Alternative Telling of Dream of Red Mansions: Cherishing Spring

Chapter 37: Yefeiye (5)
"You miss her very much!" Feng Ziying looked at Xichun, and he found that Xichun had lost weight.The reason why she doesn't look haggard is because of her calm posture.Xichun was so weak that it made him feel bad, and seeing her disappointed expression in his eyes made him feel even more ashamed—he didn't take good care of her, and he didn't do anything he promised her so far, and she didn't. Haven't complained.

Xichun turned her back and stood there in the afterglow, stretched out her hand to open the carved window, and she saw the hyacinths in the garden in full bloom.The bamboo is as green as water in the distance.The sound of the wind came through the bamboo forest.

She said: "We are very congenial in temperament, and we spend more time together than our own sisters. In the early years, she lived in our garden, and the place she visited most was my Nuanxiangwu. We ate tea and played chess together. She loved collecting The snow water on the plum blossoms is very particular about making tea. I wonder if it can still be done like this now?" Xichun fell into the light but warm memory, with a soft expression and a soft tone of voice.She recalled the scene with Miaoyu, as if she had returned to Chunche's girlhood.

She found that she was missing it, like a bee obsessed with the sweetness hidden in the stamens of green flowers.When I was a teenager, I always thought that I was no longer pure at that time, because I had begun to understand pain, have shortcomings, and began to fear the future, as if I could see the shadow of the future, but I couldn't be sure.My heart is firm and apprehensive, like soft bamboo shoots gradually growing burrs.But they are still pure and innocent thoughts.Looking back now, everything at that time was simple and clear, even the pain was so simple and clear, and it would not be entangled.

"I'll take you to Chen's Mansion to meet Miaoyu." Feng Ziying proposed a bold idea.

"You..." Xichun was stunned for a moment, and immediately understood what he was thinking. It was indeed a bold idea and an out-of-the-ordinary behavior.But she didn't think there was anything wrong with it.She follows the secular rules, but has never been restrained.He bowed and thanked with a smile: "Young master, please get on the horse, and the younger one is willing to hold the whip and fall the stirrup for you."

"You're too smart." Feng Ziying saw that she understood the words as soon as the words fell, and couldn't help laughing. She grabbed Xichun, hugged her and laughed, "How can you thank me? Talking about nothing... "

"You take advantage of others..."

"Little girl doesn't know good and bad! I am anxious and righteous, with a chivalrous heart."

"I've always seen you with a thick face and no heart. Please take it out for me to have a look. This is also groundless, isn't it?"

While rubbing ears and temples together, Xichun smiled, her body could not help but limp in his arms.Love arouses the illusion in her heart, and she suddenly feels the emptiness of affection in the extreme lingering, love is like a mayfly, life and death, more like Qutang Yanyudui, the wind is high and the waves are dangerous, but we have no hesitation and go deep alone.

The next day, Feng Ziying went to Chen's residence and brought Xichun there dressed as a servant.Chen Yejun and Feng Ziying are both generals of martial arts, a group of young children are ministers in the same hall, and it is not uncommon for you to come and go.When Chen Yejun learned that Feng Ziying had recovered from his illness, he took advantage of his birthday to invite him to a party.When Feng Ziying arrived in Chen's mansion, someone had already led them into the other garden through the corner gate. As soon as they entered the moon cave and walked past the flower stand of rose flowers, someone had already reported to Chen Yejun.Chen Yejun hurriedly stepped down the steps to greet him, and said with a smile on his face: "The big red man is here." Feng Ziying cupped his hands and said with a smile: "I haven't seen you for a long time, and my brother is still so unforgiving. Qingqing is already a general, isn't he far better than me? If you make fun of me like this, I will have to leave." He said as if to leave.Chen Yejun hurriedly grabbed him and said, "Why are you going! My brother, can't you take a joke on this?"

