sleepless tonight

Chapter 276
"Three or four years, I don't know for sure, maybe I will continue my studies, the time may be longer, or I may just stay abroad." Logan said.

My heart skipped a beat, and I stared at Logan.

She actually said that she wanted to stay abroad. Judging by her appearance, it seemed that she really had this plan, not like she was joking.

"Why do you want to stay abroad?" I asked.

"Don't you know yourself?" Logan looked at me.

I was stopped by the question, and there was no sound for a long time, unable to answer Logan's question.

"The country is actually quite good. When you go abroad alone, you are not familiar with the place, and the customs and habits are different. There is no need to go abroad. Even if you want to study, you don't have to settle there. It's not good. "I said.

"Anyway, there's nothing wrong with being alone, I've long been used to loneliness." Tang Wan said, "It's the same everywhere, and when I go abroad, no one will show me face or gossip about me behind my back. "

I smiled wryly, and every word Logan said was sarcasm.

"I'm afraid that people will say that it's better to change cities. At least in China, I know the basics and have more confidence. When I go abroad, I have headaches and brain fever, and no one takes care of my illness and cold." I persuaded.

It is precisely because I know that the reason why Logan went abroad may be related to me. She went abroad with a temper. If she really went to study, of course I would bring my best wishes.

But if it is with resentment, going out is just to escape, or even not coming back after going abroad, I don't want to see this.

"No one will take care of me in China." Logan glanced at me, "Will you take care of me?"

I was silent.

Logan turned around and left.

"Hey." I called out to her.

Logan turned her head and looked at me.

"I was in a bad mood just now, and I'm not angry with you. Really, no matter what you do to me, I won't be angry." I said, "You don't need to go abroad because of this."

"Aren't you angry? But you made a big fuss on my birthday. I just explained to you that Liu Chuang took the recorder away, but you didn't move at all. You didn't respond at all, and you still refused to talk to me." Tang Wan said.

"Being angry... getting angry is just an excuse for me to play." I sighed and said to Logan, "I don't want to hurt you or others. All I can do is try my best to let myself make a choice."

"The other person you are talking about is Tong Wangjun or Su Ran?" Tang Wan looked at me, "The choice you made was to abandon me and choose the two of them. Don't say that you are wronged, it should be me. "

Logan left after speaking.

Looking at the back of her leaving, I still have a lot of questions to ask. She left, what about her company, is she really not going back to China, and where is she going to settle down?

It's a pity that these words couldn't be asked after all, because they didn't make any sense.

Perhaps it would be better for Logan to leave and change to a farther away environment, so that the resentment and grievance in her heart can be reduced a little, and she can return to the way she was in high school.

Logan at that meeting was the best.

Today, there are too many bad things.

But I can't blame it, because it happens to be me who brings distracting thoughts to Logan.

Tong Wangjun moved with the child, and there is no news, Tang Wan is leaving too. The women I feel guilty about are far away from me, and my world has returned to peace.

I don't want to admit it, but I do feel a lot easier.

But I understand that this is only because of the distance. The guilt is hidden deep in my heart, and I am not sure when it will resurface and mess up my life again.

My life is like the lake in front of me.

The bottom of the lake is full of mud, and the lake looks clear, but that's only because no one stirs it. If someone goes in for a couple of laps, it will definitely be muddy.

I stared at the lake, walked slowly to the lake, and squatted down.

Looking at the indistinct reflection in the lake, I slammed my head against the lake, held my breath, and got up after a while, then slapped myself hard.

This slap is my own punishment.

I'm a scumbag.

With Tong Wangjun's departure and Tang Wan's departure, I actually felt a sense of relief in my heart.

Their departure made me passively make a choice. The originally chaotic life was like a life like a muddy lake, and the impurities inside settled down.

Relying on the initiative of the two of them, I got the comfort I wanted to pursue.

