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Chapter 456 How far can two light years go?
Lin Ran frowned deeply, then pulled out the paper out of curiosity, and slowly spread it out. When he looked at the patient's name on it, his eyes became more focused and serious.

The smile she finally found was gone again.

In particular, the diagnosis report was written very clearly, and she took out her mobile phone to search for relevant content, so she understood what the report was about.

Lin Ran's whole head was a little stuffy, and then she began to feel a little pain. Her whole body went limp, and she leaned softly on the stool behind her.

At this time, there was a twisting sound of the doorknob, and her eyes looked outside, which happened to fall on Zhu Siying's face.

Zhu Siying noticed the paper in Lin Ran's hand at a glance.

She didn't show too much emotion, but walked straight to Lin Ran, and after she approached Lin Ran, she confirmed that the paper was brought by Xun Tianhe, and her voice was very calm.

"This is the report you went to the hospital last time for an examination, because you haven't picked it up, and Dr. Xun knows that you have been too much stimulated recently, so he has never had a suitable opportunity to give it to you. He happened to come to see you today, so he Sent it here by the way."

Zhu Siying spoke calmly, as if she was talking about something unimportant.

But this is not irrelevant to Lin Ran. When she saw the report, she collapsed!

This was the same as when she saw Shen Keming get hurt or Su Chenxin jumping off a building, it was a blow to her fragile heart.

She knew that Zhu Siying's calm tone was to let her not pay too much attention to it.

Lin Ran could guess what Zhu Siying said, maybe it was: "The current medical level is so good? Maybe it can be cured?"

Maybe she will say: "Many people choose not to have children now! Is it a big deal?"

But how could Lin Ran not care, she knew how much the Song family was looking forward to the birth of a new life.

She could see that Song Yan had been planning to become a father for a long time.

These two days, she didn't speak, but she could always see that Song Yan always tried to make her happy with children's toys and clothes, and he even took her to see the baby room he had prepared for the two children.

It was full of vitality, especially the joy on his face, she knew he had been waiting for this moment for a long time!

Lin Ran thought of the mission that Zhou Jiaying told her in the hospital. At that time, she was looking forward to the regret that she had no time to see in her life.

Song Yan's happiness, Zhou Jiaying's expectation, everything in the Song family is preparing for her to calm down one day and bring some happiness to this mottled family.

But she can't...

It's not that she doesn't want to, it's that she can't do it anymore?

She didn't understand how important a child was in the eyes of others, but when she saw Song Yan talking about the sparkle in the child's eyes, she admitted that she wanted to give birth to a child for him!

Because she doesn't want him to regret, she doesn't need to be a mother, but she knows how happy he will be as a father.

She doesn't want him to be unhappy!
The Song family couldn't live without a new life, otherwise she felt that she would be ashamed of Zhou Jiaying's kindness to her, and that she would let down Song Yan's cherishment of her.

Lin Ran also understood that as long as she said it, Song Yan would look as if nothing had happened, shrugged, and then comforted her with a smile, "I'll be fine if I have you! I hate children! And it's very tiring to take care of children. I don't want to You worked hard."

She understands that everyone here loves herself and will protect herself.

but……

Really at that time, what face would she have to look at them, if they really didn't care?
That's just her emotional kidnapping.

At this time, let them choose to hurt themselves because they don't want to hurt her.

"If you want to cry, you can cry out. With me here, I won't let anyone see your embarrassment!"

Zhu Siying's breath was very gentle and her voice was very soft. She didn't say many words of comfort, she just looked at Lin Ran quietly, then looked at Lin Ran and shook her head, and she said again: "Do you want to leave here...? Do you want to leave here?" leave him?"

"Do you think Song Yan loves me?"

"Of course I love you. He has no reason not to love you, otherwise he wouldn't choose to protect you all the time!"

"Then I love him too."

"So... your decision is to leave? Are you not afraid that he will feel uncomfortable? "

Zhu Siying could understand Lin Ran's words and see through her eyes. She knew that Lin Ran would choose to leave here completely, and she didn't want Song Yan to choose an imperfect life because of herself.