Feng Ziying knew it was a joke, so she really left. Seeing this, she smiled, pulled her feet back and cupped her hands and said with a smile: "Of course. If you don't get brother longevity wine, how dare you leave, don't be afraid of getting your legs broken, and then lie down on the bed Go?" He put his hand on Chen Yejun's shoulder, winked and smiled, "Aren't I afraid that you won't be called brother next time something good happens?"

"You're a smart boy!" Chen Yejun clapped his hands and laughed.The two were joking and were about to go into the house. Chen Yejun caught a glimpse of Xichun who was following Feng Ziying in a graceful and graceful manner. Zaosu fell to the side, fixed his eyes on Xichun, and pulled Feng Ziying and asked, "You are so handsome." Brother, you can't be new." A sentence made Feng Ziying look embarrassed, he peeked at Xichun, and saw Xichun slightly lowered his head, looking humble and respectful, as if he didn't hear.Feng Ziying felt uneasy, although being masculine is not something to be shamed, it is always bad for Xichun to hear about it, not to mention that she is also regarded as a child molester.So I don't know how to misunderstand myself.While pulling Chen Yejun who couldn't lift his feet up the steps, he interrupted and asked, "Have they all come yet?"

"Ah!" Chen Yejun came back to his senses after being dragged repeatedly by him, "I haven't arrived yet, it will be soon!" Feng Ziying said happily: "It's so good!" Jun went to the corridor and said in a low voice: "My little brother has something to ask." Chen Yejun glanced at Xichun reluctantly, and then answered him: "What's the matter, you can tell. It's okay between brothers."

Feng Ziying whispered into his ear.Even Chen Yejun was so shocked that he couldn't keep his mouth shut for a long time. He pointed at him and said, "You are too daring! Why did you bring a woman here in such a way! I don't believe it, wait for me to take a closer look!" , walked up to Xichun again, looked carefully, and saw that Xichun's eyes were full of spring water, spring onions bloomed on her fingers, and there were traces of earrings on her ears.Look at her, although she is wearing men's clothing, but her posture is clean and straight, like a pear blossom blown by the wind, she does not look like a child prostitute at all.

Chen Yejun stood and looked at her for a long time, still not sure how to address her.Just as she was hesitating, Xichun saw his strange expression and knew that Feng Ziying had explained the situation to him, so she took the initiative to salute him and said, "I hope the general will be lenient."

"Ah...uh..." Chen Yejun met Xichun's eyes suddenly and was startled, but he couldn't say a word for a long time, he looked at her face for a long time before he could speak.Xichun glanced at him lightly, then turned to look at Feng Ziying.

"Brother, tell me something sweet, and let me see you." Feng Ziying came over and urged.Chen Yejun woke up from his stupor, realized that he had lost his composure, and said with a smile: "It's easy to say, easy to say, there's nothing wrong with it, it's all women's homes. I'll ask someone to lead you to see her." Feng Ziying was delighted Changing his color, he bowed to Xichun and said, "Amitabha. Your wish has been fulfilled."

Xichun smiled slightly at him and said: "You guys go into the house, I'll wait here." She stood there waiting for the mother-in-law to lead her into the inner courtyard.Feng Ziying also didn't want Chen Yejun to pay more attention to Xichun, so she dragged him into the house instead.Although Chen Yejun was still reminiscing and amazed, he was a little reluctant to move, but he had to hold back when he remembered his identity, and gathered his energy to deal with the person coming.

For a while, the two of them were in the house, and through the window they saw Xichun in the yard going with her mother-in-law, they both let out a sigh of relief and smiled at each other.Xichun's beauty is sometimes too fierce, making people who see her for the first time brighten their eyes and tremble with fear.Chen Yejun sat down and sighed: "My brother is so beautiful, you are so beautiful, you should marry him!" Seeing him, Feng Ziying envied and sighed at the same time.Just in embarrassment, someone came to report: "Master Zhen from Jia's mansion is here!" Feng Ziying said calmly, "Jia Zhen! Why is he here too?" Chen Yejun didn't care about his expression, and cupped his hands to Feng Ziying and said: " So, sit down less, brother, I'll go out and pick it up."

