sleepless tonight

Chapter 17

The atmosphere was a bit rosy, so I didn't stay any longer, and I couldn't say any more words of concern, so I went out.

The woman and I are just neighbors, and I don't even know her name until now. I didn't ask, and I don't want to ask.

Living in a 160-square-meter house, driving an Audi A6, young and beautiful, with a child, the house is deserted, and I haven't even seen a man. All the signs combined, the woman must be taken care of.

Willing to be taken care of, mostly for money.

Such a woman should be an excellent object for flirting with each other. Maybe it costs three to five hundred yuan, and she can have a sex to solve her physiological needs.

But I don't feel this way about her, and I don't have much thought of helping her, I just feel that she is lonely, a little pitiful, and I sympathize with her from the bottom of my heart.

A woman with a child, guarding such a big house, no one to take care of her, sick and no one around her, perhaps, this is the price of the mistress?

After feeding Chen Le with milk powder, I took the old bed sheet, brought the baby bottle, put some milk powder in a plastic bag, and carried Chen Le to the overpass again.

Yesterday's business was pretty good, so I decided to make persistent efforts.

"You can't do this. The child is too young, and it's okay for two days occasionally. How can you take the child out like this every day? The child will not be able to bear it. If he is sick and hurts, it will be too late to regret it at that time. Brother Zheng couldn't help but said when he saw that I was taking Chen Le with me again.

He must have thought of his daughter.

How hard life is, who doesn't want to enjoy it?But the reality will always bring helplessness one after another, making people exhausted.

It is said that suffering can make a person mature as soon as possible, but such suffering is not worth mentioning.

I smiled and didn't answer, because I didn't know how to answer, so I was speechless.

"That person yesterday was your friend?" Brother Zheng squatted beside me, "Did you bring cigarettes?"

"Didn't you quit smoking?" I asked strangely, took out a cigarette, and gave him one, "Do you want to get started?"

"I have." Brother Zheng took out the lighter, lit the cigarette, glanced at Chen Le in my arms, moved to the side, took a deep breath, and exhaled a thin puff of smoke after a long time, " I want to quit, but what’s the point of quitting? If the child is gone, what am I doing alive? Just keep smoking.”

Zheng Ge's eyes were a little confused, the wrinkles on his forehead seemed to be carved, and they were so stiff that there was no change in the slightest. He raised his head and looked at the tall buildings in the distance.

"How is the baby?" I asked.

"I'm doing chemotherapy." Brother Zheng sighed, "He's a good kid, he's too skinny. Brother, I'm not afraid of your jokes, I'm afraid of going to the hospital every day."

"I'm afraid to see the child. The way she looks at me makes my heart feel like a knife is piercing. Really, I really feel that my heart is being cut and bleeding a little bit."

"Sometimes I even saw the expression on the child's face when she looked at me, and I thought it might be a good thing if she could just leave like this, at least she wouldn't have to endure endless pain."

"Don't say that, there is hope only when people exist." I persuaded, "If people are gone, there is really nothing left."

"Yeah, I think so too, I hope there will be a miracle." Brother Zheng nodded and sighed, "I hope there will be a miracle."

There were only 20 pairs of insoles left yesterday, and they were sold out before noon. I asked Zheng Ge to help me look at the stall, and I carried Chen Le to the wholesale market to buy another [-] pairs of insoles.

"Yesterday, that person doesn't look like an ordinary friend to you. Since he works in the business district, he must have some contacts. Asking him to find you a job is much better than setting up a stall here?" I returned with the insole Brother Zheng said.

Brother Zheng was talking about Wudong.

Wu Dong also entered Tsinghua University and was in the same school as Tang Wan.

In high school, the three of us often studied together. Wudong’s grades were slightly worse. When I entered the class, I was in the 20s. I was No.3, and Tang Wan had the best grades, the first in the class, and the first in age.

However, Wudong studied hard. By the time of the last monthly exam before the college entrance examination, his overall score had steadily entered the top ten in the school, sometimes even higher than mine.

At that time, the three of us made an appointment to enter Tsinghua University together, go to Jinchun Garden together, and feel the moonlight in the lotus pond.

I even dreamed that after graduation, the three of us would go to the same company, and even threatened that company to hire all three of us, otherwise none of us would enter.

But now, I am alone in Tianqiao, and Wu Dong and Tang Wan have realized their original lofty ambitions.

While I was gratified and happy, I felt a little inferior. The gap between me and the two had widened, and our lives led each other into two worlds.

"No, he's only been working for three or four years. How can he find me a job so quickly?" I shook my head.

"That's not necessarily the case. Chinese society is a society of human relationships. He may not have reached that level, and he doesn't have the ability to directly arrange jobs for you, but what about the people he knows?" Zheng Ge said.

"Believe me, since you have this resource, use it well and don't waste it. And don't feel embarrassed, besides drinking, eating and chatting together, shouldn't friends help each other?"

"But I just want to drink, eat and chat." I said.

Friends, if there are other things mixed in and interests are involved, are they still friends?

"Stupid, believe you, Brother Zheng, I won't lie to you. I'm someone who has been there, and my assets have exceeded tens of millions." Brother Zheng continued to persuade me, "Don't feel embarrassed, there should be a relationship between people. It’s about helping each other, not to mention being friends, it’s even more so.”

"Feng Shui turns around. Today he helped you, maybe you will help him tomorrow. At that time, just return the care."

I bowed my head and remained silent. After a while, I looked at Brother Zheng and smiled: "What do you think I can do for someone who hasn't graduated from high school?"

"I also didn't graduate from high school, but didn't I still have a good time?" Brother Zheng said.

"This is a special case. Everyone is human, but not everyone can become Jack Ma." I said, "Also, I always feel that as a friend, it is better not to involve these interests, otherwise the relationship will deteriorate. .”

I can be troubled by others, but I don't want to trouble others, especially my friends, I don't want to embarrass others.

Friends, it is enough to drink a little wine once in a while, chat about life, and reminisce about the past.

At noon, the number of people buying insoles suddenly increased.

This excites me.

But when I got to the back, I felt something was wrong.

In an hour, more than 100 pairs of insoles were sold. Some people even bought ten pairs at once without even looking at them. They just took them and left without asking the price.

"How's the business?" Wu Dong came to my stall.

Wu Dong didn't come alone, Tang Wan was also there.

"So-so." I stood up, trying to keep my demeanor as calm as possible.

I kept shouting in my heart, setting up a stall is not a shameful thing, I support myself and my daughter with my hands, there is no shame in it.

"Give me ten pairs of insoles." Tang Wan suddenly said to me.

My brow wrinkled all at once.

"It's you, right?" I looked at Logan.

"What?" Logan also frowned.

"Don't pretend you don't know, those people who came to buy insoles just now were arranged by you, right?" My voice was loud, and I got angry for some reason, "I don't need your sympathy, I have the ability to support myself, You don't need to do that."

"What are you talking about?" Logan was originally picking out the insoles, but when she heard this, she put down the insoles in her hand, stood up, looked at me, her tone was very cold.

"I know you are a top student at Tsinghua University, with higher education and ability than me, but I don't need your care, you are insulting me." I pointed at Logan, "I have nothing to do with you, but It's just that I was familiar with it in high school, you really don't need to treat me like this."

Logan's face collapsed immediately, her eyes seemed to be frosty, she stared at me: "You said, you have nothing to do with me?"

Instinctively, I want to retract this sentence, because this sentence seems to be a bit heavy.

However, when I think of Logan helping me in this way, I feel extremely humiliated.

"Isn't it?" I asked rhetorically, deferring the question to her.

(End of this chapter)