Alternative Telling of Dream of Red Mansions: Cherishing Spring

Chapter 32
Mother Feng has cried so many times at home that she made up her mind to see Xichun, but she grasped it and sighed, "The illness comes like a mountain, just in the past few days. In fact, this illness has been around for a long time. You have been sick for three years. Ziying got married before, and Ziying was depressed because of this. His father was worried that he would indulge in personal affairs with his children and waste his ambition, so he discussed with me that while marrying him, he found a job for him in the army and asked him to go out with the army. Like dead ashes, he naturally moved forward bravely, not caring about life and death, and caring about my mother being in fear at home... He made a contribution in the army, but was also injured, and he just pretended nothing happened when he came back, and the root of the disease was buried. It’s okay to be married and forced by us to recuperate, but a while ago, I was angry with Yuchan, and I met... something happened to you, and that’s why... ah!"

Xichun kept silent, her face was dull, she looked at Feng's mother, then turned to the painting, her expression was blank and she didn't know what she was thinking.

Seeing that she was silent, Feng's mother was uncertain, so she simply explained: "I came here to beg you to go back with me. Ziying is determined to die, and the medicine stone has no effect. Only you can save him now! In the past, you were willing to bow down to the Chen Mansion because of Mrs. Jia's affection, so why can't you think of my love for my son today and go back with me. Is Ziying's affection for you not as good as that of a sixty-year-old man?"

This is an ugly word, but Ruhua knew it was true, and couldn't help but frown.She thought to herself: You didn't allow our girl to enter the school at the beginning, did she want to commit herself to Chen's house?Thinking this way, she saw Feng's mother glanced at herself.Ruhua knelt down and said to Xichun: "Girl, I kneel down for my wife. I can see the goodness of the master to you, and the deep-rooted love you have for the master. I can see all of these, otherwise I would I dare not come here to persuade you to change your mind."

Jian Xichun shook his head.Entering the painting also said, Lord asked me to bring you something.As he spoke, he reached into his bosom, took out a small cloth bag, and handed it over his head to Xichun.

Xichun took it dully, opened it and looked even more miserable.Inside the cloth bag was a bag of ashes and a note.

She recognized that it was the plain silk that she had burned.Lovers, their love came back in such a tragic and sad way.Like a dead lover who comes back to life, even a hard-hearted person will be deeply moved.

He went back that day, Xichun thought.Emotions and thoughts in my heart were like a tide, and it seemed that the autumn wind was coming and it was hard to resist, and my heart became more and more sad. When I saw what was written on the paper, my chest felt tight and painful, and I couldn't hold it back anymore. Going down, he staggered and sat down on the ground, his eyes closed and his face pale, as if he had passed out.

Feng's mother and Ru Huayuan didn't know what was in the cloth bag, seeing the cloth bag dropped to the ground, the papers falling, Xichun vomited blood, they were stunned for a moment.Mother Feng stood up, flustered.Ruhua hurriedly crawled over to pick her up and called her crying.After a while, Xichun slowly opened his eyes, supported Ruhua and struggled to stand up and said to Mother Feng: "Let's go, I can't let him die."

Mother Feng couldn't say a word in this situation, she just stood there feeling sad.When Ruhua bent down to pick up the cloth bag, he also saw clearly the words written on the blood-red note--if you become a monk, I will die, and you will die when you enter the mountain.

There seemed to be steel needles piercing her eyes, and tears fell like rain.I thought that I and Lai Yi'er had been rough and unlucky.But obviously, they are not.

The misery in the world is always unpredictable and appears in front of people unexpectedly.What is suffering, and what kind of suffering is the most bitter?The sentient beings crawling under the shadows look around blankly, unable to do anything, they can only attribute everything to their fate, and drift with the tide to a distant place.

After leaving the door, Feng's mother told Huahua: "First, use our own sedan chair to send the girl to my car from the corner gate, and take her home first. Then send a car to pick me up at night when the lights are on."

Ruhua took the order, and carefully helped Xichun, whose face was still pale, out of the other garden through the corner gate.There are sedan chairs waiting there.

