ex-wife

Chapter 190

Dear Seven:

I know you are in pain right now and my only regret is that I wasn't there for you when you were in so much pain.

This is what I used to not allow.I thought that my Xiaoqi would always belong to me, her laughter and her sorrows belonged to me.

However, the facts tell me that I was wrong.My appearance will only make you more sad, if this is the case, then I will quietly back away, and then wait until your anger subsides.

What you are worried about is about your father. There are many reasons why I have not told you about it. One of the most selfish reasons is that I am afraid that you will have a grudge against me and that it will affect our relationship. It's true.

What you gave Xiao Anzi and me was a multiple-choice question, did I change the medicine?It's up to us to choose yes or no.How should I answer this?
We can only choose "yes".

Because it's the truth, you can't lie.

But how can things in the world be determined right or wrong with a single "yes" and "no"?I admit that I was wrong about my father-in-law, but it was only due to negligence and carelessness.

You are in a rage, and it is impossible to explain to you face to face, so after I know your address, I am writing this letter to you, explaining what happened clearly, without asking for your forgiveness, just to let you understand the matter the truth.

My father-in-law came to talk to me one day, and explained clearly the grievances with the Shen family two years ago, and begged me not to blame you, it was only him who was wrong.

In fact, I didn't know about it at all before. I always thought it was Mr. Wu who did it, but my father-in-law said that if you want people to know about things in this world, you have to do nothing. I don't know, it's just that the time has not come.He said that he was in poor health, that cardiovascular diseases were secondary, and that the deadliest thing was cancer, and neither you nor your mother knew about it. He didn't want to tell you, and he didn't want you to be sad, but he was worried that if he passed away Well, if I know the truth about Shen's attack two years ago, I won't wait to see you, so why don't he take the initiative to tell me clearly, let me hate him, and don't blame you.

Seven, it would be false to say that there is no resentment, but you know, I love you more, and this matter itself has nothing to do with you. You have done so much for me, and you love me wholeheartedly, so how could I Blame you?As for the father-in-law, although I also blame him, but he is an old man who is seriously ill, so what else should I care about?
So, after that conversation I had with him, you didn't see anything unusual, we were all just trying to protect you and Mom.

Cancer is painful.I have seen the symptoms of my father-in-law when he got sick, it was very painful, but I dare not let your mother see it, you don’t know, sometimes my father-in-law snores or pretends to have a cold on purpose, just for you to sleep in the same room as your mother.

One day, my father-in-law called me to the study alone, and mysteriously told me that he had found a new medicine for treating cancer and that he would send it by mail order from the United States.

He said that his account was managed by his mother, and he naturally didn't want his mother to know that he was buying this medicine, so he asked me to use online banking to buy it for him.I told him the account number and password and asked him to buy it by himself.

When the medicine was bought, it was natural to write my name to sign for it. I was not at home that day, and the housekeeper signed it for me.

When I took it to my father-in-law, my father-in-law said that my mother supervised him to take the medicine every day, and that the medicine could not be discovered by my mother to treat cancer. He asked me to find the old medicine bottle that I threw away and put it in it.

I didn't have any doubts, and did as the old man said.It's just that I didn't expect that my father-in-law was slowly accelerating the end of his life.In fact, I can understand, because cancer is too painful. He said that doctors in the United States have declared his disease incurable. He thought about euthanasia, but he must let his mother know, and his mother would not agree.

I didn't have the slightest doubt until he said this. I was really negligent. If I had turned my mind a few more times, I would have thought that there was something wrong with the medicine. But, Qi, I'm really sorry, this is my biggest problem. mistakes.

Until the old man passed away, I didn’t realize there was a problem with the medicine. Later, Dr. Lin said that the medicine had been changed, and I knew it in my heart. The medicine was indeed changed, and it was me and your father who changed it. At that time, a flash of inspiration flashed in my mind, and I suddenly thought, isn't this medicine a cure for cancer like my father-in-law said?Is there anyone else who will change the medicine?At that time, there were many doubts, so Dr. Lin could only do his best to find out what the ingredients of the medicine were.

In the end, I finally understood that this is the way of life chosen by the elderly.Not to mention whether it's right or wrong, but I don't want to make a scene known all over the city, so that's it for the police station, and I didn't give you an explanation.I was thinking about whether I should find a suitable opportunity to tell you, but too many things happened later, and it seemed that I could never find the right time, and now it is really the most inappropriate time to say it.

But anyway, I finally made it clear to you.I think it will take a while for you to accept this fact, so I will wait, wait, wait for the day when you can face me again.

Or maybe, for so many years, I have neglected your career and hobbies. If you want to dance with Ryan in France, I will support you. When you are tired from dancing, go home. Yanhui will always be waiting for you.

I'm sorry baby, I love you.

After reading the first letter, the letter paper in Chu Qi's hand fell off, and an unspeakable emotion stuck in his chest, which was very uncomfortable.

Such details were completely unexpected to her.

If she wasn't so sensitive and correct about the relationship between herself and Shen Yan, maybe she wouldn't be so sure that the medicine was changed by Shen Yan, then maybe, she would ask to find out the truth.However, her judgment has never been wrong. For example, if she thinks that there is no problem with Shen Yan and Wen Jing's CD, then there must be no problem. It's just a secret.

These years, it's not that she hasn't thought about this issue. When she calmed down, she didn't believe that Shen Yan would do such a thing, but Xiao Anzi and Shen Yan himself had admitted it. Even if she believed that there was something hidden, she also thought about it. Shen Yan may have done it unintentionally, but he still couldn't pass this threshold, thinking that no matter whether it was intentional or not, it was because of his hands that he died.

