Cannon fodder strategy.

Chapter 103 I Don't Dare
"Understood." Si Rong said and left.

I guess my brother is supposed to say something to me, maybe preach, keep a distance between men and women or something.

But he just said: "We are from the village. We regard marriage as very important. It is different from those new-style urbanites. They just want two people to be happy together, and then romance or something, they don't think about it." Get married and live, you don’t have to be responsible for the popular bragging partner, we think differently, if we really get along, it should be very sad.”

"Brother, I didn't mean that." I gently stroked those little bean sprouts with my hand.

My brother didn't say anything, and said: "I know, you are a smart girl, otherwise you wouldn't have left Xie Yan, right? Let him eat, he will stay at our house tonight, he is our benefactor, It should be treated well. But don’t think about extra things. It’s not interesting.”

I nodded: "I understand, thank you brother."

"I didn't do anything, why thank you?" He rubbed my head and walked out.

I went to bring buns for Ou Zhenhai to eat, and two plates of pickles.

When buying autumn vegetables before, Si Rong pickled a lot of pickles.Now the radish strips are ready to eat, chopped and mixed with chili, then poured MSG and chili oil, add some vinegar.I cooked some dried noodles again.

"There's no more meat, you have to deal with it. Fortunately, there are steamed stuffed buns and soup."

He couldn't move, so I set up a small table next to him, on which were the bowls and chopsticks he used for eating, put the food on it, and put the chopsticks in his hands.

He glanced at me, then lowered his head and started eating.

I sat on a chair and ate a big steamed stuffed bun. It tasted very good. It was made of tofu vermicelli with radish and dried shrimp in it. My brother was very careful.

I was full after eating one, so I picked up the insole when I had nothing to do. This time, the insole was not very thick. After all, it was worn in winter, and the needle could not be sewed in. I had to use an awl to sew the insole.I didn't go to see him, I was thinking about what my brother said just now, he must have discovered something, I was actually flustered.

I don't want this to be exposed, liking him is a very secret thing that I don't even want to admit, as long as I know it myself, I don't even want Ou Zhenhai to find out.But now I worry that I can't hide the past.

Both my brother and Si Rong should have found out, but what about Ou Zhenhai himself?
It is estimated that it has been discovered.He's a seasoned veteran.

I don't want to be hurt again, and I don't want love to be humble. Although I am inconspicuous and weak, I hope that I can be happy. Is this my extravagant wish?

"Why are you ignoring me? I'm talking to you." Ou Zhenhai said.

I glanced at him: "Are you finished? Then I'll clean up the dishes. You rest."

"Do you like me?" He asked nonchalantly.

I opened my mouth wide in surprise, and the pendant in my hand fell to the ground. The crisp sound made me even more embarrassed.

I picked it up indiscriminately, and put the things aside to pack them.

Ou Zhenhai looked at me: "Why didn't you answer my question?"

"I thought my silence could be regarded as an answer to you."

"So you don't like me?" He laughed.

I said; "What do you want to say by asking me this question? If you like me, we two fall in love, and you and I have a good life, but you don't like me. You just want to talk about me. I'm not happy about having fun."

Ou Zhenhai stuffed the last bite of bun into his mouth, and smiled honestly: "I like you too."

I looked at him blankly, not knowing what to say.I kind of hated myself, couldn't control my emotions, and was very sad.

He said; "I know why you are like this, because I... I am not an object worth giving my life to?"

I frowned and said, "It's not unworthy or worthwhile. I hope to be safe and happy, not a moment of happiness, and then it's gone. We're not on the same road. Have you ever seen grapes on pumpkin flowers? "

This sentence is similar to what I said to Gao Shanfeng, and he quickly understood what I meant and left me.

Ou Zhenhai frowned after hearing this: "I also think we are not suitable, but what should I do? I can't control myself, I miss you so much, what should I do? To be honest, you are not the most beautiful girl I know, but I Think you're special. Maybe you're the one who's trapped me all my life? Because you're the only one who stands by me when I'm in danger, instead of pushing me out or blaming me."

I think it's probably because I helped him fight last time, so I have such an idea, right?

"I help you because you are my benefactor."

"You don't care about me, how can you help me." He looked at me with burning eyes.

I sighed: "You got bored one day and left, what should I do?"

"I'm afraid too." He leaned close to me and said in a low voice: "What I said is true, Zhenzhen, I was also afraid that I would hurt you. I know what virtue I have, so I never came to you. I I always miss you in my heart. I haven't seen you for a long time."

