acquiescence to floating

Chapter 1 The so-called love

01
Mingtai Building, which was completed ten years ago, is still one of the important landmarks in S City today, occupying the southeast corner of the CBD business district where every inch of land is expensive.

It was just dawn in the morning, and the building stood upright between the sky and the earth like a giant that had just woken up.And the inside of the building also began to be restless - Mingtai's employees arrived at the company earlier than ever before, and began to wait restlessly.

This day is not a big day, but it is a historic day for Mingtai, which has tens of thousands of employees.

Mo Jingming, the old chairman who has been in office for 36 years, wants to give the "Zen seat" to his son-in-law Fu Yisheng. The company, and his son-in-law Fu Yisheng is the only person he trusts and has the ability to take over Mingtai so far.

"Boss Fu's car has entered the parking lot." The security guard's voice came from the intercom.

Tan Jingjing straightened her skirt and stared anxiously at the company's gate.The day before, she received an arrangement from the Human Resources Department to transfer her from the Administration Department and be promoted to Assistant General Manager, and her boss was replaced by that taciturn and unpredictable man.

After a while, a tall and straight figure of a man appeared in front of the company gate.Tan Jingjing stepped forward and made a brief self-introduction.Fu Yisheng only glanced at her indifferently and said, "I remember you."

In fact, Fu Yisheng had worked in Mingtai for more than five years before that, but he had almost zero contact with Mingtai's employees, from managers and directors to secretaries and small staff outside of work. Also just business.Tan Jingjing did have a job encounter with him before, and it's been a long time, she thought he had forgotten it long ago, but she didn't expect him to remember it.

She froze for a moment, a professional smile soon appeared on her face, and while guiding Fu Yisheng to the elevator, she reported his itinerary for this week.

In order to accommodate her height, Fu Yisheng kept his head slightly lowered. Although he didn't respond, his focused expression told her that he was listening.

Arriving at the general manager's office on the top floor, Tan Jingjing put several contracts for him to review on the table, waiting for him to ask questions after reading them, but Fu Yisheng just waved his hand and said, "You go out first."

Tan Jingjing paused and said, "My office is next door...call me if you need something."

"Okay, thank you."

Coming out of Fu Yisheng's office, Tan Jingjing found that the back of the shirt was soaked in sweat unknowingly.

She let out a long breath.Are you afraid of him?It does not seem.

After Tan Jingjing left, Fu Yisheng leaned on the back of the chair tiredly and pinched the space between his eyebrows.An ordinary person would be very happy to suddenly take over such a large company, but he didn't.Although he has studied and experienced here for more than five years, it is impossible to suddenly take over all the affairs without any pressure.

After a while, the phone on the desk rang, and Fu Yisheng took a look... Not many people knew the phone number of this office.

He picked up the phone, and immediately a woman's delicate voice came from the receiver. The tone of the voice seemed to be teasing, but it didn't seem to be: "Yisheng... oh no, Mr. Fu, good morning..."

He raised his hand and looked at the time. Indeed, it was very early for her.

He chuckled softly: "Morning. Why didn't you sleep a little longer?"

Mo Yuhan usually doesn't sleep until the sun is high and won't get up.She became a housewife right after graduating from university—she said she was a housewife, but in fact she was still the same as before. ... She really doesn't need to wear stars and moons like ordinary people.It is said that the world is fair, but in fact, everyone has been at a different starting point since birth.

And as lucky as Mo Yuhan, it's not true that she doesn't have any worries at all. In the past, her worries and worries were all about him, Fu Yisheng, but now...

Mo Yuhan straightened her slightly fluffy long curly hair in front of the full-length mirror: "I wake up when I can't sleep."

She tilted her head and looked at herself in the mirror. Her palm-sized face had become dull and thinner due to the recent insomnia, revealing a pointed chin, and her pair of dark eyes looked even bigger and more abrupt.Such proportions of the facial features are very similar to the characters in the shoujo manga that she read in the past, but she didn't feel any beauty.

The color of the scarf was not suitable, she pulled it off a little annoyed, opened the closet again, glanced aimlessly, but was thinking about another thing in her mind.After a long pause, she spoke again: "Dad's office has a good view, right? You can see half of S city."

Fu Yisheng glanced out the window behind him, and hummed absently.He vaguely felt that she was not happy when he said this, but she smiled so carelessly.

"As long as you like it." Mo Yuhan's smile was fixed in the mirror, she took a deep breath, and continued, "I'm going to the hospital now, do you want to have lunch together?"

Fu Yisheng took a look at the schedule that Tan Jingjing had organized for him: "There is a meeting very early in the afternoon, if you are not afraid of rushing, it is fine."

Maybe he was really thinking about her, but these words sounded like a kind of gift, Mo Yuhan thought about every time in the past, and finally found sadly that it seemed to be like this all the time.

After leaving home, Mo Yuhan went to the hospital to see Mo Jingming, chatted with his father for a while before being "driven" out.Although it was still early after she came out of the hospital, she didn't bother to bother and went directly to Mingtai.

From the top leaders of the company down to the gate guards and security guards, there is no one who doesn't know the jewel in the palm of Chairman Mo.But she seldom came when Mo Jingming was in office, but she came a lot more often after Fu Yisheng started working in the company.

Tan Jingjing was not surprised to see her coming, she got up and greeted with a smile, and wanted to lead her into the room.Mo Yuhan smiled at her: "Don't disturb your work, I'll just go in by myself."

Tan Jingjing was stunned for a moment, then nodded.Looking at Mo Yuhan's back, a faint disappointment flashed in her heart - she used to hear that Mr. Mo's daughter was pampered and willful, but after getting in touch with her, she felt that the rumors might not be credible.

The door of Fu Yisheng's office was open. Mo Yuhan saw that Fu Yisheng was working at his desk inside, so she leaned on the door frame and looked at him. After a while, he still didn't notice her coming. She smiled and said: "It's pretty quick to get into the state."

Fu Yisheng looked up to see her, he was a little surprised: "When did you come?"

"Just here."

Mo Yuhan walked into the office and closed the door behind him.

