go deep

Chapter 14
She is the warmth on the tip of his heart, and also the thorn in his heart. In his heart, the warmth and pain alternately. He wants to let go but is reluctant to let go, but he is hurt so painful by her again and again if he doesn't let go.

After a whole night of tossing around and loving each other, both of them slept deeply. Even Lu Zhouyue, who was used to getting up early, never woke up. Don't bother them again.

It was around noon when Xu Liulian finally woke up from a full sleep. She was lying there on her side. The hot and hard chest behind her and the big hands surrounding her made her tremble involuntarily. Vague memories began to come back to my mind little by little.

She had the urge to slap herself, why did she get entangled with him again?In this unwilling marriage, she didn't intend to give up her heart, but why didn't her body obey her commands?She vaguely remembered the pins he brought her last night.The soul-stirring feeling.

She just lay there without moving for a while, and the man behind him seemed to have just woken up or had already woken up and waited for her for a long time. He only tightened his arms and held her tightly in his arms, feeling comfortable and satisfied. Resting her head in her black hair, "Are you awake?"

She didn't speak, and raised her hand to touch his hand on her waist, and used all her strength to touch it. She hated the feeling of waking up in his arms, hated listening to his gentle voice, making it seem like she was with him As if he was familiar with him, she would never forget that it was this man who made her youth shrouded in haze, and she would never forget that it was him who made her life change dramatically.

Lu Zhou didn't let her succeed. Instead, he pulled her back to him with all his strength, so that the distance between the two of them was extremely close, so close that they could even hear each other's heartbeats. .

Her eyes are extremely beautiful, and the corners of her eyes are slightly raised. When she smiles, her eyebrows are always bright and charming, but her smile has never been opened for him.

He raised his arms slightly to support his body and looked at her from bottom to bottom, "Last night...I'm sorry..."

It was his fault first, he shouldn't have said not to touch her, but he couldn't restrain himself.

"I don't need your hypocritical apology!"

It doesn't matter if he doesn't say that, Xu Liulian felt even more angry and flustered when he said that, so he stretched out his hand to push him away and get up.

"When did you come to that last month?"

When he suddenly asked such a sentence, even though Xu Liulian was indifferent and ruthless the previous moment, he still blushed all of a sudden, and stood there in embarrassment, wondering why he suddenly asked such an embarrassing thing.

"I didn't take protective measures last night..."

Lu Zhou frowned and searched for suitable words to explain to her.She was annoyed when she heard it, and pushed him away angrily. He held her down and carefully observed her expression, "If...you want, we will let nature take its course and give birth to a child. If you If you don't want to-"

"I do not want to!"

Before he finished speaking, she interrupted him fiercely, without a trace of hesitation in his eyes, a trace of injury slid across his face, and then he said slowly, "I... go buy medicine for you!"

After he finished speaking, he let her go and got out of bed to get dressed. Even though he knew what kind of answer she would have in his heart, he still asked. It turned out that this was asking for trouble.

When he came back from buying the medicine, she had already finished packing and went downstairs by herself. She needed an empty stomach after taking the medicine, which just gave her a reason to leave immediately. She couldn't stay in this mansion for a second. He just sat down When I was about to eat, when I heard that she was leaving, I immediately got up and took the car keys, "I'll see you off!"

"No, it's been bothering you for so long, I'll just take the bus or take a taxi!"

She refused politely, and was satisfied to see the instant anger in his eyes, angering him, angering him, watching him suffer, then she felt that the pain in her heart also dissipated a little.

The pain of burying the marriage to him, the pain of being separated from the one he loves deeply, the pain of having his bright future ruined, all dissipated a little...

He strode forward with a sullen face and dragged her out, the servant shouted anxiously behind him, "Mr. Lu, you haven't eaten for two meals, your stomach..."

Before she could hear what was wrong with his stomach, she was stuffed into the car by him. He drove very fast along the way, as if he wanted to send her to get rid of her immediately, but he went around the city again. The furthest run.

She sat in the co-pilot in a good mood, shaking her head and humming softly to the music in the car.Yes, the angrier he was, the happier she was.

Lu Zhouyue was originally so angry at her attitude of rejecting people thousands of miles away, but now seeing her intentionally angering him, he couldn't help softening his face and curling his lips into a light smile. A little girl who can't hide her emotions, she really wants to piss him off seeing her like that.

He turned around to look at her with a smile like that, his eyes were full of pampering, yes, he allowed her to be so willful, naive, unruly, and used to her bad temper and pride.

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Since he sent her back to school that day, he hasn't contacted her for several days, nor asked her to go back to his mansion in Yushu Lanting. Her days were peaceful as if nothing had happened.Of course, it is even more impossible for her to take the initiative to contact him. She wished that he would disappear from her world.

