Featured by Frederick Floyd

Chapter 2 [-]
Fu Lei's eldest son, Fu Cong, learned piano at the age of seven under the tutelage of Italian conductor and pianist Mario Paci. In 1954, 20-year-old Fu Cong bid farewell to his parents and went to Poland to study.

1954.1.18/19
Satoshi:
As soon as the train started, everyone turned into tears and stood upright on the platform in a daze, waiting for all the long trains to leave the station before turning around.When leaving the station, Uncle Shen comforted me again and again.But on the tricycle home, everyone couldn't stop crying.Min was sobbing all the time.We didn't sleep well last night, waking up every now and then.Taking a nap today, I just closed my eyes dimly, and woke up again in a panic.I haven't tasted the feeling on the platform last night for many years. My chest hurts and my stomach is sad. I only had this experience when I was broken in love.Today, it seems that after a serious illness, I have no strength at all.Mom wants to cry anytime and anywhere—the eyes are already swollen and painful, but I still can't help crying.She just said "Smiling faces all day long", and she was sobbing again.Really, child, this time you are really "smiling all day long", how can you give up!I kept thinking about what happened in the first month of 1[[-]], and my conscience could hardly be dispelled.Child, I abused you, I will never forgive you, I will never make up for this sin!These thoughts have not left my mind all day, but I dare not tell my mother.If you do one thing wrong in life, your conscience will never be at peace!Really, Balzac said it well: Some sins can only be redeemed, not washed away!
night of the [-]th
Going to bed last night warmed up your childhood again.Poor child, how could your childhood be so similar to mine?I also know that the setbacks you suffered from childhood are not without help to your achievements today, but as a father, I always made a lot of big mistakes.I asked myself that I have not done anything sorry to my friends and society in my life, but I did something unconscionable to you and your mother at home. These are all things I often think of in the past year, but these days I have been circling in my mind especially Don't go, it's like a nightmare.It's a pity that after the age of 45, the fatherhood is really awakened!

The spirit has not recovered all day today.The hurdles of life are endless, and when you are almost done, you have to leave the world again.Analyzing the mental fluctuations in the past two days, it is mostly because: I have never loved you so deeply as now, and at this deepest moment of love, parting happened to happen!This level is an unprecedented test for me and your mother.Don't forget that your mother is not just a general mother's love, but especially because she has spent the most for you and suffered grievances for you-of course it is my fault-the most, the deepest and the most painful.Sooner or later, the flowers and fruits irrigated by the gardener with blood and tears must be sent to the world for others to enjoy, but at the moment of parting, how can we avoid the emotion of parting?
What passed along with your painful childhood was my prime of life when I didn't know the art of being a father.Fortunately, you are so blessed that no amount of blows can destroy you, thus reducing part of my crimes.But the result is one thing, and the facts of the year are another: Although I buried my past, I still couldn't bury my mistakes.Child, child, child, how can I hug you to express my regret and love!
dad nineteen nights

1954.1.30
Dear children:
The day after you left, I wanted to write a letter, and I was afraid that you would find it annoying, so that's all.But there was not a single day when I didn't miss you. I woke up at six or seven every morning, tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, and I couldn't explain why.It seems that Christophe's mother is alone at home, remembering the image of the child's childhood scenes; your mother and I always think about your little stories from the age of two or three to six or seven - we don't know such words I can tell you more or less, but I dare not say it. At your age, everything is moving forward, and you don’t want to look back; we chatted about the past of your diaper era and the era of snot and tears, which will arouse your curiosity. hate.My child, I know all this, and so does my mother.It's just that all your life will be printed in our minds, and will float up anytime and anywhere, like a series of sketches, making us happy and melancholy.

Really, you were at home for a month and a half this time, and it was the happiest period of our lives; I don't know who to thank for this happiness, even if I have no religious beliefs, I can't help but thank God so far!I am happy that I have another friend; my son has become a friend, what in the world can compare with this kind of happiness!Although there will be more and less separation between you and me in the future, I am at least warm in spirit and not lonely.I believe that I will not be too outdated, not too wintery, so as not to annoy you.I also hope that you don't think that what I think and see at the top of the peak is more unreal than yours.Older people always look to the future. Many things you think I am wrong for a while, but as time goes by, the reality proves to you that I am not wrong.

My child, I am afraid that I have learned as much from you as you have from me.Especially in the past three years, you have given me a lot of profound experience in life. I have learned patience, learned the skills of speaking, and learned to sublimate my feelings from the process of getting along with you!

The day after you left, Mom cried, and her eyes were swollen for two days: these are called tears of bittersweetness and joy.We can tell you this without being shy, or we can tell you this without worrying that you will hate it.Humans are emotional animals after all.There is nothing shameful about casual revelations.What's more, mother's tears are always holy and loving!

Ende [2] has come here a lot these days, probably she understands our feelings and wants to comfort us.The shadow of a young man can indeed remind us of you, and seeing her seems to quench our thirst.

I wanted to wait for your letter to add a few more sentences, but since I couldn't wait, I had to send it first.Wish you a Happy New Year.

your father on the evening of january [-]

You know that we would like to know your food and living, the house you live in, the temperature and temperature, the bed and other sporadic things. Of course, we also want to know how to arrange music theory study, as well as Russian.It's okay to write a scribbled letter, just ask for more details!
Dear Cong'er:
We have been waiting for your letter since yesterday, counting the days, there should be a letter.You really don't know how you can't let go of your mother's worries.After you left, I was busy carrying the piano for you. I was taken by the travel agency at noon today, and it can be loaded when the wagon is free.Then the end of the lunar calendar is approaching, and I am busy with housework again, and the whole day is filled with trivial things, but when I am free, or late at night, I always think about you and talk about you with my father, the past, the present, With a happy but somewhat melancholy mood, I couldn't help but shed tears, I couldn't help myself.The one and a half months you came back this time is really memorable, because it was the happiest, most exciting and happiest period in my life.Seeing the harmony between you father and son, talking to each other without any scruples, the fear that I used to worry about before was swept away, and I can only listen to your discussions with joy. I feel so happy and comforted. The joy of coming is eternal.Although we won't be together much in the future, but with memories, precious memories, I will laugh through tears.Between us, in addition to "love", there is nothing to say.I am optimistic about your hope and future, but there is such a little bit of mother-child affection that I can't let go of.As long as I write letters often, as long as I see you write "Dear Mom and Dad", I am satisfied.

Mom on the evening of January [-]

1954.2.2
Dear children:
After waiting for a long time, I finally waited for your letter.You are busy, we can naturally imagine and forgive you for writing late.There is only one thing to worry about. I am afraid that you will not eat normally and work hard, and that you will not have enough nutrition.I hope you, for our sake, "work hard to add rice!" I mean especially meat, not necessarily more rice.

I called the China Travel Agency just now, and they said that the piano has been pretended and is on the way.You can ask Zhang Ninghe to tell Beijing China Travel Agency that you should be very careful when handling the piano.The Qin broke down in Beijing, and no one repaired it; this is a big deal, so don’t be afraid to bother others. Zhang Ning and others are so enthusiastic, and they will definitely be willing to take care of these for you.When transporting it to the regiment, do not remove the bamboo strips on the outside by yourself, it is easy to damage your hands, and your hands need to be protected!Thick ropes are also easy to hurt your hands.You must entrust the workers to do it on your behalf.The above two points must be followed!

There is a letter from Mrs. Blonstein[3] and I enclose it for you.I've seen it, and I still hope to send it back.Last night, from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-], the radio station broadcast the four pieces of Chopin [Chopin] you played three times in the city, plus a Polonaise ["Polonaise Dance"] by encore [Encore]; the effect is very good, It's just that the bass part is very vague; the sound of the piano is too loud, like the situation when I went to listen to it in the empty room of the small auditorium on the first night.As far as the performance is concerned, I think it is generally very good, it is done in one go, full of energy, the delicate parts are very delicate, and the tone color [timbre] changes a lot.We were all very happy and moved to hear it.Good boy, I should really praise you a few words.Thinking back to the time when you just returned to Shanghai from Kunming in April [-], you were really halfway up the mountain from a low-lying place.I hope you will pay attention to your overall self-cultivation from now on, and you will be able to climb the peak in the future.From your recordings, I can clearly feel that everything about you is much more mature, especially what I have been looking forward to for so many years——your will has finally raised its head.I'm so happy, I value that more than anything else.If you can master the whole piece of music, it means adding depth to art, which means that your artistic soul is stronger and broader, which means that your entire personality and heart are enlarged.Boy, I want to repeat a sentence from Bronstein's letter, that is, I am proud of you!
Today is New Year's Eve, thinking of you studying and working hard in the distance, I can't tell the joy in my heart.Farewell, child, I hold you in my heart!

love you daddy new year's eve february [-]nd
1954.2.4
child:

Good boy, you are busy, and it is not as easy for you to pick up a pen as to play a piano.Well, we no longer ask you to write more.I am also busy, but I can write you a piece of paper in 10 minutes and a quarter of an hour.As long as you are not bothered, I can often chat with you, such as listening to my monologue.As long as your silence is not about illness, I will not worry about it.