Mother Feng watched them disappear at the corner gate with mixed emotions in her heart.At this time, the sky was grayish yellow, the sun had gone behind the mountain, and it was sinking bit by bit, and the clouds also dimmed. There was only a thin circle of light in the sky, and there were no birds on the branches higher than the wall, and they swayed sadly in the evening wind. Stretching her body, Mother Feng raised her head and stared blankly at the sky for a long time, then secretly said, Ziying, you have done everything you should do, you have to hold on!The girl next to her stood by her side and looked at her. She held back when she wanted to say something, but Mother Feng sighed quietly, turned to look at her and said, "Let's go, go say hello to Madam." Let's help her go.

Along the road, there was a woman in charge waiting to welcome Feng's mother to the upper room.A girl stood there lighting an incense burner.There was light smoke in the room, Mrs. Chen had just finished taking care of things, took off the hairpin, put on casual clothes and leaned on the kang, and the little girl pinched her legs and rubbed her temples, when someone lifted the curtain and came in, she hurriedly called, please come in, Get up and come down to greet.

Before she finished speaking, she saw Feng's mother walking in, saying: "Sister, don't get up, just lean on. You are tired these days." Mrs. Chen still stood up to greet her, and said with a smile: "I didn't go It's disrespectful to pick up my elder sister, and if I stay on the bed for a while, it's because I don't know how to be polite, but there is such a thing!" As he spoke, he gave up his seat to Feng's mother, and a girl came in early to offer melon slices, and added details.Mother Feng looked at her and said with a smile: "When is this, you are still being polite to me, what are you doing with these?" Seeing that the maids and mothers-in-law had all retreated, she said, "I just came to see you, there are many things in the house There are a lot of people, and you are alone in supporting the overall situation, so be careful."

One sentence touched my heart, and Mrs. Chen couldn't help but have red eyes and tears again.Picking up the handkerchief, she wiped her tears and said, "My younger sister is young and inexperienced, and I feel exhausted just dealing with the funeral of the master, and also those people in the family are taking the opportunity to make trouble, and my heart is really confused."

Mother Feng sighed: "Sister. After all, I am how old you are. Don't I know the hardships you mentioned? When outsiders see our deep house and compound, they only feel that it is unattainable. Inside, there should be singing and dancing, tenderness and harmony. These are confused by the glory. How do people know the sadness and loneliness in our hearts, no one can talk to them, and no one can even trust them completely. Sitting under the lamp and waiting for the people to disperse, the only person who can talk to us is our own shadow. Especially for women, when I was young, my husband Unreliable, and the son is unreliable when he is old, and it is difficult to be caught in the middle. The so-called wearing a beaded crown and wearing a phoenix jacket is not only a play for others to see, but also for yourself."

"Sister..." Mrs. Chen stopped crying. She was hit by Mother Feng's words to the weakness hidden in her heart, but she was surprised that Mother Feng said it so clearly. These things should not be used for a lifetime as an imperial lady. Youth to verify the secret?Then, like a clam, with the pain in the body, it sank into the dark sea, savoring the gains and losses in the never-fading darkness.

"Since you call me sister, I won't stand by and watch your affairs." Feng's mother swept away her sorrow, looked at Mrs. Chen with crystal eyes and said, "I recognize you as my sister, and you are no longer alone. What's the matter?" If things happen, my sister will also help to make suggestions, and will not ignore them, and those who want to take the opportunity to make trouble will not take advantage of it."

Although Mrs. Chen was in mourning, she felt relieved when she heard the words, and she couldn't help but stretch her brows.With a smile on his face, he said: "Feng's family is now in prosperity, and with the help of an elder sister, the younger sister is like Liu Bei who has Kong Ming, so she can rest easy."

Mother Feng's face was not full of pride and joy when she heard the words, she frowned and said: "Ziying's life and death are unpredictable now, the family fortune accumulated by our elders is useless if he doesn't want to inherit it, no matter how prosperous the holy family is, he has no intention of fame." It's useless. Who told me not to live up to my expectations, I have only such an evil obstacle, and now I have to let him ignore the ancestors' family law and gossip all day long, when I close my eyes, I will be clean!"

Mrs. Chen walked up to Feng's mother and held her hand to comfort her: "Sister, are you discouraged? In my opinion, Ziying is an out-and-out good boy, the top of the younger generation, better than everyone else. , I heard that he has made great achievements in the army, but now I prefer him to lead Fengtai's Ruiqi battalion? Is it really because of a woman who is so sick?"