Lin Ran nodded calmly, then a quiet smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and his tone was peaceful: "He should choose to love someone who is worthy of deep love. In many things that happened to us, I actually didn't do much to make him worthy of love." thing!"

"You have……"

Lin Ran looked at Zhu Siying, breathed a sigh of relief, and shook her head slowly, "No, I didn't. I live a very selfish life. I always enjoy what others give, but I don't give a little. I can do my best. done."

She thought back to these years, it seemed that Song Yan had always paid unilaterally. Although she also loved him, she just enjoyed getting it, but she didn't give him much to prove her sincerity.

I thought about these things very early on.

Even looking for how to give her more love.

"Maybe love doesn't have to be proved by actions, but a person always pays unilaterally, and he will always feel tired. I am in this Song family. I have gained too much, and I am becoming more and more unable to do it. What should I do?" Balance between the two of us."

"You think too much of yourself."

"I used to think that we would have our own happy family and our own lovely children. At that moment, I would feel that I still had the confidence to tell him that I can do even the things I fear the most, then Can you believe that I love you?"

When Lin Ran said this, she breathed a deep sigh of relief in a weak mood, and she used a smile to hide her uneasiness, "A man should love a woman, and now I am...not a perfect woman. "

Maybe have kids?
Not very important.

Because women are not designed to be machines for giving birth.

She has no such pedantic notions.

However, Lin Ran had a deep feeling of inferiority complex.

When you are unable to do it, then you will feel a sense of powerlessness and guilt, which is different from that you don’t want to have a baby, because you actually have the capital and shake your head, “I don’t want it!”

Now she can't ask the other party, "Can you accept my imperfection?"

Because anyone has this "can't match" sentiment?

Everyone will feel that there is no equal dimension when facing love because of their own imperfections?
Maybe she chose to leave, not because of guilt, but because she was afraid that he would pay more, and the weight of his love would be heavier. She just chose to escape for her remaining pride.

"I will not interfere with the choice you make! But when you need me, you can tell me, because I also need you to accompany me."

Lin Ran looked at Zhu Siying and nodded, then turned her face away, took a breath of relief again, and with all the pressure in her heart, spit out those annoying air balls.

……

At night, Zhu Siying accompanied Lin Ran to the hospital!
They came to see Shen Keming together. Shen Yi told Lin Ran on the phone: After Shen Keming woke up, he was not in a good mood. He lost his usual smile and became more silent than ever.

When she came outside the hospital, Shen Yi was still covering her face and crying.

She watched Lin Ran come, without showing too much expression, she was still sitting on the cold bench outside the ward.

Lin Ran looked at Song Ji who was standing beside her, approached her, and said, "I heard that Dr. Zhou has contacted foreign experts, maybe they can help Ke Ming's leg get better...?"

"Even if it's possible, what's the use of that...? This kid won't listen to anyone. We've said it many times, but he just doesn't cooperate with the treatment."

Lin Ran's expression just got a little bit, and it dimmed instantly. She didn't know that Shen Keming was so depressed after the accident. Maybe he seemed disappointed in himself, and no one could ignite the light in his heart.

At this time, she lowered her head, and there was a "bang" in her ear, which made her turn her head to look in shock.

Shen Yi got up quickly, and then grabbed Lin Ran's wrist. There seemed to be hope in her eyes, and when she spoke, she was different from the indifference just now, "Lin Ran, I beg you, persuade him! He is still like this!" young."

Lin Ran looked at Shen Yi, but said nothing, she understood what Shen Yi meant.

But isn't she very sure that Shen Yi really believes in her that much?

"He is stubborn and has a strong temper, but for you, he will be willing to stand up, because he wants to protect you."

"Aunt Shen, I see."

Lin Ran responded with a slightly choked voice.

At this time, she couldn't tell what it was like, she realized that she was so important, but she felt so guilty about being so important?
It was she who made Shen Keming's legs crippled, but it was she who became everyone's hope in times of despair.

Zeng Yao heard the commotion outside in the ward, and walked towards the door gracefully and calmly.