Papa and Words February [-]th
Yesterday afternoon, the radio broadcast the five Brahms you played again, and the effect was better than that of the day. Hindemith [Hindemith] that music theory to send you?

1954.2.10
child:

Received two letters in seven days at the same time.China Travel Service will send someone to collect the local piano shipping fee in Beijing in a few days. At that time, there must be a stamp (this chapter must be kept!) and a moving-out certificate will be handed over to you. (The hemp rope used on the piano - not straw rope - hope to save it, as mentioned in the postcard earlier.)
I want some pictures in the house, but I can only pick a few printed materials.Beijing is very windy and sandy, and there is no glass frame, and better things cannot be hung; Huang Binhong's works, there are also small ones, I can give you as much as you want; just not framed.Fortunately, your stay in Beijing this time is not too long, so let's talk about it later. The portrait of Chopin [Chopin] was bought in Paris when I was 23 years old, and it is also a photo of the masterpiece of the romantic painter Delacroix [Delacroix]; the Mozart [Mozart] is a relic of Paci[4 instruments][[-]], It is also a good engraving version, and I can't bear to let them go to Beijing to eat the dust naked, so I won't give it to you.

Don't read Russian too fast, otherwise you won't be able to memorize it, and you will have to start over again in the future.At the beginning, you must be calm and unhurried. Both the position and the case need to be memorized. It is useless to memorize temporarily like preparing for an exam.Now, when studying Russian, I can only seek a rough idea, and don’t be too ambitious; the main thing is to work harder on music theory. It is always faster to study foreign languages ​​abroad.At present, if you are greedy for too many things, you will not actually benefit much, so remember!Wang took the initiative to explain to the teacher that it would take at least two or three months to speed up. The complete works of Scriabine will be bound and sent to you, as will Cortot's Piano Technic.I will try my best to urge them to install it quickly.

In the past two days, Shanghai has suddenly been extremely warm, with southeast wind and sandy soil, much like spring in Kunming.Amin and Ende recited poems with me. Min said that you often recite the two lines "Chaohui Ridian Spring Clothes, Every Day Jiangtou Drunk Return", and now he can also recite it.I am preparing a small gift for you to take abroad in the future, I hope you will like it very much.It's your mother's birthday in a week, and your birthday in a month. I can't help but feel sad and happy when I think about it.

Hindemith's music theory will be sent out tomorrow, and the curtains, tablecloths, and piano covers will all be prepared by my mother and sent within a day.I congratulated Wei Xianzhang when we met.We'll try to keep you from picking it up at the post office.

Zhang Ning and Chu pay my respects.Say hello in a hurry!
dad february [-]
1954.2.24
Dear Satoshi:

I finally received your letter today, very pleased.After you left, the contradictions in our hearts are really indescribable. Of course, for your future, we should be thankful. You have such a good opportunity, and there is no luck. But thinking of such a long separation, I always feel a little uncomfortable, I hope You study hard and take care of your body. I believe that you will never disappoint the country's expectations of you. Our painstaking efforts.When you are abroad, you must send more letters from home and tell us everything, no matter trivial or important, we are happy to know, and if we have the opportunity to take pictures, we will send them from time to time.We see how precious your letter is. Although we are separated, our hearts are always together. This is the only comfort you give us.

How is the laundry done in Beijing?I hope you tidy things up slowly and carefully. It's a pity that mom can't do things for you.Today, Maoyu printed a dozen license photos for you, and now I attach them. I hope you will put them in the black bag after receiving them for future use.You must take vitamin B, and you must have a regular life in the future. Now that you are sensible, I will not worry about it anymore.But when I am free, I miss you all the time, I am very happy to dream of you often, my child, my mother loves you so much, I only hope that you will write more letters, we will be grateful!Not much to talk about, my father has written a lot of things to say, I hope you take care of yourself!Happy!

Mom February 24
That short-sleeved white shirt is indeed at home. I picked it out today when I was tidying up, so I had to leave it for Amin to wear. Forgive my mother for being confused!
1954.3.24
Dear children:
This time it took you about 20 days to get a letter, because I have been sick and I am very worried that you are also sick.Since March 22th, I have had a fever three or four times in a row, and each time the fever was very high.There was a letter to you last time when the popularity subsided.Unexpectedly, on the afternoon of the [-]nd, the high fever came again. Uncle Lin heard about his lungs and said it was bronchitis.Fortunately, it took a day and a half to recede, but the body suffered repeated blows and could not recover for a while.

In public groups, it is inevitable that rushing to work will hinder normal learning, which I have expected.Everything is only for you to use your firm will and stand to fight for the leader in a subtle and powerful way.Otherwise, how much can you prepare for going abroad?Especially in terms of music theory, I have always been worried.From now on, everything depends on your personal perseverance, faith and will - the will to practice.I will no longer talk dogmatically to you. Those three long letters last year have said everything I thought; you have grown up too, so I don’t need to remind you again and again.But if you lack courage, just write to me and I can cheer you up.If you are in a bad mood, talk to me honestly, I can comfort you and solve some big or small troubles for you.Regarding XX, you have already expressed your attitude to me, and I believe you will actually do it.You are still young, and you will go abroad soon; your vision, hobbies, and tastes will undergo many changes; even if all conditions are perfect, there is no guarantee that your views on both sides will not change in the last three or four years, so there is no way. Ensure that the relationship between the two parties remains unchanged.Best to let time tell.I went abroad when I was 20 years old, and I was engaged to your mother before and after I went abroad, but during the four years of going abroad, my views on her changed over and over again, and they were very shaken.This practical example can be your reference, so that you can do things more cautiously and less painfully than me—especially for your study and your artistic future!
Another point I can tell you: even at any time in my life, when I was in love with the most passionate, I did not forget my loyalty to learning.Knowledge first, art first, truth first, love second, this is my principle that has not changed so far.Your situation is different from mine: when you succeed at a young age, you have to think that "it is hard to live up to the great reputation", and you have to be cautious and live up to the expectations of the people of your country.Your gratitude to the government can only be regarded as real gratitude if you express it with actions!I think God in your mind must also be Bach [Bach], Beethoven [Beethoven], Chopin [Chopin], etc. first, and lover second.That being the case, the energy and time you currently have at your disposal can only be dedicated to your first idol, not the second god.dont you agree?It's a pity that you didn't learn the technique of writing early, otherwise you can use writing (music) to vent your excess emotions. An artist must be able to "sublimate" his emotions in order to be beneficial to others.I definitely didn’t read the letter and exaggerated your depression, so I was anxious; but I know you have depression to some extent, and I can talk to you casually, maybe it can help you clarify your feelings.

Ende's operation this time was much more painful than last year.Last year, the operation took only half an hour, but this time it took an hour and a half. In the first three days, I still had fever, and one eye was still inflamed, and I am still in the hospital.

The previous letter asked if you would like to send a reprint of "Carmen" to your friends, please let me know in your letter.The sun outside is very good, and it's completely the breath of spring. Unfortunately, I can't go out for a walk to welcome the new spring.Treasure everything, set your mind to study, I wish you, dear child, I hope you will have less troubles than me, more happiness, and more achievements to make others happy!
Dad March 24 at [-]:[-] am

1954.4.21
child:

Received the letter on the [-]th, I am very glad that you passed another test.The sufferings of life, the theme [main theme] is just these few, and the rest are just variations [variations].The bitter juice of love is tasted early, and the middle-aged age can be calmer.As the old saying goes, if you lose your fortune, it is not a blessing.You experience human affairs earlier than the average youth, so you mature earlier.The painful experience this time probably made your spiritual growth a step further.You can go one step further in your understanding of art.I congratulate you for having the courage to fight yourself.One after another somersaults and stumbles, as long as you can climb up, you will gradually climb to the peak, detached from the ego.Bitter tears are the wine that nourishes your soul.People who do not experience acute pain cannot have deep and broad compassion.So child, I am very happy with your transformation process, and I hope that you will have a deeper understanding of life than I do, have a stronger love for human beings, and have more sincere confidence in art!Son, I believe you will not disappoint my expectations.

Regarding your study (before going abroad), I always advocate reducing the time for practicing the piano, and don't be too nervous about Russian; on the contrary, you should step up your preparations for music theory.I predict that within two years after you go abroad, you must deeply feel the lack of this aspect.Therefore, try to gain basic common sense before going out.

March and April are the most beautiful seasons in Beijing (except autumn); the lilacs are already in bloom, and then the peonies are in full bloom.If you have time, you might as well go to Zhongshan Park to play.China's ancient cultural relics are of course fascinating, and I often cherish the memory of the ancient capital, too.

Recently, I am processing and modifying the text of discussing singing for Uncle Lin; my spirit has not yet fully recovered, and my work has not yet officially started.

Ender's eyes have improved slightly, and according to Uncle Lin, it will take a year to completely correct the strabismus.She was born with more setbacks than you have smooth sailing.Your letter to her, I read, is very well written.

Amin will take the quiz today.During the spring break, he went to Suzhou for three days. He went with the school group and stole Uncle Huang’s Japanese camera. He had to demand compensation from me.After the thief caught it, the camera was also recovered.