I bit my lips and said nothing, my heart was overwhelmed, tears rolled in my eyes.

I cleaned up the dishes very calmly: "Stop talking. My brother will be angry. Just pretend that what happened today has never happened. We will still be friends in the future."

"Quick Liu Yaozhen, you don't believe me?"

"I know you are a passionate person. I just found a woman's thing in your house. I feel very sad." I looked up at him and said, "We are not suitable. If you continue to force it, it will only be bad for us. Isn't it good to be friends now? You don't have to wait until the relationship is irretrievable, I will lose you as a friend, and I will be very sad, what do you think? "

If you don't think about getting it, you won't lose it naturally.

He didn't speak, he stood up and took my hand with great effort, I wanted to struggle in a panic, but he pulled me back forcefully.

"Let's try, Zhenzhen."

I shook my head: "What I want is a man who is the only one in my heart, and lives with each other. Otherwise, I will find someone I don't like so much, and I don't have to like me very much. But at least there must be loyalty and a sense of responsibility. But You can't do both, if we are together, sooner or later we will become enemies, not to mention you never thought of getting married."

Ou Zhenhai frowned and looked at me: "Don't you want to try at all?"

"Well, I don't want to."

"It's sad to have so little confidence in me."

I smiled; "You rest, I should pack these things."

Ou Zhenhai didn't speak any more, just lay there and sighed.

I went out to wash the dishes, and my brother and Si Rong had been making bean sprouts in another room.They probably knew what we were going to say, but they didn't show up because they were afraid of embarrassment.

When I was washing the dishes, I was very silent. Ou Zhenhai is so smart, he must have noticed the change in my feelings early in the morning.He only said to try, but did not promise to marry.I dare not, I am too afraid of getting hurt.

After I finished packing, I went back to look at him, Ou Zhenhai closed his eyes, his face was a little red.I found a cold wet towel to cover my head.He took my hand, very hot and very strong.

I struggled to escape, but he wouldn't let me go, nor would he open his eyes.

I didn't speak, and reached out to touch the gauze on his forehead.

My brother came in at this time, and the moment I opened the door, I shook his hand away.

Ou Zhenhai greeted his brother: "I will trouble you tonight."

My brother said a few polite words to Ou Zhenhai, and said to me: "Go to sleep, I will take care of him, he will be fine."

"Okay." I walked out with a smile.

Although there is also a small earth kang built there, it is obviously not suitable for two people to sleep. My brother and I told him that he was injured and could not be illuminated so we let him sleep and slept on the bed by himself.

But Ou Zhenhai said that his legs were not working well, so he had better not toss around, and fell asleep on the bed.

In order to prevent him from moving, I found an electric mattress and used it for him.I don't even want to do it myself.

Ou Zhenhai smiled at me, pulled up the quilt and went to sleep.

There were murmurs in their room that night. I don't know what my brother said to him. It was a very anxious mood.

Si Rong said: "Don't be afraid, once some people have true feelings, they will treat you wholeheartedly."

I smiled wryly: "Every woman wants to be that special one, but I have self-knowledge."

Si Rong held my hand tightly and looked at me sympathetically.

I patted her on the shoulder: "Go to sleep."

We slept together, neither of us slept well, and our eye circles were dark when we woke up in the morning.

And when I woke up the next morning, Ou Zhenhai was very polite to me and didn't talk about that topic again.As if what was said to me last night was just my hallucination.I am being sentimental.

I was a little relieved, but more helpless and sad.

His so-called liking is not enough is a verbal temptation.As soon as my brother said it, he was completely gone.

What is the difference between me and other girls?Maybe it's the same in his eyes.

After breakfast, I urged Ou Zhenhai to go home.

He was too lazy to move, so I kicked him, "Let's go quickly, I'll help you call a tricycle to take you back, take good care of you, we've been very busy, we don't have time to take care of you."

"It's the same as being here at home, and no one pays attention to me, so I'll just stay here."

I looked at him helplessly: "How nice it is for you to live upstairs by yourself, there is heating, our house is not big, it's quite cold, and the food is not good, why do you have to do this."

Ou Zhenhai said: "I'm hungry, feed me."

I stared at him: "Why should I serve you for dinner? Who are you? It's really annoying."

Ou Zhenhai chuckled: "I knew you were upset, don't be so stingy, take a look, this is for you." He quickly handed me the 500 yuan.

(End of this chapter)