The wealthy ex-wife of the president

Chapter 363
The physical examination report clearly stated that the patient had only one kidney.

a kidney.

Because the other kidney was taken out by Si Lan himself a long time ago and moved into Helianze's body.

No matter how you explain, you can't hide this indisputable fact.

The fingertips loosened slightly, and the report fell straight down, like fireworks surging in the dark, trying their best to bloom in the dark night sky, no matter how beautiful it is, it is just a flash in the pan, fleeting, unable to catch or keep.

"Tell me, Ning Mo is not dead, right... You are lying to me... Li Xiaochen's recording is lying to me... Li Mingzhe is lying to me..."

Tell me none of this is true.

This face is Xu Ningmo, but Lan Sichen's soul lives in his body.

Lan Sichen, teach me, how should I accept such a cruel truth?I always thought that the one I fell in love with was Ning Mo, and the person I wanted to spend my whole life with was Ning Mo...

But now?

Tell me, is the person in my heart Ning Mo or you?Who is the person who wants to spend my life with me?
I hurt, I cried, and when I couldn't hold on, what I was thinking in my heart was Ning Mo. Tell me, where did my Ning Mo go?
"They didn't lie to you... the real Xu Ningmo is... dead."

Xu Ningmo, no, it should be Lan Sichen who pursed his lips and spoke every word, the last two words were almost squeezed out from between his teeth.Today's situation, he had expected it when he returned to China, but he didn't expect it so soon.

Maybe it was because I was too greedy, thinking that I could spend this long life with her in this capacity. After decades, even if she knew the truth, it had been so many years, maybe she could forgive herself...

It's because I took too many chances, and never thought that even if I changed my face and changed the identity of the person she trusted the most, the world would not want them to be together.

No one wants them together.

Like a blow to the head, the headache was about to split, and the chest was severely punched, the position of the heart was cramped, and the face became paler and paler.There was still a trace of luck in my heart before, but now the hope has been completely extinguished.

The real Ning Mo is dead, already dead...

I don't know anything, I don't know anything like a fool.

Si Lan stood up like a wandering spirit, turned around numbly, and walked numbly.Empty eyes stare at the front, a piece of darkness, a piece of coldness that can't see anything, can't touch anything, walking in this world like a blind man, there is no distinction of color, no light.

Lan Sichen raised his head, his phoenix eyes were filled with tears, and he couldn't bear it anymore. The cold and lonely back made his heart hurt even more. He stretched out his hand and wanted to touch her back, but found that his fingers were covered with bright red blood. Holding a cold scalpel, stained with Si Lan's blood...

The light rain gradually became heavier, and the torrential rain crackled on the leaves, as if it overturned the world.

Si Lan walked through the long corridor and walked into the rain. The icy cold rain hurt to the bone, and every inch of his body was hurting, so painful... The clothes were soaked quickly, and they were snugly attached to his body. His pale face was covered with drops of water, and it was not clear whether it was tears or lost rain.

Dragging his heavy body, he walked forward step by step, looking at the front separated by the raindrops in confusion, but didn't know where he should go.

No family, no Ning Mo, nothing...

Was Lan Sichen wrong?

He was wrong, the mistake was that he shouldn't use Ning Mo's identity to come back, he shouldn't use Ning Mo to mislead and confuse himself...

But even if he was wrong, he lied to himself, what position did he have to blame him and scold him for his deception.This path is chosen by oneself, even if it hurts to the extreme, it is self-inflicted.

as good as heaven
It's no different from Lan Sichen.

There was a strong smell of blood in his throat, and his thin body was on the verge of falling in the wind and rain, and he finally stood firm. Si Lan had no time to react, and a mouthful of bright red blood sprayed out, sprinkled on the wet ground, and the falling rain washed away The blood-stained ground...

It seems to wash away all the sins of this city.

At this moment, Si Lan is like a big tree. Even though it looks fine, the heart of the tree has already been hollowed out, empty.

A tree can't live without a heart, let alone a human being.

That kind of powerless exhaustion finally made her unable to take another step, and she fell down suddenly and knelt on the cold and wet ground, feeling no pain, but tightly clutching her heart.

No despair, just no hope in sight.

About, hope for the future.

All the emotions are suppressed in the heart, without talking, crying or making noise, letting them be in the body, tearing myself apart from the inside.

Lan Sichen, the person who shouldn't be born is not you, but me.

If Jing Eun and I hadn't appeared in this world, would it be different now?

Bright red blood was stained at the corner of his mouth, dazzling red, and it was difficult to breathe. It seemed that something was pinching his neck, and he couldn't breathe, and he couldn't even shout, "Help."