On the southeast corner of the garden, there are some small rockeries, planted with pines, cypresses, redbuds, wisterias, maples and so on.I'm afraid you won't recognize him when you come back.

Haste, best wishes!
Dad April 21

Mom always misses you!
1954.5.5
Satoshi:
It's been a long time since I wrote to you.How was the response when your autobiography was submitted?How is music theory?How is the spirit?What about mood?Everything is in mind.If you have any feelings or uneasiness, please write to me and talk to me, maybe I can relieve you, or at least cheer you up.

Have you seen "Colonel Chapel"?Which one do you like?Do you have any comments on my translation?I myself feel more and more that my intestines are exhausted. The sentences are somewhat formulaic, the colors are not varied enough, and the words used are not wide enough.The People's Literature Society asked me to translate Fude, but after looking at it, I felt that the style was difficult to convey, and I cringed very much.

I recently went to Hangzhou for five days. Before I went, I felt that my physical strength was not as good as before. After I went, my climbing legs were still strong.After returning home, the azaleas were in full bloom in the garden, and the roses were already budding.Spring is here, and you must be even more excited.

Free letter!

Say hello in a hurry.

Dad May [-]th
Uncle Lin finished editing the manuscript on singing techniques for him yesterday, and he was relieved.

1954.6.24
Dear children:
Finally your letter has arrived!It's a pity that the Liaison Bureau didn't tell you when you will go abroad, but sooner or later you will leave us, and sooner or later everyone will be tested emotionally;

On the day you first arrived, I really wanted you to leave after [-], but my temper of always abiding by the law and taking precautions suppressed my thoughts. During this waiting period, you should sort out all the piano scores staying in Beijing thoroughly. , Write two catalogs in English, and send one to your home for checking.This kind of work can also help you pass the time and save yourself the hassle.

My child, you have a great future ahead of you. In the past few days, you should carefully summarize all the past and make arrangements for the future; prepare mentally and spiritually, exercise your will, and prepare to endure the loneliness in four or five years. and emotional fluctuations.That's what you should be doing right now.Don't worry, kid.I told you what was in my heart in the previous letter, and I was relieved mentally.A person venting is asking for mental health, not making himself more and more depressed.Listen to Beethoven's fifth [5] more, and recite some difficult deeds of Christophe (the end of the first volume, the end of the fourth volume IX), which can increase your courage and make you calmer.

Good boy, quietly prepare to go abroad.Be thoughtful about all the sporadic things, don't be afraid of the hot weather, be lazy, and do everything properly.Before leaving, you must record the clothes and other things you bring in the "small handbook", and write down the accounts for the things you stayed in Beijing and sent to Shanghai.When you miss us, look at the photo album.Why is writing a letter so easy?If it were me, I would definitely describe the situation when Luo Jun came to Beijing and after he joined the regiment, even if it is a good way to practice writing.

You are very much like your mother these days, which makes me very happy.But take things seriously, but I hope you are like me.The most important thing is not to be afraid of trouble!

Dad on the afternoon of the 24th
1954.6.29
Dear Satoshi:

How gratifying it is to receive your letter. Our laughter and crying come from the bottom of our hearts. My child, only everything about you can really open our hearts. When I think of you, I feel happy and have nothing to complain about.Thinking back to the week you were at home, my spirit was so good that I could stay up all day and night, but after you left, I seemed to be paralyzed for two consecutive days.

A few days later, I had to repair my father's study, and was busy moving the house. I was busy for three days, and now everything was ready and arranged in a decent way.Dad's bookcases were all moved to the balcony, and the balcony was turned into a library. Dad's study room is temporarily on the third floor, and it's fairly well-arranged.Min still slept underneath, because it would take at least a month and a half to wait for the stone walls of the study to dry before moving in.Dad works late into the night, and there is a conflict with Min's time, but his room is currently full of things, so he has to prepare his homework in my room. Anyway, that room is dark, so he has to use it for sleeping.

I think you have been busy arranging your luggage these days. How many sets of clothes have you made?Are you satisfied with the workmanship?Is there a box for underwear for you?For the toothbrush, toothpaste and other sporadic things that were stuffed in your leather shoe box last time, you can take out some that you need to use now, and put the rest in the box, as long as you record it in the account, because small things are easy to be neglected.Tidying up things is a trivial and troublesome thing, but this time I will give you training and training, I hope you will be organized, and you must not be impatient and sloppy.We will be happy if you don't bother to tell us everything about your situation before you leave!
When you received this letter from me, it was only a few days before you left the motherland. After going abroad, please write more letters. My parents in the distant motherland miss you every day. I wish you success and hard work!The most important thing is to take care of your body, and be careful when you dress coldly or warmly.We hold hope and a happy mood and wait for you to return with a full load in all aspects!Farewell, everything is precious!
Mom June 29
Read my previous letters again, and you will have nothing to say in your reply.I have nothing to say for the time being, I just hope that your letter will be more detailed.

Dad 29 p.s.
1954.7.4
child:

These days I've been restless because of your affairs, and I can't sleep well at night.The most worrying thing is to go by plane temporarily, and the luggage will be transported by train; the transport time, such as the luggage sent back to China last year, is very long, and you will feel a lot of inconvenience when you go abroad in the future.

My child, I hope you pay more attention to practical affairs, do what should be done immediately, and don't procrastinate lazily.The time of setting up the Dragon Gate Array at night can kill a lot of things.I'd rather be ready before playing.

Maybe this is the last letter you received before going abroad, maybe you didn’t even receive this letter in time, and I feel so sad.I can't finish what I want to tell you, I'm afraid you will get tired of hearing it.But regarding relationship issues, I still have to solemnly warn: no matter what, you must exercise restraint, and put your future and health first.Make good use of time outside, not only to use time to work, but also to use time to rest and write letters.Don't forget Du Fu's poem: "A letter from a family is worth ten thousand gold!"

Farewell, child, we miss you every day, bless you every day, and embrace you spiritually!
dad fourth of july morning

1954.7.15
Dear Cong'er:
The letter you sent seven days before you left was not received until the afternoon of the tenth day. We waited and waited for a few days without seeing your letter, and we were extremely anxious. What happened?Are you gone?Finally the letter came, and a stone fell to the ground.It turns out that you walked alone, and I can imagine the loneliness of the journey.When you arrive in the Soviet Union and Poland, whether someone will come to pick you up, we can only wait for your news.

Regarding your relationship, I felt infinitely perplexed after reading it.On this question, I always feel that you are too impulsive and not calm enough.What happened this time was somewhat out of human nature. Although this is another lesson for you, you should do a deep self-examination and severely blame yourself.I don't want to complain too much to you, but I think you are a bit abusing your feelings, and you are too self-loving. This is unnecessary pain.After learning this lesson, we must be vigilant and not repeat the same mistakes.You have too many feelings, which will be a burden to you all your life.So you have to realize that when you make friends, you must think carefully in advance, and you can't be hot for 5 minutes, just do it rashly on a whim.I have a saying that I have been muttering in my heart for a long time: I think your love is not special, one after another, at your current age, it is not too small.I am a woman, and I know women's psychology very well in this regard. If I encounter you who are so fickle, I will be really chilled to see you.You have been abroad for several years this time. Apart from studying hard, you should never make any troubles. This matter is of great importance. Apart from you, it will also affect Dad's future.I hope you put all your energy into research and knowledge, use more reason and less emotion. Of course, it depends on your strong faith. It is not an easy task to overcome all troubles, but you must overcome them.Regarding your emotional problems, I have never participated in any opinions. I think you are making progress in all aspects. You are a smart person and will realize your own consciousness.Since I am your mother, we are flesh and blood, so I have to chatter and persuade you.

Recall that since your father and I got married, our relationship has remained the same for more than 14 years. When I was 15 years old, your father fell in love with me (he was as precocious as you), and got engaged when I was [-] years old. Dad went abroad that winter.During his four years abroad, although there were unavoidable fluctuations, he was old-fashioned and quickly realized, so he got married after returning home.After marriage, because of his short temper, tortures of all sizes are inevitable, but our relationship is still so harmonious and strong. Now that we are older, the anger has subsided, and my father is more considerate to me and loves me more.Although I am unwise and cowardly by nature, relying on my patience, I have helped him in a big or small way invisibly. This is what I feel can be proud of and comforted.We are truly lifelong companions now, inseparable.Now that you have grown up, parents often worry about their children's lifelong problems, but you are still young, so don't act too hastily.With your talents, it will not be difficult to find a satisfactory partner in the future.Well, enough nagging and writing, you're going to have a headache.

I received your letter from Manzhouli today, it was unexpectedly fast, I am very happy!By the time you receive our letter, you will have already settled everything.I hope you will tell us the details of the situation, your news will always be fresh to us.The walls of Dad's study room are finished, but they can't be moved in until they are completely dry.Now my father is working on the third floor, very quiet, and the newly translated book can be finished in mid-August.Amin is on vacation, and because of study problems, he is a little emotional, and his spirit affects his body. These few days are very boring.Dad will talk to you about his problems.

Children, take good care of your health, writing more letters is giving us more comfort!