She rested her slender and fair arm on the doorknob, pressed it lightly, opened the door, looked at the person who was looking at her at the same time, and said in a rather cold tone, "Come in!"

"Ah."

Lin Ran followed Zeng Yao in, his movements were still a little cautious at this time, his eyes fell on Zeng Yao's figure without blinking, and by the way, he looked at Shen Keming who was lying on the hospital bed, which was blocked by her.

Shen Keming sat on the bed very calmly, without looking in her direction.

Zeng Yao came to the bed with gentle steps, reached out and picked up the water bottle on the table, and walked outside again. Lin Ran looked at her, and the voice came from nowhere, as if she didn't understand her actions, and asked Said: "Where are you going?"

"Can't you see it?"

Zeng Yao glanced at Lin Ran, her eyes were not easy to provoke, and her tone was not kind at all.

She shook the boiled water bottle in her hand, and said impatiently: "I don't want to stay here to be angry, and I'm not interested in hearing what you have to say. If you say anything, don't tell me!"

Hearing this, Lin Ranmu looked at Zeng Yao, and waited until she left before turning her head to look at Shen Keming.

She was sitting next to Shen Keming, and seeing that Shen Keming hadn't realized that she was coming, she followed Shen Keming's line of sight and asked softly, "What are you looking at?"

"Cassiopeia!"

Shen Keming calmly pointed to the place on the horizon where he had been watching, drew an "M" shape with his fingers, and then said: "Because it is close to the North Celestial Pole, Cassiopeia can be seen all year round, especially in autumn nights. "

"I know, I remember what you told me once, and the one opposite to it is Ursa Major! There!"

Lin Ran pointed to a place in the sky, and then drew a picture of the constellation, and then said: "It is far away from the Tianhou constellation, and it is more suitable for viewing in spring. It is the constellation of the famous Big Dipper."

"The Big Dipper!"

Hearing these words, Shen Keming lowered his head silently, looking up at the sky without interest, "Do you think the Big Dipper is close?"

"You once told me that they are very close as seen from the sky, just like between us, although there is a gap, they will not be too far apart."

"No, that's what I lied to you. I used to think that as long as I worked hard, I could walk towards you, so no matter how far away it was, I didn't feel far away."

Shen Keming looked at his legs, and after a moment of silence, he smiled wryly and said, "Actually, each of the Big Dipper is 70 to 90 light-years away, and the Tianshu is even farther away, as high as more than 200 light-years. Do you still think they are close?"

Lin Ran could tell that Shen Keming remembered his legs, and must have been sad that he would never be able to stand up again.

When a person thinks that he can't even walk, the distance in his eyes becomes even more distant.

That is the spiritual long-distance that he has added to himself.

Lin Ran held Shen Keming's hand directly, looked at him sincerely, shook his head, and said calmly, "How far can 200 light years go?"

"Very far, far away..."

Just like the distance between us, I can no longer get close to you, and I can no longer protect you.

"What if it's more than 200 light-years away? Do we need to go to the sky? No, it's not fun there."

"Then where is the fun?"

"Didn't you come to tell me this question before? You know, where do I want to go? You also know, I want you to go with me. "

Lin Ran looked at Shen Keming, nodded her head several times, and saw that his eyes were dull, a little surprised, she said again: "You can't ignore what you say, promise me, let's go together, okay?"

"But……"

"I want you to accompany me to France to see wineries, to Venice to see the coast, and Fiji, you know? The sunrise there is super beautiful!"

"Can I?"

"Of course, you have to believe that none of us are so desperate. Even if we can't walk with our legs, I will push you and bring you there, okay?"

Shen Keming looked at Lin Ran, the gentleness in his eyes was the same as before, his eyes were filled with color, he nodded calmly, and then fell silent.

Lin Ran looked at him, and continued: "Promise me, not for me, but for yourself, receive treatment, and then stand in front of me again, okay?"

"Ok!"

　Hold on to the last few chapters!It's over!
　　Comrades, victory is at hand.

　　
　
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