If she said she hated, she didn't actually hate Shen Yan.He forgave him from the beginning, otherwise why didn't he hand over to the police station and run to France to hide?He is her closest person. To be honest, he might be closer than her father. It is precisely because of this that she feels guilty. How can she forgive the enemy who killed her father?She is condemned to be unforgivable...

She buried herself in the sand like an ostrich. To put it bluntly, she was just torturing herself. It seemed that the more she tormented herself, the more balanced her heart would be, and the less guilty she would feel. She was torturing herself to replace Shen Yan. Atonement.

She thinks so...

It's just that I didn't expect that the truth of the matter turned out to be like this...

She smiled, folded the letter, and the sun outside the window became brighter and brighter...

Leaning on the sofa and throwing off her slippers, she felt a little more comfortable.Take out the rest of Shen Yan's letters and read them slowly, savoring every bit of him in the past four years.

Xiao Qi:

I wrote so many letters and you didn't reply!still hate me?Can't forgive me?It's okay, I can continue to wait.

I am writing today mainly to tell you good news.

You are a little confused and a little villain, are you trying to punish me?I didn't even know I had twins!
When ALVA found you, Xiaomi had been with you for several months. I only knew that you gave birth to me a son, but I didn't know that it was two!And lost one!
Don't you want to know where your lost child is?Hehe, by my side!

It's a long story, so I have to start with quietness.

do you know?Wen Jing got married and found a husband who is a doctor. He treats her too well, and the two of them live happily.You also know that Wen Jing couldn't have a child, so they went to the orphanage to adopt one.

I liked that child very much the first time I saw him, but I didn't know he was my son at that time!I just feel that I have a lot of fate with him, and he is also very upbeat, obviously crying, as long as I hug him, he will stop crying.You say, is this a miracle?
What's even more strange is that the longer he grows, the more he looks like you, and I have doubts in my heart, what's going on?What's more, I also found out that Xiaomi looks exactly like him. Later, he was injured, and I went with them to the hospital. The hospital said he needed a blood transfusion, but the blood bank didn't have enough stock, and my blood type turned out to be the same as his.

This couldn't suppress the idea of ​​doing a paternity test that I had long ago, so I took him for the test, and it turned out that he is really our child!You little stupid pig, do you miss your son?Want to come back and see your son?The son misses his mother very much.

Open another one.

Seven:
The son is three years old.I send him to kindergarten.

He is very good, unlike some children who cry and refuse to go.Because, I told him, if he was a good boy, mother would come home with my brother.So, he has been very good.

You haven't replied to my letter to you, so I understand that you are living well now and don't want me to disturb you, so I endured for a long time and didn't write to you, but today I couldn't bear it anymore, I moved my pen again.

Today, my son was injured again, and his hand was cut by a knife. The reason was that after the housekeeper picked him up, he went into the kitchen to play by himself and was injured by a kitchen knife.

I lost my temper and scolded the housekeeper and the cook, but my son pulled my sleeve and begged me not to scold them. It was not their fault, but he wanted to cook a meal.

I don't know why, it's sad to hear this, it's really sad, and then I think of you.

I asked my son why he wanted to cook for himself.

He said that the teacher said that today is Mother's Day, and every child should go back to help their mother with something.

He also said that Shasha from the kindergarten said that her mother is also very busy and often travels abroad, and her father cooks every day. Every time her father cooks a good meal, her mother will go home.Shasha's father also said that her mother's nose has grown, and she can smell the food cooked by her father when she is abroad, and she will rush back to eat no matter how far away.

The son is very smart, but also very stupid. He really cooks when he runs home.My son knows that my father is also very busy and has no time to cook and wait for his mother to come back. Therefore, he has to cook and wait for his mother on Mother’s Day. He believes that foreign mothers will definitely be able to smell the fragrance of his cooking. He believes even more, Every mother loves her child very much, you will not miss him or love him.

His idea may be more influenced by me. I told her that mother loves him very much. The reason why he never goes home is because mother wants to dance. Many children all over the world like to watch mother dance, and mother is very busy.do you know?My son once said that it made me feel sad. He said, why can't children all over the world see their mother dancing?
Seventh, on the night of Mother's Day, my son and I cooked a meal together, and we set up four sets of bowls and chopsticks.In the days that followed, when I was not socializing, my son and I often cooked together. We missed you very much and hoped that you could smell the food at home and go home early with Xiaomi.

Seven, go home, okay?

This is a recent letter. Chu Qi was crying while reading it, constantly sketching the picture of Shen Yan and Xiao Qian living together in his mind, thinking of his father and son cooking happily and sadly in the kitchen, and waiting for her to go home for dinner. In the scene, I couldn't hold back my tears, holding the letter in my heart and crying happily.

During the four years, she felt that she did not live a day to the fullest, she neither laughed loudly nor cried loudly, and even the tears she shed were only in a dream.In those days in France, she was really like a walking dead puppet. If a person can't cry or laugh, is that called alive?
Until today, she has released all the tears of four years, and her heart is extremely happy.

After four years, she finally understands what she wants, isn't it too late?should not...

She suddenly missed the three most important men in her life. This yearning was different from when she was in France. At that time, it was bitter, astringent, and sour, but now it was warm and sweet.

She wants to see them, especially the big man!She owed him too much!As long as she thinks of his slender and lonely figure, her heart hurts.They had made an appointment to have lunch together, but she couldn't wait, she was going to see him now!

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