Featured by Frederick Floyd

Chapter 5 [-]
In March 1957, 3-year-old Fu Lei went to Beijing to attend the CPC Central Committee Propaganda Work Conference as a special representative.In the same year, Fu Lei was criticized several times by the Writers Association, and his work stagnated.

1957.3.18
Dear children:
A letter was mailed yesterday, with seven pages of delivery reports attached.Four more pages of the transmission report are hereby sent.There are other materials, which will be sorted out and sent after returning to Shanghai.I really can't spare time in Beijing, running around, even if I have a car, I am very tired.These two letters were written with force.

The tone and tone of Chairman Mao's speech are particularly friendly and easy-going, with a great sense of humor; and there is no lecturing tone, the speed is appropriate, and there are appropriate pauses [pause], which cannot be conveyed by notes.His Marxism has come to the fore, and when he picks it up at his fingertips, it becomes a wonderful truth, and it comes out with a very natural attitude, imperceptibly penetrating the hearts of the audience.The logic of the speech is hidden but not exposed, what a master of art.

The literary and art circles in Shanghai have been somewhat depressed for half a year. The local leaders have grasped it tightly, as if they would incite the masses whenever they criticize the shortcomings of the organization; the newspapers are increasingly emphasizing "certainty" and always saying that "achievement is the main thing, and the shortcomings are secondary." "Wait (this is not bad, but if you keep talking about it, it becomes stereotyped).Chairman Mao probably already smelled this smell, so from January 27th to [-]th he mentioned the contention of a hundred schools of thought at the National Conference of Provincial and Municipal Party Secretaries. The speech to us on the second day was more specific, which shows that his thinking is also gradually developing in depth.He repeatedly said that how to deal with internal conflicts among the people is also a new issue for the party, which needs to be studied together with people outside the party;He also ordered the provincial and municipal committees to call non-Party people to discuss matters within the Party.He is broad-minded and free-thinking, no different from our old intellectuals, coupled with his extremely flexible use of dialectics, of course he has a good grasp of state affairs.Chairman Mao is a person who has truly integrated ancient and modern Chinese and foreign philosophies.

My feeling is that letting a hundred flowers bloom and a hundred schools of thought contend is decades of education. We must wait patiently and fight friendly; we must also strive for progress at all times—the so-called self-reform.I think there are several main reasons for dogmatism and bureaucracy: First, the class struggle is too fierce. Veteran cadres have gone through decades of brutal civil wars and revolutions, and today they are already middle-aged and have reached the stage of physical decline; In addition, most people are sick and less energetic, and naturally lack the motivation to seek knowledge and study.The second is that during the class struggle, the enemy is right in front of you, and if you don’t actively learn to fight, you will die. The interests of personal and collective security are closely linked; Not willing to actively learn the way of socialist construction.The third is the success of the revolution, which to some extent gave veteran cadres some complacency.Fourth, society is developing rapidly, and how many things need to be decided immediately every day. Instead of studying hard, we can only simplify and deal with it with dogmatic bureaucracy.These four points are important factors that create bureaucracy, subjectivity, and dogma.Otherwise, Chairman Mao once said, "We did not learn the same thing first before we engaged in class struggle, but struggled while learning." Why can't we learn while building socialism?Conversely, I have personally seen middle-level cadres demobilized from the PLA to do gardening work and become excellent experts in four years.The commander-in-chief of Foziling Reservoir was also a demobilized soldier. When the engineers disagreed and disagreed, he came out based on Marxism-Leninism and his professional study, and the conclusions he drew were correct every time.It can be seen that as long as you are young and vigorous, as long as you have self-confidence, perseverance, and unconvinced learning skills, it is not too difficult for an amateur to become an expert.If there were more people like this in the party, bureaucracy and so on would gradually decrease.

Chairman Mao's words and this meeting have inspired me a lot, and I will talk to you next time.

