go deep

Chapter 40
I never really gave up on her, she is always the one on my heart!
On a rainy night, she lay tossing and turning in bed, listening to the dripping rain outside the window like that, echoing the bits and pieces of being with him bit by bit.They had known each other for so many years, but it had only been half a year since she had really approached him, but he had cared for her since high school.

At first she thought that love is love at first sight and gratification between two people.It was only later that she discovered that the so-called love was not the beautiful longing when she was young, but the unwavering care in getting along day and night.It turned out that after all these years, he had already become an indispensable part of her life.

After experiencing so many ups and downs, she is finally willing to face up to her heart: yes, she loves him, she cannot leave him, she never wants to give up on him, and she wants to save him.

So, on the same rainy night as six years ago, she stood outside his house again. The difference was that this time there was no hatred in her heart, and her consciousness was very clear.

He opened the door for her, then turned around and walked in. The difference from six years ago was that the coffee table in front of him was full of messy wine cans, and the ashtray was full of cigarette butts. The strong smell of smoke choked and coughed.

She saw that he was shaking a little when he walked just now, and she knew that he drank too much again. She remembered how he had ruined his stomach from drinking before, so she walked over and reached out to press his hand holding the wine glass, and whispered to him, "You I have a bad stomach, don't drink..."

He let her cold hand hold his, and then sneered self-deprecatingly, "Xu Liulian, do you still care about my life?"

She pursed her lips in silence for a while, then leaned forward, kissed his wine-smelling lips lightly, and answered his question with actions.His whole body froze immediately, and he just stared at her motionless in astonishment. She said apologetically, "About that child before, I want to say sorry to you. It's because I'm too capricious and ignorant!"

This is a sentence buried in her heart that she has always wanted to say to him. She knows that that incident hurt him deeply, so why hasn't she regretted it.

His expression loosened a bit, but his eyes were full of suspicion, as if he felt that what she said was just a dream.Because in his consciousness, she had never been so humble and courteous to him before.Between them, he will always be the active one, while she will always be the passive one. He never thought that one day she would also take the initiative.

She didn't flinch from his suspicious eyes, but looked at him seriously, boldly said what was in her heart, word by word, slowly and clearly, "If you still have me in your heart, please give me a chance, Let me love you like you love me, okay?"

The expression on his face changed from initial astonishment, to suspicion just now, to calmness now, she couldn't see what was going on in his heart, and started to panic in her heart, did he really give up on her?

This realization made her face pale instantly, and her body sat weakly on the floor in front of him, thick moisture quickly accumulated in her eye sockets, and he spoke just when her tears were about to fall, " Xu Liulian, you can ask me to forgive you!"

She looked at him with tears in her eyes, and saw him say coldly, "Give me another child!"

In fact, he had forgiven her as early as when she said sorry, he had no position towards her, but he didn't dare to believe her so easily, so he had to pretend the joy in his heart and use such a An excuse to test her.

After hearing these words, Xu Liulian couldn't hold back her tears anymore, and they just fell down like that. There was joy and bitterness at the same time. She was glad that he didn't give up on her. What she was bitter about was that the child's matter really hurt him so much. deep.She couldn't help crying, he came over and knelt down in front of her, she cried and threw herself into his arms and said, "I am willing... I am willing to give you another child..."

After these months of suffering, he finally let go of all his heart and reached out to hug her into his arms. She was like this, what else could he do with her?Although that child is the pain in his heart, but now that she is here to save her, don't mention those past events again.He raised his hand and stroked her hair to comfort her, "That child, he has no fate with us!"

It's okay if he doesn't say it, but when he said it like this, she cried even more fiercely. He pulled her teary little face out of his arms, looked at her and said seriously, "Liu Lian, the past between us, what happened so much?" There are many things, I have done something wrong, and you have done something wrong, if we live in the past and keep blaming ourselves, then those grievances will still be unsolved!"

Xu Liulian looked at him quietly and listened to him, "I hope that from now on, we can look forward, no matter what happened in the past, from today onwards, only you love me, I love you, it's as simple as that relation!"

"Okay, let's never talk about the past again!"

She nodded vigorously and leaned on him again and hugged him tightly, and he hugged her by the waist, "Then...should we fight for a baby?"

In a word, she buried her head in his arms.

But that being said, the two of them didn't do anything when they got to the bed, they just lay there quietly facing each other, calming down what happened just now, in fact, both of them felt like a beautiful dream , no one wants to speak up to break it first, for fear that the dream will disappear.

After all, before this, they drifted away and thought they would never be together again.

Later, Lu Zhouyue was the first to break the silence. He raised his hand and gently stroked her cheek, "Liu Lian, I should have made you pregnant when I was with you for the first time. If you were pregnant then, our Are the children four or five years old?"

