Che Che came back a few days ago and stayed for one night. Gone, the relationship between him and us has been very alienated these years, although we are happy for him to come home, we dare not ask further questions, where has he gone?"

"Where did he go? So even his parents didn't know.

"Son, what's wrong with Pei Che? He hasn't come home for more than a year. He was kind to us when he came back this time, but I didn't look at the child properly." Pei Che's mother had tears in her eyes. She cried for her son before, and she still cried for her son more than ten years later.

"Uncle, aunt, Pei Che started taking medicine again recently. He quit his job and his whereabouts are unknown. I beg you to tell me what happened to Pei Che back then? What made him stay in the Vanneck Mental Sanatorium for two years?" year?"

Pei Che's parents were sitting on the sofa stiff as if they had been shocked by an electric shock. It took a long time before the professor told Chang Fei a long story. There was no accident, it was a tragedy.

Coming out of Pei Che's parents' house, Chang Fei put together everything he knew to complete the context of Pei Che's life story. He had a book of World Geography in his hand. The professor said it was Pei Che's favorite book. He had read it since he was 8 years old. Use a pen to circle the above cities, hills, and lakes and say that you hope to visit them in the future.But at this time, the professor would interrupt him roughly and give him thick English books or Mathematical Olympiad. His childhood was spent in English and formulas. In the middle school course, at the age of 9, he was admitted to the science and technology junior class and became a so-called child prodigy. Pei Che had no childhood.

After entering university, a 14-year-old child is simply an idiot in life, and he doesn't know how to communicate with his classmates when he doesn't understand. Treat him as your only friend.

Tang Miao comes from a small county in the north. His parents are ordinary workers. To them, Tang Miao, who is 16 years old, is admitted to the University of Science and Technology, which means that their son has won the first prize.

On the day when the notice was issued, the entire small county was a sensation, and for the first time, Lao Tang felt that he had puffed up his chest in front of people.

Chang Fei found a diary at Pei Che's home, which recorded his college life in a mess, every page was related to Tang Miao, Chang Fei could almost see the campus where dandelions were flying everywhere in spring, the two teenagers went to school together Eating, playing, and sleeping are inseparable.

Tang Miao is good at studying and has a strong ability to take care of herself. She takes good care of Pei Che, while Pei Che needs to buy delicious meals to replenish physical strength for Tang Miao who is doing it. Gradually, the classmates joked that they are like a young couple. Pei Che felt that they really looked like a couple.

These children are all geniuses. They have finished college in four years and they have been studying in graduate school in four years. In four years, their immaturity fades away and they grow into tall and straight teenagers like poplars.

The fruits watered with care are gradually ripening. They kissed for the first time, embraced for the first time on the campus where dandelions were flying, and released their greenness in each other's hands for the first time. At the mouth, finally one night, the light of a few flashlights shone on their naked and young bodies.

Parents from both sides were invited. Pei Che's parents were both high-level intellectuals and they were familiar with everyone in the school. Unable to bear such humiliation, the professor slapped Pei Che on the spot and took him away.Pei Che couldn't escape his father's confinement, he wondered what Tang Miao would do?

Tang Miao's father's tall building collapsed, and the honor brought to him by his son was originally the bricks that were built up, but now they are all engraved with the imprint of humiliation. He felt that his son had a neurological problem, so he was sent to a prison in the county. mental hospital.

Pei Che ran away from home, and with all his savings, he made up his mind to live with Tang Miao even if he was going to be a construction worker moving bricks.

Pei Che entered the psychiatric hospital by climbing a very high wall. He was soon discovered and wanted to kick him out. He yelled and called Tang Miao's name. He knew Tang Miao was fine, and homosexuality was not a disease. Not to mention being mentally ill, they are actually just a pair of ordinary lovers who just happen to be of the same sex.

Tang Miao heard his voice, but he couldn't get out, the windows around him were all iron bars, and he was already locked up as a frightened bird, but he wanted to fly whenever there was a slight call from the sky.

No one knew how he opened the transom on the fifth floor. He climbed up to the high platform and opened his wings towards Pei Che like a bird.

