Gu Pan Sheng Zi

Chapter 4N.5
Where there are children, there is no peace and quiet. Sometimes they clamor for this one, and sometimes they think that is not delicious.Although only four people are enough to disturb the people.Afraid of being cold and hurting the child's stomach, I ordered a lot of cooked food, steaming hot pot, and the faint milky fragrance from the bottom of the soy milk pot.Guan Guan was drinking soup from a porcelain bowl, and when he was done, he still stuck out his tongue to lick the side of the bowl.

Suddenly, I felt like a world away.

Everything in the past is as illusory as illusion, as elusive and elusive as floating clouds, and the only real thing that can be determined is Guan Guan, my daughter.

For her, I only owe, but never regret.

Who is young and not frivolous, for those unscrupulous days, I don't want to always be jealous and complain from the perspective of a resentful woman.There is no right or wrong in love itself, if you love, you will love, and if you love, you will bear the consequences.Therefore, I choose to forget and pay attention to the life in front of me, but I will not deliberately avoid memories, even though it is a kind of self-torture similar to whipping.

I had a very pleasant meal. Most of the time, dinners are just a part of my work. Playing around with a smile, holding a glass of wine and talking happily, is just entertainment with a fake smile.It's been a long time since we had such a simple meal and chat.

Xiang Jie turned out to be a sea turtle too, but he swam farther than me, and spent several years in Chicago.During the conversation, English with American pronunciation popped up from time to time.

I have been to Chicago, a night flight of more than ten hours, but someone wants to watch the Chicago Bulls game.And I know nothing about basketball, I only know a Kobe through lace news.When people ask me whether Kobe is handsome or Bryant is handsome, I still say Kobe is handsome than Bryant.I am used to the quietness of Japan, but the cheers and cheers that almost toppled the ceiling made me feel at a loss.Basketball is a sport that advocates speed and passion. The enthusiasm of the fans is probably not enough to describe.

Xiang Jie said: "Living in Chicago as a Lakers fan is very painful."

I laughed, "Compared to the tens of thousands of fans of the Rockets living in China, you can be content."

He said: "Gu Panzi, I found that you still have a young mouth."

As soon as he finished speaking, he immediately realized that it was easy to cause ambiguity, and raised his hand and said, "I definitely didn't mean that."

I smiled lightly, and gave Guan Guan an egg roll.

After the meal, Xiang Zhen sent us back to the kindergarten to pick up the car, and then said goodbye politely.

In the evening, I received a text message from him, "Sorry, I lied in front of the child, but I actually meant that."

I didn't reply, so I tucked Guan Guan's quilt and went to the kitchen to warm up a glass of milk.

I bought this two-bedroom house with a loan, and I have to repay the mortgage a lot every month.When the cold and hard building is given the warmth of home, it can give people a sense of security and a sense of stable existence, so I cherish this house. Every time I drink, I don’t want to come back here with a smell of alcohol, so I simply go Joe can open a room at the hotel where he works.

Guan Guan once asked me, why can't I stay at home with me every day.

I told her that because kindergarten teachers and children can teach her more knowledge.

It’s not that I don’t want to be with her every day, but that I don’t allow myself to be so selfish. I can’t let her stay with me all the time. Children in single-parent families are inevitably lonely. I don’t want Guan Guan to face me all the time and lose opportunities to meet others.I don't want the uncertainty and insecurity hidden in my bones to appear in Guan Guan's character.

On Sunday, Qiao Ke took Guan Guan to the mall.

Qiao Ke insisted that girls' aesthetics should be cultivated from an early age. When Guan Guan appeared in front of me wearing a low-cut black lace dress, wearing smoky makeup, and dyed her nails in rainbow colors, I regretted it.

Then Qiao Ke and I recalled our young, frivolous and unscrupulous youth, and couldn't help admiring, it's really sb.

But I insist that Qiao Ke's style is too loli, it reminds me of the cosplay on the streets of Harajuku, Tokyo.

"Damn it, people from your village have no right to speak."

I stood on the sidelines and watched the young and old try on all kinds of pink clothes, deeply feeling that I was left out.

While drinking coffee, Qiao Ke glanced at Guan Guan, who was happily playing in the toy area, and asked me: "You are getting older, are you really going to be so single all the time?"

"Then I can't bear the loneliness, I want to talk about Guan Guan when he is older."

"Don't grow up anymore. No matter how big you are, you will have more psychological thoughts, and it will be difficult to establish a relationship."

I think it makes sense after thinking about it, and I also know that no one will reward me for pretending to be a chaste and strong woman, not to mention that in that person's mind, I am a living example that should be soaked in a pig cage, even if I pretend I can't pretend. "Okay, sister's happiness for the rest of her life will be left to you."

Qiao Ke looked at me contemptuously, "Look, it's terrible to be uneducated, and you're really nasty to manipulate this verb."

I was speechless.

"Oh, yes, Yuxin is coming back."

"Oh, why didn't she tell me?"

"Tell me that I can book a hotel for her, but what's the point of telling you?"

"I can book her a plane ticket."

"She just doesn't want to bother you, let me tell you, just wash it up and wait for her to come back."

I took out my notebook, "It's not too late, I have to think about what cosmetics I still lack at home."

Qiao Ke immediately came over, "Yes, I also want to buy some cosmeceuticals."

(End of this chapter)