His phone call came suddenly after she finished class that day, and her hand shaking while holding the phone resolutely answered the phone. His deep voice came from the other end of the phone, "Liu Lian, let's have dinner together tonight. ?”

As if he was afraid that she would reject him, he hurriedly added a few words, "I have a few friends here. They are my best friends, friends who can give each other their lives!"

His tone was solemn and expectant, but she was annoyed. Because he arbitrarily pulled her into his life circle, she coldly refused, "I'm sorry, I have something to do tonight!"

Don't say that she doesn't give him face or is indifferent, because she thinks this is just a marriage he wants, why should she accompany him to socialize with his friends?If she could, she didn't want to have any interaction with the people around him!

He fell silent suddenly.

"That you're busy!"

After a while, he threw this sentence to her in a sad tone, and hung up the phone.For some reason, hearing his dejected tone, she suddenly felt that what she had done seemed a little too much.

Because of his call, she was absent-minded during her study last night, and then she simply left school and took a taxi to him.She didn't know how she came here by accident, maybe she subconsciously thought, go see him, and use this way to make up for the ruthless rejection of him during the day.

As soon as she got out of the car, she saw his car coming and stopped at the door. His beautiful female secretary got out of the car and helped him out of the car. He seemed to be drunk, and he staggered and wobbled when he walked. Just let the secretary walk with the support of the female secretary.

She stood there without moving. It stands to reason that she should have stepped forward to take him from the female secretary to support him. After all, she is his legitimate wife, isn't she?However, helping him was definitely not what she wanted, so she just stood there and looked at them indifferently.

The female secretary saw her first, and wanted to push him away who was leaning on her in embarrassment, but he was too drunk and she would fall when she let go. The female secretary had to hold him again, and then smiled at her politely laugh.He didn't notice her until he walked in front of her, and a self-deprecating smile flashed across his blurred eyes because of drunkenness. She was inexplicably upset by his smile, turned around and planned to leave.

He suddenly turned over, shook off the female secretary, and hugged her into his arms with his big hands, wrapping around her slender waist, his scorching breath came towards his face with a slight smell of alcohol, "Xu Liulian, you Still know to come back?"

She was about to refute something, but he suddenly changed his extremely serious tone, his black eyes fixed on her and he said slowly, "I love you, Xu Liulian, I love you very much!"

His low voice, full of pain or helplessness, flowed in the silent night, surrounded her cold heart, and she was stunned all of a sudden. It's not that she didn't know his thoughts about her, she also heard from others.

However, it is one thing to listen to others, and another thing to listen to him personally, especially at this moment, his dark eyes are like a pool of deep pools, filled with seriousness, firmness, and faint pain , as if trying to suck her whole body into it, including her soul.

However, thinking of everything lost in the love he said, her heart suddenly cooled down. She wanted to open her mouth to mock him, but she couldn't open her mouth when she saw his thick black eyes, so she turned her head away in a hurry He said lightly, "You're drunk!"

Love is something that doesn't mean that he loves her, so she has to love him too, nor does it mean that he has worked so hard, so she has to give him an equal return.

She thought that what was waiting for her would be his rage again, but suddenly she heard him laughing lowly, she frowned and turned to look at him, and met the bitterness in his eyes, his lips had a self-deprecating arc, "Xu Liulian, I waited for you for six years, but all I got in return was 'Are you drunk'?"

Her heart tightened inexplicably and hurt, she opened her mouth to say something but couldn't say a word, he looked at her with sadness in his eyes, "Your heart is really not so cold and heartless! "

She is the warmth on the tip of his heart, and also the thorn in his heart. In his heart, the warmth and pain alternately. He wants to let go but is reluctant to let go, but he is hurt so painful by her again and again if he doesn't let go.

"Good! Very good! Very good..."

In the end, muttering like this, he withdrew his body covering her, turned around and staggered towards the house.The female secretary had already left knowingly, and she silently followed behind him, seeing that his shaky figure did not step forward to help him.

Why?Why did he say these affectionate words to her?Why should he love her?Why should his love be built on the pain of others?Damn him, is he affectionate or an asshole?
As soon as he entered the room, he got into the bathroom and vomited violently. She thought that he was already so drunk that she had better not stay here, lest she offend him and suffer later. He just came out of the bathroom and saw her like this The already ugly face in the posture of leaving became more and more gloomy, and he raised his hand irritably, tore off his tie and threw it out forcefully, just hitting her feet impartially, and she was so frightened that she backed away took a step.

