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Chapter 47 IKEA IKEA 2
"Maybe... My dad is five years younger than my mom. Everyone laughed at him for marrying an old girl. He only liked my mom. When he was young, my dad was very thoughtful and ambitious. What did he do? They all support him. He contracted the mountain forest and my mother worked together to open up wasteland, and transported my mother to do logistics. He planned to build a horse farm, and my mother helped raise horses. It's all right. My mother's credit is indispensable for what my father did. But she never enjoyed a single day. My father made money to buy a house and a car in the city to start a business, and she stayed at home to take care of the horse farm. Le took me with me and asked me to go to school in the city with my dad. You can see what Wei Le is like. My mother broke her heart for her and felt sorry for her. My mother has always regretted patronizing Ignored us by doing work and made Wei Le sick and burnt out his brain. Wei Le was in the first grade for five years, and was bullied and laughed at at school. My mother took her home and taught her by herself. The Wei Le you see now Being able to talk to people normally, take care of myself basically, and know a few words, I don’t know how much effort my mother has spent on these things. I often hear her crying secretly with Wei Le in her arms at night... Later, my father had other things outside. A woman, younger than her, and more energetic than her. She was too old in those days, her hair was all white in her 40s, and standing with my dad was like two generations."

"Your father and mother's experience can be submitted to Zhiyin magazine, and I can imagine the title! How could your father treat his wife like that?" Chen Xi was filled with righteous indignation.

Wei Jia lowered his head and rubbed the hay in his hands, and said, "I asked my dad similar questions. He also realized that he had done something wrong and separated from that woman. Not long after, my mother found something wrong with her body. She is I worked myself hard. My dad was very unlucky in the past few years. He was in trouble in everything he did. Almost all the property he saved in the early years was lost. In order to treat my mother, the house and car were sold. My mother never The doctor heard that the prognosis of the operation may not be satisfactory, and spending a lot of money will only delay it for a few years at most. She didn't want to embarrass my father, she refused to continue the treatment, and refused the operation, begging my father to take her back. Eating herbal medicine at home to recuperate, in fact, is to go home and wait for death. In the end, she died, and my father collapsed. It doesn’t matter if he leaves the racecourse, he will drink himself to death sooner or later.”

"Your mother, she is too considerate of others. She is a good person, but I definitely don't want to live like her." Chen Xi said in horror: "You don't want to follow her old ways."

"She always cried before she died, not for herself, but because she was worried about Wei Le. Before she died, she couldn't shed any tears, and she tried her best to break my hand and give Wei Le's hand to me. I said I would do it. No, I’m not her, I can’t live for another person completely. She always says she’s sorry for me, but who else can guard Wei Le unconditionally besides me? I’m only a pipe older than Wei Le, But in this life, I will be her brother, and we have no choice.

"Haven't you done enough?"

"No, I screwed up."

Wei Jia's words came lightly, but Chen Xi's heart was heavy.He went from ignoring her at the beginning to being willing to talk to her, and now he finally opened his mouth to confide a thing or two to a passerby who was about to leave and might never see her again.However, with her shallow life experience, what can she say?Said, "We are not gods, we can only have a clear conscience, and we cannot force everything to go well"?These words are beautiful and detached, but the pain that fell on him and Wei Le is real, and it will not be relieved by this perfect nonsense.

She tried her best to be a good listener, just like his bay red horse.Chen Xi stopped talking, and silently chewed the cucumber in her hand.She suddenly had an urge to touch the back of her head that she had secretly photographed many times.When she thought this way, her hand had already executed this action first.

When Chen Xi touched her for the first time, Wei Jia looked sideways at her. When she touched her for the second time, he turned his head away and said with a smile, "Did you wash your hands after eating?"

"People who look like horses are still so particular about it!" Chen Xi withdrew her hand, she had already forgotten the tragic story, and her mind was full of: Wow, why is his hair so soft, it feels so good to the touch!
Wei Jia fed a star-shaped carrot to the bay red horse.Chen Xi recalled the oolong that she mistook "Jia Jia" for the name of a horse when they first met, and said, "Now it seems that this horse looks a bit like you."

"Is my... face so long?"

"No! I said eyes, and you have the same eyes."

Wei Jia turned the horse's head and looked into its eyes two by two. "Like it? Where does it look like?"

Chen Xi felt that he was very funny even when he was a little silly, and he should have more moments like this.Both Wei Jia and Claret Ma have clear eyes, they are calm and compassionate when looking at people, revealing a transparency of resignation.Such eyes are beautiful, but Chen Xi doesn't like to look at them.

"What's its name anyway?"

"Yangyang, that's what my mother called it."

"Oh, Wei Yangyang. Does it mean unhappy? This name also fits you well."

"Where does a horse get its last name?"

"What's wrong with the horse?" Chen Xili said confidently: "Since you don't let it be named Wei, I will give it my surname. From now on, it will be called 'Chen Yangyang'. With my blessing, it will definitely I'm fine. Right, Chen Yangyang?"

Her familiarity doesn't spare even horses.Wei Jia was afraid that if she continued, she would give everything the surname Chen.He took the initiative to ask: "Why did you learn to ride a horse? You can still ride so well."

"I don't know. Maybe I have talent. It's strange to say that no matter what I do, I can succeed casually."

"Bragging is also very successful!"

Chen Xi hammered him: "Don't believe me, my parents have enrolled me in many interest classes, especially my mother. What kind of dancing, equestrianism, swimming, as long as I don't particularly hate things, I can do them like Looks good. My grades are not bad... What are you laughing at, do you think it's strange that my grades are good?"

Chen Xi went to expensive private schools from elementary school to high school, and got involved in all kinds of rich second-generation circles.She is beautiful, has personality, she knows what other people play, and she also has what others have, and there is no delay in whether she should be crazy or profligate.In this atmosphere, she is still studying hard and making progress every day, which seems to be incompatible with her impression.The first reaction of most people who saw her report card was surprise.

"Hmm... Those who find it strange probably think that you don't need to work hard."

"You mean, I'm so beautiful that I don't need wisdom anymore?"

Wei Jia has gotten used to her narcissism, she said yes.He said casually: "Riding horses, dancing, and including studying... What do you like most among these things?"

"I don't like anything." Chen Xi said, "It's just that I have given my time, and I hope to get something in return."

"Then what do you hate?"

"I don't seem to have any." She said that she was amused: "Oh, I suddenly feel that I am so confused. I don't know what I like, and I don't know what I hate. My mother wants me to learn acting in the future. She decided that My dad wants me to take the ordinary college entrance examination and not to enter my mother's circle. They can't convince anyone, so they just let me choose. In fact, I didn't think about the future at all, so I really let me choose , I don’t want to do anything, just staring at the moon in a daze every day is fine.”

Wei Jia smiled.The same moon shines on different people.Some people struggle to find meaning, while others struggle to escape meaning.People who are looking for meaning have too many choices to dare to want nothing at all.People free from meaning want everything, but have no choice.

In the end, Chen Xi and Chen Yangyang ate up the fruit plate, and half of the night passed.Chen Xi's mind was dizzy, and he couldn't tell whether it was from eating too much or being sleepy.Taking advantage of this strength, she tapped Wei Jia's knee and said, "Take Lele and leave here in the future, and go to a reasonable place."

"There is no place where reason is for the weak."

"You are not weak, you are just trapped. I don't know what to do, if Sun Jianchuan can help you, so can I! Remember to come to me when you need it!"

Wei Jia rubbed her hair and said in a low voice, "Thank you."

His tone made Chen Xi suddenly understand that his gratitude and friendliness at this moment were real, but it was also true that he would never come to her.

(End of this chapter)