I was the emperor in the Ming Dynasty

Chapter 438 Remembrance
Shen Lingfeng left disappointed, and Zhang Qinghuan felt mixed feelings as he watched his retreating back.

Who has never had the age of first love, and Zhang Qinghuan is no exception.

Once upon a time, Zhang Qinghuan was not without fantasies about marrying and being a woman in the future.

Whenever she thinks about the possible appearance of her husband in the future, the person who comes to her mind is often Shen Lingfeng who grew up together.

Whenever she thinks of such things, she always blushes and scolds herself for being shameless.

But even so, in the dead of night, she still couldn't help thinking about it.

But everything disappeared with Zhang Yiliang being arrested and imprisoned, and then hijacked.

Her former life no longer exists, and her originally beautiful future has become an unattainable dream.

From the moment she decided to rush from Nanjing to the capital, her fate was already doomed.

If she hadn't met Li Tian, ​​her fate might have been caught by Jin Yiwei after repeated pleadings, and thrown into prison like her family.

In the end, she was either thrown into the Jiaofang Division to become an official prostitute, or was raised at home by a greedy and lustful official.

Judging from her previous life, she is unfortunate at this time.

But if compared with the worst ending, she is lucky at this time.

There is a person who is sincere to herself, has no worries about food and clothing, and no one controls her. How can she be dissatisfied in such a day!
Even though Li Tian is not the only woman, and the time he can spend with her every month is not too much, but her love for him is not a little bit less because of this.

This is not only because Li Tian saved the lives of her and her family, but also because Li Tian gave her the life she dreamed of.

If it wasn't for meeting Shen Lingfeng today, which reminded her of herself when she first fell in love, all of this would have been perfect.

A brief encounter added a little turmoil to her perfect life, making her mood no longer perfect.

In the end, she was able to defeat herself and convince herself, but in fact it mainly depends on herself.

In fact, no matter whether it is Shen Lingfeng's appearance or not, with her personality, she will come to this point sooner or later.

As mentioned above.

Zhang Qinghuan's character is like a free bird, what she yearns for is the vast sky outside.

No matter how beautiful a canary is, it lives in a cage.

Although she is not in the palace now, in a sense, she is still trapped in a bigger cage in the capital.

However, in this world, who is not trapped in one cage after another.

Compared with those concubines in the palace, she, Zhang Qinghuan, can fly freely anywhere in the capital, which is actually the greatest freedom Li Tian can give her.

She is also very satisfied with this.

Freedom is no longer a problem for her, and the only thing she can regret is the kind of life she once yearned for when she was young.

Her mind was in turmoil, which was actually no fault of hers.

In any case, she was just a girl under 20 years old at this time.

At her age in future generations, she may have just entered college, which is the age full of longing and yearning for love and a better life in the future.

Although people in ancient times were very precocious, no matter how precocious, where is the experience after all?

Without enough sharpening to smoothen one's own edges and corners, one's heart will always be attracted by various temptations.

She is just a mortal, how can she be calm when facing her dreams.

No one has the right to accuse her, not even Li Tian.

Back upstairs alone, she dug out some old things brought from Nanjing.

Among them are the scrolls she once loved so much, and some letters that Shen Lingfeng wrote to her back then.

She used to keep these things by her side like treasures, even if she fled thousands of miles, she should not throw them away.

It's just that besides these things, she now has a lot of things that Li Tian gave her around her.

For example, some fun and interesting gadgets made by Li Tian himself, the jewelry and jade that Li Tian gave her casually, and the recipe of preserved eggs that Li Tian copied to her some time ago!

These things are also treasured as the most precious things in life.

It is said that a person's life is actually a string of good and bad memories.

She flipped through the letters that Shen Lingfeng wrote to her one by one. Looking at them, she blushed a little at first, but her heart calmed down as she got to the end, and she even started to feel a little childish.

Then she opened the recipe of preserved eggs that Li Tian gave her. Although it only recorded the names of some ingredients and the preparation methods of these ingredients.

But she looked at it with relish and a smile on her face.

The first smile is nostalgia, recalling the good memories of the past, and the later smile is the joy of happiness.

After a long time, she gently put down all Shen Lingfeng's letters, and locked them back into a small box.

The moment the box was closed, she seemed to let go of many things in her heart.

"People will always grow up, farewell, the beauty of the past!
The past will eventually be the past, irreversible, and the future is what you should look forward to! "

"Brother Shen, you and I have embarked on two completely different paths after all, I am fine and happy now!

I hope you can find someone who is more suitable for you in the future, and I will silently call you Brother Shen in the end, and from now on, we will be separated from each other, and we will no longer owe you..."

……

Zhang Qinghuan let go of the obsession in his heart, but Shen Lingfeng was not a master who was willing to let go easily.

After returning to the inn, he drank a lot of wine in a very bad mood.

When Fang Ji came back, he was almost drunk and passed out.

Seeing his ghostly appearance, Fang Ji couldn't help asking,
"Did you not hold back today and went to find Miss Qinghuan again!"

"Yes! She is...not the sister Qing Huan I knew back then! I...uh..."

Fang Ji patted him on the back hard, which made him feel better. He couldn't bear to see him like this. Fang Ji comforted him,

"Miss Qing Huan's family has undergone such a big change, and it is understandable that her mood has changed. After all, when she needs someone to accompany her most, it is not you who is by her side!"

Shen Lingfeng shouted unwillingly,
"It's not that I don't want to be with her. It's that when I wanted to find her, she had already left alone. It took me several months to find out that she actually appeared in the capital!"

"It's too late to say anything at this time, the only thing you can do now is to think about how to remedy it!

I have found out the person you mentioned, but the identity of this person is a bit mysterious, and the information I have found out is very limited. "

(End of this chapter)