Mother Feng saw that she also knew about taking over the Ruiqi Camp, she couldn't help but glanced at her, secretly shocked, the news spread so fast!On the surface, he remained calm, took Mrs. Chen's hand and sighed coolly: "We women don't care about the affairs of the court, so we only know that our son is dying of illness because of a woman, but our daughter-in-law went back to her mother's house in a fit of anger. She looked at Mrs. Chen helplessly and said, "Every family has scriptures that are hard to recite."

"Yesterday it almost passed. I don't know if it will work or not. I can only do my best and obey the destiny. If he really goes, I won't live long. My wife and I are just companions under the spring." Speaking of Ziying's illness, Feng's mother became discouraged for a while, and cried, "These days, why have the doctors been cut off at home, and the imperial doctor has been postponed? Our family's Zhang Youshi is also seeing old people and sick. Even he can't do anything, saying that the patient wants to die. Fortunately, Fourth Master sent someone from Da Nei to deliver medicine, so I was able to recover a bit. If he wasn't so sick that he was really useless, how could his stubborn father allow me to come here!"

"Fourth master!" Fourth master is the crown prince of Sacred Heart.Mrs. Chen's shock was no small matter. She had heard that the Feng family had a close relationship with Fourth Master, and it turned out to be true.She secretly rejoiced that this step was a coincidence, and she sent away an insignificant Xichun, but in exchange for Feng's family to accept her as a godmother, with this relationship, she can feel at ease from now on.

"Sister, ask me what love is in this world! I'm envious of you saying that. It seems that in our life, how do we know what life and death are like? It's just a waste of time." She bent down and persuaded softly, "You I should be lucky to have a son with deep affection and righteousness. Even though Ziying is a bit stubborn, she is also a seed of infatuation. The meat that falls from her stomach should be more tolerant. I still worry about my heirs, I will get old and sick in the future, and I don’t know if anyone will serve soup and medicine. These people outside are just staring at the things in my hand. Who am I going to tell the truth to.”

Without saying a word, tears fell like rain.

Mother Feng heard her bleak words, but for some reason, her true feelings were moved, and she felt sad for the death of the rabbit and the fox.I couldn't hold back my tears for a while, and couldn't stop crying next to Mrs. Chen, soaking a big veil.But these two people are experienced people after all, after crying for a while, they felt relieved and did not want to lose their composure again.Mrs. Chen forced a smile and said: "I don't want to talk about this, it just adds to the sadness, I just ask my sister how to arrange Xichun in the mansion, does my sister have any plans?"

Feng's mother looked at the dangling butterfly gold ornaments on the curtain at the corner of the bed thoughtfully, and said: "If it is really useful for Xichun to go back, and Ziying gets better, we will make a place for her to live. I look at this child. It's not a troublemaker, but it's just one more person and a mouthful of food. My sister will keep her mouth shut for me and it won't be a big deal. Don't make any fuss about running away." Feng's mother pointed to Chen Madam said, and then sighed with a sullen face, "But if they have other ideas, since the two of them died together and the Feng family died, they can't be allowed to mess around! If it's not good, send them away from afar." She's gone. I don't have a son, how can I still take care of her?" The golden butterfly ornament trembled for a long time, but it didn't move.

Mrs. Chen restrained her voice and said: "My sister is so worried! How can I have anything to say here, not only me, but even the people in this house, I guarantee they don't know anything. Don't worry, can I watch Is nephew okay?"

Mother Feng smiled slightly, and turned her head to look out the window.Someone from the eaves lit up lanterns.She stood up and said goodbye. Before she left, she took a deep look at Mrs. Chen and said, "It's time to hold the lamp, and you rest. I'll go back first. If you have any difficulties, come and tell me."

Mrs. Chen thanked her, sent her out the door, and stood on the porch to watch her leave.She turned around and accidentally saw the other garden where Xichun lived, it was a place where she didn't want to linger much in the past.But today, under the cold light of the white lantern, she looked at it for a while longer.

The beauty is unlucky, she looked there and sighed involuntarily, turned her head, lifted the curtain and entered the room.The place has been emptied, and no one will live in it again.After sending away the person in the coffin, from now on, she will be the master of the house.

(End of this chapter)