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Chapter 464 Love Needs to Pay Costs

After Song Yan finished speaking, she let go of her hands, turned around and left without any hesitation.

Shen Keming looked at his disappearing figure, the disgust in his eyes suddenly appeared, he shook his head twice, and said dissatisfied: "Sure enough, he didn't come to see me!"

"Do you really want him to come and see you?"

Zeng Yao looked at Shen Keying, with a gentle smile that couldn't be hidden in her eyes, like ripples on the surface of calm water, Shen Keying's eyes poured into Zeng Yao's clear spring like moonlight, "Are you going to be angry...?"

"Why are you angry?"

"I still hope in my heart that Lin Ran can have a chance to get his own happiness."

"Am I such a small-minded woman? Besides, Lin Ran is my friend, and I also hope that she will be happy. Moreover, if you can do this, it means that you have really let go. What do I care? If you even I can't even give blessings, so I have to wonder if I should continue to like you."

Zeng Yao smiled and said, she shook her head in confusion, only thinking that Shen Keming's words were very interesting.

She shrugged her shoulders naturally, her eyes were still gentle, and her voice was very peaceful.

"Who hasn't seriously pretended to be one or two people in their hearts? Is the male god I admired or Song Yan? He was my senior back then, and he is a generation of romantic figures on campus. He is the idol that every elementary school girl worships in our hearts. "

These words brought her and Shen Keming to a balance point in an instant.

She looked at him casually, very proud, and spoke very calmly.

After all, these days, very few people would wait for a letter and put their hearts on one person like they did in ancient times.

In the modern world, there are very few people who can enjoy a quiet and pure love, and 1V1 for life. She didn't expect that the man in front of her would only love herself.

As long as he can only pretend to be himself in the future.

Only like one person in a lifetime?

Facing the current social environment, this is a bit too unrealistic. She also believes that people need to pay the price, so that they will know how to love better?
Only when a person has encountered a few wrong candidates can he know how precious the person in front of him is.

Shen Keming looked at Zeng Yao disappointedly, and said in a calm voice, "Then your vision was a bit bad before."

"I think I'm still very poor now. I've been good at everything in my life, but I'm not good at all. I can't see a man's eyes at all!"

Zeng Yao let out a sigh, with a look of disgust in her eyes, as if she was depressed that she was hopeless in this life!
Shen Keming looked at her expression, closed his mouth quietly, and stopped talking.

……

Xishan Cemetery is rainy, and with a single black umbrella, you can feel a coolness when you step in here.

Especially since the top of the mountain is already dark, it looks even more peaceful.

It was already evening when Lin Ran came here. She got off the plane, and because of the throbbing in her heart, she wanted to come here. Regardless of the night, she just wanted to find a quiet place.

Facing the lush green mountains, she breathed out a breath of uneasiness along with the mountain wind.

As she walked forward, her eyes gradually softened.

Here, she seems to have obtained a special peace, and also seems to have found the peace that she has not found for a long time. When she comes here, there is the sound of mountain birds running around her ears.

With the "huhu" of the distant wind blowing through the valley, she thought of being held in her father's arms when she was a child.

At that time, she was well cared for, and her father always used gentle words to dispel her inner anxiety. His generous palms brushed against her forehead, which was very kind.

Every time she hurts, he always exhales on her, telling her: "Don't cry!"

She can't find any more memories with her father.

Only these memories will never be forgotten by her. The first man every girl falls in love with in her life is her father, and she also looks forward to meeting someone as great as her father in the future who can bring her sustenance.

When she was a child, her father's haven, when she grows up, she expects her future husband to be her safe haven.

Recently, she has encountered a lot, and she can't calmly think about how she should go in the future?
Thinking of coming here, she can still talk to him. Although she can only speak alone and is destined to not get any response, she also feels that this kind of feeling is what she wants.

From childhood to adulthood, what touched her the most was her father's meticulous company.

It's just that her father didn't get along with her for a long time.

She wanted to tell him with a peaceful smile, "Dad, I'm getting married soon! I don't know... Did you have the same expectations as other fathers, or did you panic that I would be unhappy?"