What happened that day was written by Pei Che later, and he has already seen that Pei Che is abnormal. He said that Tang Miao was a dandelion, which was blown to an unknown place by the wind. On that day, there was a rain of dandelions, and the sky was snow-white , such as silk and cotton.

Tang Miao flew high and landed gently, dandelions dyed red were flying all over the sky.

Tang Miao's death dealt a huge blow to Pei Che. He saw the fresh and soft body he held in his arms a few months ago was torn apart, and a large amount of blood poured out from his head, mouth and nose, staining the sky red. It stained his past, present and future red.

No, Pei Che has no future!

Pei Che is like an hourglass, all consciousness flows and concentrates to one end, one end is too heavy to bear, and the other end is light and pale and empty, he can no longer live a balanced life, so he gives up on himself, willingly drowning in a void , without thinking, without struggling.

Pei Che's father could not accept that his son, whom he had devoted so much to since childhood, became a mentally ill patient, let alone accept the supercilious look given to him by the world.He dropped out of school for his son and sent him to his sister in California, USA. Pei Che lived alone in the Vanneck Mental Sanatorium for two years.

Two years, two years, Chang Fei's heartache was so painful that he couldn't breathe. He couldn't imagine how Pei Che had lived these two years, and he couldn't even imagine how Pei Che stood up strong enough to be admitted to the school that most people could not hope for. and Harvard University.

All along, Chang Fei thought that Pei Che was tough, even invincible, but he never thought that his heart was so delicate that he could hardly touch it.It turns out that Pei Che is not ice at all, he is water, shapeless, without edges or corners, he can go deep into it, but he can't take it away.

Chang Fei is sitting on the train going to a small northern town, and the next stop will be Tang Miao's hometown. He knows that he can't catch up with Pei Che, but he is willing to step on his footsteps and walk the way he walked, and then feel his feelings. Vicissitudes and tenderness.

The winter in the north is icy and snowy. Chang Fei walked for a long time to find the cemetery. Everything was buried in the white snow. It was as if the world had never had discrimination and ugliness. Chang Fei stood for a long time in front of the tombstone engraved with Tang Miao. The other party can hear it, he is willing to tell everything between him and Pei Che, and he will also tell him that you are his past scenery, and I will tremble in the wind with him, waiting for the snowflakes to bloom, and we will be together forever.

After leaving this small town, Chang Fei has been on the way to chase Pei Che.

He didn't know where Pei Che would go. He took the world geography and walked along the marked route. He had seen the Grand Canyon in the United States and the Golden Temple in India. He listened to operas in the Opera House in Sydney. He also went to Venice for Carnival, and at Christmas he watched long-haired itinerant artists play the rayal mile on the violin in a terrace café in Edinburgh.

The soft sound of the piano is like the lake water in April, gently pouring into Chang Fei's heart, gradually covered with a layer of sadness.

It's not a tune for Christmas, but a tune for a regular flyer.

When the subtle chords disappeared, Chang Fei was already in tears.

The world is so big, no one pays attention to Chang Fei's sadness. Soon, the cheerful sound of bagpipes comes to mind, and people hold hands and dance. When the fireworks are in full bloom, a beautiful reporter with blond hair and blue eyes starts to interview everyone. Like CCTV’s “Are you happy?” interview, as a Chinese who was rarely present at the time, Chang Fei accepted the interview. He asked in fluent English: “Will many people watch your program?”

The beautiful reporter was very enthusiastic about the black-haired and yellow-skinned young man in front of her, and she answered "yes."

Chang Fei said in English to the camera: "I want to sing a song for my gay man. Now I don't know where he is in the world and what he is doing. I want to tell him, Pei Che, go home!"

Chang Fei's singing is not very good, but even if she doesn't understand Chinese, the beautiful reporter can hear the deep affection in it.

Sometimes sometimes, I will believe that everything has an end,

When we meet and leave, sometimes nothing lasts forever

But sometimes I would rather choose to be nostalgic and not let go

Wait until everything is clear

You will accompany me to watch the long stream of water.

