Concubine slaps face daily

Chapter 300 Jealousy
Yun Xi smiled and narrowed her eyes when she heard Lu Xiu's words. She would never reject the kindness from people around her, but she didn't hope that one day these kindnesses would turn into malice, so although she reminded them to change their Attitudes and opinions, so that what they think is good will become the cause of harming her at some point.

Feelings cannot be forced. If she hadn't seen so much separation and reunion and the wantonness and freedom of that civilized age, with the education she received, she would definitely be satisfied with the favor Kangxi gave her.It's a pity that she is no longer the same person she used to be. Many things will be entangled, hesitant, and indecisive. But in the end, she is still unwilling to wrong herself like she did in the previous life, and even hold her heart in front of others. , let it hurt.

There is no doubt that Kangxi is so beautiful. Before Yunxi had a child, she would be entangled in his doting, and even greedily wanted to get all his love. But after having a child, her mentality slowly began to change. Peaceful, the love and dependence on men have slowly begun to dissipate, and now she does not say that everything she has done to him is hypocrisy, but she is no longer as pure as before, because she only has one scarred heart. Heart, and this heart can no longer withstand any harm, so she tried to slowly withdraw her feelings, change her attitude, and position herself as a favored concubine instead of a wife's benefit, so that even Kangxi No matter how much she dotes on a woman, she will not feel sad because of it.

But she can't let anyone know about this kind of thing. Whether it's her son or the people around her, they have different identities and different ideas. She doesn't want to affect them because of herself, let alone how a proud person like Kangxi Will allow her to roam beyond the boundaries he has given.

Yinzhen and the others always feel that there is something different about Er Niang these days. Others may not have noticed something is wrong, but they are sensitively aware that the smile on the corner of Er Niang's mouth is getting weaker and weaker, as if they don't care about anything. , if it wasn't for the gentle and bright smile when facing them, they would have thought that something bad had happened.

"Fourth brother, why don't we go to play with second brother for the next two days? I want to see what happened to my mother?" Fu Bao couldn't tell what happened to his mother, but every time Huang Ama came over, he They all felt that the smile on Erniang's face didn't reach her eyes, which looked fake.

Seeing Fu Bao tugging at his sleeve, and seeing Xi Bao blinking his eyes with a cute look of 'I'll do whatever you do', Yin Zhen nodded unconsciously and said: "Okay! But we have to do it first." Say hello to the second brother, lest the second brother think that we have something against him, it would be bad."

Although no one specifically emphasized the difference between him and the prince, but as sensitive as Yinzhen, he could still feel the difference between them and the prince.Once this person is treated differently, it will be easy to distance him. Although Yinreng wants to win over Yinzhen and the others, it is not easy for him who never knows how to bow his head to be amiable. So Yinzhen and the others will accept Yinreng's kindness, but they can't accept him from the bottom of their hearts like they do each other.

Yinfeng didn't think much about it, he was a young man, even if he was not yet full of ambitions, he still had his own plans, and now that Yinzhen and the others said they couldn't come here because they wanted to study, he was also relieved, after all, his age This kind of thing is sometimes very troublesome.

Yun Xi didn't know that her change had attracted the attention of her sons, no, she shouldn't say change, it can only be said that Kangxi's actions made her more aware that she was nothing more than that to him.If Kangxi had been able to firmly reject Yipin, maybe Yun Xi would still have difficulty letting go of her feelings for him. Now she is just letting go of this relationship earlier. After all, no matter how much she pays, Kangxi will still divide the tenderness in half. Give it to other women, and no one can guarantee whether the half of the gentleness that was originally placed on her will become someone else's one day.

After tidying up her messy thoughts, Yun Xi looked up at the three little guys who were sitting and playing, but their eyes fell on her from time to time. She couldn't help walking over with a smile, and curled her fingers to gently tap Yinzhen who was closest to her. With a flick of his forehead, he asked with a smile: "What the hell are you three little fellows up to? Usually, at this hour, you're either going to find His Royal Highness the Crown Prince, or you're learning to ride a horse outside. What's going on today? Stay here obediently." Accompanying my mother in the house?"

Speaking of which, Yun Xi sat next to the three of them, looked at the three little faces with baby fat, couldn't help reaching out and touched each of them, the soft touch was really nice, if it wasn't for the three little guys' eyes that were too bright , she really doesn't want to stop!