When I looked up again, I saw that he was already plopped on the big bed. I don't know if he was going to sleep or what he wanted, but he could tell from his appearance that he was deliberately trying to show her face. She saw him as a drunk person For the sake of it, I endured it and didn't say anything.

After waiting for a while, seeing that he was still not moving, there was a quiet factor flowing in the air, and seeing him lying quietly on the big bed like that, with his side face looking more and more gloomy under the blurred light, she felt that if she wanted to go back, she suddenly felt a bit awkward. Can't say it.

There was a knock on the door, and a servant came in with a bowl of soup, "Ma'am, this is the hangover soup specially made by the kitchen for Mr. Lu, please feed him quickly!"

Before Xu Liulian had time to say something about the servant's address to her, the woman's next words almost made her faint again, asking her to feed him?Is there a mistake?Why should she serve him tea and water?Who is she not his?Even if it's his wife in name, but that's not what she wants!

"Madam? Madam—"

Seeing that she just stood there frowning tightly but did not take the porridge, the woman couldn't help calling her a few more times patiently.That woman is also a smart person, it's not that she can't see her repulsion, but at this moment, what his master hopes most is that his beloved woman is by his side to take care of him.

"Don't call me that!"

Xu Liulian came back to his senses and yelled at the woman angrily, then stepped forward and snatched the so-called hangover soup from her hand.

She glanced at the motionless person lying on the bed, closed her eyes and took a deep breath to comfort herself, Xu Liulian, just this time!Just this once!Just take care of him for the sake of his drunkenness.After comforting herself like this for a long time, she walked up to him with the soup and tried to soften her tone, "Ms. Lu, can you get up and drink some hangover soup?"

She is still used to calling him Mr. Lu. She is not used to calling him by his name or any other intimate titles. She stubbornly thinks that since she always calls him Mr. Lu, the relationship between them has always been the simplest teacher-student relationship. , rather than a husband and wife relationship.

The person who was lying there suddenly opened her eyes, and the pain in her eyes shocked her. Before she could react, he got up angrily and threw the soup in her hand and roared in a mournful voice, "Go away!"

She was still staring at the broken tiles and mess all over the floor in a daze, but he had already stood up from the bed and raised his hand to pinch her chin to force her to look directly at him, "Xu Liulian, you don't need my hypocrisy. I don’t need your hypocrisy either!”

"I don't need you to sympathize with me, pity me, and care about me like this!"

The more Lu Zhou pinched her, he didn't care if she was in pain or not, and said cruelly, "Either, you really care about me from the bottom of your heart, or, don't act in front of me!"

The episode of throwing up just now made his stomach feel better, but the blockage in his heart became more serious. When he closed his eyes, he remembered that she didn't even help him when he was drunk, and remembered that she had just sternly told the servant not to let him go. Calling her that way again reminds me of her refusal to feed him soup just now, and I don't know if it's because of the drunkenness or the sadness. In short, it was the first time in his life that he lost his temper in front of him and threw something.

Xu Liulian was pinched so painfully by him that tears rolled in her eyes, but she still bit her lips tightly to keep the tears from falling. She raised her eyes and smiled lightly at him who was in a rage, "Mr. Lu, Now that you know that I'm pretending and acting, and since you can't stand it anymore, please let me go, okay?"

He suddenly changed his face, let go of her, pointed at the door and yelled angrily, "Get out! Get out! Sister Qin, take her away!"

"Mr. Lu, this..."

The servant who was replaced by Sister Qin stood there in some embarrassment. Xu Liulian's tears fell down after all. She didn't know whether it was because he hurt too much from being pinched, or because he hurt too much from his indifferent and vicious words. Wiping away tears with his hands, he ran towards the door, but suddenly there was a loud bang behind him, and then the woman shouted in horror, "Mr. Lu? What's wrong with you, Mr. Lu?"

She stopped in her tracks and looked back, only to see him fall to the ground with a pale complexion, his hands pressed tightly to his stomach, his face wrinkled in pain, bead-sized beads of sweat oozing from his forehead, and she was also a little embarrassed Shocked, forgot for the time being that he just chased her away ferociously, ran over and knelt down and asked him, "You, what's wrong with you?"

Lu Zhouyue struggled to open his eyes and looked at the person in front of him in the severe stomach cramps. He obviously pushed her away by himself, but when he saw her really turn around and leave, he was very angry.Grabbing her hand, he half begged and half ordered, "Don't go!"

Perhaps because she saw that his condition was really bad at the moment, this time she did not repel him and broke away from him, but frowned and came to support him, "You are already like this, what are you talking about!"

Then he turned back and told the servant, "Call the ambulance quickly!"

(End of this chapter)