After Chang Fei finished singing, he stared at the camera like a lover. He said in Chinese: "Pei Che, no matter how far you go, no matter how long you wait, I will always be here."

Chang Fei didn't know that this program was being broadcast live in the UK. At this time, Pei Che was staring at the TV in a Victorian style hotel next to St. Luther Park, just a few streets away from him. He squatted in front of the TV almost greedily. Through the cold screen, I traced Chang Fei's eyebrows and eyes, darkened, thinner, but more masculine. I watched tears flow from Chang Fei's black eyes. I heard Chang Fei tell him to go home. Fei sang and heard Chang Fei say that he was there all the time, Pei Che couldn't take it anymore, sat on the ground and cried loudly.

Chang Fei, I love you, I have always loved you, but I can't go back, I'm afraid, I'm afraid how can such an imperfect me be matched with such a perfect you, my life is dancing on the tip of a knife, I don't know when The string will be broken, and the crazy, violent and melancholy Pei Che will not be the Pei Che you like. I will not let you see me as disgusting. Time is a good medicine. One day you will Meet better ones, then forget about me, and I may have turned into a dandelion early and I don’t know where the wind will take me!

Chang Fei didn't know that this video of him would soon go viral on the Internet. His family and friends saw it. His brother's eyes were red, and his heart hurt so much for his little prince. He told his father: "Give him more Qian, you look dark and thin, when will this be a boss?

Chang's father sighed: "I would rather raise a daughter than raise this son. The whole world would embarrass me. If it had been a few years earlier, I would have killed him."

Chang Chuang waved his hands irritably: "Dad, don't say those silly things, you can be willing, Fei'er is your heart."

Both father and son sighed in unison, what a shame!

Zhao Chenxi also saw this video. At this time, he was taking care of Jian Dan at Zhao Wei's house.

Jian Dan's operation was very successful, but because the tumor was larger than 1.5 cm and the lymph nodes in the armpit and surroundings had metastasized, 4-6 courses of chemotherapy were needed.

Jian Dan hates living in the hospital, and finally negotiated with the doctor, and only needs to stay in the hospital during chemotherapy and live at home the rest of the time.Zhao Wei's last match is imminent, and besides, he is not very good at taking care of others.Jian Dan let them go, saying that he had special guards and a chef what he wanted them to do.Zhao Wei became angry as soon as he heard it, and kicked a flowerpot down. Zhao Chenxi frowned and looked at him, thinking why Zhao Wei was so hostile in front of his mother?

Comrade Zhao Wei started to teach his mother after successfully kicking over the flower pot: "Ms. Jian, what you cut is the breasts, not the brains, do you think we are here to delay the flirting between you and Liang Rui? Let me tell you, Chemotherapy is very painful, and you will immediately lose your hair and wrinkle your skin and turn into a dry jujube, are you sure Liang Rui can accept seeing you like this?"

Zhao Chenxi had never seen such a son before, so he scolded him in a low voice: "Zhao Wei, what nonsense are you talking about?"

Jian Dan was not angry, she said softly: "I won't let Liang Rui stay, he will go too."

Liang Rui stood at the door of the room, rushed in when he heard this, and said loudly, "I won't leave."

Jian Dan raised her haggard face, she really looked old without applying makeup, she spoke to Liang Rui calmly, but her tone was stern and undeniable: "Liang Rui, I can't give you anything now, you Let's go."

"Mr. Jian, what you said is too hurtful. I don't want anything, I just want to be with you."

"Liang Rui, we have been together for so many years, you should know me, please give me a little dignity, just remember my beauty, don't see my ugliness."

"Boss Jane, me?"

Zhao Chenxi reached out to pat him, then shook his head, motioning him not to continue.

Zhao Chenxi walked to Jian Dan's wheelchair, squatted down and said calmly: "Auntie, you are a patient now, not suitable for giving orders. Your son is right in front of you. Why don't you give him a chance to be the head of the family?" Well, now we have agreed that Zhao Wei will go back to the team, Liang Rui will do whatever he wants, and I will stay in Beijing to take care of you."

"Chenchen, I really don't need it."