I know from Mr. Ma that you are not in a good mood recently. After reading the above words, you may feel better.Don't forget that we are in an era of great changes, not only in our country, but also in other countries.There is only one Chairman Mao, and there are no other countries. It is inevitable that there will be more detours, and intellectuals will inevitably suffer more depression. This is inevitable and not surprising.The failure experience of the Soviet Union has saved us a lot of energy; the countries in Central Europe will gradually improve in the future by referring to our practice.When studying in a country, you can only concentrate on learning what it is good at; don't worry too much about the situation in the host country, let alone be depressed by it.I often feel that there are too few friends who are truly active, enthusiastic, and willing to work hard for the cause of socialism, but I still cheer for them, and I still work hard.When I come to Beijing, I will cheer Uncle Lou, Uncle Pang, and Mr. Ma.

I have to train myself to be strong first, so that I will not be dragged down by the negative factors in the environment, so that I have the remaining energy to shout "Come on, come on" to my friends!Your current learning environment is really ideal, try your best to study it.Low air pressure outside, ignore it.You are a friend of Poland, a son of Poland, but with your bare hands you cannot help in their building.The only way to repay her is to study hard, bring the skills of Polish teachers and the encouragement and inspiration from the Polish music industry back to the motherland, and sow some seeds of true friendship to Poland in China.Their intellectuals are wandering, you don't have to.The great Chairman Mao shines from afar, illuminating your path forward, and you have to live up to his old man's leadership.

I have also discussed carefully with Mr. Ma and Uncle Pang. If you change to study in the Soviet Union, the atmosphere in the general cultural circle may be healthier, which is good for you; , you also have to complain.Their music world is generally of the cold [calm] type. It is difficult to be sure when you can find a teacher who can tolerate and give in to you and allow you to fully develop freely.Mr. Ma thinks that the Soviet schools and teaching methods are not very suitable for you.I also agree with this point.In the end, if you change to the Soviet Union, you will have to start all over again in terms of language and writing, and you can't afford the delay now.Mr. Zhou Yang heard me talk about Teacher Jie's knowledge, and said: "Learn a few more years." (Minister Xia wrote to me a few months ago, afraid of the turbulent environment in Poland, and wanted you to go to school sooner. Back home. Now he sees it differently.)
You should remember that in the year before the victory, I gathered [-] or [-] friends in Shanghai (including Song Uncle, Jiang Chunfang, two Qiu Uncles, etc.) to meet once every two weeks, and one person would give a small academic speech ; then have tea, talk about the situation, and exchange news.That period was the most depressing period for us, but we were not depressed. Instead, we gathered some friends to create a healthy little world and hide for a while.Your situation is very different now than we were then, let alone depressed.

The tenacity of my character is worth learning from you.My vulnerability is in the details of life, not in the big issues.I hope you are strong, think about the hard work of masters in the past, think about figures like Christophe, think about Mozart and Beethoven;Why bother to look at other people's trash?Don't worry too much.A guest should pay more attention to the beauty of the host's house; you should be like a long-hungry bee, sucking the nectar from flowers as much as possible, and turning it into your own good honey.What's more, you have to learn piano [piano], theory, and characters. You are in the atmosphere of art and academics all day, and you are too busy. How can you have time to think about the neighbor's housework?

Dear child, listen to my words. Dad has a sincere heart, busy cheering up the few friends around him, busy meddling in other people's affairs, doing a little bit for the cause of socialism, and also busy supporting the cause of socialism. I want to work on my business, but I hope I can make progress; of course, I also want to work as a gardener and guard for your son: this is my responsibility and my pleasure.Rest more, eat well, sleep well, vent less emotions when practicing the piano, (no one is hardcore!) live a regular life, and naturally the body will be strong, the spirit will be full, and everything will be optimistic.In case of any low ebb, think of your father holding up his long and thin arms to support you from a distance; think of such a strong party, government and Chairman Mao, who have done many great things all the time, A lot of great speeches are made, invisible but effective in encouraging you to move forward!It is good for young people like you to balance the body and mind, to balance the intellect and emotions, to control the flesh, to control the emotions, and to control the thoughts.Self-cultivation is holistic and comprehensive; it is not only about music, but especially about being a person—not being a person in a narrow sense, but including the views and attitudes towards the world and the political situation.

People in the [-]th century, born in a socialist country, need calm reason even more. Only emotions controlled by iron-like reason can be healthy and can make real contributions to art.

My child, I can't say enough words, I believe you understand everything, it's just a matter of practice!My back hurts, my eyes are dim, and I can't write anymore.I bless you, I love you, I hope you are strong, stronger, and always be a strong person, a strong person with a compassionate heart!
Dad late at night on March [-]

Return to Shanghai by car at [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon; there will be more materials for you soon.