Happy.

your mother july fifteenth

1954.7.27/28
Satoshi:
The letter from Moscow was received yesterday.I don’t know how many days it will take for us to send the air letter to Poland. Please mention it in your next letter.I've been so busy lately that I've returned to work for more than ten hours.This letter budget should also be written several times.I don't sleep well at night, I go to bed after twelve o'clock, and it takes an hour before I fall asleep.The reason is that I overuse my brain before going to bed, and I can't stop for a while.

The letter you wrote on the car is very interesting. It can be seen that as long as there are facts and facts, you can't write a bad letter.You mentioned the difference between Li and Du, and it is true.Realism, like other sects, has its strengths and weaknesses.The disadvantage is that the carving is too much and lacks natural and agile charm.But Du also has extremely well-formed poems, such as "the wind is rushing, the sky is high, the ape is mourning, the sand is clear and the white birds are flying back. The boundless fallen trees are rustling, and the endless Yangtze River is rolling in..." This poem is similar to Li Bai's artistic conception.There are also a few poems "Dream of Li Bai" and "Concerning Li Bai at the End of the Day", which are also lingering, sentimental and sexual, and very moving.But compared with Su and Li's farewell poems, they seem to be lacking in simplicity and simplicity.This is due to the times and cannot be imagined.The minds of the people of the Han and Wei dynasties are closer to the original, with a strong taste and a vast expanse. After thousands of years, it is still memorable.Du Fu's many pastoral poems, although influenced by Yuanming, seem to be "separated" (in Wang Guowei's language) by comparison.Come back and say: realism can be learned, but romanticism can't be learned; so Du can learn, but Li can't.It is also for this reason that Chinese people respect Du more than Li when they talk about poetry.And after all, there are not many talented people like Taibai, and there are few people who resonate with them.At the same time, the peaks of snow cover also give people the feeling of "Qinglou Yuyu, the heights are too cold", and ordinary people dare not casually look up.

The poets Zhongsu and Xin are indeed two great poets in the Song Dynasty, and they are also my favorite.Su's poems are quite idyllic, so they are freer and more natural than Du's pastoral poems.In addition, Ouyang Yongshu's kindness and subtlety are also very gratifying, and Feng Yansi of the Five Dynasties also has a lot of good sentences, but because of his personality, I can't help but have some prejudice against him.

I wish to discuss with me in detail what was mentioned in my first letter.If you have any mental distress outside, don't hide it, don't be afraid of being blamed.It's never a bad thing for a person to have someone twenty-something years older to give him an idea.You must trust me, and don't be afraid that I speak too strictly. I usually have no scruples when speaking to old friends. You know that.And some psychological fluctuations or depression, writing it out is equivalent to venting, I can feel happier, and maybe I can avoid doing many stupid things.My child, I wish I could be by your side every day, to be a good guardian angel, to encourage you, comfort you, advise you, and help you pave the way for the future and prepare for your future studies and personality.

July 27 late at night
Last week I gave Ender a lecture on "Song of Everlasting Sorrow" and "Pipa Xing", and I found it very good.Bai Juyi had a deep understanding of the relationship between syllables and emotions.Whenever it turns to a sad place, it must use the oblique rhyme instead. In "Pipa Xing", the passages "big strings are noisy" and "small strings are sharp" are like staccato [staccato], like the sound of a pipa; and the lines "silence is better than sound at this time" are equal to a long pause[ Intermittent]; "Silver bottle... water slurry burst" two sentences, it is a sudden attack [attack], the momentum is majestic.As for "Song of Everlasting Sorrow", the breath is detached, the writing is unconventional, and the emperor's nobleness [nobleness] is everywhere, it is a wonderful pen through the ages.There are several different ways to read: one is to separate paragraphs to see the ups and downs of the narrative;From a general point of view, sending the tragedy to the fairy world makes the romance more beautiful and fresh, but still full of human flavor (such as what Taizhen said to the Taoist priest).Also, Bai Juyi's skill in writing movements is also remarkable: "The waiter is helpless to support the delicate", "The king can't save his face", and "The dream in the Jiuhua Tent" is so vivid! "Smoke and dust arose from the gates of the Jiuchong City, and thousands of riders rode to the southwest", writing about the emperor's flight from disaster has its own imperial spirit. "Cuihua shakes and stops again", what a vivid picture!Finally, there is another wonderful point: the whole poem is written so gracefully and delicately, but it still does not lose its grace and luxury, and there is no slight disease of delicacy (delicacy and delicacy are very different)!It is obviously a tragedy, but it is written without excessive crying, how moderate it is, this is a wonderful example of romanticism and classical beauty.

It is very late, so in order to let you receive it early, I will send this letter tomorrow.We are all eagerly awaiting your detailed report!Especially about learning piano, the more you write, the better.

Goodbye, boy, all that is precious!
Dad July 28 at midnight
1954.8.11
good boy:
I received the letter on August [-]st, and today is the eleventh day, which means that there are only ten days in total.Our letters to you are numbered:
(Wave 1) Launch on July [-]th
(Wave 2) Air hanger will be released on July 29
(Wave 3) Shipped on August [-]th
Probably the embassy will delay some time in forwarding the letter. Next time I send a letter, I hope to report how many letters I have received.
I can imagine your life as I was in Switzerland in 21.But you are even more fortunate to have good teachers and helpful friends as your companions, and your music as the object of your admiration.When I was [-] years old in Switzerland, I was suffering from adolescent and romantic depression: pessimism, world-weariness, hesitation, boredom, and boredom; what I said in the preface to "Biography of Beethoven" refers to that period.My child, you are much more mature than me. All the anguish of adolescence was spent in China a few years earlier; so now you are more able to calm down and study hard; and.

Your achievements in playing the piano make us very happy.For your own parents, you don’t need to be afraid of the suspicion of “boasting yourself”, as long as you analyze your weaknesses at the same time, and tell us the weaknesses that others didn’t say but you feel.Reporting other people's compliments to us is your greatest comfort to us; but at the same time, you must deeply examine your own shortcomings.This way, your letter will not appear to be over the top; and this kind of self-criticism is also like a mirror, which will help you a lot.There is a big difference between writing down your thoughts (whether in a letter or otherwise) than just dreaming them up in your head.Writing down requires correct and precise thinking, so the self-examination written on paper is extraordinarily deep and impressive to myself.Do you think what I said is right?
I have another deep feeling for your letter this time.That is, your sensibility is extremely strong and extremely fast.This is your strength and your weakness.As soon as you arrived in Poland last year, your style of playing Chopin changed immediately; after you returned to China, you couldn’t maintain it; this time it changed again when you arrived in Poland.This proves that your receptivity is extremely fast.However, there are advantages and disadvantages in everything in the world, and there are long and short. Often the feeling is quick, and you can't immerse yourself deeply or keep it for a long time.The short period of last year is certainly not conclusive, but you must at least admit that your not easy "firm attachment" is a fact.I would like to remind you in particular now that I hope you will always be vigilant, and do not let your new feelings float on the surface of your feelings; instead, you should carefully analyze how the new feelings differ from your original concepts, emotions, and ways of expression.This requires a calm and powerful intellect to analyze clearly.I hope you often use this step to "consolidate" the new things (whether it is technology or expression) that you have quickly acquired.In the long run, not only will your playing style become more stable and mature (of course, the so-called stability is not rigid or formulaic); your general intelligence can also be greatly improved and exercised.Children, remember these!Deeply remember!Still have to do it!I believe that only I can tell you these words.

I would like to add a few words: playing the piano should not rely solely on sensation [feeling], sensitivity [feeling].Those psychological effects are too easy to change.What you get from these two aspects needs to be sorted out and summarized rationally before it can be deeply absorbed into your heart and become a part of your personality, a part of your personality.Of course, after you have lived in Poland for a few years, as a result of your edification, you will more or less (naturally) grasp the essence.But if you are mentally prepared in advance, especially if you work harder on intelligence, then your future harvest will definitely be bigger and richer, and your foundation will be more solid.To put it more clearly: Artists are inherently sensitive. If you change a place, a group of people, or a different spiritual atmosphere, you will unknowingly change your temperament and expression.But the main thing is that the best and most outstanding part of your mind, the essence you have learned from others, must be firmly grasped and deeply planted in your own personality. No matter when and where, this part will remain unchanged.Only in this way can you cultivate your unique characteristics in a thick way.

Regarding this issue, I think you must have some feelings after hearing it, so you might as well talk to me more.

Secondly, I have to remind you one more sentence: try to control your emotions and move them into art.There are too many beautiful angels around you, I am afraid that you will not be able to hold back again.Don't you forget that you swore to be a Puritan for a few years, a monk and an abstinent in the love of men and women for a few years!Do remind yourself of this!Guard yourself all the time!Everything must be awakened early and the awning closed early; don't let your enthusiasm rise and then suppress it. At that time, there will be more pain and less effect.In any case, dear boy, take my advice in this matter!Parents are most worried about these things.

You remember a sentence: Young people are the easiest to give people the impression of "ungrateful".In fact, he is staring ahead, eagerly absorbing new things, not necessarily "ungrateful"; but few people understand this psychology; you must not let people misunderstand.