"Auntie, why do you have a bad temper with Zhao Wei, do you feel uncomfortable for me to take care of you? Zhao Wei is yours, and I am Zhao Wei's, unless you don't recognize my relationship with Zhao Wei." Zhao Chenxi spoke in a hurry, her eyes were red.

When Zhao Wei saw that his daughter-in-law was angry, he immediately put on a straight face: "Ms. Jian, don't be shameless. Is Chenchen easy these days? Every day the hospital runs around the house, can't you follow him?"

"Hey, you children, am I afraid of dragging you down?"

"Don't get sick if you're afraid of dragging you down. What's so hypocritical about your current appearance? I hate your appearance the most. I just don't change my bad habits for many years."

Jian Dan didn't say a word to Zhao Wei, Zhao Chenxi saw that Zhao Wei didn't give Jian Dan face in front of so many people, so he gave Zhao Wei a hard look: "How do you talk to Auntie?"

After a lot of noise, the matter was finally settled, Zhao Wei and Liang Rui left, leaving Zhao Chenxi and Jian Dan facing each other day and night.Rich people have the benefits of rich people. Jian Dan has special guards, nanny, driver, and cook, so Zhao Chenxi doesn't need to do the manual work at all. Zhao Chenxi is responsible for supervising her taking medicine, arranging her diet and accompanying her.

Jian Dan is a woman with rich experience and knowledge, chatting with her is very interesting, and she gets along very well with Zhao Chenxi on weekdays, but after finishing chemotherapy, she is completely like this.

Chemotherapy is a very painful process. After a course of treatment, Jian Dan had to vomit for 3-5 days. The effect of the drug caused her hair to fall out in large quantities. When she woke up in the morning, her pillow was black, and her skin She also began to shrink, became dull and dull, and now she has a terrible dislike for mirrors, all the mirrors in her bedroom and bathroom are smashed.

Zhao Chenxi looked at her smashing things and thought of Zhao Wei, mother and son are both equally destructive.Every time after smashing, Jian Dan hid in the room and did not come out. After Zhao Chenxi and others tidied up, he patiently knocked on the door, coaxing him softly, sometimes it worked, and sometimes even hit him That day, Jian Dan grabbed a perfume bottle and threw it out and hit Zhao Chenxi on the forehead. Zhao Chenxi groaned and quickly covered it with his hands, warm liquid flowed out from between his fingers.

Everyone in the family was terrified, and the special nurses rushed to find medicine to disinfect him, but the bleeding couldn't stop, so he had to go to the hospital and had 6 stitches in total.After going back, Zhao Chenxi was in pain on the bed, he wanted to cry because of the headache, he thought of his mother and Duo Duo, who had a good life but could not come to suffer this foreign crime, the more he thought about it, the more wronged he was, tears wet unconsciously Pillow, holding the mobile phone and wanting to call Zhao Wei, but before calling Zhao Wei, Zhao Wei called first, Zhao Wei asked Jian Dan's condition over there, whether he took medicine, how much he vomited, whether he vomited a few times a day, it doesn't matter how many times a day The big and small questions just didn't ask how Zhao Chenxi was doing. Zhao Chenxi was indifferent and didn't pay much attention to him. In the end, Zhao Wei said what's wrong with you, Chenchen, and he didn't feel very happy.

With a bitter taste in his mouth, Zhao Chenxi said lightly that it was nothing but sleepy, and the two of them hung up the phone.

Afterwards, Zhao Chenxi also regretted it, and Zhao Wei was right that he was a good person, what could happen to him, and being jealous with his mother was so childish, but he didn't bother to call back to say anything, anyway, the future will be long.

The next day, Jian Dan came to knock on Zhao Chenxi's door early in the morning to apologize. After seeing the wound on Zhao Chenxi's forehead, she kept scolding herself. Zhao Chenxi saw that it was back to normal again, so she didn't say anything, just laughed. The laughing passed away, and when Zhao Wei called again, he was chatting and laughing. Originally, living at home, the spoon could not touch the edge of the pot. Now is an extraordinary period, and everyone is in a depressed mood. understanding.