This was the first time Mo Jingming came to this office after she fell ill.The last time she came here seemed to be half a year ago, what happened then?Please Mo Jingming not to arrange so many jobs for Fu Yisheng so that he can spend time with her?
She stared at the small pen container on the desk, which was also a small gift she bought casually to please Mo Jingming, which she brought last time.It is obvious at first glance that it is not a high-end item, but Mo Jingming still regards it as a treasure.Thinking of this, Mo Yuhan felt sad for a while.She finally understood that no matter what kind of love, as long as it is love, it will become the fatal weakness of a battle-tested warrior.And she is Mo Jingming's weakness.

Fu Yisheng didn't speak, just watched her expression silently.She was looking for her memory here, and he just looked at her with unclear emotions.

After a while, Mo Yuhan's eyes stopped on him.

"Nothing has changed here, except..." She raised her arm and pointed her finger at him.

He smiled indifferently, leaned back on the chair leisurely, squinted his eyes and looked at the woman in front of him, as if enjoying an extremely interesting performance.

Mo Yuhan also smiled, walked up to him with a smile, and picked up an antique vase on the bookshelf behind him: "I remember it wasn't this one."

"What are you talking about..." Fu Yisheng glanced at the vase, "Dad got sick here last time, and accidentally knocked off the previous vase."

Mo Yuhan nodded clearly, with melancholy in his black and white eyes: "It's a pity, I really like that vase before, I asked my father before and he was not willing to give it to me."

The relationship between the father and daughter of the Mo family has always been good. Everyone knows that Mo Jingming's most precious is this daughter. The father and daughter have almost never blushed, but that time, presumably only once in the past twenty years, When Fu Yisheng stood here and said that he wanted to marry Mo Yuhan, the old man was really angry, he didn't want to beat his daughter but immediately slapped him.

But how can there be parents in this world who can't hold back their children?After a stalemate for a while, the old man finally compromised.

After deciding to accept him, he will no longer be awkward in his heart, Mo Jingming really treats him as his half son and cultivates him.

After Mo Jingming fell ill, whenever Mo Yuhan mentioned his father, he would cry like no one else was there.However, she has improved recently, and she doesn't cry or make trouble when mentioning Mo Jingming. This time, when talking about Mo Jingming's illness, she only said that she felt sorry for the vase.

Fu Yisheng raised his eyebrows calmly, and pulled her to sit on his lap: "It's just a vase, the most important thing is that Dad is fine."

Mo Yuhan smiled, but his smile was full of coolness: "Well, you are right."

Fu Yisheng kissed the corner of her mouth lightly, but he could clearly feel that the person in his arms trembled slightly as if he had been scalded.However, those cold little hands still wrapped around his neck, deepening a kiss that could have been split at the touch of a finger.

Fu Yisheng responded to her, and a doubt that had puzzled him for a long time flashed in his mind-what happened to her?
02
Fu Yisheng's appetite was mediocre, so he put down his chopsticks before Mo Yuhan, who was slow to do anything.

But this time Mo Yuhan didn't seem to have much appetite either.

Fu Yisheng raised his eyebrows and glanced at the well-shaped steak on her plate: "Why do you eat so little?"

"Breakfast is late, I don't feel hungry." She raised her hand and looked at the time, "Should you go to the meeting? Leave me alone, I will go back by myself."

He glanced at her without any objection, beckoned to the waiter, paid the bill and left without stopping.

This restaurant is very close to the company, they will come several times in a month, the last time they came, it was not like today, and Mo Yuhan was not in the current state of mind.

Fu Yisheng is usually cold and cold towards everyone, and he rarely takes the initiative to give her tenderness, but she always believes that he loves her.

It was also here last time, she knew that Fu Yisheng didn't like curry, so she deliberately acted like a baby and let him eat it.

She took a spoonful of curry crab and brought it to him: "Try it, it's delicious!"

At that time, there was an unconcealable repulsion in his eyes, he didn't even say "no need", he lowered his head and continued to eat.

Mo Yuhan was suddenly at a loss with her hands raised in mid-air, and she felt like a thorn in her back as the waitresses and the manager in the lobby glanced at them indifferently.But at this moment, Fu Yisheng raised his head and swallowed a whole spoonful of curry crab into his mouth.

She was so surprised at that time, but she still did not forget to carefully observe his expression.He frowned slightly, that kind of prudence was definitely not like eating.

"How?" she asked cautiously.

He swallowed heavily, then picked up the water glass and took a big sip.Looking up to meet her expectant eyes, he nodded slightly and said "It's okay".

This made her feel a little too much, but isn't it love that he is willing to accommodate her like this?

What Mo Yuhan is best at and likes the most is to look for clues about Fu Yisheng's love for her from the small details in life, and he has worked tirelessly for years...

The sudden ringing of the phone interrupted her thoughts.Gu Qinqin's tone was mysterious and excited: "Big news!"

What big news can she have?Mo Yuhan said indifferently, "Tell me what you have."

"Then I'll say it." Gu Qinqin cleared her throat, "You have to hold on!"

Mo Yuhan couldn't help but chuckled. Is there any worse news that would make her unable to stand up?
"Zhou Heng is back!"

As soon as the voice fell, the two were silent for a few seconds at the same time.

The name Zhou Heng sounds like a long time ago, but in fact he left not long ago, only five years.Mo Yuhan thinks it's been a long time because this person hasn't left too deep a mark in her heart, and because of this, she hasn't thought of him for a long time.

She understood why Gu Qinqin was so excited to come and tell her about it. There are few women who don't like gossip. Everyone has the mentality of watching a movie, even if she is your close friend for many years.

Mo Yuhan picked up his bag and left the restaurant: "What's none of my business?"

"Hey, hey, you are so heartless. My little junior has liked you for so many years. Even if you don't want to marry him, you can't ignore his feelings!"

"It's because I can't give him any response, so it's like this."

"There is still a long way to go in life, who knows what will happen in the future..."

Originally, it was just Gu Qinqin's unintentional words, but Mo Yuhan couldn't help but startled.In the past, she wanted to live a lifetime with Fu Yisheng, but now it seems that a lifetime is too long, as Gu Qinqin said, who knows what will happen in the future.

"Guess how I met him this time?" Gu Qinqin on the other end of the phone tried to trick her again.

Mo Yuhan hummed, not interested in guessing.

Gu Qinqin continued: "He started a consulting company with a few alumni, and happened to have some business dealings with our company. Coincidentally?"