Shanghai is very hot these days, the third floor is 96 degrees [6], I sweated and changed the translation, and it was still late at night.The walls of the study downstairs are still not completely dry, and there is no hope of moving it down within a month.When I got your letter this morning, I left work and spent an hour writing this letter.

You are such an artist, boy, that you never think of practical problems.Why didn't they even mention the cost of board and lodging, daily expenses, etc.?People are multifaceted, parents are particularly concerned about these, don't forget to report in detail next time.How to solve the score problem?I spent a lot of money to buy it in Poland, will it affect other uses?
I'm going to work, no more writing.I hope you take care from afar, because you are so happy, there is no need to wish you happiness anymore!

Dad before noon on August [-]

Mom has been very busy these days, so I won't write any more.She just took your letter and laughed non-stop.

1954.9.4
Satoshi, dear boy:
What a pleasure to receive your fourth letter from Poland and many photos. The postage is only nine days, one day faster than before.Looking at the photo, you are not fat. Are you working too hard and not getting enough sleep?Or is it a photo taken indoors, which looks thinner under the contrast of light and dark?And who took the picture for you?Where was it filmed, why are there two pianos in the room?And there are advertisements for competitions on the back of some, what's going on?Usually, the date and place should be printed on the back of the photo for future reference.

There is another important little thing: the letter on the envelope should not be too large, it fills up the entire cover; two letters, one is that the road name is partly covered by the stamp, and the other is that my name is pasted on a horn.Because there is really no room for a stamp on the envelope.Just look at the words on the envelope I gave you, and you will know what is proper.

Your critical spirit is getting stronger and stronger, and I am so happy that you have not been "forgotten" by others!What you say about your head and heart is especially comforting to me.Only when you have this understanding will you show your real progress.When I arrived in Poland, I was very lucky to meet such a strict, calm teacher who focused on measures and analyzed the composition.After his training, in addition to being passionate, you also have a steel-like skeleton, which makes people feel warm and solemn, emotional and rational, and gives people deeper and stronger strength!I congratulate you, child, and I am sure that sooner or later you will come to this road: after a few years, your cultivation must be able to keep your brain [mind] and heart [emotion] in balance.The deeper and richer your spirituality is, and the more refined your skills are, the more you will find a wider audience and critics will appreciate you.I'm so happy for you, boy.

According to my analysis, your nervousness on stage this time is not due to the seriousness of the scene—wasn’t the competition in Luo Jing last year just as serious and terrifying?The main reason is that I didn’t try the piano first. When I went up, I was shocked when I heard the tone [sound] was loud; the touch [key touch] was uneven, and I was shocked again;These three stimuli are the biggest reasons for your nervousness on stage on the [-]th.dont you agree?So in the future, you must keep in mind that no one can touch the piano first unless it is a competition on stage. Otherwise, no matter in a private home or at a classmate recital, you must first try touch [touch key] and pedal [pedal].I believe you will never be nervous again next time.

Everyone appreciates you, and my mother shed tears while reading the letter.See, my boy, what joy your success gives us!And your self-criticism delights us beyond description.

If you read my letters, you always feel that there are lessons, as if your father is always a pastor; or if you have heard my words too familiarly since you were young, and your ears are callused; then I hope you can understand my feelings from the perspective of emotion At the same time, we must think: as long as it is the truth, it is a real lesson, no matter it comes from the mouth of parents or friends, or from acquaintances, it must be accepted.Don't be indifferent just because you are tired of listening to it, just ignore it!Don't forget: Your family background from childhood to the present is not only unique in China, but also rare in the world.Who would teach a young art student so much morality besides art?I trust you completely, and the seeds I have planted for so many years will surely bear fruit in you one day—I mean an artist with both moral skills and outstanding personality!
Your easy-going temper has to be changed somewhat.It is easier for foreigners, sometimes you might as well just say: I have something to do, or: I want to write a letter home.Artists especially need to meditate.If you are always in the crowd (you are already upset), you will lack opportunities for reflection; thoughts, feelings, and feelings cannot be well organized and summarized.

Krakow [Krakov] is an ancient city with quaint streets, churches and bridges, all of which are intriguing.Early in the morning, in the evening, in the middle of the night, wandering in this kind of place must have a different feeling, which is enough to be your poetic and picturesque material.I used to live in an ancient city in the interior of France called Peitier, an ancient city in the [-]th century. The atmosphere of ancient culture is still unforgettable, and I often dream of wandering there.There must be a lot of Nordic Gothic (Gothique) architecture in Krakow, and it also has a special style.I can't wait to fly to your side and enjoy it with you!If you have any landscape pictures (they are sold everywhere, very cheap), you might as well write the name of the place and send it as a postcard.

After arriving in K City, how much did you get for your monthly allowance?I'm afraid it's not enough money to spend a month at the beach, right?

Amin has already started school, and besides homework, she is already very busy with playing the violin. How can she find time to learn music theory?How poor to think of him.He is not like you, he was happier than you in his childhood, but he was not as lucky as you in his youth.There are too many things to make up now.Poetry, Chinese, especially to supplement.During the summer, he watched "John Christophe", and there were hundreds of phrases [idioms] that he did not understand;I explained it to him within half an hour after the meal, and I didn't know how many times I explained it before everything was resolved.Ordinary young people feel the anguish of being extremely thirsty for knowledge, but their foundation is too poor, and they can't make up for it all at once.

In the past few days, because I finished translating Fude and took a few days off, I am very tired physically and mentally.Working in summer is not as usual, and it is particularly tiring.Xu Liang is very insightful when talking about translation. The day before yesterday, he sent me a translation manuscript with more than [-] characters that he had painstakingly refined.It can be seen that the distance between theory and practice is huge!The Soviet drama expert in Beijing always blamed the directors: "Why are you all theorists, why don't you ask specific questions?" I really feel the same way.Three years ago, the Beijing "Translation Bulletin" asked me to write articles several times, but I refused. The reason was that it was useless to talk about theories, and I mainly did it myself.

Well, let me rest, this letter took two days to write.If there is an error in the address on my letter, please send me a letter to correct it.Mrs. Bronstein, I wrote recently to tell you how you are, so that she too may like it.Take care of everything!
daddy the fourth of september
1954.9.28
Satoshi:
In your letter of September 5, you mentioned Krakov, but you have not received a letter from home. I suspect that the three letters (waves 6, 7, and [-]) have been lost. Thinking about it, I am very unhappy.Those letters were written by my mother and I with a lot of effort, and they also reported a lot of news about you, including trivial matters and important national events.Have you ever asked the concierge or secretariat of the music academy?You haven't arrived yet, so you may be left in an office in some part of the school until today.

We often want to write to you, but we have no materials, so we stop writing; you have a lot of materials, but you don't tell us much.For example, when you came back from the sea, you spent four or five days in Warsaw. What did you do during that period?Who did you meet in Warsaw?On your way abroad, you met Mr. Ba Jin in Moscow; he returned to Shanghai in mid-August, and he called me on the same day to tell me, but you never mentioned it.Of course, you were too busy during that period of time to make those memories.

Recently, I dug up Lao She's "Four Generations Under One Roof" and found that there are many problems with the writing, not only bad rhetoric, but also many places where the context and tone are inconsistent.There are also hard-talking, long-winded, and posturing. I admired his articles a few years ago, but now I find that he is full of flaws.It can be seen that I am not only dissatisfied with my own translation, but also dissatisfied with other people's creations.When I read Lao She's novels, I originally wanted to learn, but I couldn't find anything to learn.

My waist has been sore for almost two months. After sitting for a while, I can't stand up straight. It's like the summer of [-], only slightly better.Recently, I suffered from a severe cold, and my spirit is very poor, and my stamina at work has been greatly reduced. I am very anxious when I think about it.People are so easy to age!According to this situation, I don’t know how many more years of work to do!

We are very concerned about your recent life. When will the school start?Do you have to wait for your class to start when the Music Academy starts? Has Professor Drzewiecki [Jevicki] come back from the summer vacation on the mountain?How about the meal after arriving in Krakow than the seaside?How much pocket money?What's the meal like?Are you off-campus, in a restaurant?What about after school starts in the future?Do you have all your luggage with you?Mom said that your clothes should be worn in rotation, they will last, especially suit pants!Don't wash the suit too much, it is easy to lose shape, shrink and shorten; that is a big loss!

I also thought of something else, you often have the habit of biting your lips when you play the piano on stage, please pay attention to get rid of it.

Recently, the National People's Congress held a meeting in Beijing and elected a chairman and vice-chairman; the National Day is approaching, and it is said that there are dozens of countries attending the ceremony.Autumn in Shanghai is cool and crisp, which is the best time of the year. Unfortunately, my health is not good, and work is slow, so I can no longer go out to relax.

There is not a single day on weekdays when I don’t think of you, just waiting for your letter, although I know you are busy, and I don’t expect to have a letter in about ten days, but I can’t help but have hope in my heart.

Grandma still lives in my house, but not only is her spirit numb to the extreme, but her appearance has also changed from what it used to be.Looking at this old state, I can't help but feel sad when I think that I am also walking on this road day by day!