It feels like Jian Dan has recovered for a few days, and the next chemotherapy is coming again.

Zhao Wei started to go to Zhangye a few days ago. The key to success is this battle. Before the race started, Zhao Wei's limelight overwhelmed all the drivers at the press conference. There was a lot of hype about the same-sex lover. The current competition is diversified, and commercial factors account for a large proportion. Suddenly Zhao Wei became a hot topic.

Although Jian Dan is still in pain after returning from chemotherapy this time, she has restrained a lot. Maybe the injury on Zhao Chenxi's forehead is too obvious, reminding her to suppress her temper at all times. They are looking forward to Zhao Wei's game together, but who knows the night before the game A big scandal broke out in the Fengshen racing team. The captain Zhao Wei and the navigator An Ke had an affair in the hotel and were caught and annihilated by the driver Su Jialuo who was very popular for winning this season. The chaotic love triangle of the three surfaced.

Zhao Chenxi got used to it in the morning and turned on the computer to watch the news about Zhao Wei's game. Unexpectedly, when he turned on the computer this morning, he found that there was a power outage. He hurriedly went downstairs to ask the driver, Uncle Liu, to find someone to see why the power was out. Uncle Liu agreed. He walked away, and while Zhao Chenxi went upstairs, he went to check the switch he had just pulled down again.

Zhao Chenxi went to Jian Dan to borrow the notebook, but Jian Dan said it was not charged, Zhao Chenxi was depressed and couldn't watch Zhao Wei's game, went back to the room to check the phone, and waited to open the page to enter, Zhao Chenxi was stunned.

He read the relevant news over and over again, as if he wanted to find out the moisture in it, but he couldn't tell the truth from the fake. He smiled and told himself to believe in Zhao Wei, but there was a voice saying that he didn't believe in Ann. Ke, there was a chill in his chest, and it hurt so badly, Zhao Chenxi stretched out his hand and rubbed it vigorously.

Jian Dan walked in, and now she was wearing a soft-brimmed hat even at home, she sat beside Zhao Chenxi and patted him gently: "Don't believe it, there is too much moisture in it, you have to trust Wei Wei."

"I don't believe him."

"Then hide in the room alone and feel sad? You haven't gone out for a long time."

"I'm just a little uncomfortable, auntie, I'm not so generous to pretend I didn't see anything."

"Chenchen, Auntie knows that you have been wronged recently, and maybe Wei Wei has been wronged by you for a long time. He is not a bad boy, but his temper is not very good. I can see that you let him. One A relationship always has to go through thousands of times of repeated running-in and repeated discussions to become more solid."

"Auntie, I love Zhao Wei very much. I am very afraid of losing him. It is because I am afraid of losing. I persuaded myself to let him participate in the competition and accompany him to do whatever he wants. I don't know why I always feel that I have no confidence in myself. See He was too tight and afraid that he would loathe him too loose and afraid that he would fly away, so I tried my best to appear magnanimous and reasonable, but in fact I was very dark in my heart, I felt that my lover always loved very embarrassingly."

"No, Chenchen, I have always admired you. From the first time I saw you, I thought you were an admirable child."

"Auntie." Zhao Chenxi looked up, "What can I do?"

"You are very brave. Chenchen, no matter what, you bravely protect the one you love, and the way you use it is completely good for others. Even if there is a little bit of bitterness in your heart, you still sincerely hope that the other person will Okay, isn’t it? And I can only use extreme means to try to restore love, but in the end, letting go properly is the way out for two people, so Chenchen I admire you.”

Zhao Chenxi closed his eyes, feeling ups and downs in his heart. He is a man or not a god. Every time he had a problem with Zhao Wei, he always took the initiative to seek a solution, completely thinking of Zhao Wei, but this time the stimulation was too great. These days are also too depressing, as if opening the lid of the box, everything pops up like a bunch of chaotic springs, and he can't bear it anymore.

The author has something to say: Xiao Weizi will definitely not do anything to offend Chenchen, Chenchen, you have to hold on, just ask for a monthly ticket to warm your heart!