concubines

Chapter 242
The room fell into a deathly silence, and Miao Li kept kneeling on the ground.Zhou Shuxuan leaned on the stool at one side without image, propped his head with his hands, and felt the troubles lingering around him.

Miao Li wanted to know how he would get angry with the eldest princess, but now she didn't dare to ask anything, so she could only wait quietly.After he said everything, she was not the same as she used to be.

After being silent for a long time, Zhou Shuxuan finally asked a difficult question after thinking a lot in his head.

"I really don't understand you. Why do you help them? Don't you think that what they do is unacceptable to the world? Where did you read the sage books before?"

It's useless to justify, it's meaningless not to admit it, and it's even more self-defeating if you don't speak up.

It has come to this point, in order not to anger Zhou Shuxuan, let things develop even worse.The only thing she can do is say something.

Miao Li lowered her head and said, "I don't know what I think, so I just accepted it like this. I thought that the eldest princess is someone who is kind to me, and that she is your relative."

Zhou Shuxuan's ears hurt when he heard the word relatives, and he frowned in disgust. How could he have such relatives?If he knew they were his relatives, he shouldn't have done these things, and he would have no face to face the world.

The truth really is like this, and she really knows all this.In fact, he was still in a state of doubt at the last moment, and he was still not sure. Now he can't even deceive himself and others.

Zhou Shuxuan was too calm after losing his temper, and asked again: "When did you know?"

Fearing that the rhetoric of all parties would not match, Miao Li replied honestly, "When the eldest princess is pregnant."

I don't know if the time passed too fast, or his memory is not very good, and he couldn't remember when it was.It took a long time before I remembered that it was almost after she came back from Zhaoyun Mountain, it has been so long.

It's amazing to have kept it from him for so long, and it's okay to keep such a big secret in my heart as if nothing happened.

Zhou Shuxuan asked again: "You never thought of telling me?"

"I can not."

They seem to be equal, but they have never been equal. She has a faint fear of him, and she really dare not say some things.

Zhou Shuxuan, who was blocked by these three words, was speechless, holding his breath in his heart, and didn't want to ask any more questions.

The past things kept going back and forth in my head, trying to find clues in my memory.

Like a flash of inspiration, some fragments suddenly appeared in my mind.

When the officials of the Clan Mansion whispered about it in his ear.The then official was very close to Xu Meitang's father.Miao Li was very abnormal at that time, after this incident, she became more and more disturbed.When Meng Runlin's family came back, she asked herself to take Meng Runlin out of the princess mansion.Xu Meitang came to find fault again and again, she changed her normal not only did not fight back but also defended.Then he committed suicide by taking poison, just now Xu Meitang knelt here and said threats.

In the actual situation, I don't know who is blackmailing whom?
Things seemed to be a little clearer as things went down.

Zhou Shuxuan suppressed his anger and said, "Is it because of this that you committed suicide by taking poison? Xu Meitang used this to blackmail you. If you don't give in, she will tell me about this. That's why you were upset at that time. You It was a choice.”

Used to seeing his gentle appearance, Miao Li sometimes forgot what he was like.He can see everything and is not so easy to fool.All was well when he wasn't guessing, but guessing was deadly.

Zhou Shuxuan gritted his teeth and added, "It's useless not to speak. If you don't speak, I will take it as your acquiescence."

Miaoli nodded, and said slowly, "Yes. At that time Xu Meitang forced me, and the eldest princess was wary of me. Runlin and the others have been living in the princess mansion, so I dare not act rashly. I have no other choice .”

Zhou Shuxuan was so angry that he slapped the table and shouted to her, "You have no choice but to die! You don't care about yourself, have you considered my feelings? Leave me a few words and send me away. Don't you think you are too cruel?!"

From the time they fell in love, their lives no longer belonged to themselves, and they had to think about each other.After being with her, he didn't dare to do any more risky and impulsive things, fearing that she would be helpless in the future.

Only after two comparisons did he realize how stupid he was.

If he cares about gains and losses, it seems that he is the only one who pays all the time.Although things like feelings can't be counted in this way, he is really tired.

Miao Li held back her tears and said, "I know now."

But it seems to be too late.

Zhou Shuxuan didn't want to see her any more, and it hurt like a piercing heart to see her more.Deceit, concealment, and betrayal are all unforgivable sins.

"Come here." Zhou Shuxuan shouted to the outside, and could no longer stay alone in a closed space with her.

Soon the maid of honor came in, and Zhou Shuxuan said in front of everyone: "The title of noble concubine of the Meng family will be taken away, and she will be imprisoned in Qingquan Palace."