Yinzhen looked at the gentle and smiling Yun Xi. At this time, her eyes were bright, and she did not have the alienation when facing Huang Ama. Although the alienation was very faint, he could feel that Eniang was not as good as Huang Ama. It used to be that...well...intimacy, yes, it is intimacy, "Emiang, if you have any unhappy things, you can tell your son, and he will definitely help you solve it." Clenching his small fists, Yinzhen was very excited. It was a serious promise to her.

Yun Xi shook his head with a smile, stretched out his hand to touch Yin Zhen's small forehead, and said with a light smile, "Don't worry about adults' affairs, children, and Er Niang has nothing unhappy, so don't worry about it."

"Really? But..." Yin Zhen looked at the smiling Yun Xi with hesitation on his face.

"There's nothing wrong with it. Even if I tell you about my lord's affairs, it will only increase your troubles. What's more, Erniang really has nothing to be unhappy about. She just understands some truths and doesn't force what she can't get. After all, this I can’t hurt people’s hearts, Er Niang just understands some of the truths, and wants to protect herself well, and then protect you!” Yun Xi will not admit that after reliving her life, she slapped many people’s faces and at the same time slapped them. own face.

Don't others know that she doesn't know?In the past, she was just deceiving herself, no matter how low-key she acted, she still carried a hint of pride, thinking that she was the darling of the heavens, and it must be different to get such an opportunity!In fact, she is indeed a unique existence, and even got a lot of things that she never got before, and she also successfully kept her child. Only this relationship made her entangled from beginning to end, from anticipation to giving up , Turned around and around, repeatedly said to let go and never let go, until Kangxi favored Yibi again, Yun Xi realized that for Kangxi, there was nothing that could not be forgiven, nothing that could not be replaced, and truly let go. The only one who can't stand it is herself.

After figuring this out, how could Yunxi continue to deceive herself to hope that this relationship can be complete? Her heart is actually not big, and it seems very reluctant to be able to accommodate everything now, let alone Kangxi Yuanyuan. Constantly women and children, she can't do this, so she can only try to get out, and then put her feelings on a few children.

Yin Zhen didn't feel happy because of this, he really hoped that Yun Xi's attention would be on them, but he never thought of making her unhappy.Ever since he was sent to the Yonghe Palace, he could see Erniang's attachment to Huang Ama, but this change of attachment reminded him of Tong Erniang in the past. Every time he recalled the hysterical scene, he felt scared, let alone Huang Ama. Do you understand why everything that was originally good will become like this?

"Er Niang, is it really okay? At the beginning, Tong E Niang was as dependent on Huang Ama as Er Niang was, but then it became more and more terrifying!" Yin Zhen bit his lip, not saying that Concubine Tong Gui was often hysterical When he was clamoring, he always scolded Yun Xi and other concubines. He heard from the nuns and maids in Jingren Palace that it was called jealousy!

Yun Xi looked at Yinzhen whose small face was full of worries, touched his small face lovingly and said: "Yinzhen, you have to believe that Er Niang will not hurt you, although some things do make Er Niang feel sad. I feel sad, feel helpless, and even more painful, but because of you, Er Niang can go on step by step, as for the reason, when you grow up, maybe you will understand why Er Niang left at this time."

Fu Bao looked at Yun Xi's smiling expression as if he was about to cry, and threw himself into her arms, "Emiang, are you sad? If you are sad, just hug Fu Bao. Sad."

Yun Xi subconsciously hugged Fu Bao's small body tightly, and tears fell from her eyes, "Okay, Er Niang will not feel sad when holding Fu Bao, Er Niang may really lose something, but to have you, Er Niang Mother feels very satisfied."

Yinzhen and Xibao looked at Yun Xi who was crying silently, and couldn't help rushing forward to hug her. The four of them hugged each other quietly like this. Although no one spoke again, the warmth brought by this mutual dependence But let them get closer to each other's heart.Especially Yinzhen, although he didn't fully understand what Yun Xi said, but he could feel the sadness from Yun Xi, just like Tong Erniang back then, every time she cried, it must be for Huang Ama's favor For the other concubines, is Erniang also sad because of this?

"Eniang, when Yinzhen grows up, I will definitely not make Erniang sad." Yinzhen looked up at Yunxi whose face was covered with tears, and said solemnly.

Yun Xi laughed with tears in his eyes, "Okay, Er Niang will wait for your filial piety in the future."

Yun Xi didn't want to use her pain to warn the three children, nor did she want to use her own standards to demand these children. After all, the times are different, the requirements are different, and the standards of behavior are different. It makes them out of tune with this era, so she will be wronged and cry but will never confide her true inner thoughts to her children.

(End of this chapter)