To Youth: Secretly Falling in Love with You

Chapter 9 Change Yourself
It was a somewhat sweet feeling, and it was so warm. When I think of it, there will be a sweet feeling in my heart. It is faint, but it is so natural, and it is so sincere, completely from the heart. heart.

"Could it be that I like her?" Sometimes he would ask himself this way, but then he shook his head, "Impossible, such a cold person, who can't even say a normal sentence, how can I like her?", It seems to be denying myself, but that feeling is real, without a trace of distracting thoughts in it.

Since he had this idea, he felt that it became more and more intense as time went by. Although he had seen many scenes of boys chasing girls before, after all, most of them were on TV, but in real life, they He hadn't seen it once, and he didn't know if his feelings were right or wrong, or for some other reason.

But every time Tian Yuan saw Fu Jiani, he always wanted to take the initiative to say hello to her, but he felt a little uncomfortable, and when he stood in front of Fu Jiani, he felt a little unnatural, and his words disappeared. When you are so energetic, your brain will short-circuit from time to time, and there will be a blank for a while. Even if you have thought about how to say it before, you will still become uncomfortable after meeting, showing a clumsy look.

But the more this is the case, the more nervous he is in front of Fu Jiani, the more nervous he is, the worse his performance will be, as if forming a vicious circle, sometimes he will deliberately restrain himself and let go It's more natural, but after all, this is what I did deliberately, not my real self, so it is often futile, which makes Tian Yuan very depressed.

Sometimes after seeing Fu Jiani, Tian Yuan would feel a slight heat on his face, maybe his face was already flushed, which made him even more uncomfortable. , in front of Fu Jiani, it seemed as if everything had disappeared, and she couldn't show it anymore. Every time she thought of this, Tian Yuan was even more annoyed, but there was no solution.

In this way, the two of them kept a close distance, and would greet each other when they met, but they didn't move forward any further, as if they just stopped there.

Tian Yuan often thinks that after seeing Fu Jiani next time, he must express his true inner thoughts, and let her know no matter what, otherwise he will continue to suffer like this.

But every time after seeing Fu Jiani, Tian Yuan didn't have the courage to speak out again, and after a hasty greeting, the two of them 'passed by', always burying his true inner thoughts deeply. In the bottom of my heart.

Time flies, freshmen have been enrolled for a while, after a month of military training after the start of school, college students from all over the world gathered together because of fate, college life has gradually entered the right track, and students have gradually become familiar with each other Get up, establish the relationship that should exist between classmates, and gradually become talkative about everything.

However, the relationship between Tian Yuan and Fu Jiani seems to be gradually estranged. Contrary to others, the contact is getting less and less.

Since Fu Jiani had already known Cai Yilian before the official class, and Cai Yilian also gave her a lot of help when she first entered school, so the relationship between the two is closer than other students, just like a fellow student generally.

When there is nothing to do, Cai Yilian will think about chatting with Fu Jiani or something, talk about his hometown, talk about his past, Fu Jiani will also chat with him a few words, the two of them chatted fairly well speculate.

Although Fu Jiani has a cold personality and doesn't know how to get along with others, let alone socialize, but every time she talks to Cai Yilian, she seems to be a different person and becomes much more cheerful.

After a long time of understanding, Cai Yilian gradually learned that Fu Jiani has a withdrawn personality, rarely talks to others, and often walks alone, even with the same dormitory, she seldom talks, so the friends around her Also because of her reticence, she has become a lot less. Although she shows a lively side in front of her, she is withdrawn in her heart, and sometimes she can feel it more or less.

Moreover, Cai Yilian has also observed Fu Jiani many times, and every time she meets with friends around her, she always greets her friends hastily and then leaves, without too many words, and she doesn't talk like other people Just a joke or two.

And every time I go to class, I always walk alone by myself. Even those in the same dormitory don’t see her together, and I don’t see her accompanied by others. Sometimes I feel that she is quite pitiful, but the more If this continued, Fu Jiani became more and more withdrawn, and even less willing to communicate with others.

After many observations, Cai Yilian determined her character, so Cai Yilian made a plan and decided to help Fu Jiani get out of the current predicament and help her more. He didn't want her to go on like this alone. Cai Yilian like this Thinking silently.

