love you deeply

Chapter 40 Epilogue
When I think about my life, I have really failed.

The one who loves me the most is the one who is hurt the most by me.

By the time I realized it, it was too late.

During those days without you, I realized that I couldn't live without you.

Originally, I wanted to be a little more cruel and trap you by my side, even if I tried all the tricks.

But when I saw the scar on your stomach, I realized that if I did that, it would be equivalent to hurting you again.

Then what's the difference between me and Su Xi?
The biggest regret in my life is that I didn't cherish you well and didn't make you truly happy for a day.When you needed me the most, like an executioner, I showed my butcher knife at you, and in the end our children died tragically.

The moment I saw Sansan and Sisan, I was even thinking, if nothing happened to our children, would they have received all your love like Sansan and Sisi?
Sometimes, I really don't understand, I am the one who has done all the bad things, and I am the one who should be punished, why you and our children have to suffer like that.

Su Tian, ​​I'm leaving, you and San San and Si Si want to live happily, the money is enough for you to live for a lifetime.Don't refuse what I can do for you in the end, or even if I die, I won't feel at ease. "

……

Lu Jue took Su Tian's photo, entered the room, and opened the prepared gas tank.

He didn't know what Su Tian would think of himself when he saw his letter.

He couldn't take care of that much anymore.

He can't hurt Su Tian anymore, and he can't watch Su Tian with another man, so he has only one way to go, and that is death.

He is already a person who has died once, and Lu Jue is not afraid. The only regret is that Su Tian can't let Su Tian willingly hug her again when she dies.

Maybe this is the punishment he deserves?
For the rest of my life, I can't be loved!
In the room, the smell of gas became stronger and stronger, Lu Jue's breathing became weaker and weaker, and his consciousness became more and more blurred.

Just as he was about to close his eyes, he heard the sound of something being smashed, and then he saw Su Tian rushing in.

A contented smile appeared on the corner of Lu Jue's mouth. It's so good that I can see Su Tian even after I die. How wonderful it would be if this wasn't a hallucination?

……

"Lu Jue..."

"Lu Jue, wake up..."

"Lu Jue, don't you want me to hug you? I did, why don't you open your eyes?"

Lu Jue was groggy, feeling that there was chaos in front of him, and he couldn't see anything clearly.

But Su Tian's voice kept ringing in her ears, she asked herself to open her eyes, so Lu Jue really opened them.

The moment he opened his eyes, he met Su Tian's worried face.

Lu Jue was shocked, as if he couldn't believe what he saw.

Is he in heaven?

Su Tian looked at him, as if there was no loathing or hatred in his eyes.

she……

"You're awake." Su Tian looked at Lu Jue tenderly.

"I..." Lu Jue opened his mouth and found that his throat was so dry that he couldn't speak.

Su Tian picked up the water glass next to the bed and used a cotton swab to wet Lu Jue's lips little by little.

The water entered his mouth little by little, and finally moistened his throat.

"Su Tian, ​​you..."

"As you can see, I will take care of you for the rest of my life!"

Lu Jue's tears suddenly welled up.

"Su Tian, ​​you... are you telling the truth? Am I dreaming? Maybe... I'm already dead?" He asked Su Tian in a hoarse voice.

He even reached out to grab Su Tian's hand, but he was too weak to even lift his hand.

It was Su Tian who put his hand in his palm so that he could hold Su Tian's hand.

The warm touch continuously spread from the palm of his hand, and Lu Jue's broken heart seemed to be being repaired bit by bit.

He is not dreaming.

He is still alive, the person guarding him is Su Tian?

"Su Tian..."

"I'm here."

"Su Tian..."

"I'm here!" There was a bit of displeasure in the voice.

He talks so much, doesn't he know that he is still sick?
"Su Tian..." Lu Jue happily called her name.

"Call again, and I'll ask the doctor to give you a spanking needle." The smile on Su Tian's face remained undiminished, and what she said was a bit playful.

When she found Lu Jue and smelled the smell of gas coming from the house, she felt that she was about to die, she went crazy looking for something to smash on Lu Jue's door, and then used all her strength to push him out of the house drag it out.

When she made an emergency call, when she looked at Lu Jue lying unconscious on the ground, at that moment, she knew that if this man could wake up, it would be impossible for her to be separated from him for the rest of her life.

For so many years, she has liked him, from beginning to end, only him.

Lu Jue fell asleep again. When he fell asleep, his hand was still holding Su Tian tightly, as if she was afraid that she would sneak away.

Su Tian let him hold her hand and stayed with him for an afternoon.

When it was almost dinner time, she took out her mobile phone, Rong Chen called and talked about the divorce.

She and Rong Chen were originally married by contract, and there was a clause in the original agreement that either party who finds true love can file for divorce at any time, and the child belongs to Su Tian, ​​but Rong Chen has the right to visit the two children, and Rong Chen divorced without any hesitation. married.

The two of them decided on a date to go through the divorce procedures. As for the two children, what Rong Chen meant was not to tell them about it. After the children got used to Lu Jue living with them, they would talk about the divorce.

Su Tian hung up the phone, and when she looked up, she saw Lu Jue staring at her, with surprise and emotion in her eyes.

"Su Tian..."

"I know what you want to say. You are a person who died twice, and I am also a person who died once. Therefore, I know better what I need. Lu Jue, I will learn to let go of the past." Su Sweet said.

Lu Jue held her hand tightly. In his whole life, he would never let go of Su Tian's hand, no matter what happened, life or death.

……

"Lu Jue, I have a secret to tell you!"

One day many years later, Su Tian lay under the quilt and whispered something in Lu Jue's ear.

"kindness?"

"Actually, our children didn't die back then. Sansan and Sisan were your children. And my marriage with Rong Chen is also a contract. I have never loved any man other than you."

At that moment, an ecstatic smile appeared on Lu Jue's face. He reached out and hugged Su Tian into his arms. Hot tears fell into Su Tian's neck one by one, soaking her entire clothes.

For the rest of their lives, their family of four will never be separated again!

(It's over! Huh~ I took a long breath of relief, what a cruel abuse! It's Fengfeng's first time to write a live speech, there are many shortcomings, I hope everyone can understand, thank you for accompanying me to finish this book! See you next book)

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