Alternative Telling of Dream of Red Mansions: Cherishing Spring

Chapter 26
Stepping into Xuanzhen Temple again, Xunyang is still the same, but both of them feel as if they have passed away.It's still the same corridor, the same ray of sunlight, and the angle of the sunlight hitting the corner of the wall has not changed, but the personnel matters are so much different.

She saw Feng Ziying coming from the moon cave gate, and suddenly the corridor with dictionaries and railings was like two mirrors contrasting each other, with endless overlapping doors.The ancients said, don't come to sea affairs, talk about the evening clock.Thinking of it at this moment, it's like waking up with a knife.It turns out that true sadness, like true joy, has no sound.No matter how great the grief, the words came to the lips and turned into a sentence: "How are you doing?"

In my memory, Xichun never cried like this in the first half of her life except for keeping Keqing's spirit, and she never cried uncontrollably because of a single word in her life after that.

Life and separation have been painful beyond death, and they no longer care about their status, reservedness, and all kinds of things, all of which are left behind.She hugged him, grabbed his shoulders, tears wet his chest.

"Why are you so thin!" she cried, "I knew you would come, but why did you come like this? I don't like you like this."

"You don't hate me?" The man did not flick his tears.He also choked up, looking at the miserable woman.It was only at this moment that the heart-wrenching feelings were revealed. It turned out that the feelings were implanted in the bone marrow unconsciously, and they were inextricably deep.It's just that they are still ruthless and willing to obey the rules of the world.

"I can't choose my parents, so I can't hate you." Xichun gradually stopped her tears and looked at him without complaint.Feng Ziying's eyebrows twitched, and the hidden calm was broken by her sincere words.Xichun's calm made him ashamed.He scolded her with secular standards, but she forgave him with a heart beyond the understanding of the world.

"I don't know why I called you here. It doesn't make any sense to call you here now. But I just want to see you." Xichun looked at him and sighed faintly, her voice was as desolate as on the other side.

"Why don't I want to see you, but I don't know how to see you. Forgive my cowardice." Feng Ziying smiled miserably.Speaking from the bottom of his heart, he seemed to relax a bit, and his pale face flushed a little.Looking up at the sky gradually covered by clouds and mist, he grasped Xichun's hand and walked towards the quiet room.

The quiet room was empty, except for a Zen bed with two dishes and a jug of wine on it.Feng Ziying looked at Xichun in amazement, Xichun forced a smile and said: "I don't like to drink, but today I prepared food and wine, maybe we will never have the chance to be together again." She went to the bed and picked up the pot and poured the wine, Turning around and handing it to Feng Ziying, he said, "You have come to my place many times, but I have not invited you to a meal."

Feng Ziying didn't take the wine glass, her eyebrows were lowered, and it took a long time to say with a dull face: "You are determined to say goodbye to me like this. Our relationship is only worth a meal. Xichun, I doubt whether you have ever been sincere to me."

Xichun looked at him, lowered her head, brushed her temples, slowly put down her wine glass, and said after a long time: "How can I be truly moved, I don't know? What do you want me to do? I'll fight the marriage, and then you marry a Would a ruined woman come in and be ridiculed?" Feng Ziying was dumbfounded when asked, what she said was true, and she really thought of him.However, he heard the mystery in her tone, and asked: "Someone forced you? Is it your brother?" Xichun shouldn't, when she looked up again, she smiled charmingly.

"It doesn't matter what happened. The important thing is that we can't change the ending. General Feng, can someone like me enter your house? Will you marry me, can you marry me?"

At this time, the sun was shining on the west mountain, the sun was shining through the window lattice, and the room was full of brilliance, and Xichun was so eager to smile and frown, Feng Ziying's heart was agitated, she was already fascinated by it, and blurted out: "I will marry you, you are my wife in the first place." .”

Hearing this, Xichun's heart was filled with satisfaction and sharp pain, and her smile was suddenly destroyed.Why didn't you say it before, why wasn't it firm enough?What did he do when he divorced?She closed her eyes, tears rolled down, she said she didn't hate, but she had resentment.For a moment just now, she wanted to give up her original promise not to marry Marquis Wu Qing, but only to marry Feng Ziying.It doesn't matter if you are a wife or a concubine, as long as you don't separate.However, she quickly sobered up - what she wanted to do was to be the person standing next to the woman, she was not allowed to enter the ancestral temple after death, and she had to share him with another woman during her lifetime.Then it's better not to have him, he is so good that he can be an absolute beauty, but she would rather not have it, just remember it.

She picked up the wine glass and dripped tears into the wine. This is also a kind of commemoration-when you can no longer have it, all you can do is not to forget it.You can't have a man, so you have to leave at least one tear in his heart.