He thought of that rainy night six years ago, the first time she dedicated to him as a young girl. At that time, he had the urge to get her pregnant and give him a child, but in the end he let her go because he had too many scruples.He often thought afterwards, if she had conceived and had a child for him at that time, what would the two of them look like now?

Is it an old couple who come together and gradually love each other because of having a child?Or is it a stranger who can't stand the water and fire even if they have children and finally come to the end of the breakup?

Xu Liulian couldn't help but thumped him coquettishly, "You are crazy, I was only 19 years old at that time, if I was pregnant, how would I see people!"

"What's that!"

He stood up above her head and looked down at her, then stretched out his hand to caress her cheek and said earnestly, "If you are pregnant, give birth, be my woman honestly, take care of your husband and teach your children, and then come out after giving birth Go to college, if that's the case, I guess you won't cause so many troubles!"

Xu Liulian originally thought that what he just said about asking her to have a child for him at the age of 19 was outrageous, but now she heard what he said, and she couldn't help but fell silent, because she felt that what he said was not bad reason.

If that was the case, Chen Qingchu would not be pestering her endlessly as she is now as a married woman with a child.Even if there is entanglement, it shouldn't be that crazy.

However, if she and him hadn't experienced everything they were going through now, who would know who was their last true love?
Seeing that she was silent, he raised his hand to wrap her in his arms, and let her head rest on his neck, "Of course, no matter how many disputes we have experienced, I think it is enough to have what we have today!"

Xu Liulian stretched out her hand and gently wrapped it around his waist, her heart was full of satisfaction and happiness.

He took care of everything later on, such as canceling the engagement with Wen Fuying, and announcing to the media that they were reunited. The reason he gave for getting back together was that he never really gave up on her, and she was always mine. Apex!

Tears welled up when she read the newspaper, and she raised her hand to cover her mouth and cried bitterly like that. He said that he never really gave up on her. It turned out that during the worst period of their relationship, he still Never gave up on her.She used to think that he had given up on her because of the injuries he caused, but now that she thought about it carefully, she found that every injury he caused was accompanied by his helplessness and pain.

Lu Zhouyue, with you like this, how can I love you?

After Lian Su heard the news of the reconciliation between the two, her condition improved a lot, but in the end she still couldn't overcome the stubborn illness. She passed away a month after giving birth to her daughter Lu Ailian. There is no regret for my daughter to be happy.

Xu Liulian was desperately sad. Ever since she found out that Lian Su's condition was in an advanced stage, she began to make mental preparations that one day she would leave, but when that day really came, she still felt so painful that she couldn't bear to live.

Simply the newly born daughter Lu Ailian distracted part of her energy. Lu Ailian is a cute little girl with a pink face. She couldn't tell it when she was born, but when she was about three months old, she began to show her beauty. The signs came, combining the advantages of both parents, it was called Meng, Xia Weiliang directly nicknamed her: Meng Xiaoai.

Especially when Meng Xiaoai smiles, there are two cute little dimples at the corners of her mouth, which are faintly visible, but can fascinate all the uncles, aunts, godfathers, and godmothers.

In the few days when Xu Liulian was about to give birth, Lu Zhou was so nervous that he could hardly sleep at night, because he was afraid that she would react suddenly at night and he would not be able to send her to the hospital in time.

Thinking of this, he became angry and anxious, and said that her stubborn temper really killed him.However, he has nothing to do with her. He has been eaten to death by this woman in his life.He was angry and lighthearted, but she ignored him and did what she wanted.If it was serious, she would coax him in a smart and soft way, and within a few words he lost his temper at all.

For example, about giving birth, he has already made an appointment in advance for the most luxurious delivery room in Tang Yuhan Hospital, and wants her to live in it early, so as to save everyone from being in a hurry, but she just doesn't listen, just say no Have a baby? Why is he acting like it's going to be a world war.

He even refused to take maternity leave in advance. He didn't want her to go to work when he was seven or eight months old. Every day he just looked at her with a big belly like that and felt anxious, but she was still walking like flying. It made him feel terrified every time he followed her, wishing he could step forward to hug her and prevent her from leaving.

She still didn't listen, and stubbornly insisted on going to work. She said that she was not a delicate young lady, and she didn't want to do anything special. Nervous, but the truest feeling.

He had nothing to do with her, so he had to let her do it, and then he was so nervous that he worried every day, but whenever he could be with her, he had to follow her. As a result, when she was about to give birth, he lost several catties. He also laughed at him unceremoniously, lying lazily on the big deck chair on the balcony, eating some fruit while making sarcastic remarks, "Hey, Lu Zhouyue, I say you are not good at heart! Look at what you did. It's like you're about to give birth, look at you like that, people think I'm abusing you all day long!"