He really gave up on himself, and he can't blame anyone, it's all done by herself.Miao Li heartily kowtowed, "Thank you, Your Majesty, for your grace."

Zhou Shuxuan left in a huff, Xiaohong helped her stand up, her eyes were reddened, and she asked, "Ma'am, what happened? How could it be like this?"

Miao Li pulled out a smile that was uglier than crying, and comforted her and said, "It's okay, it's just a little quarrel."

Miao Li walked out with floating steps, trying to escape from this place as soon as possible.

"But the titles are gone..." Xiaohong wanted to ask but didn't dare to ask more.

"It's really fine, you go back to Longde Hall, don't follow me. Ask He Yuan to beg him, he should let you out of the palace. I'll go first."

Miao Li suppressed the tears already on her eyes, and pushed Xiao Hong's hand away.I really want to sit down and think about how I got to the present, but my ears are buzzing, and I can't calm down no matter what.

"Your maidservant will not leave. The maidservant will be with you when your mother is well. Now that she is gone, wouldn't it make people say that the maidservant is ungrateful? The maidservant will never leave." Xiaohong saw her floating, fearing that she would fall, and supported her again. her hands.

"No one will talk about you, be obedient, go out and live your life well, don't be troubled by me. I have no position now, and I am worse than an ordinary court lady, and I don't need to be served. Besides, I made a mistake in confinement No idlers are allowed to enter the place where concubines are served."

While they were talking, they had already arrived at Qingquan Palace.The dark lights inside and the bustling palace are two different worlds, which seem eerie and out of place.

Miao Li raised her legs and stepped in, pushing Xiao Hong out with a firm attitude.

"Your Majesty..." Xiaohong wanted to follow her, but was caught by the eunuch behind her.

Amidst Xiao Hong's yelling, Miao Li didn't turn her head back, only heard the sound of closing the door and locking it.

Everything happened so suddenly that nothing was planned in advance.It seems that if this incident hadn't happened, Zhou Shuxuan probably would have let her live in a long time, or had no intention of letting her live in at all.

Because there is no one here, the air is filled with the smell of dust, as if it may not have been cleaned for a long time.All the palace people who lived here before went to Longde Hall to wait on them, and it was empty for a long time.

A gust of cold wind hit, Miao Li fought a cold war, probably the so-called cold palace.Everything was dark, but luckily there was a bright moon in the sky, so Miao Li boldly walked inside based on her memory.Accidentally kicked on the steps and almost fell to the ground.

Another gust of wind blew, dark clouds covered the bright moon, and the sky and the earth became completely dark.Miao Li can't find a place to live now, nor is she in the mood.He touched the main hall, found a stool and sat down, planning to spend the night like this.

It's nothing to her, it's not like she hasn't lived through such a life, and she has also experienced even more difficult ones.There is still a place to sit, where I used to kneel all night.

It seems that after such a long time, everything has returned to the way it was before.Now it seems that in the days when her house was ransacked, she was alone again.Life will definitely go on, as long as you can deal with the huge gap in your heart.

It's very quiet here, suitable for her to think about things.What Zhou Shuxuan said just now echoed in his head again. There was nothing wrong with it. His guesses and accusations were all justified.

But she doesn't regret every step she takes, one step leads to the next, and the chain is intertwined, and it will definitely become like this in the end.

That day the eldest princess said at the Great Buddha Temple that she didn't want to hurt her, so she thought about the consequences.It flashed in her mind, it really happened better than she imagined, at least Zhou Shuxuan didn't kill her.

And she won't complain that he doesn't forgive herself, and doesn't know that she has her difficulties, because he also has his embarrassments, and she can forgive him.

She doesn't seem to have paid anything for this relationship, because she has nothing to give, and her status and wealth are all given by him.All she has is herself.She had already given him everything she owned, and she was willing to stay in the deep palace, facing Yingyingyanyan who was beside him.

I don't want to cry at all, the tears flow out by themselves.Still very disobedient tears, wipe them and they will come out again.

Children cry to get adults' attention or to get what they want, not necessarily because they are really sad.When an adult cries, he is really sad and vents his feelings in his heart.

Thinking that she and him might never meet again in this life, thinking that he would be with other women across a wall, thinking that she might disappear in his life, Miao Li burst into tears, irrepressible.

Didn't you say you were with her all the time?Didn't he say that he would never leave her for the rest of his life?Didn't you say we'll grow old together?It was all lies, all lies to her.

No one's heart is made of iron, all control over emotions is useless, and my heart is full of sadness.

The feeling of night struck, and the uneasiness engulfed her.

It's better to end it with a knife than to suffer.

(End of this chapter)