Feng Ziying stood up and gave way, then sat down again and bowed her head in thought: He did not come today to have birthday wine, nor did he come just to cherish the spring. To the point of obsolescence.But the few princes have already grown up, and the desire to seize the heir is like firewood on the fire, which will only flourish and never go out.Now the emperor's heirs are not prosperous, and the only ones who have the capital to seize the heir are the fourth and sixth masters, and the ministers of the court and the middle have their own attachments.She is the "Four Master Party", but Jia Zhen is the unmistakable "Six Master Party".Chen Yejun was unpredictable.As far as he is concerned, he came to find Chen Yejun under the order of his fourth master. Unexpectedly, Jia Zhen also came so soon, so everyone understands why he came: whoever wins over Chen Yejun is equal to getting the magic of his subordinates. The aircraft battalion is like a tiger with wings added.

It's not that enemies don't get together!He knew in his heart that this meal was full of undercurrents, and he would not eat it lightly.

Feng Ziying was thinking about it when she suddenly saw Chen Yejun walking in quickly with a dignified expression, waving his hands and screened back to the left and right.Feng Ziying knew something was wrong, she stood up and asked: "Brother, what's the matter!" Chen Yejun changed his playful expression just now, and said in a low voice: "Do you know who is here? The sixth master is here." As soon as the words came out, Feng Ziying was so startled that she took a step back before she stood firm, and murmured: "Why is he here! This is a big taboo!" Chen Yejun shook his head and said: "Isn't it? I can’t get rid of it! Alas, I’ll welcome you in first, and then we’ll talk about it.” Then he went.Feng Ziying watched him go out, gritted her teeth, her palms were already sweating.In this court, elder brother is not allowed to make friends with ministers, and the emperor himself hates cliques the most. If it is known, not only will the throne be hopeless, but it is very likely that he will fall out of favor and be rejected by the emperor.Sixth elder brother's trip is obviously a big taboo, why is he willing to take such a big risk?Feng Ziying also had an exquisite and clear mind, and in a moment she had thought clearly about the sixth elder brother's intention, and secretly said: "What a dangerous mind."

After he made up his mind, he was not in a hurry, picked up his tea and went to the window to look at the kudzu vines and lilacs in the corridor, his face had regained his composure.The kudzu vines and cloves were growing vigorously, and he recalled finding them for Chen Yejun himself.In fact, fourth master has worked hard on him over the years.To put it bluntly, who wouldn't want the throne of Ninety-Five Supreme?It's just that the fourth elder brother is more cautious, and he is not ostentatious. He doesn't want to be seen as ambitious. He usually does things with all his heart and acts in an upright manner. .As the saying goes, non-dispute is contention.The fourth master is deeply favored by the current Holy Majesty, and has already been promoted to the prince at a young age.Having said that, until the day when the Emperor Long Yu returns to heaven, any changes may happen. The events of the previous dynasty are vivid, so no one dares to take it lightly.

He wondered why he followed the fourth elder brother wholeheartedly. Apart from the kindness of knowing him, he did not deny that it was an ideal he had cultivated since he was a child.However, the friendship and mutual understanding and trust developed in childhood are the most important reasons.A scholar died for his confidant, and the fourth master treated him sincerely, so he was willing to be used by him.This is the question he has been thinking about the most recently.He wanted to take Xichun far away from the customs, but he couldn't let go of all these fame, wealth, and friendship, so he was always in conflict.

Xichun!Feng Ziying suddenly remembered that Jia Zhen was here too, if he saw Xichun, the consequences would be disastrous!His surprise was no small matter.I wanted to find someone to pass on the message, but there was no one around, and I wanted to find Xichun by myself, but I couldn’t enter the inner courtyard. Seeing that Chen Yejun had already brought Jia Zhen and a person dressed as a young prince over, I don’t need to ask if it was the sixth elder brother. !