He was so angry that his teeth were itching, his mental quality was not good?Isn't it because he met her that he was so fragile?If it's another woman, you can see if he has the quality of heart!

He was still asleep that morning. She woke up early and went to the kitchen to make breakfast. Because she was in the late stage of pregnancy, she was actually not feeling well, so she always got up early and went to the kitchen to make breakfast for the two of them when she had nothing to do. I also told her many times, but she didn't listen.

He was in a drowsy sleep, when he suddenly heard a voice calling faintly above his head, "Zhou Yue, Zhou Yue, I may be about to give birth..."

He woke up with a jerk, sat up from the bed, and saw her standing on the head of the bed clutching her stomach uncomfortably, and when he woke up, she smiled at him reluctantly, and said again, "My stomach starts to hurt. It's time to give birth!"

"Xu Liulian, I really want to strangle you to death!"

He yelled at her viciously, got up, put on some clothes indiscriminately, and rushed out to the hospital with her in his arms.He said that he should be admitted to the hospital as soon as possible, so that he wouldn't be so flustered and nervous like he is now.

On the way to the hospital, his nervous hands were shaking, but he still had to hold the steering wheel firmly. Her forehead was also gradually beaded with sweat because of the labor pain, but she was still in the mood to tease him, "Our baby is about to die." You should be happy when you are born, why are you so stern, do you want the baby to see you like this as soon as it is born!"

"shut up!"

He admitted that he was indeed a bit too fierce, but it wasn't all her fault, he tilted his head and gave her a hard look before concentrating on driving, "You'd better pray to me that you are all right, otherwise I will never end with you! "

He was able to rush to the hospital as quickly as possible, otherwise he didn't know if he would not be able to drive due to excessive nervousness. Now his brain is almost blank, and he is only driving with the instinct of driving for so many years.It was still early, and there were not many cars on the road, so the two arrived at the hospital smoothly.

And because she exercised enough before, and because she didn't come to the hospital until this time, she didn't suffer too much. She went in for about an hour and gave birth smoothly. A little princess heard the cry of the child At that moment, he almost cried.

Later, when he saw the wrinkled little girl and her sweat-stained frail appearance, he finally shed tears, but he turned his back secretly to wipe them off. He held her hand and kissed it over and over again, Then I said my oath over and over again, "Thank you Liulian, I will love you with my whole life in the future!"

Because it is a daughter, it is natural to call her the name Lu Ailian, which he had chosen before, and he even proudly showed off to her, saying that his intuition is very accurate. At that time, he was lying in front of the crib, holding his baby girl chubby Du's little hands teased her tenderly while showing off to her.

Xu Liulian leaned on the bed and looked at his fatherly and happy appearance, and couldn't help but smiled. She felt that her life was complete now. There was a man who loved her so much, and a daughter who was so lovely. What else is she not satisfied with?

When she was six months pregnant, one day when he was picking her up from get off work, he suddenly said, "Liu Lian, I've already thought about the baby's name, let's call it Lu Ai Lian!"

The more Lu Zhou loves Xu Liulian, there is no other name that can express his love for her more than the name Lu Ailian.

"Lu Ailian?"

When Xu Liulian heard that he had already thought of the child's name, she glanced at him in surprise, then slowly murmured the name, and then her chest throbbed violently.

Lu--Ai--Liao--
The more Lu Zhou loves Xu Liulian, what does he mean by taking it?How could he pour his love for her so recklessly?This moved her to tears for a moment.

The more Lu Zhou saw her like this, he knew that she was moved there again. He couldn't help but raised his hand and stroked her long hair lovingly, and whispered softly, "Silly girl!"

Since he loves her, he will do it with all his heart.

He drove at a relatively slow speed, trying to keep the car at a stable speed, so as not to cause discomfort or shock to her by the fast and slow brakes, Xu Liulian sniffed and suppressed the tears on the tip of his nose, "But this is a girl What if it’s a boy’s name?”

"It must be a daughter!"

What he said was very certain, but she didn't believe it, "How did you know it was a daughter!"

He raised the corner of his mouth and smiled while driving the car, "Intuition! Don't believe it, a man's intuition is also very accurate sometimes!"

I don't know why, from the moment he found out that she was pregnant, he felt that she would be a daughter, a daughter with bright eyes and a sweet smile like her. When he thought of the future, she would be surrounded by two women, one big and one small. By his side, I feel warm in my heart, and the smile on my face can't stop getting bigger and bigger.

Of course, no matter if it's a man or a woman, as long as it's born by her, he likes it all.Xu Liulian pouted, "What and what, I thought you had some scientific basis!"

(End of this chapter)