sleepless tonight

Chapter 550 Pure White and Flawless Paper

"I'll go out right away, you wait a little longer." The cigarette in my mouth got a little wet, but I didn't stifle it.

If it had been different, I would never have smoked in the bathroom, at least when Su Ran was by my side, I would not have done so.I will take care that I am not alone in this small space. Su Ran will also come in and wash up. Smoking in it will definitely affect her.

But right now I don't care about it, it seems that I want to vent my unhappiness on purpose, in this way, thinking that when Su Ran comes in and smells the smoke inside, I feel a little revenge in my heart pleasure.

I did this not because I hated Su Ran so much, but because when I was criticized by an adult like a child, I made a mess of the house and threw away the toys in my hand like a child.

This has nothing to do with hatred. Su Ran and I have experienced some unhappiness and had some quarrels just now, but in any case, it has not risen to the level of hatred. Ran said those words express dissatisfaction.

I was reluctant to quarrel with her, so I could only vent my inner dissatisfaction in this way.

After smoking the cigarette in my mouth, I rushed to the body again, rinsed my mouth, and then came out, Su Ran was standing in front of the door, and before leaving, I said to her: "There is a smell of smoke inside, please wait a while before going in. "

I went back to the room, closed the door, and lay down on the bed.

I was thinking, thinking about the relationship between Shen Chong and Su Ran. Su Ran told me long ago that Shen Chong was chasing her, but she didn't agree.The relationship between two people is not a couple, but it doesn't seem to be called an enemy, it should be a relationship between friends.

However, this relationship should be in Su Ran's cognition. As far as Shen Chong is concerned, he is still chasing Su Ran and trying to impress Su Ran in every possible way.

Su Ran allows me to have contact with the opposite sex, she is at ease, but I am worried about her contact with the opposite sex, especially when I know that the opposite sex has plans for her.

Man, it's so weird.

I try to be generous with myself, but I can't be generous.

I know that Su Ran is definitely not the kind of person who is in two boats, but as for Shen Chong, since she did not break the face with Shen Chong, and is willing to listen to Shen Chong's words and confront me with Shen Chong's words, then Shen Chong There should be a certain amount of weight in her heart.

This is not something incomprehensible. Shen Chong has a high degree of education, a lot of experience, and is a rich second generation with a wide range of knowledge. Since he can make Shao Siqi abandon me and join his entertainment company, there is naturally a way to give it to Su Ran. I put on eye drops.

I understand this, and I know that what Shen Chong said to Su Ran must be aimed at me. He put eye drops on me at Su Ran's place, but I was still angry and felt very uncomfortable.

If it weren't for Shen Chong's words, even if Su Ran knew that I brought food to Siqi's to cook for her, Su Ran would definitely not think too much about it, and would still trust me as before.

But now there are some cracks in these trusts. Shen Chong's words are like nails, breaking Su Ran's trust in me.

This is where I feel uncomfortable. Shen Chong's words carry weight to Su Ran, and that's why I'm unhappy.

I let out a long breath and looked at the door. Su Ran didn't come in, and there was no movement outside. I was thinking, should I take the initiative to go out and ease the relationship with Su Ran?
I don't want to make Su Ran sad. Although I still have some knots in my heart, it's not that important compared to Su Ran's possible sadness.

I sat up and finally made up my mind. It's not good to have a cold war with Su Ran. I'm a man, so I should be more magnanimous. Besides, Su Ran was so magnanimous and reassuring to me before.Now I just have some doubts and asked me a few more questions. I shouldn't make a fuss over a molehill.

I opened the door and went to the bathroom to check. The door was wide open. I didn't know if Su Ran had finished washing or not. Anyway, no one was inside. I went upstairs and heard some voices. Su Ran was taking a nap. Telephone.

"I had some quarrels with him. After I told him what you said to me, he felt uncomfortable. Just now he was hiding in the bathroom to smoke alone. He never looked like this before, yes Because I don't trust him, that's why he is like this." Su Ran was talking.

I can probably guess who Su Ran is calling, probably Shen Chong. Although I feel a little uncomfortable, what Su Ran said warms my heart. She knows that I am hiding in the bathroom and smoking. Not happy.

She made a point of going to the bathroom door to ask just now, probably because she cared about me and was worried that something might happen to me.

Su Ran paused for a while, it should be Shen Chong who was talking, after a while, Su Ran said again: "I know that you asked me out on purpose to tell me these things, and it was nothing more than to provoke the relationship between me and Chen Jin .Although I knew you were aiming for this, I still did what you expected. When Chen Jin came back, I asked him. I thought I could do what I was before and give him enough Trust, but this time I didn't. I really shouldn't have agreed to go out to dinner with you."

Su Ran felt regretful, regretted going out to eat with Shen Chong, regretted listening to Shen Chong's words, I blamed myself even more after hearing this, maybe I really shouldn't take Su Ran's generosity as a bargaining chip to make an inch, Su Ran She is generous and doesn't mind my contact with female friends, but I shouldn't challenge her generosity unscrupulously.

In fact, the responsibility lies with me. Su Ran is not at fault.

"Yes, there is some truth in what you said, I will pay attention to it." I don't know what Shen Chong said again, but Su Ran actually gave such an agreeable reply, "Chen Jin's desire is very strong, if I let him If it continues like this, I don't have much confidence in stopping him, maybe it's right to remind him once in a while."

I just wanted to go into Su Ran's room and apologize to her, but when I heard Su Ran's words, I stopped again, walked a little to the side, and hid myself by the door.

I let out a long sigh, Su Ran seems to have listened to some of Shen Chong's words, and will follow Shen Chong's suggestion.

Why did things become like this?

"Why are you here?" Su Ran finished the phone call, took her clothes out of the room, and was supposed to be going to take a shower, when she saw me standing outside the door.

"Were you on the phone with Shen Chong just now?" I asked her.

"Did you hear that?" Su Ran's eyes flashed with panic, "I didn't say anything to him, I just talked about some ordinary things."

"I know." I nodded. The panic in Su Ran's eyes should be because she was worried about my wild thoughts. I can understand her current mood, but there are some things that I can't understand, and I don't agree with Su Ran doing that, "You don't have to So nervous, I know there is nothing between you and him, but you really don't want to listen to what he says."

"I heard you call him just now. You said that my desire is very strong. You want to control me and remind me. Yes, my desire is indeed very strong, but after being with you, I have been controlling With this kind of desire, I have been thinking about your feelings, and I didn't let my kind of desire overflow, you don't need to listen to Shen Chong's words, and deliberately control my kind of desire."

I looked at Su Ran: "I know this kind of desire is not good, but I will restrain myself. Do you know why I like you, why do I fall in love with you? It is because you have a temperament, a tolerant temperament , you are very tolerant and magnanimous towards people and things, that's why I was deeply attracted. Coupled with your sense of loneliness, people can't help but want to take care of you, but now you If there is more jealousy in your body, how much difference is there between you and ordinary women? It is like a drop of black stain suddenly appearing on a piece of pure white and flawless paper. Don't pay attention, that piece of white paper has been polluted, this is an indisputable fact. I don't want you to become like that, I hope you are still the original you, the tolerant Su Ran without jealousy, the same A sheet of pure white and flawless paper."

"Don't listen to Shen Chong, trust me, you have to trust me." I looked at Su Ran.

(End of this chapter)