sleepless tonight

Chapter 84 Responsibilities
Liu Yuan has resentment towards her ex-boyfriend, but she hates herself, the kind that breaks the can.

"Does he know you are like this?" Logan asked.

Liu Yuan shook her head. After talking for a while, she seemed tired: "I don't know, I don't know if he knows, but what if he knows, so what if he doesn't know? I'm already like this."

A grain of rat droppings can ruin a pot of porridge, but the porridge is still good, not poisonous, but it just looks disgusting and I have no desire to eat it.

Liu Yuan's situation should be similar to this. After getting married, she feels that her life has already been set, and she has no expectations for the future, so she will solve the problem by jumping off a building.

"Teacher, your life is still very long, and you have only passed one third of it. If you can't make it through, you can get a divorce. It's fine to live alone." I expressed my thoughts.

Too many things shackle people's thinking, making people walk through life along a fixed route.

If you go off the rails, you will be labeled as unfilial, and the alternative vocabulary will make you mentally tortured.

Liu Yuan didn't speak, she leaned her head on the pillow and closed her eyes.

There are tears in the corner of the eye.

I waved to Logan and left the ward.

"Ms. Liu came back to life, but her heart is still dead." Tang Wan said in a low voice, feeling very depressed.

When you come to a place like a hospital, not many people can get excited.

"I didn't expect such a peaceful person to be angry with her boyfriend, agree to the blind date arrangement at home, and get married in a flash." I sighed, feeling sorry for Liu Yuan, "If she wasn't so impulsive, not so willful, her life would be different." It will definitely be different."

Logan looked sideways at me.

"What's wrong?" Logan's eyes made me puzzled, as if I was talking about her.

"It's nothing." Logan shook her head, remained silent, her emotions were affected, she walked with her head down and didn't say much.

When I got outside the hospital, I stopped: "I'm going to the store."

Logan wants to go back, it must be a different way, I am saying goodbye to her.

"Whose fault do you think this happened?" Tang Wan suddenly asked, "Is it Teacher Liu's fault alone?"

"They are all wrong, but Teacher Liu's fault is more. If she gave herself more time to calm down, instead of forcing her boyfriend to do things she doesn't like, and gave his boyfriend some time, the result would not be like this." I know Logan is talking about Liu Yuan.

"Don't you think her boyfriend is irresponsible, that's why this result happened?" Tang Wan stood by Liu Yuan's side.

It's no wonder that they are all women, and naturally they all have the common characteristics of women.

"The two are living together, not comparing and showing off. It doesn't mean anything to say that the wedding dress is casual. This matter is like worshiping Buddha. Kneeling there and worshiping will really make life safe and make money?" I am very disgusted with these things Mental paralysis, "Wedding dresses, weddings, including marriages, are nothing more than procedures. The important thing for two people to be together is happiness, happiness, being together, not these superficial things."

"A woman has only one marriage, who doesn't want to dress up beautifully?" Tang Wan said.

"Do men marry twice?" I asked.

Logan was silent for a while: "When two people are happy together, they may not necessarily come together."

I think there is something in Logan's words, and she seems to be mirroring it.

"There are many helplessness and misunderstandings in life. The situation you mentioned does exist, and Teacher Liu is like this." I said, the situation Tang Wan said does exist.

"What about you? Did you marry Tong Wangjun because you were happy?" Tang Wan asked me suddenly, raised her lowered head and looked at me.

I want to smoke a little bit, with my hands in my pockets, holding the cigarette case.

Being with Tong Wangjun is definitely not because of happiness, because I have no impression of her before high school, and the memory of the eight years after high school is blank, but I can also tell from Tong Wangjun's attitude that she has a different outlook on life from mine. Happiness is naturally out of the question.

I'm thinking about another thing.

"You can smoke if you want to." Logan said.

I took out a cigarette, lit it and took two puffs, and finally thought it through: "I'm divorced."

Tang Wan's pupils seemed to dilate a little, and she brushed the hair beside her ears: "When did it happen?"

"It's been more than half a year." It's been more than half a year since the divorce, but I only knew about it for more than a month. I didn't want to talk about it at first, but I will know about this kind of thing eventually.