1957.9.25
Dear Satoshi:

I am very glad to receive your letter written on the night of the 22nd. After some training, you have received a profound education, which has given you the opportunity to change your past. The advice they gave you is the advice we gave when you were at home.It can be seen that everyone's love for you is the same.

In terms of thinking, although your understanding has improved, have you also clearly understood in terms of emotions?When you first came home, what your father said to you in the garden at night, after some analysis, your mind should be relatively calm now, and you can think about it carefully to see if you are clear-headed!If a person's happiness is built on the suffering of others, isn't it outright individualism, that is, the consciousness of the petty bourgeoisie!For the country, for the people, for your own life, for your art, shouldn’t you take things a little farther, and endure the present depression for the sake of future happiness?
Recalling the situation between me and your father 20 years ago, when you were five years old and my younger brother was two years old, the struggle in my heart was fierce. I couldn’t bear it because of resentment, and I could just walk away; It's that simple, I'm leaving, children have to suffer, I shouldn't be so willful and selfish, sacrificing your happiness for a "me". [8] I finally endured it with humiliation.Think about it the other way around, if your father was desperate for the happiness in front of him at that time, would you still be there today?And our happy family?That is unimaginable.So happiness is exchanged for more or less pain.Immediate, short-term happiness often plants the roots of future, long-term, and even the pain of the next generation, which is most worth pondering.I often have to put myself in other people's shoes, which is also an example of turning the "big self" into a "small self".

As parents, we are never selfish.For other people's marriages, there are happy ones and painful ones, and I have seen a lot, so the alarm bell for you is nothing more than out of love for my son.

Can't you hold a concert?I hope to report on the latest thinking situation at any time.Is your passport signed?The plane ticket also needs to be signed, is it done?No more talking, waiting for your letter!

Mom September 25th at [-]pm
1957.12.23
Dear Satoshi:

You have only sent one letter since the echo, and I am always thinking about it.I don't know how your body is?How is your study?Do you feel more at ease?I often dream of you, and even dream that you are back again.

The Writers Association’s meeting to criticize my father was held ten times in total, and three times of self-criticism were made, and the last time it was said that it was an improvement.After going through this test, my father finally gained something, but people's opinions were too sharp or inconsistent with the facts, he was somewhat uncomfortable, his nerves were tense, he lost a lot of weight, he often suffered from insomnia, and lost seven pounds.The stoppage of work was the most painful thing for him, because the mind was restless.Recently I read some books on Marxism-Leninism, which solved many of his ideological problems.For five months, my father was in pain, and I was also restless, so I lost four pounds.Dad said that he used to always look at the good things about people, especially for powerful old friends. Only when he was 50 years old did he realize that judging people is not so simple. Old friends will betray friends and give opinions for their own interests. You can mention it indiscriminately, even spread rumors, and you have to bite back, like Xu Zhucheng and Qiu Zhu often do. Fortunately, Dad has a clear conscience and seeks truth from facts.But from the meeting, we can see a person's true qualities, so he must be more vigilant in his future life.As a man, Dad has always been outspoken, never knew the word "beware", and dealt with all matters big and small seriously, not afraid of exposing his thoughts; the lesson this time is too big and too deep.I think of you even more. You have many similarities with your father's personality, and there are some differences. It's really chilling.

I think you also experienced it once when you were studying in the rectification movement in Beijing. You should learn from it and add to Dad’s example. In the future, you must be cautious and stand firm.When looking at people and things, don't be too simple. As the saying goes, "Misfortune comes from the mouth, and disease comes from the mouth", so keep it in mind!You are very impulsive and difficult to control, and there are many people who are jealous of you, so you must be extra careful in every move. This is what we are most worried about, and we hope to do it ourselves.

The days go by so fast, and New Year's Day in the Gregorian calendar is just around the corner, so you should have some entertainment!Polish female pianist Stefanska came to Shanghai to perform, and the situation was quite lively. We didn't listen to it because we were in a bad mood, but only listened to it on the radio.Hope to inform you of the current situation, looking forward to it!Happy New Year!

Mom December 23rd

Dad often has a headache and will write to you later.

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