Mo Yuhan waved to stop a taxi, and replied perfunctorily, "Oh, I've returned to China to start a business."

"When it comes to starting a business, some people are foolish, but Zhou Heng is different. He was as famous in the college as Fu Yisheng. In terms of ability and talent, no one dares to compare with him except your facial paralysis. Later, he went abroad. He has exchanged and studied for a few years, and with his current strength, it will be a matter of time before he can make a name for himself... Hey, do you want to invite everyone out for a sit-down? It was a good story back then!"

Before Mo Yuhan could answer, he heard Gu Qinqin on the other end of the phone laughing maliciously.

Mo Yuhan fell in love with Fu Yisheng, who was at the same level in college, and his younger brother Zhou Heng fell in love with her at some point. These troubled pasts once became the talk of the students of D University after dinner.At that time, Fu Yisheng didn't care, and neither did Mo Yuhan and Zhou Heng, so that the rumors about the three of them became more and more unrealistic.

Mo Yuhan also wanted to laugh, but he didn't expect anyone to remember it after such a long time.

"There were quite a few people who bet that you would choose Junior Junior Brother!" Gu Qinqin said.

Mo Yuhan sneered.From the beginning to the end, she was the one chosen, and it was her turn to choose someone else.But that tall, thin, fair boy didn't annoy her.If there was anything about him that she didn't like, it was that he was two years younger than her but always acted much more mature than her. Every time she thought of this, she felt a little disdainful.

Back then she used to say, "You know how old-fashioned you can be, it's annoying sometimes?"

Zhou Heng was not annoyed after hearing this, he just asked with a smile: "I'm pretending to be old-fashioned, what about Fu Yisheng?"

In Mo Yuhan's mind, Fu Yisheng was different, and everything related to him was appropriate.She doesn't like to compare anyone with him, so even though she can still get along with this junior, she appreciates his extraordinary ability in many cases, but whenever he mentions Fu Yisheng, she doesn't like it. Will call again.

At that time, Mo Yuhan didn't know that if he was too paranoid in love, his eyes would be blinded.

After waiting for Mo Yuhan's response for a long time, Gu Qinqin was a little anxious: "Hey, are you going or not? It's been so long, don't you still want to hide from others?"

Only then did Mo Yuhan come to his senses: "Hiding? Do I need to hide from him?"

"Okay! Then tomorrow, I'll inform you after I've decided on the location with him." Gu Qinqin seemed to be afraid that she would go back on her word, and couldn't wait to finalize everything.

The winter sun in the afternoon looks very bright, but there is no heat on its surface.The cold wind carrying sand and gravel was hovering on the surface ready to go.Mo Yuhan tightened his collar, and a question suddenly flashed in his mind: How could it be him who appeared when she was most isolated and helpless?

When Fu Yisheng entered, the living room had not turned on the lights, only the faint light from the TV illuminated the square inch in front of the wall.There is no one on the sofa, she may be taking a bath, or she may have fallen asleep.

In the past five years, no matter how late Fu Yisheng got home, Mo Yuhan would wait for him to rest together.He also told her not to wait, but she always said casually that her favorite TV series happened to be broadcast at this time.In fact, how could Fu Yisheng not know what she was thinking, every time he got home, there would be teleshopping after midnight on TV, how could there be any TV series?At this time, Mo Yuhan had already slanted on the sofa, falling asleep deeply.

He turned off the TV, and the room was dark, making it even more cold under the moonlight.Only then did he notice a petite figure curled up under the floor-to-ceiling windows.He lowered his voice and called her name, but there was no response.He walked over and found that she was really asleep.

Mo Yuhan was hugging his knees, his forehead was pressed against the floor-to-ceiling window beside him, and his brows were slightly furrowed.The moonlight shone lightly on her face, making the hollows in her eye sockets and cheeks more distinct.It was only then that Fu Yisheng noticed that she was much thinner than five years ago. Her originally pink and round face was now thin and angular. She was beautiful, but a little more sickly.

The whole house was warmed by the floor heating, but even so, there was a bit of chill in front of the windows.Seeing that Mo Yuhan's subtle aura had already released a small cloud on the mirror-like window, Fu Yisheng could not help but frown slightly.He pushed her lightly, but there was still no response, so he bent down to pick her up and walked towards the bedroom.

He put her gently on the bed and turned to go to the bathroom.Mo Yuhan was lying on her side with her back to the bathroom door, but she had already woken up the moment he turned off the TV.If it was the usual, she would happily follow behind him when he saw him coming home, booing his health like a little tail.But at this moment, when she heard his voice, she was unwilling to open her eyes.

After a while, the sound of water in the bathroom stopped, and the moment the bathroom door was opened, a wave of damp heat was also released.Mo Yuhan collected her thoughts and closed her eyes tightly, but felt that the light above her head was getting darker and darker, and the man's warm breath gently brushed her face.

Fu Yisheng admired Mo Yuhan's expression with great interest. As he approached little by little, her two small brush-shaped eyelashes trembled more and more.

He still remembers the night they got married, and she was like this too. As soon as she lay down on the bed, she began to pretend to be asleep. Her slightly furrowed brows and trembling eyelashes all revealed her nervousness, but at that time his heart would not be disturbed by that Affected by the scene.But now?He suddenly didn't want to think about it, maybe... still.It's just that this scene seemed familiar, which made him feel like he hadn't seen it for a long time.

"When did you wake up?" There was a faint smile in his words.

Having been discovered, Mo Yuhan breathed a sigh of relief, and calmly opened his eyes: "The sound of you pushing and pulling the bathroom door is a bit loud."

Fu Yisheng nodded apologetically, picked up the towel hanging around his neck and wiped his hair carelessly.

Mo Yuhan looked at Fu Yisheng in front of him, feeling a little dazed.His upper body was naked, and his lower body was only wrapped in a white towel. The dim light hit his smooth and firm skin, and there was hardly a trace of texture.

Fu Yisheng turned his head and met her burning eyes. He raised the corners of his mouth and smiled slightly. She panicked, but she didn't look away.

Her life has gone through more than [-] years. Before meeting him, she had never longed for anything so much. It was only when she met him that her life seemed to have a goal.How can she let go of such a person who has enriched her life for so many years?

Fu Yisheng wiped off the water droplets on his body, turned off the light and went to bed, and reached out to grab her, but she turned over and didn't give him a chance.

