concubines

Chapter 349 I Want You
Zhou Shuxuan was holding the letter she sent yesterday, so fast, it might have been intercepted before it reached Meng Runlin's hands.

Zhou Shuxuan leaned on the chair, looked at her lazily, and held up the letter in his hand, "I think you need to give me an explanation."

The letter had already been opened, and he knew what he should know and what he shouldn't know, and there was no point in defending it, and it was impossible for him to believe it if he refused to admit it.

Miao Li directly knelt on the ground, "It's all done by the concubine alone, please forgive me from the emperor."

Her attitude of admitting mistakes is really good, and she is really straightforward, looking at death like home.If it was in other places, it would be great if it could be so simple, don't drag it for a long time like this.

Zhou Shuxuan spread out the paper in his hand, looked at it from the beginning to the end, tilted his head and asked, "I just told you last night, and you still look very angry. As soon as I walk away, you send the letter with your back foot, don't you?" You should thank me, thanks to me reminding you of this."

The matter is indeed such a thing, it is impossible to really thank him.

Miao Li bowed her head and said, "The concubine dare not."

Zhou Shuxuan sneered and asked: "You have done it, what else is there not to dare?"

Miao Li still didn't look up, "The concubine admits that she was wrong, please forgive me from the emperor."

A playful smile appeared on Zhou Shuxuan's face, "This doesn't seem to be your style, don't you want to say a few more words?"

She has a lot of reason, and she can't simply give in.

What he said was full of sarcasm, Miaoli lost her temper, she simply raised her head, gritted her teeth and said: "If the emperor really wants to ask, the concubine can also say it. Don't mention anything else, just rely on their hard work this time. , can't the emperor help them? Does the emperor want the eldest princess to die alone?"

Zhou Shuxuan nodded pretendingly, "So this is your chain of chains. First let them leave the capital, and then let them not come back. What they did was for themselves, what has it to do with their hard work? ? It’s just a drop in on the way to elope.”

If he thought so unconscionably, Miao Li really didn't want to argue at all.Helping him take back such a big matter as the city, he finished it in just two words, so what else is there to continue.It's like playing the piano to a cow. Anyway, he doesn't understand, and he doesn't want to understand, and he doesn't want to explain.

Miao Li simply admitted, "The emperor is right, this is the concubine's strategy, step by step, just to let them be together."

Zhou Shuxuan bent down slightly, leaned over to look at her, and asked, "Don't you remember why we became like this? It's because you insisted on getting involved in these things, and you have never repented until now. You don't Afraid, you can betray me again and again."

"If you say it's a betrayal, then it's a betrayal." Miao Li no longer thought of him, admitting every word he said.There was still such a little dissatisfaction in my heart, and I lowered my voice to defend myself, "Probably because our positions are different, so we think differently. I only know that when Yanshan was hunting, the eldest princess heard me cry for a long time. I want to kill the first emperor. After that, I hope that everything goes well for her. No matter what she is doing, I am willing to help her."

At that time, she was not what she is now. It seemed that there was no one she could trust completely, not even him.Only the eldest princess reassured her for no reason.Those things seem to be still yesterday, the eldest princess will always praise her for her good looks, and then protect her overtly and secretly.

During the days when she was struggling, it was only with the protection of the princess that she had a little bit of peace of mind.Now that the situation has changed, she is no longer a concubine with no status in the palace, but the eldest princess is no longer as vigorous as she was then.Unable to go back to the past, she can only do her best to make the eldest princess live better.

Sometimes I thought about protecting myself, but I couldn't help but want to help.

Miao Li sighed, maybe because she was old, she often thought about the past, and then said: "Without her, there would be no me now, let alone your present. I'm afraid you are still your prince, and I Maybe it's still on Zhaoyun Mountain."

Hearing that she said that she was still on Zhaoyun Mountain, Zhou Shuxuan felt inexplicably uncomfortable.If she was still in Zhaoyun Mountain, she would have given birth to a lot of children with Lu Guangbai.

The topic seems to have strayed, this was not his original purpose.

Miao Li didn't look up, so she didn't pay attention to the change of his expression, and said to herself, "I know you have your difficulties, so I won't force you to do something, but I won't deny what I did. You can do whatever you want."

She really didn't have any ideas anymore, and she knelt in front of him like this last time.Then he was thrown into the Qingquan Palace and starved for three days. There should be no worse one than that.At that time, she wanted to survive because she had a child in her belly, and it is impossible to have one now.