Therefore, Cai Yilian will often talk to Fu Jiani. Whenever he has time, Cai Yilian will sit with Fu Jiani. Even during class breaks, he will help her complete some things within her ability in life and give her the best. Introduce friends, but after all, I am a boy, and some things are still very inconvenient.

Sometimes Cai Yilian would invite some classmates and call Fu Jiani to have a meal or play some games together, hoping that Fu Jiani could get the fun of making friends and let her get acquainted with others gradually. Get rid of your loneliness, and have your own circle of friends like other peers.

But after a period of time, Teacher Cai Yilian found that his thinking was too simple. After a period of time, he also put in a lot of effort, but it seemed that there was no obvious effect, and Fu Jiani was still the same as before. Aloofness has always surrounded her. During this period of time, Cai Yilian has been doing useless work. Although there may be some changes, it is almost invisible at all, which makes Cai Yilian feel a little bit difficult.

But the timing is good. Right now when the freshmen are just entering school, the recruitment of associations on various university campuses is in full swing, and many freshmen are also actively signing up for the clubs and associations they are interested in. After seeing this, Cai Yilian plans to Change the way of thinking to help Fu Jiani. Although one's own power is limited, the power of the collective is immeasurable. Maybe this will be better.

He planned to find an association for interpersonal communication, let Fu Jiani participate in it, and let Fu Jiani communicate with others more, hoping that through this method, Fu Jiani's withdrawn personality could be changed.

After his own search and comparison, a society called "Interpersonal Association" caught his attention and was included in his scope of investigation.

After many inquiries and understandings, he learned that the purpose of this club is to "increase the social scope of college students, improve the language expression skills of college students, and let college students from all over the world find mutual friends here, for the sake of everyone's connections. Make contribution', after knowing this, Cai Yilian smiled slightly, this is exactly the club he was looking for, maybe Fu Jiani's character will change because of this, although he is not fully sure.

On the second day, the recruitment activities of various associations were still in full swing, and there was an endless stream of students who signed up. It looked very popular. Cai Yilian brought Fu Jiani to the admissions office of the "Human Association" and planned to introduce her In the past, but after seeing the word "Interpersonal Association", Fu Jiani felt bored from the bottom of her heart. She was usually too lazy to talk to others, and now she was asked to do things she didn't want to do. Anyone would be bored, but because of Cai Yilian's face, he didn't say it out, he just said some evasive words, hoping that he would not join this 'Interpersonal Association', the farther away from this kind of place the better.

However, Cai Yilian had already made up his mind at this time, she must be allowed to join, no matter what, she must be allowed to feel the atmosphere here, although he had never joined any similar clubs, so the two argued for a long time, In the end, Fu Jiani surrendered. She was not good at speaking, and she couldn't speak up to Cai Yilian as a teacher. In the end, she followed Cai Yilian's arrangement and joined the "Interpersonal Association" club.

Although she was not very happy with the arrangement that Teacher Cai Yilian gave her, she didn't want to do it against Cai Yilian. After all, the teacher was also for her own sake, and usually gave her a lot of help, so after joining, she didn't have much to complain about. .

Since joining this club was recommended by Teacher Cai Yilian, accompanied by Teacher Cai Yilian, Fu Jiani also met the 'President' of the 'Interpersonal Association'.

When we met in the first day of junior high school, Fu Jiani was not flattered about the appearance of the president of the 'Interpersonal Association'. Generally, the president is a student, but the one in front of me seemed to be in her early thirties, and The hair is also very sparse, as if he is about to go bald, and he looks very mature in a suit.

But after talking, the two of them found out that the president is a student at the school. He is just under 25 years old this year. He is now in his senior year and will graduate to work next year.

And this "Interpersonal Association" was founded by him and a friend of his when he just entered the freshman year. Although he had experienced a lot of ups and downs before, lack of funds, little influence, lack of support from the school, and withdrawal of friends... …

But I never gave up, and I persisted alone. After less than a year of hard work, the 'Interpersonal Association' finally got on the right track, and slowly developed and grew stronger. Now it is no different from other associations and societies. , occupies a certain position in the school's large number of clubs.

(End of this chapter)