Feng Ziying was so anxious that her head was sweating, knowing that she couldn't leave, she could only hold back her temper, secretly praying that Xichun wouldn't come out so early, and at the same time restrained her mind and stepped forward to deal with it.

When Jia Zhen came in and saw him, she was not surprised, she still had a smile on her face, looking kind and natural.Seeing them coming in, Feng Ziying beat Qian'er down to pay respects to the sixth elder brother: "The servant knocks on the master." It was the sixth elder brother who was walking behind Chen Yejun. Tall and straight, he was originally a first-class character and appearance, but it's a pity that his eyebrows are too fierce and a bit disfigured.A pair of slender eyes hang down from the corners of the eyes, which is even more mysterious, like a door in the dark, and the eyes shot out from behind the door, making people uneasy.Sixth elder brother held a folding fan in his hand, smiled all the time, looked around casually, and walked with Chen Yejun and said, "Your place is very well decorated." As soon as he entered the door and saw Feng Ziying, he smiled and said, "Ha, you Also. As the saying goes, "If you don't know the pedestrians early, you will travel early." It's true! You don't need to make rules, this is not in the palace. I came out in a low-level service, just please don't tell me four elder brother."

Feng Ziying hurriedly stood up and smiled apologetically, "I don't dare." Sixth elder brother glanced at him, sat down on the chair, and said with a smile, "That's good! I'm here today just for fun." He tapped the fan and said three people , "You must accompany me to have a good day." Chen Yejun said, and hurriedly said: "I don't know if the master is coming too, the slave didn't prepare any good things, but fortunately there are two jars of good wine in the house, and then call the cook Make a few side dishes and have a drink. Don't think it's mean, I'm here today as a change for my father."

Jia Zhenli only spoke at this time, and smiled at Sixth Brother and Chen Yejun: "Brother, you are welcome, our master is the most easy-going and amiable, today is your good day, and you decide to use the means, Let's have fun, and put aside all other rules and politeness for the time being."

Hearing that, Sixth Brother first praised it.Chen Yejun also went to make some noodles for the table, and ordered people to serve the dishes and prepare the wine, not to mention the details.Secretly, Chen Yejun ordered someone to guard the gate of the garden, not to let any idler in, and also ordered his servants, if anyone came to give presents to celebrate his birthday, just say that he was not at home.

After Feng Ziying and Jia Zhen saw the ceremony, they kept paying attention to his words and deeds, only to feel that Jia Zhen appeared a lot more old-fashioned and deeper in the ups and downs of the officialdom, and he was disgusted and surprised.Jia Zhen just pretended to be safe.In front of the sixth elder brother and Chen Yejun, Feng Ziying couldn't get angry, so she had to hold back and socialize with him at the same table, but she was always thinking about Xichun in her heart.

Guided by her mother-in-law, Xichun arrives at Miaoyu's place. Along the way, the mother-in-law sees "his" beauty and tries to strike up a conversation with her more than once.Xichun made up her mind not to speak.The mother-in-law repeatedly teased her to no avail, so she had to lead her to Miaoyu's residence sullenly, and let the maid come in to announce.When Xichun entered the school, it was funny to hear her and her maid discussing that she was a gourd with a jagged mouth: these people whose yellow flowers have faded are lonely in their hearts. One's own existence, even if it becomes more and more empty.

Xichun pays attention to this small courtyard. She sees the smooth cobblestones on the path, the delicate and clean grass at her feet, no more, no less just right plum trees, and the sunlight just shines through these trees. Makes walking very comfortable.If you walk on it when the plum blossoms are in bloom and withering, it will be a different situation.There are three couplet huts in the courtyard, the winding corridors loop around, no one is in front of the steps, and the Xiang curtain hangs down by itself.Coming here, Xichun is like going to the nunnery to visit Miaoyu in the past.