The wine will run dry and people will leave.Drunk and laugh with you thirty thousand times, not complaining about the injury.Just a sober dream.Xichun was overwhelmed with alcohol, and after several drinks, she leaned on Feng Ziying's shoulder and wept uncontrollably.

Feng Ziying hugged Xichun, unwilling to let go for a moment.In the face-to-face intimate tenderness, desire grows gently—he wants to own her, not only the heart but also the body, knowing that it is wrong to think this way at this time, but remembering that Xichun will belong to someone else, he struggles with conflicts in his heart, Unwilling.

"Xichun." He whispered in her ear, "I want you."

"Huh?" Xichun's face was flushed drunk, but her mind was very clear. Hearing his words, it was like pouring a bucket of ice water over her head.All he wants is his body!For a moment, the past and the past are as clear as a picture, and even his love for her is hard to distinguish between true and false.Forgive her for being so unbelieving and sensitive.Her father must have longed for Keqing's body like this.Xichun suddenly hated her own good looks, never hated her like this before.Feng Ziying forced her to realize that all the misfortunes came from this troublesome skin.To be coveted, to be coveted by the one you love, just for this pleasing look!She hates so much that she wants to destroy herself, but she can't, she still needs to rely on her beauty to trade.Hatred helped her stand up staggeringly, and walked towards the door.

"Xichun..." Seeing her reaction, Feng Ziying was so remorseful that he wanted to die. At this moment, he saw his selfishness clearly, knowing that she was heartbroken, but he said such words.Sure enough, when he saw Xichun holding the door, he smiled like the setting sun dripping blood: "All men in the world are the same, and so are you."

yes!So does he.Feng Ziying watched Xichun's figure disappear, and slowly knelt down on the ground.

He knew she would never forgive him again!
Xichun stumbled and rushed out, the long corridor was deformed by tears, it looked distorted and long, very much like her life, on the surface it was wide, straight and flat, without shock, but in fact it was swallowed silently by the stormy waves.She is like a person running in front of a mirror, what she wants is always out of her palm.

Xichun suddenly stood up, put her hands on her shoulders, her heart was in a state of turmoil, and she suddenly regretted it.It's not that she doesn't indulge in that kind of tenderness just now.Get a little more drunk, wait a little longer, and give yourself to him, it's not without thoughts and complete reluctance.The warmth of his skin was still on his cheeks.But she shed tears, washing away the warmth.

She knew that Ruhua was waiting outside the moon cave with a bunch of mothers-in-law and daughters-in-law, all of them waiting for her with trepidation, for fear that she might make a mistake.She is now waiting to be married, and she is more beautiful than ever!Too bad it's still fake.Her whole body is light and empty, and when someone shoots a beam of light, she will look straight into it, and she has no possibility of making decisions and being self-reliant.

However, this can't be seen as a joke. She took out the handkerchief and wiped away her tears. Fortunately, she doesn't like makeup, so she doesn't have to worry about crying and makeup. Tears, just wipe them away.There was silence behind him, he didn't follow, and still couldn't help but look back, she wouldn't forgive him, and she didn't have the strength to hate him.

It's all over like this.She revived the frozen emotional cells because of this man, and also died again because of him.This ends naturally, just like a person's lifespan is up and he can die peacefully at any time.

She went out and saw them in the painting.Apart from being a little sad, nothing unusual can be seen, which seems natural to outsiders. It is inevitable not to be sad to say goodbye to an old lover.The mothers-in-law and daughters-in-law didn't dare to approach her closely to ask questions, but they paid attention to her. Seeing that she was neatly dressed and knew that there was nothing wrong with her, they all breathed a sigh of relief.She smiled weirdly, let them fiddle with them, got in the car, and went home.Then... just wait, get married.

Because she is a concubine, there is no need for an official marriage, and Xichun is messed around by everyone. Her first marriage, she only remembers the red wedding dress, the flickering candlelight, the silhouette, and the occasional bright female voice in the noise. The bridesmaids sang shrilly.Her mind was as silent as falling snow, and the vast expanse of white land was so clean.

Mrs. Chenhou sits at the head leisurely and elegantly. After half a year, Xichun sees this woman who has influenced her life again. She is still so noble, but she has lost the original intimacy, and there is always a touch of resentment and sarcasm in her eyes.The resentment and ridicule, I don't know who it is.The daughter of a famous high official, married at the age of 16. Seeing the former guerrilla general climb all the way to the high position of prince, she is also a husband and wife. Sitting among the group of wives, when she enters the palace to pay her respects, even the queen mother Treat her well.But she knew that he didn't have her in his heart. After all these years, he had fallen in love with one!Now that Xichun has entered the door, even though she went to see her by herself, the woman who entered the door is not only a family member, but also an enemy.

"Get up, we will be a family from now on." She took the tea and said.

(End of this chapter)