Lord, please be gentle

Chapter 53

My name is Gu Mingyu, a young gangster who grew up in a casino, where I learned what survival is, and I also know how important money is to me.There are customers coming and going in the casino every day. Some people come in with a lot of money, but the losers go bankrupt.

Because the casino needs manpower to watch the scene, so the boss sent me to learn martial arts, because he knew that only I would not betray him, or in other words, I have nowhere to go except him, because I don’t know who my parents are, and I don't know where I come from.

Master is a very powerful person, but he is addicted to gambling and drinking, so he taught me that there is no need to charge any fees, the boss will give him alcohol, give him money, let him gamble in the casino, anyway, the money will eventually go back to the boss hands.

In fact, my life, before that moment, I thought I would live in such a muddle.

But that time, my master died. In the casino, everyone in the casino, except for me...except for me who survived hiding in the cabinet, they all died, whether it was the master, the boss, or the buddy. Well, they're all dead.

Through the gap, I saw the master being chopped into meat paste, and the boss was poured with oil and then lit a fire.

The casino is gone, and I have no final shelter. I have heard about the First Palace in the World, the place where people can reach the sky in one step. The only thing that attracts me is probably the name.

At least I know that if I get in, I don't have to worry about the rest of my life.

So I went, it was a very grand place, it was so grand that I felt so unreal, I saw a lot of people in it, densely packed, each of them looked extraordinarily powerful.

I was squeezed into the crowd, and then I saw the man.

A very quiet guy, standing in the corner, looking down at no one, I saw many people avoiding him, as if they were afraid of something, I couldn't feel his breath.

I remember Master said that a real master cannot hear his breath. If this person has eliminated his breathing so easily, then he must be the master that Master said?
Almost immediately, I squeezed through the crowd, with my heart in my stomach, and boldly walked up to him, pretending to be generous and saying:
"Hey, what's your name?"

When I said this, I felt that everyone around me was looking at me, but that guy didn't even lift his head, which made me feel extremely ashamed.

"My name is Gu Mingyu, why don't you talk." I didn't want to make myself too ugly, so I introduced myself.

Fortunately, at that moment he raised his head, and until then, I didn't know why everyone seemed so afraid of him.

because……

He has a pair of purple eyes, which are very beautiful, but very strange, and one will be frightened at first glance.

His eyes were so cold that it made me shiver.

But he knows I'm into it, so I'm glad, at least, he didn't make me too ugly.

So I keep trying.

"Hey, let's be friends."

But unfortunately, he doesn't seem to intend to kill me.

Until, when the two of us were grouped together, I was very excited, because I knew he was very strong, so being with a strong man like him would save me a lot of trouble.

So I try to please him, try to be nice and kind.

Finally one day, he took care of me. When we were on a mission, I was bitten by a wild animal. He took care of me, not as indifferent as I imagined. Only then did I know that he was dumb. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to speak. It's that he can't speak, his eyes have already made him a strange person in the eyes of everyone, if he is known to be dumb again.

I suddenly understood his thoughts, and at the same time I was very happy, because I knew that he regarded me as a friend, although it was only the beginning.And I know that, except me, no one can let him treat like this, because he erected a wall in his heart, keeping everyone out of the wall, I just came in by accident, few people can be as accidental as me , and not many people would discover his strength from the very beginning, and never thought of relying on this powerful backer.

He told me that his name is Fengqing.

The tasks afterward were extraordinarily easy, because with Feng Qing around, I hardly needed to do anything, I just had to pretend to be that carefree and casual good partner every day.

I acted as a good friend, gradually Fengqing began to trust me, and told me a lot about him, that mysterious island, that Tang Xiaoxun who made him smile involuntarily when he talked about it.I listened with a smile every time, and joked with him.

Just like a real friend.

Only I know, I don't, if he is not strong enough to save me from a lot of troubles, I don't want to stay with him at all, you know, being with a mute is very depressing, and you have to I have to cater to him, and I have to act as if I am interested in things that I am obviously not interested in.

Feng Qing is actually very simple, at least when he was with him, he never doubted me.