After wiping off the water droplets on my face, I went out of the grove and returned to the road before I got into the car, only to find that the paint on the co-pilot's door was a little peeled off.

The paint is peeling off.

I just bought a new car, and the paint is peeling off.

For no reason, something that shouldn't have happened at all, I found a stone on the side of the car tire, and I suspected that someone had hit it with this stone.

I am a little puzzled.

I looked left and right, but I didn't see any bears. Could it be Logan?
Shaking my head, I didn't want to pursue it anymore, so I drove back to the community.

After taking a shower, I lay on the bed, ready to have a good sleep, I was too sleepy, I waited outside Tong Wangjun's house all night, I didn't sleep well at all, and I even caught a cold.

But just after I fell asleep, my phone rang and I received a text message from Tong Wangjun. I clicked on it immediately: Did you tell your parents about our quarrel?

Her name has changed again.

Tong Wangjun's anger seemed to have dissipated, and he regained his senses.

I called her immediately, but no one answered, she still put me on the blacklist, and I sent her a message back: answer my call.My mother misses the child a little bit, it happens to be summer vacation, it is inconvenient for you to take two children with you, let me watch the children.

Tong Wangjun quickly replied to my message: You don't need to take care of the child, I will take it with me.You don't talk to your parents about our affairs in the future, I won't answer your calls, I don't want to talk to you.

I called Tong Wangjun again, but she didn't call me back.

I was a little puzzled, why Tong Wangjun sent me back a message suddenly, and still asked me if I told my mother about my quarrel with her.

Could it be that my mother called her?

With this guess, I immediately called my mother: "Mom, have you called Tong Wangjun?"

"Well, I called and didn't say anything, just to persuade you two not to quarrel, and I'll wait for you to apologize for her, no matter what, it's wrong for you to hit someone." Sure enough, my mother called her, "You two should ease up the relationship and have a good life. However, I don't know why it's like this. If you two can live well, you don't have to come back often. Your father and I can work together for a few years, and you don't need to take care of it. Just take care of yourself."

"I know." I sighed, not knowing what to say to my mother.

There are some things that can be resolved without my agreement, and it's not that I haven't apologized to Tong Wangjun, but she is still angry, and I can't control it.

"If the two of you really can't get along, it's better to get together and break up. Don't make troubles. The girl named Su Ran is also very good. Are you two continuing to develop?" My mother thought about Su Ran again.

I didn't know what to say, so I was silent for a while before I said, "Mom, just leave this matter alone. If you have a destiny, you will succeed naturally. If you don't, it's meaningless to struggle. Besides, there's nothing wrong with not getting married. There's not that much trouble." things, just live a happy life, isn’t life the pursuit of these things, it shouldn’t be too pedantic.”

"What pedantry? How is this pedantic? Look at the people around you who are not married. Everyone has to get married. When you get old, you have to have a companion. Otherwise, it's so pitiful. You can't have this idea." My mother was anxious when she heard this. "Don't ask too much. Be polite to other girls. Men, it's right to let women go. Don't always be stubborn."

"I know." I had to suppress the thoughts that came up in my heart.

You can't tell your parents about these thoughts.

In their eyes, life is an established track, or follow the crowd, and they have to do what others do, especially when it comes to marriage, they have to follow the herd.

But I'm really exhausted physically and mentally.

Can't afford to love.

"If it really doesn't work, find someone to introduce one to you?" My mother was still worried.

"What's the use of an introduction? Forcibly marrying, then getting divorced after getting married. What's the use? You can't get married just because of marriage. You don't care about it. I know it myself." I didn't want my mother to meddle in this matter, saying After a few words, I hung up the phone.

Lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, I sighed heavily.

People, do we have to follow the life trajectory of others?
Do we have to live in accordance with the concepts recognized by the public?

Could it be that there can't be any changes, can't it be that you can't walk according to your own heart?

As long as it is within the scope of laws and regulations, why should we care about other people's opinions, why can't we follow our own heart?
(End of this chapter)