Lin Ran lowered her head, knowing that there would be no reply to these words, so she answered him.

"You have to bless me, support me, and teach me to live bravely and face it as before. I hope that before marrying him, I have no secrets from him!"

She was ready to ask him if he could accept this imperfect self?

Of course, if he said "no", she would gather up her courage and nod, then leave with a smile without stopping for a moment. She hates being hypocritical and hoarse.

No woman wants to be a bitter woman in her life.

What she hates the most is her cowardice. She feels that no one is behind her to support her. She is afraid of losing, so she is afraid to escape first, but this time...

She doesn't want to.

People live for a frankness, for a truth!
Even if you leave, even if you are together, you should tell him your thoughts without reservation. You can be disappointed, but you can't be ashamed of each other, and you can't waste the stories between the two.

Before coming back, she thought clearly, "Nothing is a big deal!"

If so, let yourself learn to let go.

She loves Song Yan, so she can make everything for him.

Xun Tianhe sent her a message that she may still be cured, but pregnancy is more difficult for her than others, and it may be life-threatening.

She thought: As long as he can be consummated, she has no regrets.

Before coming here, she was very tangled.

But she needs to find someone who won't stop her and strengthen her mind, but when she comes here, she feels a different kind of peace in her heart, and everything has already been answered.

He loves herself, she can see it, so what can't she do to love him?

She will receive treatment well and recover her body well!
Until a complete self is handed over to him.

Her expectation in this life is for her to be fulfilled, and she also hopes that he will not be disappointed.

Avoiding, this kind of thing, for her, is no longer a subconscious choice; no matter how difficult it is, she will go forward and tell him: "I like you! Just like a mountain rain is about to come, I can also run to you!"

The footsteps gradually approached the cemetery, and the gloom on the top of the mountain faded away. There was only dense mist rising into the sky, some wet and muddy, but there was no irritability.

There was a light in the distance, she looked for the twilight, and she had a doubt in her heart: Who would come here at this time?
Xishan Cemetery is always quiet, and there are no lights at night.

This is the rest for the dead.

It is also because no one would choose to come here at night to pay homage to the dead.

Lin Ran felt that she was a bit more courageous, and dared to come here at night.

But she never expected that there would be someone in this world who was the same "tiger" as her. She thought that person also came here to find the answer?

Maybe he also has people he can't let go of.

Her footsteps were very light, and she walked over slowly. She saw a man sitting on the ground at a familiar position in the distance. , only dim light.

The man was wearing a black suit and put the umbrella he brought on the tombstone behind him.

He let the soft words wet his cheeks.

Taking a closer look, the man's face is very delicate, and he is very clean, maybe he is trying to leave the best impression on the person he wants to see.

Even if she is not by his side, he will still tidy up himself decently.

It's just that he is no longer dressed in white as before, descending like an angel. After she left, all his clothes are dark colors, as if his life has no bright colors.

Lin Ran approached him, but he didn't look back at her, he just picked up the beer he brought, opened it and drank it.

The breathing in the ear is very slow, as quiet as the original atmosphere here.

Zhou Jingyu appeared here without any sense of disobedience!

Lin Ran glanced at the photo on the tombstone. The black and white woman smiled brightly. On top of her head was the black umbrella brought by Zhou Jingyu. The umbrella covered the direction of her face and prevented the drizzle from hitting her photo. .

Ye Guan once said that she disliked the rainy weather the most, because she had lived an extremely sad life in her life.

She also doesn't like life without light.

So in her life she always needed the warmth of candlelight.

Zhou Jingyu lit two white candles in front of her tombstone, and placed a bunch of white lily-of-the-valley in front of her. The food here was her favorite mung bean cake.

Everything was Ye Guan's favorite appearance during his lifetime.

Lin Ran had seriously understood Ye Guan's preferences, so after seeing these, she also deeply understood that Zhou Jingyu's liking was never impulsive, and he spent a long time in silence to prove that his liking was not groundless.