Dad September 28th Night

1954.10.2
Satoshi, dear boy:
I am very happy to receive the sixth letter sent on the evening of September 22.We are not troubled or disturbed by your previous letter.I also foretell you in the eighth letter that this kind of depression will still occur in the future.I'm someone who has been there, so I won't make a fuss about it.You don't have to worry about it, let alone keep it to yourself and not tell us.If the distress in my heart is not vented in letters home, where can I vent it?If the child does not complain to his parents, who can he complain to?If we don't come to comfort you, who should comfort you?People are always ups and downs in the ups and downs all their lives. Only mediocre people can live like stagnant water; or they must have a very high level of self-cultivation to be completely relieved and truly liberated.As long as the highs don't overwhelm you and the lows don't overwhelm you, you're fine.If the sun is too strong, the grains will be scorched; if the rain is too strong, the crops will be drowned.We just want a fairly balanced mind so that we don't get hurt.You're not someone who stumbles and can't get up.I expect that the past few years abroad will also be of great help to your whole person.

I understand the pain mentioned in this letter; I sympathize with you, and I am willing to try my best to comfort and encourage you.Didn't Christophe go through this situation many times?Isn't he the epitome and crystallization of all artists?Gradually, you will develop another mood to deal with the past: you can think of it without being thrilled, and you can analyze the cause and effect from an objective standpoint, and use it as a reference for the future, so as not to repeat the same mistakes.As long as a person dares to face up to reality, face up to mistakes, use rational analysis, and thoroughly comprehend, he will not be eroded by memories.I believe you will learn this gradually and become stronger and stronger.I mentioned the emotional ruin [trauma, destruction] to you in my letter before, and I want you to see these things as the ashes of your soul. Ancient battlefields generally have a heart of condolences.If you think these words are true and enlightening to you, take out this letter and reread it several times in the future when you encounter pain from memories (which will inevitably happen again).

When it comes to the content of music, if it is not for the guidance of everyone, I also have another feeling, that is, the students themselves must first meet the conditions: for those who do not have a heart, it is useless to be taught by a famous teacher.

The Polish pianist you mentioned may not be heard even if he performs in Shanghai.Tickets for this kind of concert are all in the hands of the foreign guest reception; I haven't found out which organization is in charge of that department, maybe it is directly under the central government.Another point is that now this kind of concerts are not broadcast on the radio; the steel wire recordings are not broadcast until there are major festivals.For example, a Romanian violinist came a while ago and made two violin concertos [violin concertos] with the orchestra. Today, Shanghai Radio Station broadcast his recordings on the National Day special program on the second day of October.

Beijing asked Uncle Lin to participate in a special performance. At the same time, the Central Song and Dance Troupe asked him to give lectures and train some solo singers in the chorus that will go abroad next year.He will leave next Monday and will stay in Beijing for three to four months.Beijing has visited art troupes from many countries, including Poland. Presumably the female pianist you mentioned is in the troupe.

You want the "English-Chinese Dictionary", and you have asked your mother to go to a second-hand bookstore to find it; because it should not be too thick and too big, it will be inconvenient for you to use outside, so I will not give you the volume brought back from Kunming.It will probably ship within a day.

For you, I have read the section on Krakow in the Encyclopedia Britannica a few days ago, and I know that it was a city in the seventh century, and the history of the city is very clear from the tenth century .There are more than thirty churches in the city.I hope you buy some postcards and put them in a pack, and when the printed matter (not necessarily by air) is sent, let everyone look and like it.

In the next letter, I can probably know the results of your performance in Warsaw at the beginning of the month.According to today's letter, probably (wave 5) you didn't receive one letter, it was a long letter from my mother.She said, "What luck!"

It's already cool in autumn in Shanghai. How's the climate there?Geography books say that Poland has a continental climate, with extremes in both cold and heat.What are you wearing now?
Is the Concerto ["Concerto"] you practiced the same as the one you practiced at the beginning?How are your grades?

Don't be too nervous, don't worry too much about the competition. "I will do my best", everything else is up to fate.The spirit is loose, but the effect is better.

Wish you happy!

Dad October [-]
1954.10.19/22
good boy:
I haven't answered any letters for [-] days, I'm a little anxious, I don't know how my health is?Since you went to Warsaw to perform for our National Day at the beginning of the month, you still haven't heard from me. What happened?Which songs have you been busy with recently?How did you practice?Is the professor satisfied?Are there any new criticisms, new problems raised?

Sunday (Seventeen) went out to play for a day.In the morning, I went to the museum to see ancient paintings, bronze wares of the Shang and Zhou Dynasties, etc.; in the afternoon, I went to the Cultural Club (the former French General Assembly, diagonally opposite Lyceum) to visit the preview of the works that East China participated in the National Art Exhibition.As a result, even Amin shook his head frequently, and couldn't stand shouting.Most of them are month cards, which are not as childish as good advertisements.The childishness of comic woodcuts is nothing to worry about.The rest of the older generation painters are also fashionable, painting some smooth, large-scale colored postcards, which are more than ten feet long, and they look like stage sets from a distance, but there is no pen and ink in a close look.Lun Lun's father saw me in Huang Binhong's painting exhibition and was very affectionate.In this national exhibition in East China, there are two oil paintings and two traditional Chinese paintings.Chinese painting is still wild fox Zen, with superficial appearance, no spirit, blindly tricking, and deceiving people's eyes; the Huangshan cliffs in the painting, thousands of lines, only two or three inches long, are also faulty, and they are connected trivially. Yes, there is no life to speak of.Works of art use countless "living" parts to form a living whole.If we use the craftsman's skill of drawing heads and corners to desire the whole body to have life, wouldn't it be the opposite?After seeing his works that day, I concluded that his artistic future in this life is completely hopeless.I haven't seen his works for decades, and I hoped that he would improve somewhat, but unexpectedly it is still the same old tune.What's more, his oil paintings are more retrograde than before, the brushstrokes are unremarkable, and the colors are also unbearably vulgar, and it is unexpectedly vulgar.It can be seen that one must be true and loyal to make art.He lacked these two points in his whole life, and he can talk about it in a hype, but in fact, he has never had the modesty of emptiness, let alone put in hard work and research.This spring he went to Huangshan to live for more than two months. Everything was entertained by the government, and he painted dozens of things when he came back;

Went to the concert of the German art delegation last night.I sent a letter to Xia Yan last month, asking him to call the radio station to broadcast on the spot, so that music lovers can get in touch with foreign artistic achievements; the so-called cultural exchange should not be limited to cadres, and should never be separated from the people.After this letter was sent, five tickets were sent to the reception for foreign guests yesterday. It is really rare to be so rich.So our family of three took Ender to listen; the results were good, but not extraordinary.There are two sopranos singing, one of them has a sandy voice.All in all, the piano accompaniment is the best (he is the accompanist of the Berlin Opera House).The common strength is delicacy, which is the case for both singing and quartet, which can be said to be the expression of "lightness".A soprano sang "Spinning Cotton Yarn" during an encore, and "In That Faraway Place" during an encore, both of which had richer, more varied, and more delicate emotions than the Chinese.

night of october nineteenth
Ke Ziqi sent us Franck [Franck] of Oestrach and Auber and lent us.The first impression was that it was too hot, not enough Franck. The volume [volume] is too loud, and the melody [melody] is too rough. Chapter 3 is not mysterious enough; Chapter 4 violin [violin] is obviously out of corners at the corner, not round, even I can hear it clearly. Piano [piano] also has a place where the change of tone [tone] is not in harmony with the above.Later, Thibaud-Cortot [Di Bo and Cortot] was used for comparison, which showed the cultivation and understanding of the two people.There are many sentences with very light endings (referring to the violin part) and very short, but they have a special charm, which I think is the expression of Frank's "forbearance" and "abandonment" spirit.This is completely absent among Russian performers.I think back to when you and Wei worked together two years ago, everyone listened to Thibaud-Cortot's records several times, and felt that there was nothing to learn; now I realize that it is because our level is not enough, and we can't appreciate the profound, subtle, Inner beauty.And in recollection, your piano part [piano part] is also played too romantic [romantic]. Another wonderful thing about TC's performance is that the two instruments are well balanced.In the Soviet Union, violin overwhelmed piano, not only volume, but even music [music] was monopolized by the violin.From what I heard this time, it seems that Oestrach's tone is too rough and unsuitable for very delicate tunes.In your next letter I hope you will report to us the results of our efforts in this direction.