Fu Yisheng thought she was tired and sleepy, but that night, Mo Yuhan barely slept.

Her mind was full of trivial matters between her and Fu Yisheng over the years.In the past, her wishful thinking and almost crazy obsession blinded her eyes, and she mistakenly thought that he also had love for her.

After waking up, she suddenly felt very frustrated. No matter from which angle she looked at it, the man lying beside her didn't seem to love her.After being married for five years, don't you have any real feelings?She struggled with this question all night, but to no avail.

Until the sky turned pale, she still stared blankly at the hollow ceiling with her eyes open, without any sleepiness.Fu Yisheng's work and rest are very regular, almost no alarm clock is used, and he will wake up naturally when the time comes.

Hearing the movements of the people beside her, Mo Yuhan closed her eyes and continued to pretend to be asleep. Her tense facial nerves relaxed after he entered the bathroom.After thinking for a long time, she was still unwilling to give up on him like this.Maybe we should give each other another chance...

When Fu Yisheng came out of the bathroom, he saw Mo Yuhan sitting on the bed in a daze, the hair on his forehead was messy, his eyes were sleepy, obviously he didn't sleep well.

"Why are you up so early?" He asked calmly while buttoning up the cuffs of his shirt.

Without making a sound, she got out of bed and opened the drawer under the glass cabinet, and picked out a dark tie with dark patterns from the neatly arranged ties.

Fu Yisheng was tall, a head taller than Mo Yuhan who stood barefoot in front of him.Seeing her standing in front of her with a tie, he lowered his head knowingly, with a surprised and playful expression on his face.

Speaking of which, this was the first time she tied a tie for him, but her craftsmanship was not as bad as Fu Yisheng thought, she tied the knot in a decent way, without any sense of joke, he couldn't help lowering his head to look at her carefully method.

After the tie was finished, she straightened his collar for him, her fingers lingering on him reluctantly.

After deliberating for a long time, she still couldn't help asking: "Do you... love me?"

Fu Yisheng couldn't help being startled.Mo Yuhan is a woman who is sometimes hypocritical, but during the years she has liked him, she has only asked him if he would like to be her boyfriend, whether he likes him, loves him or not, she has never asked him. .It seems that she only values ​​​​one result.

Fu Yisheng finally showed a flaw on his face that could not see any joy or anger. He couldn't help but ask, "What's the matter today?"

Even if it was to lie to her, he still chose to escape.Mo Yuhan lowered his head and inhaled Fu Yisheng's breath deeply into his lungs. When he raised his head again, he had an innocent and innocent smile on his face.

She stretched out her hand to pull the tie she had just tied, and let his face slowly approach her: "I want to hear you say you love me, tell me you love me!"

Fu Yisheng smiled, put his warm big hands on her petite shoulders, and touched her soft and cool lips with the tip of her nose.He patted her shoulder lightly, as if to comfort her: "I'm going to be late."

Mo Yuhan clearly felt the aura flowing around him when he brushed past her.She froze in place for a long time, until the sound of closing the door behind her completely cut him off from her world.

03
That night, Mo Yuhan met Zhou Heng under the arrangement of Gu Qinqin.

The Zhou Heng in front of him is no longer the big boy he used to be. He still has the same cute eyebrows and eyes, but his hair is longer than when he was in college, his chin is slightly blue, and his brows have a bit of vicissitudes.

He arrived later than them, and as soon as he entered the door, he looked at Mo Yuhan as if he had sensed it, and then he never looked away.

"Long time no see, Yuhan."

His tone was soft and gentle, his expression serious and full of affection.She couldn't help being stunned for a moment, and felt that he had returned to five years ago. He also had the same expression and tone, asking her if she really wanted to marry Fu Yisheng.

How did she answer it?She said that she loves Fu Yisheng and that marrying him is her only wish and will be her life's happiness.But now, her life has only passed a little bit, and her happiness is getting farther and farther away from her.

"Long time no see." Mo Yuhan said.

"Oh, my junior is more handsome than before!" Gu Qinqin said exaggeratedly.

Zhou Heng smiled: "I heard that Senior Sister Gu is still single, so I happen to be too."

"I said, can you not turn on which pot and carry which pot?" Gu Qinqin gave Zhou Heng a blank look and said, "Besides, I don't know what you are thinking? You make fun of your senior sister, you don't want to live anymore, do you?"

Gu Qinqin is used to being aggressive, and everyone has already taken it for granted.When she said these words, both Mo Yuhan and Zhou Heng just listened with smiles, except for the sentence "I don't know what you are thinking", Mo Yuhan stepped on her foot severely when she finished speaking.

Gu Qinqin didn't care either, and asked the waiter to serve the dishes, while questioning Zhou Heng's current situation, whether he was comfortable returning to China, how the new company was doing, etc.

Mo Yuhan was listening, suddenly feeling ashamed. After graduating for so long, Gu Qinqin has been promoted to the head of the department, and her younger brother has returned to China to start a business. Sitting among them, she found that she couldn't understand what they were talking about.

At this time, Gu Qinqin's cell phone rang. She glanced at the caller ID, said "My boss" helplessly, then connected the phone, and walked out of the private room while talking on the phone as if she were a different person.

When only Mo Yuhan and Zhou Heng were left in the private room, Zhou Heng put down his chopsticks and asked what he wanted to ask the moment he entered the door: "Are you still the same?"

Mo Yuhan knew that the "you" he said meant her and Fu Yisheng, but what did he mean by "the old way"?
The past that she had reviewed countless times reappeared in her mind.

She remembered that the first time she met Fu Yisheng was in the library of the university.

At that time, it was not long after the start of the second year of university, which happened to be the autumn sports meeting, and there were much fewer people in the library than in the past.She was learning French and wanted to borrow a dictionary.

When she took out a hardcover French dictionary with a dark green cover from the tall and old bookshelf, the afternoon sun suddenly poured through the gaps in the bookshelf, dazzling her eyes.She used to cover her eyes, and when she got used to the light and opened her eyes again, she clearly remembered that a boy's smooth neck appeared in front of her through the bookshelf.Under the sunlight, his outline was blurred but soft, and his fair skin was almost transparent under the sunlight.

At that time, Fu Yisheng behind the bookshelf probably didn't know that someone was spying on him. He held the book in his hand and read it intently for a quarter of an hour, maybe longer.