For a moment she had a clear understanding: everything has changed, she and Miaoyu have not changed, nothing has changed, she and Miaoyu have changed.The Buddha said: All conditioned dharmas are like dreams and bubbles, like mist and lightning, and should be viewed in this way.

Yes, it should be viewed as such.

She stands in front of the door.Thinking about half of her life in one thought, she became inexplicably excited when she thought that she would see Miaoyu soon.She knew that she would see a completely different Miaoyu from before.She will gain knowledge from her beyond imagination.

She entered the door and found that Miaoyu was dead.She was lying on the ground with scissors stuck in her chest, and the blood all over the ground was like a red lotus blooming to support her.

Xichun was terrified beyond words, the blood everywhere made her eyes sting, as if she was about to go blind.She turned her head to look at the outside world, which was still fresh and bright.But she felt that the whole world was withering, rapidly falling into darkness.

This is her first experience with death.It was as close as if she had just passed through the curtain, she could turn around and grab her skirt, but unfortunately she still passed by by surprise.Death is so light and so heavy.She has experienced several deaths in this half of her life, all of which have caused great grief.But never was it such a heavy blow.

striking.real.Stare at people.

"Miaoyu!" She crossed the blood river, squatted beside her and called her softly. For some reason, she felt that she hadn't left yet, as if she was not far from the river bank, and the long call could still be heard!
Miaoyu's eyes opened a little, and she smiled at her.She touched her breath with her hand, making sure she was gone this time.

Xichun picked up the blood-stained scissors and aimed them at her heart, with a vague smile on her face.In an instant, her heart became as silent and heavy as an ice cube, but as if slowly recovering her vision, she saw the surroundings gradually brighten up.The fog of life and death is deeply locked, and she, a person full of thoughts, can clearly see the instantaneous change in the meantime with Miaoyu's departure, which is only separated by a thin line.Such an arrangement is divine.

Xichun stood up slowly, and she saw a letter on the dressing table. The letter was not folded, nor was it silent. Miaoyu had written it and put it there.She shouldn't care about being known about everything, because she pierced her chest with scissors and no longer fears everything, including unknown death.

After Xichun read the letter, she realized that she had forgotten it.Forgot about Miaoyu's scattered flowering period, and forgot her lingering and disappointment with Chen Yejun.She just remembers saying—

I see myself in my relationship with you, my heart flutters, that's all.Time goes back and forth.There is no difference between clinging and forgetting.Forgetting with imposed control is clinging, and clinging without control is forgetting.I can finally believe that all my troubles will pass.Even you will leave me, and the cause will be gone, and we will never meet again.

She already understood why Miaoyu turned to the world to have a relationship with a man.It has nothing to do with what kind of front edge there is between them.All she needs is experience, and through experience sheds her stubbornness.

Love is a long silent practice.Discover the hidden wisdom in the process of mutual delivery, so as to explore the true meaning of life, and then, die in martyrdom without hesitation.

After drinking for five rounds, the four of them talked about the past and the present, and they were so excited that their faces flushed after eating.Sixth elder brother got up and said he wanted to change clothes, Jia Zhen wanted to see him off, but sixth master pushed him on the seat and said, "Drink your bar well, why not join in the fun! This is your home, isn't it?" Jia Zhen smiled, Sixth Master said, he glanced at Chen Yejun, Chen Yejun stood up and said with a smile, "I'll go with you." The two left the table, Feng Ziying and Jia Zhen were left sitting at the table, Jia Zhen picked up the jug and poured herself a glass of wine, drank it all in one gulp, leaned back, looked at Feng Ziying and said, "We haven't seen each other for three or four years!" Feng Ziying smiled deeply, There was no strange expression on his face.He put down his chopsticks, looked at Jia Zhen and said, "Isn't that right, my brother has always had a smooth career in his official career, and now he is following Master Liu, and he will definitely make great progress."

(End of this chapter)