Indiana Jones

Chapter 635 Where to Go astray (12)

After going through so many things, Si Xuanyi suddenly understood that it was impossible for him and Li Siming to talk about everything like before, nor to know what each other was thinking without opening their mouths like before. The relationship between them was no longer like that. I was so simple before, although I didn't stand on the opposite side, but I have been estranged a lot unconsciously, perhaps because my unconscious changes are getting farther and farther away from Li Siming's persistence and persistent belief. They met during the Great Escape on Savage Mountain, and after experiencing many things, they worked together for many years. It can be said that their friendship is forged with iron and blood. Over the years, they have lived and died together, and advance and retreat together. As a series of things happened, a rift gradually appeared between them. Although they could still share weal and woe at critical times and sacrifice themselves for each other, they could no longer reach an agreement on major issues.

Si Xuanyi realized that he was actually very cowardly. Along the way, he hadn't really done any effective resistance, and spent most of the time blindly fleeing and being fled. Collapse and blindly drifting with the tide, all these changes occurred under the premise of survival, but Li Siming was not like this. He never stopped playing with the above, let alone intending to accept it, never changed his belief, worked hard Persisting in one's own pursuit, fearless of life and death, no matter what one does can change anything, one will never give up lightly. Perhaps this is the difference between the two people. Let Li Siming slowly feel that he is no longer the original Si Xuanyi, his image in Li Siming's heart is slowly collapsing unconsciously, and he will never follow him regardless of life and death like before. Si Xuanyi slowly stepped out from the shadow of Si Xuanyi, realized a kind of self-transcendence, and clarified his ideals, beliefs and pursuits in life. A final struggle against all these injustices, even if it means death.

There must be a goal in life. If you just want to live, what is the difference from animals?It is better to die vigorously than to live a wimpy life, stick to your beliefs, and work hard for it, this is Li Siming's idea.

Of course, different people have different views on this. Maybe some people think he is stupid, maybe others think his so-called beliefs are worthless, and even disdain his efforts, but his persistence is indeed admirable. How many ordinary people can do it?
Si Xuanyi finally understood that it was impossible for him to persuade Li Siming, and he also completely figured out why he was at a loss. All his previous confusion was his hesitation, and he was not as firm as Li Siming. Faith and ideals, that's why he is confused and puzzled now. Although he also insists that killing the enemy and serving the country is the duty of a soldier, he does not have the clear-cut stand of Li Siming. He ignores the differences between parties. He only considered a country, a leader, and an army. Under the premise that everything should not be different from the current party, he only considered that the whole country should work together to defend the country, fight against the enemy, kill the enemy and serve the country, but this is too idealistic. After all, this In the era of wars and strife, when foreign enemies invaded, it was a mixed and chaotic world. It was by no means as simple as he imagined. With a strong group as support, what one can do alone is too limited.

Perhaps this short few days will be the last reunion of the two. After this farewell, they will go their separate ways and face the unknown future. Si Xuanyi fully understands that this period of time may be God's charity, so that they have enough There is no time to say goodbye, to reminisce about the past, to imagine the future, it is not easy to get together, so why bother to persuade someone who has refused to look back?

After thinking about this, Si Xuanyi didn't try to persuade Li Siming.

For safety, they moved to the back of the village near the woods the next day, and if something happened, they could also retreat into the woods to escape in the shortest possible time.

"The things left in the village are enough for us to eat for a long time. The little devil came and didn't snatch much, and he didn't conduct a careful search, so there are still a lot of things left, which can feed the three of us. Not a problem." Zhao Chenggong almost searched the village and found a lot of bacon, some grain, and a lot of pickled bamboo shoots, all of which are good things, but it's a pity that there are only a few of them left in the village. I am afraid not many people, men, women and children will be able to come back.

"I hope they can rescue him." Si Xuanyi was quite worried about Lin Feng and the others. After all, the enemy is strong and we are weak. With people like them, trying to rescue someone from the heavily guarded arsenal is tantamount to pulling a tooth out of a tiger's mouth.

"Are they really willing to pay such a high price for those ordinary people?" Li Siming asked suddenly, "This is almost an impossible task."

"As far as I know, they will try their best to do what they say. In fact, I don't know them well enough. After all, I haven't had more contact with them before, and I never thought that I would get so close to them. Even if I knew them at the beginning The identity of the second brother, I never thought that I would have much to do with him..." Si Xuanyi said, "Perhaps I should keep a distance from them from the beginning, and I shouldn't have a long talk when I saw the second brother last time , let alone meet each other, perhaps that is the beginning of my step-by-step journey to where I am today."

"Everything has happened and it's irreversible. For us, it's good that you can live until now. There are some things you can't do. Unlike me, I have nothing to do with them. It's just that this success has the biggest loss, and he was implicated After coming in, there is no way to go back." Li Siming said.

"Perhaps it was a mistake for me to come this time. Although it was out of good intentions, it got you involved." Si Xuanyi said, "If I didn't come, maybe success would also save you, and there wouldn't be so many troubles. , you two can go back smoothly." Si Xuanyi said.

Li Siming shook his head: "No, you came to let me see that the brotherhood between us is still there. All of this was destined by mistake. There is no right or wrong, and there is nothing right or wrong. Don't count me? Even if you don't show up, won't they find another excuse when I go back? They have their conspiracy, and I have my own way. Don't worry, I can handle it all. No matter what the outcome is, I should at least Do what you have to do."