Nineteen Days and Nights and Books
Yesterday Shang Tsung [7] called and asked us to go to his home to see the works and give him some advice.The words are quite that, I am sorry to refuse.At three o'clock in the afternoon, I went with your mother.The oil painting "Luo Shen", which he failed to participate in the East China Art Exhibition recently, is in the same category as his previous paintings of Buddha statues and Guanyin.The face has neither a solemn and serene expression ("Guanyin"), nor an out-of-the-world attitude ("Luo Shen"), and the colors are neither strong and vivid, nor deep and reserved.It seems that the author's thoughts are just some inexplicable smoke, and the author's emotions are just a chaotic and nameless thing.I asked: "Do you have religious emotions and Buddhist thoughts?" He said: "I only like rich colors. As for the spirit of religion, I have also traced their concepts of heaven and so on from Buddhist paintings." I said : "They first had Buddhist thoughts and emotions, and then asked for that kind of color to express their thoughts and emotions. Now you are doing the opposite. And what you are after is only color, and your color has no emotion. The origin. It is inevitable to be influenced by foreign art, but it must be combined with one's thoughts and feelings. Otherwise, it will only follow the appearance and be a slave to others. It is not impossible to paint Buddhist paintings, but to have strong and sincere Buddhist feelings first. , have a Buddhist outlook on life and the universe. Or they have a set of outlook on life and the universe, and feel that the composition and color of Buddhist art just express their own ideas and emotions. , it’s a serious mistake of formalism. In terms of the modern European painting school, the works of the pure sensual school have a very strong power to stimulate the senses. I don’t have strong feelings, how to teach the viewer to be Your works arouse strong emotions? If the realm in your heart is not beautiful, how can people think your works are beautiful? You think you are pursuing richness, but in the end there is no richness in the picture, only tacky and rustic; doesn’t it explain your emotions Is it tacky and rustic? (At that time, my wording was not so explicit.) Only in this way, even though you have committed the problem of formalism, you can’t even produce the effect of formalism at all.”

I also said: "Mythological subjects are not impossible to paint, but first, they are too far away from the current environment; second, they are too far away from the current age and learning stage. I did not recognize reality and delved into mythology first, It is equal to the self-anesthesia of a young man drinking alcohol and a woman, which is very dangerous for the future. The first step for a person who studies Western painting is to train his skills, he must read more foreign works, and the second is to forget all foreign works-this is a It's hard work—while pursuing your own ethos and your own personality."

Based on Shang Tsung's foundation, it will take at least another five or ten years to paint the ideal subject on the human body, and whether he can succeed at that time depends on his talent.Later, I talked about many future issues of Chinese painting as a whole, so I won't go into details here.In short, I feel very sorry that people who study art do not have accurate guidance at all.Before liberation, the teaching of the three art schools in Shanghai, Hangzhou, and Beijing each had its own special shortcomings, and none of them had thought about or studied art education.After Liberation, ideological remolding was carried out all day long, without hitting the crux of ideological problems.A lot of basic technical training and ideological inspiration, and ideological inspiration other than politics, let alone no one has mentioned it, I am afraid that no one has even had a shadow in their minds.

People who study painting are actually more depressed in the here and now than you people who study music.First of all, you have records to listen to, but they only have some prints to read; the difference between the print and the original, and the difference between the record and the original performance cannot be counted.Secondly, you are explaining the works of Westerners (in terms of performers), they are the art of creating the Chinese nation.Even if you compose music, because music is a virgin land in China, it can develop freely; it is not like painting, which has a tradition of more than 1000 years that oppresses the spirit of young people and binds their hands and feet.No matter what kind of guidance you have, at least you have been trained in scientific methods since you were young. Hours of fingering practice every day will lay the foundation for you; their sketching time is far less than yours, and the most diligent students can only draw one or two. Years of basic sketching, followed by no help from the scientific method.Once you leave the Academy of Fine Arts, you have to "create", and if you don't create, you can't talk about performance; and since the liberation, the entire literary and art circles, including Central and European countries, have been unable to find a way out (the mental state and emotions are not yet mature, and they have not yet matured). When the time comes, you can find the appropriate image expression naturally).

When I came back from Hu Shangzong’s house, I saw your letter and photos, and I received two more big photos this morning.

Your competition questions are certainly a heavy load, but you have to be mentally prepared anyway.As long as you try to ignore gains and losses as much as possible, you will be able to calm down and relax your mind and body. Only in this way can you hope for good grades.There is still time to practice this kind of self-cultivation. If you can often think of the famous sentence of "articles are eternal things, you know the gains and losses at an inch", you will definitely relax a lot mentally.This is the only way to avoid feeling overworked and tired.The most torturous thing is not mental work, nor physical work (that kind of fatigue can be easily eliminated, and you can recover after a short rest), but worry!Children, please listen to me.

Work hard to relax yourself psychologically and ensure that you have good grades.Nervousness is bad for everything.From now until the competition, there are still more than three months, as long as you follow the will of "Foolish Old Man Moves Mountains" and keep the concept of "I will do my best"; when you are nervous, let yourself relax immediately, and deal with your spirit like you deal with your body Hands and fingers are the same, pay attention to relax all the time, I guarantee you will be successful next year.This mental hygiene is more important to you than practicing the piano, because the performance of practicing the piano is based on the mental state and is the main condition!You want us to worry less about you, and we can only try to tell you to relax.You must agree with these words, and you must have thought of them a long time ago, but the most important thing is to do it on the ground, and also to fight with yourself; the way to fight is of course not to be tense, but to dilute it, but to think more about life and the universe. If you look down on the individual, then you will naturally reduce your worry about gains and losses. As a result, you will be more comfortable physically and mentally, and your work will be smoother!In your next letter, I hope you will report to us the results of our efforts in this direction.

You can't be too busy on weekdays.When people drag you out, you have to make up your homework afterwards, which will hinder your energy.For the reason of practicing the piano, let's decline a few more times.If you are not nervous, it is not advisable to be too busy; I would rather be free to think quietly and read a poem or two for fun.Don't be too affectionate, sorry.If you don't go out with people during working hours and make it a habit, you won't offend people.The energy in life is limited, and everyone only has 24 hours; it is not strictly arranged. If you want to damage your body like you, people don’t need to practice their skills hard. They have more time than you.On this point, you might as well always think of my example, and my friends don't blame me.

In the big photo, there is a smiling one with teeth exposed, and one tooth to the left of the middle is a bit shorter. I don’t know why?Did it fall and break some?Let me know by letter, so I don't worry about it.

My mother and I often dreamed that you came back, and we clearly knew that you would only come back for a day or two. Once I asked you in a dream, could you play Chopin’s Fantasy ["Fantasia"] for me again, "it must be big Not the same," I said.

The lack of time to write long letters is not unsolvable.You see, I wrote this letter several times, and I am no less busy than you, as you know.

Take care of everything, always relax your mind, don't be nervous!
Dad on the morning of October 22

1954.11.23
Satoshi, dear boy:
How many days of restlessness, how many nights I woke up at three or four o'clock and couldn't sleep, until today it came to an end.There is a full month and three days between your eighth letter and your seventh letter.I often say to your mother: "As long as the child is busy with work and doesn't write the letter or the letter is lost on the road, that's all right. I'm just afraid that he will overwork, feel unwell, or fall ill." Thank God!Sure enough, you are too busy to write less letters.Don't laugh at us, especially don't laugh at your father for being so anxious.This is not something I can restrain.Where is nature, what can be done?If you are too busy in the future, just a few lines will do, let us know you are safe.Wait until you have some free time before writing long letters and discussing all matters of music and art.

You can't sleep all night excited about the Russian pianist; we often can't sleep because of something special.All the same, sensitive blood; so I often advise you to be as temperate as possible.That pianist has the same temperament as you, and some words can only increase your bias.For example, every time you practice the piano, you must arouse your emotions.I admit that in some romantic [romantic] characters, this is inevitable; but "inevitable" is not necessarily an ideal in art; on the contrary, sometimes it is a big burden!For the cultivation of art, people with too much heart [emotion] need to try their best to control themselves.The ideal of Chinese philosophy, the ideal of Buddhism, is to be able to control emotions, not to be controlled by emotions.If you can arouse the emotions of the audience, make them be intoxicated, cry and laugh, and you yourself are as calm as Mount Tai, like a general who dispatches thousands of horses and horses, that is your greatest success. It is the highest state of art and life.You should remember the story of Beethoven. Once he finished playing the piano, and when he saw the tears in the audience, he laughed and said, "Hey! You are all fools." Art is fire, and artists don't cry.Of course, this cannot be accomplished overnight, especially for you, but you have to take this realm as the goal of your lifelong efforts.The great artists in Romain Rolland's mind are also of this school.

Regarding this point, I have often mentioned it to you in recent letters, what do you think?

I said to Ender the other day: "Music is mainly to use your brain to distinguish your hazy feelings (for each piece of music, each chapter, and each paragraph) clearly, and figure out what your feelings are. It’s the same thing; when you figure it out, your realm is very clear, and then your technic [skills] will follow.” Listen, isn’t this exactly the same as what Richter [Richter] said?I am very glad that my general artistic understanding of musical matters is no different from that of a professional musician.

The guest-host relationship between technique and music, you and I have already affirmed; there is no need to ask each other for advice, and we can’t finish discussing it between you and me, just because your technique is behind, and you have a sense of inferiority, I also feel sorry for you Worry; plus, in the past two years, why schools [schools] and what factions in China have been in a panic, so they have paid special attention to this issue unknowingly.Now I firmly believe that this is a demonic obstacle, and those who make trouble with their skills all day long are art craftsmen, not artists.If a person cannot escape this level, he will never dream of art in his life!Art is the end, technique is the means: a man who always pays attention only to the means will inevitably forget his end.Even some famous virtuoso [art masters] have this problem, but to a higher degree.