And it was this scene, where even the face didn't appear, that opened a narrow gap in Mo Yuhan's girlish heart.

The liking when we first met was always so superficial, but because of years of wasted time, that superficial liking turned into an unforgettable love.

However, that day, when Mo Yuhan came to his senses, there was no one on the other side of the bookshelf.He suddenly appeared in her world, but disappeared in an instant, which made her in a trance, almost thinking that the scene just now was just a hallucination of hers.

Not without disappointment, she walked to the place where he had stopped just now. The books on the bookshelf were close to each other, and there was only a slight gap, and there was still a fingerprint left on the edge of the bookshelf beside the gap.It is the two Stendhal's "Red and Black" that construct this narrow gap.

Did he borrow that book?This sudden speculation rekindled hope in her heart, but just for a moment, the weak flame was mercilessly extinguished.so what?The school is so big and crowded, where can I find it?

Frustrated, she packed her schoolbag and went out, but inadvertently bumped into someone who came, and the book with a dark red cover slipped out of the man's arm and fell to the ground at her feet.

She bent down and picked it up. It was the book that had just been borrowed.After experiencing a momentary loss, she felt the joy of regaining the loss.

She handed him the book, and a hand with long fingers and knuckles took it.

"Thank you."

Only then did she raise her head to look at him, but all she saw was his profile when he turned around.

But even this profile was enough for her to spot him in a crowd.

She saw Fu Yisheng again in probability class.

What Mo Yuhan dislikes the most is mathematics. She has never attended the pre-examination review class before, and she learns by herself when necessary.

"I have to hand in my homework today, you know that?" Gu Qinqin asked.

"There is still homework? Why didn't you say it earlier?!"

There was still a while before class, she took Gu Qinqin's homework and opened it to read: "Who are you copying from?"

"Don't worry, the standard answer."

"Where's the standard answer?"

Gu Qinqin chuckled and raised her chin ambiguously.Mo Yuhan followed her gaze, and it turned out to be him.

"Copied from him?"

Gu Qinqin wondered: "Yeah, what's the matter? It took me a long time to borrow it from the class representative."

"He's in our class?"

"It's from the class next door!"

"You know him? What's his name?"

"Fu Yisheng, you don't even know? Sister, you are too out!" Gu Qinqin pushed her, "Don't be an idiot, hurry up and copy, 'Master Miejue' will come to collect homework later."

Mo Yuhan looked down at the two questions. The questions were a bit difficult. Fortunately, Fu Yisheng's answers were very clear. It's just that Gu Qinqin made a few mistakes. It would be difficult for people who don't understand the questions to understand.

Mo Yuhan pointed to a clerical error and asked Gu Qinqin: "What does this mean?"

"Hey, what does it matter if you copy homework!"

"If you don't understand, I can only ask someone who understands."

Not knowing where the courage came from, she stood up and walked towards him.She approached him step by step, secretly feeling that "impulsion is the devil", what if he ignores her?What a shame!

Fortunately, this "what if" did not appear.However, the expression on his face when he turned his face to the side and squinted his eyes to look at her gave her an ominous premonition.After that, Mo Yuhan could often recall Fu Yisheng's expression at that time. Perhaps at that time, he already knew that she would do that question at all, and asking him was just an excuse to approach him like other girls. .

That day Fu Yisheng casually pulled the notebook in her hand, picked up a pencil and wrote rows of lengthy formulas on it fluently.His voice was deep and sweet, but it was a bit ethereal in her ears...

After that, Mo Yuhan rarely skipped classes, and she hoped to see him again.And as long as he appeared in the classroom, she could always see him first.She thought, she was probably really moved.

She shared her first heartbeat with her friend Gu Qinqin, but Gu Qinqin looked at her in surprise: "Isn't it you, you just saw the charm of the most handsome guy in our college today?"

Later, Mo Yuhan learned from Gu Qinqin that Fu Yisheng had joined the student union, so she also came up with the idea of ​​joining the student union.However, she would think of being so close to Fu Yisheng, and other girls who were eyeing him would also think of it.For a while, the head of the sports department of the student union thought about the number of girls in the department who only know how to eat dry food and become nympho, and felt a little troubled.

"I heard that the Ministry of Sports will hold a college basketball game next month. Do you need sponsorship? I can help the Ministry get sponsorship."

It's no longer a secret what Mo Yuhan's background is, so no one would disbelieve what she said.Therefore, she successfully joined the student union and had more opportunities to get in touch with Fu Yisheng.At that time, she also met Zhou Heng, a student who was a year younger than her.

Mo Yuhan has never understood why Zhou Heng has feelings for her, is it out of sympathy?
It was an inter-university basketball game. Fu Yisheng not only had a good mind, but also played well. He became the main force of the school team when he first entered school.Mo Yuhan was very lucky that time, he was the only girl brought out by the student union to accompany the competition.

Standing on the sidelines, she never took her eyes off that figure. She liked to watch him fast-break and dunk, but was worried that he would get hurt.Waiting for the intermission with a heart, she excitedly passed a towel to him who was leaving.He walked past her without even looking at her.

At that time, she was terribly embarrassed, and she just hoped that no one would see that scene, but when she turned around dejectedly, she saw the junior brother who had just joined the student union not far away, looking at her with an unclear expression.She was depressed about why he appeared there. Fortunately, Zhou Heng never mentioned that incident after that, and Mo Yuhan once deluded herself to think that her embarrassing scene might not have been seen by anyone.

But although Zhou Heng didn't mention that matter, his attitude towards Mo Yuhan changed subtly after that match.Mo Yuhan couldn't tell exactly what kind of change it was, but he was no longer so polite and alienated.

He never expressed his feelings for her until she made up her mind to confess to Fu Yisheng.

Regarding Zhou Heng's feelings, Mo Yuhan could more or less see that she had something to belong to, and she didn't care about the feelings of people other than Fu Yisheng.She thought that she had rejected him tactfully enough, and that this smart boy would not be stubborn for too long, but his hurt and worried eyes and words at that time were buried in her heart like a thorn.

He smiled and said, "My grades are good, I can play basketball, and I'm not bad-looking...you don't think about it?"

He asked her, "Are you sure that's the feeling you want?"

He said: "He will not give you happiness."