Moreover, I now have my own business, and divorce is not unacceptable.

I don't want people to feel sorry for me.

Women and money... This saying is too vulgar, love and career must be the same after all.

"Why have you never heard of it before?" Tang Wan said, with a slight complaint, I'm not sure if it is.

"What's there to talk about about divorce?" I laughed and laughed at myself, "Could it be possible to hold a party to celebrate?"

Logan was silent: "You really don't need to tell me."

"Wu Dong, Yu Lu, Zhou Kai and the others don't even know about it, so don't think too much about it." I glanced at Tang Wan, "Okay, let's stop talking, I still have to go to the store, you should go back too."

"Chen Jin, you got married out of responsibility, and why did you get divorced?" Tang Wan didn't leave.

I paused, Tang Wan seemed to know the reason why Tong Wangjun and I got married: "Did Tong Wangjun and I get married because of responsibility?"

"It's hard, isn't it?" Logan looked at me.

"I don't know." I said, "I don't remember something very clearly."

I finally said it, the lost memory, I hope Logan can help me make up for it.

"You are escaping." Logan left after leaving a sentence.

Go away very angry.

I sighed, and really wanted to yell at Tang Wan, I am not running away, but I have lost my memory, I don’t know anything about the past, even I don’t know how to mess with Datong Wangjun’s belly, how could I be running away ?

On the way back to the store, the more I thought about it, the more I felt that Logan might know something, otherwise she wouldn't be so sure that Tong Wangjun and I married because of duty, not love.

responsibility?

Could it be that I did something wrong to Tong Wangjun and want to compensate her through marriage?

What will happen?
"Brother Chen, can I save two plates of steamed vegetables later and take them home for Xiao Lun to eat? The money will be deducted from my salary." The peak time for dinner has passed, Chen Chen asked me.

"Wouldn't it be cold to take it back from such a long distance?" I asked, suddenly remembering that Chen Chen rented a house, "Take it, and warm it up when it's cold back home."

I didn't respond to the deduction of wages. It's just two dishes, and the cost is not much. I didn't plan to ask for money, but if I said no, Chen Chen would definitely be embarrassed to take it.

"Thank you, Brother Chen." I think Chen Chen is thanking me for Ge Xiaolun.

Leaving the tidying up to Chen Chen and Chen Wenjing, I went downstairs to buy an insulated box.

After washing it with hot water, I wiped off the water stains, put rice in it, and three kinds of steamed vegetables. I handed over the rest to Chen Chen and Chen Wenjing, and I went to the hospital again.

"Ms. Liu, I brought you some steamed vegetables." Pushing open the door, I said to Liu Yuan who was on the hospital bed.

I glanced at the lunch box on the bedside table. Did Liu Yuan's family come?
The fruit and flowers that could be placed by the bed were left untouched.

It's impossible not to pack these after delivering the food, right?
Just as he was in a daze, someone came in from the door again, holding a chamber pot in his hand: "Yuanyuan, there are too many fruits beside your bed, occupying a lot of space and blocking the way, shall I clean them up?"

As the man said, he put the chamber pot under Liu Yuan's bed.

"Don't worry about it, you can go." Liu Yuan ignored the man at all and looked at me, "Chen Jin, come and sit down, don't stand there stupidly."

The man was originally sitting on the stool, but he got up immediately after hearing Liu Yuan's words, and gave the stool to me: "Sit, sit."

I stood there in embarrassment, as if I had come at the wrong time.

"Go out and take your food away, so you don't have to come over in the future." Liu Yuan was very rude to the man.

"Yuanyuan, don't be like this, okay?" The man seemed to be begging, "You need someone to take care of you like this."

"I don't need your care." Liu Yuan was very angry, "Get out, get out quickly."

"Okay, I'll go out, don't be angry, I'll go out right away." The man raised his hand, compromised, sighed helplessly, and walked out of the ward.

My eyes followed the man out, guessing the man's identity.

"Don't worry about him, Chen Jin, sit down." Liu Yuan bent over, trying to move the stool for me.

I hurriedly sat on it, moved the stool, and sat beside Liu Yuan's bed.

(End of this chapter)