He is not the kind of person who can easily fall in love with her after she leaves.

Zhou Jingyu really used his heart to love this woman who appeared in his life and left deep traces.

"Sister Guan has you loving her so much in her life, she is really happy!"

Hearing Lin Ran's voice, Zhou Jingyu looked up at her, didn't speak, just handed out the beer he brought over, his voice was slightly moist: "Can I drink?"

Lin Ran looked at Zhou Jingyu and nodded.

Zhou Jingyu directly tore off the lid of the can, and handed it out again, his expression was still neither cold nor cold, he was always serious, except when facing Ye Guan, he would occasionally show some beautiful smiles.

That kind of smile comes from the heart, with the warmth of sunshine in the eyes.

After Ye Guan left, no one saw his heartfelt smile again.

"Do you come here often?"

"I always think that she is not blindly strong, she needs someone to accompany her occasionally, it's just that she didn't know how to speak before she was alive, and she didn't want to bother others, but... she is looking forward to it to some extent."

Zhou Jingyu spoke with a mocking smile, "Am I stupid...? I can't forget her until now, but I can't leave with her."

It's not that he doesn't want to, it's just that he doesn't dare, he knows that Ye Guan has never loved him in his life.

"Sister Guan, in this life... I have had you in my heart!"

Lin Ran spoke in a low voice and softly, Zhou Jingyu turned to look at her, and laughed in disbelief, mocking Lin Ran's consolation for being so light and unconvincing.

"I'm serious, otherwise she wouldn't have chosen to wear a black wedding dress on the day she married you, nor would she have held lily of the valley bouquet..."

"I believe."

Zhou Jingyu spoke calmly, without saying anything about his and Ye Guan's peaceful life, he lightly picked up the can, his knuckles were clearly defined, and his eyes were hard to move.

He handed the jar to his mouth, and drank all the wine in the jar with a "gulu gulu".

The Adam's apple rose and fell, and the jar of wine was completely emptied under her gaze.

Zhou Jingyu's eyes noticed that Lin Ran was holding the can, but there was no movement to drink it.

He reached out and took the empty jar in her hand, and then drank it on his back. After the alcohol flooded his throat, like white water pouring into his stomach, when the wine was emptied again, he asked softly: "You Why are you here?"

"Because I want to find a quiet place."

"It's really quiet here, but after staying for a long time, you will gradually find that you are quiet."

Zhou Jingyu raised his head, opened his eyelids lazily, looked into the distance, blinked, and stopped talking.

After a long time, he got up slowly, patted his buttocks, and said in a soft but gentle voice, "It will be very cold here after nightfall. Are you going down the mountain? I'll see you off."

"I want to sit a little longer."

Lin Ran rejected Zhou Jingyu's kindness, and Zhou Jingyu stretched out his hand to pull her up, "This is not a place suitable for finding answers. Your answer is at the foot of the mountain, with someone, and in your heart!"

"you……"

"I've also loved someone before. I'm not so ignorant of the world. I can see that you didn't come here because you were looking for someone, but you came here to avoid people."

Zhou Jingyu's voice was very gentle and peaceful. Lin Ran looked at him without blinking, and even forgot to look away subconsciously.

She let Zhou Jingyu lead her and walked out of the Xishan Cemetery.

"Can you drive?"

Zhou Jingyu spoke in a deep voice, laziness and burnout.

While he was speaking, he took out his car keys from his trouser pocket, and seeing Lin Ran nod in response to his words, he solemnly grabbed her hand, pushed her palm away with his fingers, and put the key on it .

"Do you know why I didn't let you drink just now?"

"why?"

"I'm sleepy, and I can't drink and drive. I need someone to give me a ride, so... can you accompany me down the mountain now?"

Zhou Jingyu turned his head to look at Lin Ran who was still in deep thought, and the corner of his mouth twitched unconsciously.

　Sometimes missing is to meet better waiting.

　　Sometimes waiting is to believe that he never left.

　　Sometimes you feel like he's gone... In fact, he hasn't gone far.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)