Zhou Heng is not the only one who thinks so.In the past few years, except for Mo Yuhan herself, no one thought that Fu Yisheng would be her lover, and no one believed that they would grow old together for the rest of their lives.But at that time, she insisted on embarking on this doomed and difficult road as if she had been possessed by a gu.

Withdrawing her thoughts, she said, "It's pretty good."

"Really?"

"real."

But his expression was full of disbelief.Mo Yuhan anxiously picked up the glass on the table and took a sip of wine, but was accidentally choked.

After finally slowing down, what she saw was the napkin handed over by the person opposite. She thanked her and wiped it casually.

Zhou Heng said: "No matter what it is, you can tell me."

Mo Yuhan sneered: "Is it useful to tell you? Will you help me?"

Originally, she was just saying something out of anger, but Zhou Heng said, "Of course."

Mo Yuhan raised his head and found that he was looking at him.For a moment, she really regretted it - she seemed to hear Zhou Heng saying that he had expected such a day...

This was exactly what Gu Qinqin saw when she came back.She didn't know what happened between the two during the time she went to answer the phone, but she vaguely felt that something was wrong. The atmosphere wasn't ambiguous, but it was definitely weird.

After the meal, Mo Yuhan declined Zhou Heng's offer to take her home, and took a taxi with Gu Qinqin.

Out of Zhou Heng's sight, Gu Qinqin couldn't wait to pull Mo Yuhan to question: "What did you two say when I went to answer the phone? Did Zhou Heng express that he has no more love for you?"

Seeing that Mo Yuhan didn't speak, Gu Qinqin said firmly: "It must be, the atmosphere is weird when I go back. Why, now you think this little brother is not bad? It's much more comfortable than your facial paralysis!"

After drinking a lot of wine, Mo Yuhan became dizzy and a little restless.She lowered the car window halfway, and the cold wind penetrated into the car and blew her slightly messy hair, but it didn't make her thoughts clearer.She didn't know whether her choice was right or wrong. After being protected for more than [-] years, this was the first time she needed to be alone, and this feeling was like being naked but blindfolded in a completely strange environment. Insecure fear, helplessness, and despair.

It was rare that Fu Yisheng would arrive home earlier than Mo Yuhan.Seeing the faint light in the living room, Mo Yuhan was stunned for a moment.

People in the living room also heard her voice.Fu Yisheng was wearing casual home clothes, and stood in front of her leisurely with his hands in his trouser pockets: "Why are you back so late?"

Mo Yuhan thought that when Fu Yisheng asked this question, he should have a questioning tone, but his tone was still flat without the slightest emotion, and his narrow, dark eyes were as quiet as a deep pool that had been closed for many years. waves.It's just that his figure elongated by the dim wall lamp made Mo Yuhan feel a little lonely.

She suddenly felt sad, how did he live these five years?Are those things that smell of copper really that important?Thinking of this, she laughed back in pain, leaning weakly against the wall behind her.

"Have you been drinking?" Fu Yisheng stepped forward.

His handsome and indifferent face completely came out of the shadows and appeared in front of her eyes.She looked at his thin lips in confusion, he only looked like this when he was angry.The light hit his silhouette, outlining the beautiful lines of his jaw and neck.This person has fascinated her for too long, and maybe he will no longer be hers from now on.

04
Mo Yuhan kicked off her shoes and walked into the house barefoot. Alcohol made her extremely excited and made her hands and feet uncontrollable.When she walked around Fu Yisheng, she staggered a step, and he stepped forward to help her, but she wanted to shake off his hand but was pulled into his arms by the force of the pull.

Mo Yuhan looked into Fu Yisheng's eyes quietly, her figure was reflected in those dark eyes like deep pools, which suddenly moved her a little.She stood on tiptoe tremblingly touching his sharp-edged chin, tall nose bridge and narrow eyes, and couldn't help kissing this face engraved in her heart and disturbing her for countless days and nights.

"What happened today?"

Mo Yuhan shook his head, put his arms around his neck, and let his breath completely envelope him.

Everything happened so naturally, just like every time in the past, until Fu Yisheng opened the bedside table and took out something.He was Fu Yisheng, and he would never let himself completely lose control, even when they were most forgetful for the first time, he did not forget to control everything.

Fu Yisheng felt inexplicable about Mo Yuhan that night, he wanted to ask, but she kept hesitant to speak.He was a little irritable suddenly, looked at her seriously for a moment, saw that she was still ashamed, got up and went to the bathroom.

Mo Yuhan looked at the closed bathroom door for a long time, and his breathing gradually calmed down.Someone said: "Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears." (Sometimes, only a tear can make our vision completely clear) But at this moment, Mo Yuhan's vision is completely clear.She knew that she might need a cruel growth.

Mo Yuhan touched the big kraft paper envelope, thinking to himself that Zhou Heng's efficiency was indeed very high.She lay back on the chair, wondering if Fu Yisheng would laugh at her for wasting her effort if she knew about her little tricks?
She rubbed between her brows helplessly, a wisp of smoke rose from the coffee cup on the coffee table, and the strong aroma of coffee permeated the whole room, giving her a little peace of mind.

The sudden ringing of the phone broke the silence in the room.

"Have you received the item?" Zhou Heng's tone was lazily smiling.

Is he mocking her?Mo Yuhan was still a little uncomfortable, but compared to the current discomfort, she was more afraid of living in the chaos of the past five years.

"Are you really planning to divorce? Aren't you afraid that your father will find out?"

"My dad is in the hospital, beyond his reach. Besides, I have to find a way out for myself just to keep him from knowing."

"Well, then... are you really willing to give up Fu Yisheng?"

Mo Yuhan's heart tightened, so what if he was willing, so what if he was not willing?
You may have done many things right in your life, maybe you voted in the right baby, was born in the right place, maybe you answered the questions correctly, went to the right school, maybe you chose the right friends and found the right job, but you may also Love the wrong person, marry the wrong person.Mo Yuhan's life was going well in the first place, every step was well-planned, but the only time she made her own choice was wrong, and it was outrageously wrong.And this mistake lasted for many years, until last month she woke up screaming from the dream that the man had woven for her.

She no longer wants to recall what happened that day...

Mo Yuhan originally invited Gu Qinqin to go shopping that day, but Gu Qinqin had to go back to the company after a short visit, so their activities ended early.