"Let me tell you, I jumped out of the wolf's den when I came out this time. I'm not as stupid as you and went back." Zhao Chenggong didn't feel that she had lost much, especially after knowing that the higher ups framed him, she felt that this time It was right to come out, otherwise his slow-response head there would have been killed by the higher-ups for a reason, so he felt that coming out this time was an excellent opportunity to get out of that place.

"Let me remind you, you can go back, but be careful, those guys can do anything, don't give them a chance." Si Xuanyi said.

"Yeah!" Li Siming nodded, "I know this well."

"Thinking back when we formed this department, we were exhausted like dogs all day long. In addition to the woodcutter and the other three old men, there were only five or six people. I didn't expect to organize a large department with a hundred and ten people. Now everything is more and more formal, and the work is getting smoother and smoother. I never thought that I would leave under such circumstances." Si Xuanyi smiled wryly, "I never thought that I would be reduced to where I am today. Everything is like this. Like a dream, I have been running around non-stop for so many years. I admit that I have made some achievements, but I am still quite confused when I think about it. I have never considered the so-called position issue. Maybe this is why Director Mao gradually began to no longer trust him. My main reason is that apart from work, I didn't get close to him from any angle. Although I gave some gifts, those things were just a kind of offering to a character like him. There is no shortage of people who are trustworthy and people who can be controlled. You want me to be neither of these two kinds of people, but I don’t think I have any disloyalty to him, and I also I have never disobeyed his orders, why didn't I gain his trust in the end?"

Li Siming turned his head and looked at the sky outside before saying after a long time: "Actually, your so-called loyalty is loyalty to the group, but don't forget that the premise of being loyal to the party and the country is to be loyal to the chief first. Most of your things are on official business." Officially, he is a little confused about whether you are really on the same line with him, whether you should belong to his team, so he doesn't trust you enough, but you haven't shown how loyal you are to him, Anyone who is loyal to the party and the country will say it, but as the immediate boss, he feels that you are not trustworthy, and your power is growing, and there are more and more subordinates. He is afraid that you will lose control, and even more afraid that you will do something to affect him, or Threatening him, of course, you can't threaten his status, but if you really get too close to the second brother, if something goes wrong, can he take it? So he doesn't trust you more and more, In the end, he felt that if he replaced you with his own people, he would be more at ease, then you would become dispensable. He was just taking back his rights. As for your life and death, it doesn’t really matter. Maybe you were safe and sound after the Shanghai incident. Going back made him really feel that you are simple, and there are other things behind you, so how could he not be afraid of you? Coupled with your series of things and the things Han Baohua got, all these made you Pushing it to the point where it is today is not what you want, but that you have no chance to change..."

"Do you think you have the opportunity and ability to change all this?" Si Xuanyi asked.

Li Siming shook his head: "I'm not like you. Although I didn't do anything, you were indeed rescued by an underground organization. Whether it was your intention or not, this is ironclad evidence that you have a deeper relationship with them. No matter what you do It doesn't matter what you think, what matters is how they see you and how they characterize you; but I am different, I have nothing to do with you, and I was successfully rescued from this accident. Relatively speaking, I am cleaner than you, so I I plan to go back and figure things out, I'm going to die, but I can't let them put all these messy things on my head, I want to see what the guy who took our place is doing, let's go , the department has already been occupied by them, Liu Xiaotian is still there, Lu Tianming and the others are also there, even if they are willing to go with the flow in order to survive, at least they should know what kind of people we are, unless it is described above. It's easy for us to list the crimes, but it's not so easy to stop the people talking. I went back just to prove that I didn't run away. I am willing to face all their accusations, but this does not mean that I am willing to accept all this. Resistance is necessary. I have to pay the price, but I am willing to go to the end without hesitation, if I don’t do it, how will I know the final outcome, the worst result is nothing more than being killed by them.”

Si Xuanyi let out a long sigh: "You are one of the two most conscientious people I have ever met in my life, and the other is Liang Wei. You are a man, and she is also a heroine among women. If you two become a couple, it will be true. I don't know if I can live this day, you are too strong, I know I can't persuade you, but I really can't bear to look at you... Forget it, let's not talk, I feel so tired..."

Zhao Chenggong looked at the two of them: "Sleep when you are tired, and eat when you are hungry. How can you live your life comfortably? You have to think about what those bird people think every day. You are exhausted. I am a big soldier, and I am a serious criminal by birth. I am not as good as you two." Get me out, I guess the best ending now is to stay in prison, but the possibility of collapse is more likely, you two have brought me all the way to today, can kill devils and give me a promotion, and let me I earned a lot of money, so I won’t say thank you. I just want to tell you that I actually live quite comfortably. Although sometimes I feel aggrieved and a bit useless, at least among the few of us, I can say whatever I want Say whatever you want, there is no need to hide it, this is freedom, as for the ideal revenge you mentioned, I don’t care about any party, I want to kill devils because I have a grudge against devils, I have seen them come to our territory to toss , I am not so noble to think about national righteousness, I just want to kill devils, you two are too tired to live, thinking about so many things at a young age, thinking about you as a bird? Why don't you have to sit here Just wait for me to serve..."

Si Xuanyi understood that in Zhao Chenggong's eyes, the two of them were just eating radish and worrying about it...

(End of this chapter)