Your concerts everywhere, as far as I guess, are probably invited by music groups or symphony orchestras from all over the world, because November to April and May next year are music festivals all over Europe.You are Chinese and you can play Chopin well in Chopin's home country, so they want you to perform more.You said I guessed right?
I went to watch Kunqu Opera with your mother last night: it’s much worse than before.Several operas have been changed to vulgarity by the "drama reform committee", with the shallow sentimentality of Shaoxing opera and the deceptive colorful costumes.There is also too much skill (Wu Sheng).Chen Xihe was also greatly moved, saying that this is a "purely technical point of view".In fact, this kind of antique is only something in the music museum and drama museum. Not only can it not be changed, but it does not need to be changed.It can only be used as a reference for future generations. It has no future itself. Why change it?It's meaningless to change it well, let alone change it so that "the touch of gold turns into iron"!
Uncle Lou went to India as a member of a visiting art troupe, and he will come back after two months.The issue of "Dream of Red Mansions" is making a fuss in China, criticizing Yu Pingbo's views, which has the same trend as the criticism of "Wu Xun Biography".

Would you please send us some of your concert programs at any time? (If you don’t send the program, please write down the work. I will record it for you at home.) As long as you write an envelope, write the year, month, and performance on the program list, four or five lines are enough.When you raise your hand, the happiness we get is indescribable!
Children, everything is precious!Attached are the photos, please keep them, especially one portrait of Huang Binhong.

Dad on the night of November 23rd
The words on the envelope of the letter should be written smaller, so that the name will not be covered by the postmark.Did you wear a frock coat on stage?Do you have chilblains on your feet?Do I still need to apply paraffin oil on my hands?

My child, I was very excited when I received your letter. The excitement is indescribable. I even cried. Your progress is our glory!I am here silently praying for your physical and mental health, I hope you will write more letters, let us have fun together!

mom
1954.12.27
Dear children:
On the 26th, I received the program list, posters, photos, and a letter from Teacher Jie. Yesterday ([-]th) I received your long letter (this is your ninth letter). There is so much good news that it is too late. I am so happy Which is as good!My mother always said, "When I think of my little boy, I feel happy!" Good boy, you are so exciting.

Practice three movements of a concerto [Concerto] with cadenza [cadenza] in one day, your technic [skill] and understanding are really amazing.You have to practice the piano for more than eight hours on the days when you are on stage, which is also admirable for your perseverance.Son, you are so energetic, everyone says you still look like me, I'm really flattered [honored]!But you have to take care of your body, don't get exhausted just to fight for an extra half an hour or an hour.From now on, you especially need to take good care of yourself, don't be too tired, have enough rest, and always maintain a fresh [exciting] spirit.Just like athletes participating in the World Games, the closer they are to the game, the more important it is to take care of their body and mind, and being full of energy is more important than anything else.The so-called The first prize is always "luck" [the first prize is always "lucky"], part of the truth.Now that your game program is almost done, and the technic [skill] and pedal [pedal] are also solved, then don't drag your body too much!Add another one and a half months of pondering, and naturally you will make great progress and make further progress; you don’t have to worry, not only do you have confidence, but the teacher also has confidence, and we all have confidence: the main thing is psychological cultivation, spiritual cultivation, saving "gain and loss" You have no problems with such a carefree heart like "ignoring the situation" and "regardless of victory and defeat".First, you must be extremely careful about eating and drinking, and there is nothing wrong with it.Before the game, don't even let him have a small cold, that's fine.

After five months in Poland, I am afraid that you yourself have been surprised by such progress.Mr. Li said you at the beginning of January this year: gains come with maturity [maturity brings progress], that's true.It was prescient for Blonstein to appreciate you as he did in the past.Or as a father, I am more reserved than anyone else. In fact, I also expect the worst, hope for the best [do the worst plan, expect the best result].I am your helmsman, and I have the greatest responsibility; since you were a child, I am afraid that good words will spoil you.Now that you have reached this point, and you can control everything, of course I no longer have any scruples, and I want to tell you: I am so happy and proud!The Chinese temperament, the Chinese soul, is as strong in you as I am, and I am very happy.

I want to ask you one more thing: the last time the Hungarian violinist (the dean of the music academy) performed, he took out the score from the beginning to the end; I have never seen it in Europe before, even when students are on stage. I wonder if you have seen such examples in Poland?May wish to ask others.Personally, I always feel "bad".Uncle Zhou talked about reading poetry a while ago, saying that if someone reads the original text and reads it, it is not good;I think this statement is very insightful.This is true for poetry recitation, let alone playing and playing the piano!I myself taught Ender to read poetry, and I also have this experience.Those who recite from memory are more consistent in spirit and richer in emotion than those who read from the original.

If you don't have a book of prose (referring to ancient prose), "Shi Shuo Xin Yu" is a great read.The Japanese have regarded it as a pillow treasure for hundreds of years.I often cherish the memory of the literary talents of the Jin Dynasty and the Six Dynasties, and regard it as a peak of Chinese culture.

"Human Words", young people can't understand too much; if there are not hundreds of poems and dozens of words in their stomachs, reading this book is useless.Besides, according to the current view, Wang Guowei's aesthetics is "idealistic"; at this time when Yu Pingbo is "eating a lot of life", Wang Guowei is also the object of criticism.In fact, idealism and materialism are just two sides of the same thing, so why be so rigid!I personally think that "Renjian Cihua" is the best literary criticism in the history of China.To develop the soul, this book is equal to a golden key.It is rare for a person who has no soul and only talks about theory to become a modern scholar, a worldly ruined Confucian, or an expert in stereotyped writing!The most important thing for learning is "communication", which can be non-sticky, not pedantic, not sour, and not stereotyped; "communication" can cultivate integrity, mind, and vision; There is a danger of sitting on the sidelines.I always think that whether it is learning or art, the most important thing is humain [person (French)], to develop a "person" as much as possible, and before becoming a certain family, one must first learn to be a human being; No matter how clever a certain family is, it will not make much contribution to mankind.You have been tired of hearing this set of words since you were a child, and I am afraid it will be even more annoying to hear it again.

On the 25th, I just completed the initial translation of Balzac's "Usul Miroet", plus revisions, transcriptions, etc., and it will probably be completed in February and March.My work will be over when your game is over.The next part is still two novellas by Verde.The next one is Balzac, which will be completed by the end of next year.

Mom said your letter seemed to be full of sparkling [shiny].Of course, you are full of sparks of youth, the brilliance of youth, the life and talent of youth, and what you write naturally is so attractive.My mother and I often say that this is the golden age in your life, I hope you can enjoy and experience it well, and give you the foundation of the most wonderful memories in your life!Seeing myself grow up, mature and progress day by day, learn more and more things day by day, widen my spiritual field day by day, broaden my mind day by day, and deepen my feelings day by day: Isn’t this the most perfect happiness in life? !This is not what the most meaningful and charming poetry is!You are so lucky, kid!
You have earned so much money that you should handle it carefully.I know you don't spend money recklessly, and you don't have time to go out to spend money; but financial management is not your specialty, after all, you should be more vigilant.Think hard and buy a good piano in the future.Have you ever asked, how much does a good piano cost in Poland?
Our biggest regret is not being able to hear you play and not being able to go to Poland during the competition.I wonder if the embassy (or the Polish Ministry of Culture) will send your recording back one day?My mother has said several times that when you return to China in the future, I will pick you up in Beijing and listen to you playing the piano first.Look how many sweet dreams we have!
Two months ago, an irrelevant acquaintance in Kunming wrote (for the sake of translation) that the Polish delegation also mentioned you when they arrived in Kunming.Then a few years (only four years!) the enthusiasm and help of ordinary friends in Kunming to you were not in vain, and they must think in their hearts: "We are not mistaken! It is not in vain." You can also repay them. Kindness.This is the most meaningful way to repay your confidant!

The program of the Krakow concert is still expected to be mailed, the poster is not necessary, to save air costs (or send the poster by ordinary mail, it is much cheaper, because it is a printed matter-the program still needs to be mailed), in January Do you have any other gigs?
Finally, I would like to send an order to commend you: this letter also reports on daily life, we are particularly interested, and more at ease.Thankfully, Poland isn't too cold.But you have to watch out for February, which is the coldest month in Europe.

Okay, let's talk about it next time.The letter took me an hour and ten.

I wish you progress without boundaries and hope to take care everywhere.

Dad December 27th

Mom was in complete agreement with my "family report" and there was no time to write any more, she said.The words are also finished for me.She just said "Happy" to the left and "Happy" to the right!
Tell the teacher that his letter has been received, and thank him for his affectionate letter [a letter full of affection]. Foreigners attach great importance to this kind of courtesy, so don't forget it.Wish him health again for me, and write to him later.When you have another chance, write down Eva's address!

If you have too much money, you should deposit it in the bank. If you don’t know how to do it yourself, you can ask a close friend, such as Smanzianka, to accompany you; she has a family, and she doesn’t understand it herself, so the family can at least give you advice.Do not put it by your side or in the box, after all, it is necessary to guard against it!
(End of this chapter)