When Mo Yuhan arrived at Mingtai by taxi, it was not time to get off work, so she went to find Fu Yisheng as usual.It's been five years since she was married, but she still feels like a little girl in love, and she can't help but think of him too many times after being separated from him for a few hours.It's the same today, she took the not-so-rich loot and went to share it with him excitedly.

The door of Fu Yisheng's office was ajar, and the sunlight shining through the crack of the door drew a long golden streak on the dark brown carpet.Before she could reach the door, she heard Lu Hao's laughter.He was Fu Yisheng's roommate in college, and he went to work in Mingtai after graduation. Mo Jingming was hospitalized a month ago. After Fu Yisheng took over the company's affairs, he promoted Lu Hao to be the manager of the sales department.

They were both classmates, and Mo Yuhan naturally recognized him, and his ability was indeed excellent, so she had no opinion on Fu Yisheng's decision, and she was too lazy to have an opinion.But she also heard that the people in the sales department didn't have many good things.

Sure enough, I heard Lu Hao say: "Danlu has some new products, do you want to go and have a look?"

Mo Yuhan's hand to push the door stopped unconsciously on the doorknob.Everyone in City S probably knows what Danlu is. It claims to be a high-end leisure club, but in fact there are some shady services inside.

She held her breath and waited for the other person's response with a hanging heart.

"The routines that your sales department uses to deal with customers should be saved on your own people."

This was Fu Yisheng's voice. His tone was flat and he couldn't hear any emotion, but it made Mo Yuhan's mouth curl up.Thinking about knowing Fu Yisheng for so many years, he has only had one girlfriend with her, and the others have not even had a flirtatious partner, which shows that his character is upright, especially when it comes to matters of men and women, he will not hurt her heart.

"What's the matter? Are you afraid that Yuhan will find out?" Lu Hao teased him maliciously, "Is it true that love has been falling in love for a long time?"

What do you mean, don't they get married because they love each other?
Sure enough, Mo Yuhan heard Fu Yisheng also ask: "Why do you say that?"

Lu Hao said: "What kind of state did you think your brothers had forgotten? Before you got married, you were embarrassed for a long time, but now you are frankly saying that no one said anything because of Mingtai. It's normal for a man. Every day, parents have short children and long love That's why people look down on you. However, Yuhan is not bad except for being a bit of a spoiled lady, so it's not impossible for the two of you to have a long-term relationship, right?"

At this moment, Mo Yuhan outside the door realized that he couldn't understand what Lu Hao said.Perhaps it was because she had stood outside the door for too long, the coldness under her feet was creeping up her legs little by little, her whole body was stiff, like a frozen statue.For a long time, when those few words whirled in her mind and made her unable to breathe, she felt the pain in her heart getting deeper and deeper, and there seemed to be something crackling beside her ears, shrill and piercing, and the smile on her face Like a fake mask, it was torn inch by inch, and finally fell off.

Had he accepted her only for tomorrow?Has she entrusted her lifelong pillow for so long to have no love for her?She doesn't believe it!
Mo Yuhan was still quietly waiting for that person's response.

After a while, I heard the man say: "I'm not questioning the premise, I'm talking about the result."

The premise of "long-term love" is that there is no love, and the result is love... So, five years ago when he promised to get married, he didn't love her, but after being married for five years, he still doesn't love her?
Lu Hao said: "What's the 'why'? After being together for a long time, you will develop feelings. If you raise a kitten or a puppy for a long time, you will also have feelings, let alone a living person."

Yes, this is true for pets, let alone her?

Mo Yuhan didn't listen to the rest of the words.

She couldn't remember how she walked out of the company, and after walking more than ten meters, she looked back at Mingtai Building weakly.This is what my father has spent his whole life, but now the man is enjoying it with peace of mind.He only needs to spend a few years by her side to get the whole of Mingtai. Now that his father is ill, what will he do next?Continue to be an emotionless couple with her, or leave?She dare not think.

She couldn't help being startled by the sudden sharp voice behind her.Before she could react in a moment of confusion, the delivery car and the whole box of lunch in the car fell heavily on her lap, and she watched the steaming vegetable soup run down her trouser legs Drip down.

At first there was pain, but gradually she felt numb.Regardless of her distress, the boy who delivered the food just clung to her and yelled at her to pay for the box lunch.She tried to pull out her arm, but she couldn't exert any strength.Her life has never had such unexpected events as today, and she realized how cowardly and at a loss what to do when faced with so many unexpected events.

She reluctantly threw down a few banknotes, and the young man was finally willing to let her go, but before leaving, he still reminded her to walk more carefully in the future.

The calf seemed to be injured, unable to bear a little weight, Mo Yuhan limped forward while leaning on the wall, and never thought of reaching out to stop the car.At this time, it was rush hour, and her embarrassment attracted the attention of passers-by.Before that, she had always been a flamboyant person, so in the past twenty years or so, she never thought that other people's eyes would make her as unbearable as a knife.

The shadow of the sun could not be found, only a small piece of cool light was exposed on the horizon, and the cold wind rolled up the sand and dust, whistling and blowing on her tear-stained face.Why is it so cold?
The moment Fu Yisheng turned his back on her, the whole world turned his back on her.

05
After walking for a long time before returning home, Mo Yuhan powerlessly closed the door behind his back, and the echo of closing the door faintly echoed in the empty house.She has lived here for five years, and she has never felt that the house is too big, too big, and has no sense of security.

She bent down and opened the shoe cabinet, and the two pairs of couple slippers lying carelessly inside looked extremely dazzling to her at the moment.

An aunt is hired at home, so she doesn't have to do housework, but she never tires of things like buying household items. From pajamas, slippers to towels, and toothbrushes, she likes to buy two pieces of the same style and different colors.She was looking for every opportunity to connect her with his world, but now, all of these have become thorns in her eyes and thorns in her flesh, making her unable to breathe in pain.

She looked at herself in the full-length mirror, and the vomit-like marks on her pant legs were really nauseating.She wanted to find a change of clothes, but accidentally opened Fu Yisheng's closet, which was full of his suits and shirts, and the faint smell of cologne emanating from them was the smell she usually loved so much. He buried his face in it countless times, greedily absorbing his breath.But at this moment, everything is ridiculed.

