sleepless tonight

Chapter 587
"What about the relationship between the two of us?" Su Ran asked me.

"As you said, the two of us are not suitable anymore." I said, "Let's break up, so that you can continue to find a man who makes you trustworthy, and you don't have to face me anymore."

My heart is really bleeding, and when I say this, my heart hurts very much, with tears in my eyes, I try hard to keep it from flowing out, but the tears still swirl and fall from the eye sockets. cheek.

I turned my back to Su Ran, and didn't raise my hand to wipe away the tears on my face. I just looked up at the sky to ease my emotions, suppressed all the stuffy feeling in my heart, and didn't show it.

"Where are you going now?" Su Ran asked me.

Her voice was also a little choked up, I knew she was crying, after all, she was in love once, even now, there may be some love, but the love is mixed with other things, it is no longer so pure.This is no longer a question of running in or not. There is a feeling of distrust from the bottom of my heart, which is difficult to eliminate. There is no need to force it, it will only make it more painful.

When I saw the puzzled expression in Su Ran's eyes, I knew it might really end like this. Whether I like it or not, this is the best result.

I didn't answer Su Ran's words, where I go has nothing to do with her, and there's no need to tell her, so what?
The most important thing is that I am worried that if I say it, my voice will change and become hoarse. I don't want Su Ran to hear my strangeness. I am maintaining the last bit of my dignity.

It was me who said the word breakup, but it was Su Ran who could decide to break up.

I walked slowly along the road without going back to the place to eat. I was standing in the opposite direction to Su Ran. After walking for about tens of meters, I took out my mobile phone and texted Mo Xue and Zheng Wensen respectively. A message: "I'm back to Wuchang, so I won't go to see you anymore, you go back early to rest."

I dare not go back, I am afraid that Mo Xue and Zheng Wensen will see me in such a distraught state, I don't want to be pitied, and I don't want to go to the airport now, I can't arouse any interest in doing anything, I just want to wander Walk aimlessly, walk.

I don't know how long I walked, I was a little tired, I found a place to squat down, and finally just sat on the ground, looking at the light shining from the tall buildings in front of me.

I don't know how long I looked at it, and I didn't see what it looked like. My mind was in chaos, but in the chaos, Su Ran's shadow kept rolling in my mind.From the moment I first met her, every bit of scene emerged in my mind.

My heart suddenly hurt so much, I reached out and grabbed my chest, and wept with my head dripping.

Every time I recall it, my guilt has deepened a lot. I feel that I have sinned deeply. I am angry with Su Ran, but I am even more guilty. If Su Ran hadn't met me, maybe she was still so pure, so white, yes I defiled her, I was ashamed of my trust in her and made her suspicious of people.

I'm still thinking about Su Ran's goodness, she is really good.

I suddenly regretted why I teased Su Ran, why I got closer to her, and even if I didn't confess my love to her, I wouldn't establish a relationship with her.Everything may be so beautiful, why did you reach out to pick this flower, why did you touch her?

I should just watch her from a distance.

I cried even more sadly, and I don't know if it was because of the breakup, or because of the guilt in my heart, maybe there are two reasons.

I got pushed on the shoulder.

I looked up and looked sideways, and found that it was Mo Xue. I looked around, but I didn't see Zheng Wensen, and Mo Xue was alone: ​​"Why are you here?"

"You're crying so sad, why don't I come over and have a look, in case you get caught up and commit suicide, how can I explain to your parents, how can I explain to your daughter?" Mo Xue stuffed the tissue into my hand, "Wipe your snot and tears, a big man, crying like this, do you still want to face? The few people who passed by just now looked at your eyes, you didn't notice, they probably thought you lost your virginity, That's why I cried so sad."

"Whatever they think." I don't care anymore, "Where is Brother Zheng, why didn't he come with you?"

"After you sent the two of us a message, we came out. I asked him to go back first, and I drove behind you by myself. Did you really break up?" Mo Xue squatted beside me.

"Followed me, what do you mean? Since I sent you a text message, you have been following me, or did you follow me after you found me?" I didn't understand.

It seemed that I was a little tired from squatting, and Mo Xue also followed my example and sat on the ground: "I didn't install a positioning system on your mobile phone, BJ is so big, I didn't follow you at the beginning, where will I go later?" Looking for you? Do you really think that coincidences can happen casually?"

"You followed me all the way without saying hello, watching me walk for so long?" I was really embarrassed, I was not in a good mood, and I even cried for more than an hour, all of which were covered by Mo Xue Looking at it carefully, it made me a little ashamed.

If they were strangers, if they didn't know each other, they would just read it when they saw it, but Mo Xue was an acquaintance.

"Now you know I'm sorry? Why didn't you think about it when you were crying? You felt embarrassed when I saw you, but you didn't see it. You walked all the way. What kind of eyes did those people look at you?" Mo Xue said , "Isn't it just a breakup? With your current worth, what kind of woman can't be found?"

"Women can indeed be found, but it is very difficult to find a woman who is like you." I sighed, "Don't talk about this, and you don't have to stay with me anymore. The clock is turning now, you go back, home People should be worried."

"I'm going back, how about you? Where are you going?" Mo Xue asked me.

"I'll find a hotel to stay in first, and return to Wuchang tomorrow morning." I said, "I'm sorry for today, but next time you go to Wuchang with Brother Zheng, I'll treat you to dinner again."

Mo Xue stood up: "Let's go."

I was a little strange and looked up at her: "Where are you going?"

Seen from the bottom up, Mo Xue looks very heroic and has a good figure, and the most admirable thing is that her tone of voice makes people feel inexplicably stable, and people feel very dependable.

Just having this thought made me feel ashamed in my heart. I am a man and Mo Xue is a woman. Why do I feel a sense of dependence on Mo Xue?

Maybe it's because of Mo Xue's strength. There is no distinction between men and women. It has something to do with character and strength.

"Go to my house." Mo Xue said, "You have come to BJ. As a landlord, I definitely can't let you stay in a hotel. In case you can't get over your knot in the hotel and jump from the window of the hotel, I'd be guilty."

"The window of the hotel can only open a gap to let the wind out a little, how can I jump?" I said, "It's really unnecessary. I will go to your house like this and cause trouble for you. Just find a hotel and stay there." Thank you for walking with me all the way."

"It's you who are walking, and I'm driving." Mo Xue pulled me up, "Stop talking, hurry up and follow me. Do you know that women who rest late will age quickly, so you dawdle here, It's killing my life, understand?"

Mo Xue half pulled and half dragged me to the car, closed the door, sat in the driver's cab, looked back at me: "Fasten your seat belt."

I put on my seat belt, but I was still a little embarrassed: "Who are there in your family? If you take me home so late, it won't cause you any trouble, right?"

"Why do you look like a woman, mother-in-law?" Mo Xue seemed a little annoyed by my question, "No wonder Su Ran dumped you, if it were me, I wouldn't be able to bear it either."

"I'm thinking about it for you." I said, "Bringing a strange man back in the middle of the night, and letting your parents see it, I don't know what I will think, and I will add trouble to you at that time, and I will be very happy." guilt."

"Don't worry, it won't happen. They're still hoping that I can bring a few more men back." Mo Xue said, "If you're going to be tired, you can rest for a while. It will take an hour or two to arrive."

(End of this chapter)