He treats me more and more as his own, but I can't stand his completely trusting look more and more.The more sincere he was, the more irritable I became, to the point where I didn't want to be in the same room with him unless it was absolutely necessary.

If ever there was one thing that changed everything, it might have been that one time.

That is another team of people who also participated in the test, but they are very clever to combine several groups, because it is the last game, whichever group wins, the two people of which group will enter the first palace in the world, So they want to beat other people first, and then solve it themselves.

And because of the irritability in my heart, I was getting farther and farther away from Feng Qing. Although I could see Feng Qing's friendly eyes that hadn't changed in the slightest, I subconsciously wanted to avoid it.

So I often go out alone, and unfortunately I was targeted by them once.

Nearly ten people besieged me alone. I thought I was going to die this time.

However, Fengqing still came, and those people exposed my mask in front of Fengqing, revealing my purpose and my hypocrisy.The original was exposed in front of Feng Qing.

I'm speechless, and I don't even have a reason to deny it, because I've exposed a lot of problems during this time.

I thought Feng Qing would leave with disdain, but he didn't, he beat everyone away, because he didn't want to take people's lives, so he just wounded them, and also died.

I didn't thank him, I called him stupid, I told him what those people said was true and I just wanted to use him because he was strong enough to help me reach my goal.

But Feng Qing's actions shocked me.

With his sword he carved words that made me ashamed:
Your goal is to enter the world's No. [-] Palace, right? You're still one step away. If you finish the last game with me, you don't have to follow me.

He wants to take me to complete all the missions, take me, a despicable villain who wants to use him, and enter the world's first palace together.

I laughed, I didn't know whether I was crying or laughing, I fell down in front of Feng Qing, not knowing whether to cry or laugh.

It turned out that he already knew it, but I thought I was smart.

I have never felt so ridiculous.

Feng Qing left, he beat all the opponents alone, then threw me into the river when I was drunk in the tavern, and took me directly to the first palace in the world after I sobered up.

I succeeded inexplicably like this, and walked into the hall of my dreams.

until……

I found out it was hell.

No, it is a place more terrifying than hell.

When I saw Feng Qing again, I could barely recognize him. Is that the man surrounded by killing and blood?

The corpses around him were one after another. They were the people he let go in the game. He let them go again and again, and even got injured because of it. He was still so persistent in not wanting to hurt other people's lives.

but……

They were all dead, all at his hand.

I know that I am not his opponent, and I know that I will die if I fight him.

but……

I would rather die myself.

Perhaps no one would believe that I, who only knew how to take advantage of me all this time, would stand there willingly at that moment and let Feng Qing kill me.

In fact, I might be able to take advantage of his kindness, his weakness of treating me as a friend, and keep me alive.

but……

But I knelt in the arena, begging those inhumane, people in the first house of the world to let him go.

I pray that they will stop torturing him with such cruel methods, I know, that is not his original intention, he does not like to kill, he does not like to take human life.

But now he is constantly killing.

Kill, kill, kill.I could almost hear his soul weeping, in blood beneath that cold and cruel mask.

I knelt on the ground and kowtowed to those people, begging them to let him go with the most humble words, even if they let me die, I can do it.

Feng Qing is too kind, kindness makes a humble and dirty person like me feel extremely ugly.

I hate him, I avoid him, all because in front of him, I always let my meanness and ugliness have nowhere to hide.

However, no one would pay attention to me, to the prayers of a despicable person like me.

When I thought I would die in Feng Qing's hands, he saved me again.

I survived, but I can no longer escape the shackles of my soul.

Gu Qingming's final words:

If you say, the thing I regret the most in my life is getting close to Feng Qing with such a despicable and ugly purpose.And the thing I'm most proud of is that I got close to him, even with that kind of means... It is the greatest happiness in my life to make him treat me as a friend.And the only thing that can be called a memory.

If everything can be done again, I will definitely still approach him, but with a true and sincere heart, I will become his friend and be a person who is qualified to be his friend.

Feng Qing, if you can still think of a person named Gu Mingyu in the future, please forgive his ignorance and stupidity, because before he died, he wanted to atone for his stupidity and ignorance.And you are him, the greatest pride in his life.

(End of this chapter)