Mo Yuhan burst into tears, and desperately pulled those neatly placed clothes off the hangers... The man she was proud of, those trivial things that supported her life, those things that made her a fool Feelings, at this moment, are like sharp knives, stabbing her heart one after another, making her miserable.

For a long time, looking at the mess all over the floor, she knelt down in the midst of it, too weak to make a sound.

Fu Yisheng, Fu Yisheng, Fu Yisheng...

The name was the only thing left in her mind.In fact, no matter what Fu Yisheng said at the end, whether they fell in love with each other or not, in Mo Yuhan's view, it is not so important anymore. He played their beginning so badly, even if she loves him, she can't accept a relationship without emotional response. Even marriages with deceit.

Mo Yuhan got up from the ground when the faint starlight came in from the window, and hung the scattered clothes back to the closet one by one.She thought, before she had figured out how to face him, let everything go back to before the mask was lifted.

She doesn't know how to choose between the past three to five years and the next three to fifty years, and she doesn't know where this marriage will go.

If Mo Jingming was in good health, Mo Yuhan would definitely turn to him for help immediately, but now is obviously not the time.So she had to find another way to get back Fu Yisheng's control over Ming Tai.

"Yuhan?" Zhou Heng on the other end of the phone was a little worried.

"Well, that's it, don't move too much, so as not to be discovered by him."

Zhou Heng couldn't help laughing, who is Fu Yisheng, he never expected to keep this matter from him, but just hoped to keep it as long as possible.

"I try my best."

"Thank you."

Zhou Heng laughed: "Thank you for what you say."

"You know... Maybe I shouldn't ask you for help, but I have no other way. I don't want you to misunderstand. If you feel reluctant, you can tell me."

Zhou Heng smiled bitterly: "Don't worry, I won't misunderstand anything."

It was already eight o'clock in the evening when Fu Yisheng finished all the work, but it was still earlier than usual.As he picked up his coat and walked out the door, he was thinking about where he would go to pass the time.If he went home now, he didn't know how to face Mo Yuhan until he went to bed.

When the two first got married, Fu Yisheng would go home on time. Mo Yuhan was naturally very happy, but Fu Yisheng felt depressed.He couldn't show the slightest bit of impatience or irritation in front of her.But if you say that he is tired, she will bustle in and out to ask about his health and chatter endlessly around him.At that time, Fu Yisheng would occasionally think, if this is the person he loves, then this should be the warmest moment of the day.

It's a pity that she is still not that person, not the woman he fell in love with.If you ask him why he chose her in the first place, the answer is actually not as scheming as outsiders think, it's just because of his uncertainty.He thought that some people were doomed to never fall in love with others in their lifetime. He was not sure if Mo Yuhan would have a woman he could fall in love with if he missed Mo Yuhan, and Mo Yuhan loved him enough, and he didn't seem to have any emotional demands on him. Gao, so he would rather choose the current life.

It took a long time for the call to be connected. The other end of the phone was very noisy. Lu Hao shouted "Hello" several times at the top of his voice, and Fu Yisheng took the phone away from his ear.

Lu Hao seemed to have had a drink, so he probably didn't look at the caller ID, and just kept yelling and asking him who he was looking for.Fu Yisheng frowned and hung up the phone.In the process, his car has already circled the business district where the company is located twice.

Fu Yisheng glanced at the rearview mirror on the right, and accidentally saw the Hello Kitty incense stick in front of the car, which Mo Yuhan insisted on putting on his car last month.Thinking of that little girl, Fu Yisheng became agitated again, so he turned the steering wheel violently and drove the car towards the top of the mountain.

Fu Yisheng went up the mountain with ease, he had been here several times, and even Lu Hao had accompanied him several times.

Parking the car on the edge of the cliff, he took out a can of beer from the trunk, Fu Yisheng leaned beside the car and took a few sips.It was cold winter, and the temperature on the top of the mountain at night was terribly low. Fu Yisheng's fingers holding the soda cans were already turning white from the cold.

I still remember that the last time I came here was not long ago, and Lu Hao still laughed at him that he would rather run here to enjoy the cold wind than go home and enjoy the warmth and soft jade in his arms.

Fu Yisheng rubbed the center of his eyebrows, why on earth did he not want to?
Men are different from women. Women may not be able to bear to live with a man who does not love, but most men are willing to try to fall in love with a woman who loves him.Fu Yisheng's relationship history is very simple and innocent. Except for Mo Yuhan, no woman has ever walked into his life. Perhaps in the eyes of many women, that is their distant and beautiful forbidden zone.

In terms of relationships, perhaps due to the lack of an unforgettable experience, Fu Yisheng, who has always been strong, has a sense of fate of resignation.A woman like Mo Yuhan has good looks and figure, and she is even more considerate to him. The center of her universe is him.If things went on as normal, he should be satisfied with this wife, but what is he bothered about right now?

Those so-called reasons are gradually surfacing, beckoning to him faintly.But Fu Yisheng shook his head, and they sank together with Mo Yuhan's shadow.

When Fu Yisheng got home, he found that Mo Yuhan had already fallen asleep.She used to keep a wall lamp for him when he came home late, but in the past few days he always walked in the door in the dark.He was in a bad mood all day because the company kept going on. He had gone to the top of the mountain to relax and drink some wine. His mood improved a little, but when he got home and saw the darkness, he was overwhelmed again. thick cloud.

He took a quick shower and went to bed before his hair was completely dry.Mo Yuhan beside him rolled over and lay down on his back.

"Wake you up?"

"Not asleep yet..."

He hesitated for a moment or asked the words lingering in his heart: "Do you have something on your mind?"

She didn't speak immediately, and the room was eerily quiet for a while. After a while, she sighed and said, "I'm worried about Dad."

He put one arm on top of her head, and she raised her neck tacitly, resting on his arm.She used to like this most as a pillow in his arms, with her hands and feet clinging to his body and falling asleep warmly.But recently, she seems to prefer to sleep with her back to him.

Fu Yisheng tightened his arms, and rubbed his chin against the top of Mo Yuhan's head. Her hair exuded a faint fragrance, which calmed down his restless mood that had been immersed in him all day.

Fu Yisheng closed his eyes and pondered for a long time, then exhaled softly: "Sleep, I will accompany you to see Dad tomorrow."

(End of this chapter)