Lan Sichen chased her out, saw her kneeling in the rain from a distance, her heart ached, she walked quickly into the rain, and leaned over to hug Si Lan who was about to fall.

"Asi... Asi..." The hoarse voice called her name affectionately and weakly, calling the name that she only dared to call in her heart.

Si Lan was paralyzed in his arms weakly, the rain kept falling, and she didn't open her eyes to see the person hugging her clearly. The bitterness spread in her cavity, in her heart, and in every cell of her body. Her body was stiff He couldn't move, he just opened his mouth vigorously, and his weak voice seemed to penetrate through the rain.

"Ning Mo...I finally lost...the ability to love."

Sad, desolate, perhaps giving up hope.

Heart clenched, Lan Sichen hugged her tightly, leaving no gaps, wishing to ravage her into his own flesh and blood.The choked voice yelled over and over again, "Ace...Ace...Ace...Ace..."

One sound is more desolate than the other, and the sound is weaker than the other...

Si Lan closed his eyes, his rain-wet eyelashes trembling violently, flickering with shattered light.Like an old doll in his arms, fragile and vulnerable.

Jing En's death and the truth of her life experience had already tortured her to the point of exhaustion, while Ning Mo's death and Lan Sichen's concealment finally defeated her last line of psychological defense, completely collapsed, and she was no longer able to be strong.

She can't hate Lan Sichen, and she can't face the truth in her heart. All of them will eventually drive her to a desperate situation, and she will never recover... never again...

Lan Sichen hugged her, feeling that the temperature in his arms was getting lower and lower, even icy cold, like being in hell.

He just wanted to be with her, just wanted to protect her, but he didn't expect that in the end, he was the one who forced her into such a situation, that he was the one who harmed her.

I can't ask for it, it's hard.

Seek, more bitter.

"Doctor, how is she doing?" Lan Sichen, whose clothes were soaked, grabbed the doctor's hand in embarrassment and asked nervously.

"The patient fainted because of excessive emotions. Now the nurse has changed her into clean clothes, infused her with nutrient solution to maintain her strength, and let her take a good rest."

Lan Sichen's complexion was heavy, and the strength of his fingertips tightened. The painful doctor frowned, "She vomited blood more than once."

Thinking of that time, their mingling, Si Lan also vomited blood like this, and the scene still lingers in my heart... Well, why did she vomit blood, she was still so young.

"I checked the patient. She had a heart transplant before. This may be the reason on the one hand. On the other hand, it is the anger of the stomach. Specifically, it is the internal injury of the seven emotions. The stagnation of liver qi turns into fire, and the anger of the liver damages the stomach. network, forcing the blood to go up and causing hematemesis."

"Qiqing's internal injury?"

"The seven emotions, namely joy, anger, worry, thought, sadness, fear, and shock, are the mental state of the body. Joy and sadness, anger hurts the liver, sadness hurts the lungs, thinking hurts the spleen, and fear hurts the kidneys." Doctor Patiently explained to him in detail, and after a moment of silence, he said: "According to my professional judgment, the patient's mental state is very poor, and his heart has even collapsed. When the patient wakes up, it is best not to stimulate her emotions, not only to take good care of her Let her be calm, free from worries, and not have too much mental burden. It is best to arrange a psychologist for her, or arrange for her to see a psychiatrist."

Lan Sichen narrowed his eyes, his gloomy aura was scary, "You mean, she will have mental problems?"

The doctor nodded. Seeing his serious expression, he comforted him: "This is just my speculation. The specific situation needs to wait for the patient to wake up before he can make a clear judgment! But you'd better be mentally prepared, even if she wakes up temporarily It’s okay, it doesn’t mean that it will be fine in the future.”

Lan Sichen's fingers slowly dropped down, and he was lonely on both sides of his body, looking at Si Lan with deep eyes, complicated and struggling, regret and guilt were about to bury him.

The heart transplant a few years ago had changed her personality drastically; after that, the death of Su Xuan, the death of Xiao Zhe, and even the matter of Jing En, the mystery of her life experience, these things have long been beyond the scope of what she can bear in her heart.Ke Silan has been living a normal life, and his heart has not become extreme, nor is there any depression or abnormality...

Because she has always regarded Xu Ningmo as her salvation, even if the whole world abandons her, it doesn't matter, as long as Xu Ningmo is still by her side.

Xu Ningmo is her belief, but now that her belief has collapsed, she has nothing in her heart to support herself.

She doesn't hate herself, so she can't face herself...to face the world.

Lan Sichen walked to the hospital bed, knelt on the ground, held her cold and unwarmed hands, the tears in her phoenix eyes fell silently, and said in a trembling voice, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

(End of this chapter)