There is a slight discrepancy between imagination and reality, and it feels like the last step has no way out, but I heard Zhou Shuxuan say: "I can fulfill them, but I have one request."

"What does the emperor want?"

"you!"

She doesn't want to!

But it was because she was always unwilling that Li Youfu passed away early, and even before leaving, she failed to achieve her wish and failed to marry Liu Lang, whom she had always been thinking of.Her Liulang has been depressed to this day.

Because of Li Youfu, she didn't even dare to face the people of Dingguo's family, and she couldn't forgive herself because of the lingering guilt in her heart.

The choice is again before her eyes. If she still refuses to give in this time, she will regret it again when she loses it.Instead of regretting, it's better to wrong yourself now, she doesn't care about many people anymore.

Miao Li raised her head and said firmly, "Yes."

Zhou Shuxuan sat up straight and looked at her, as if waiting for her to act.Miao Li stood up and took his hand, leading him into the back room.Is this what you want?she understands.

Pulling him to the bed, he kissed him without any hesitation.While kissing him, she reached out to untie his belt, and quickly took off his robe, pressing him on the bed.

Zhou Shuxuan let her move, but his head was a little dazed, not sure if this was what he wanted.

He deliberately came to remind her yesterday, so he knew that she would write a letter, and knew that she would definitely help the eldest princess.So people kept staring at this place and directly intercepted her letter.Holding her handle in his hand, he couldn't wait to come over and threaten her.With this effect now, it is undeniable that he succeeded.

But is this what he wants?

Yes, as long as he uses a little tricks, he can make her submit.

It didn't seem right, it wasn't what he wanted.What he wanted was her willingness, not her being forced to take the initiative.Forcing her now is the same, and probably makes her feel worse than forcing her.

When Zhou Shuxuan came back to his senses, he had already been stripped naked, and she herself was naked.

But she never looked up, her head was hanging on his chest, as if she was unwilling to face him.Zhou Shuxuan raised her head with his hand and looked into her eyes.

A pair of very clean eyes, clear and penetrating, with nothing in them.At this time, there is nothing in it, which is a kind of irony to him.

She has reached the last step, and she is about to cut to the chase, enduring the pain and continuing.Zhou Shuxuan pulled back suddenly, without the aggressiveness and complete suppression of her just now.Instead, he hid expressionlessly, helped her get dressed, and then helped himself get dressed.

Then he lay peacefully on the bed, just lying beside her, holding her in his arms, and did nothing.

If he doesn't continue today, maybe he can wait until she changes her mind.But if we continue today, we may never have that chance in our whole life.

Miao Li didn't know why he stopped, her judgment should be correct.He really wanted this. Although his eyes were out of focus just now, as if he was distracted, his body's reaction was very honest, and it hasn't subsided until now.

She didn't want this matter much in the first place, but now that he stopped by himself, she wished for it.Without asking why, she just quietly leaned into his arms.

Zhou Shuxuan played with her hair, he had a lot to say in his heart, but he didn't know how to say it.It doesn't matter, anyway, she can't listen to what she says now.

She will be very obedient to him now, as long as he opens his mouth, he will be satisfied, even if it is forced.

It's not much better than their current situation, or even worse.

After thinking about it for a long time, I still feel that I should say something now.If you don't say anything, the two will continue to be embarrassed.

After some deliberation in his heart, Zhou Shuxuan finally spoke, "If you can ask me one thing now, what do you want? Don't think about others, just about yourself."

Inexplicably changed again, Miao Li still cooperated with him.After thinking about it, "I want to go out for a walk. I haven't seen Liangzhou Yue, nor Jiang Nanyu. I heard the sound of apes on both sides of the river when I was young, but I don't remember clearly now."

Or, have a child.

Let her be a mother once, and she will die without regret.

But neither of these things is possible, not in this lifetime.The second wish, she dared not say it to him.She was destined to spend her whole life alone in the deep palace.I have been trying to escape, but have not been successful.

Sometimes I cry when I think of these things, but I feel that there is no need.Anyway, it can't be changed anymore, and crying can't solve any problems.

Zhou Shuxuan didn't say a word, thinking that she would have other demands.Unexpectedly, after so long, her thoughts have never changed.When she could still see her in the palace before the blink of an eye, what she wanted was freedom.So many things have happened, six or seven years have passed, and what she wants is still freedom.

What he did was too negligent, as if his existence hadn't changed much in her life. What was he doing these past few years?
(End of this chapter)