Queen, go for hegemony

Chapter 49

Yan Ping

When I was very young, there was one thing that always terrified me, that is, when I attended the banquet in the palace every year, Uncle Amber's only son always wanted to take me to play.

He was born naughty. I was frail since I was a child. I was always resting in my room. He forced him to climb trees and cut grass. He ran a few laps in the imperial garden. He was very happy. , miserable.

Years later, when she was drifting away from me and there was no possibility of it, I realized that this incident made me more fearful and desperate than when I was a child.

His Royal Highness Qingjun was named the little prince when he was one year old, and when he was enlightened when he was four years old, His Majesty named me the prince and Taifu. Seeing her shadow in his grape-like eyes, his heart ached for a moment and he couldn't control himself.

Your Majesty's pair of phoenix eyes is majestic, but she is a pair of lacquer eyes that are born with a smile. Since she was a child, she has a lot of ideas, such as clear pool water. When you are, it always seems to be able to shine into the hearts of others.

Perhaps, it was this kind of undisguised joy or frustration that made His Majesty stare at her with a smile on his face when he was on his first diplomatic mission?
At that time, fate was striding forward in its irreversible direction, and I wished I could run away from her chasing eyes day by day, and the strength of resistance I barely gathered always felt so weak that I couldn't bear a single blow.

Maybe she never felt it herself, she was just chasing after me day after day stupidly, I fled in a panic, and I didn't have time to turn around to take a closer look at the person who was chasing me.

Someone in the palace secretly ridiculed her for her broken sleeves. Whenever I walked in the palace, I secretly suffered a lot of embarrassment, and when I met her innocent and innocent smile, I wanted to kick her into the lake.

——I really kicked her off the lake and turned away.

This kind of thing is not a one-time thing, I am used to adding bad words to her.

After His Majesty the Prince Daqi left, Dad called me into the study room, talked about his achievements as a man, and was worried about His Royal Highness the Prince who is known as a fool, and finally revealed his trump card - he believed that the Prince Daqi had the ability to be a prosperous and wise king , has secretly taken refuge in Prince Daqi, and will help Daqi when the two countries fight in the future.

I stared blankly at my father, his temples had sporadic hair, but his face still carried the hostility of fighting half his life on the battlefield, pointing the country, writing passionately, and his ambition remained unchanged.

Da Chen's officials are very corrupt. In the past two years, His Majesty has not been in good health. The court allowed the Empress Dowager to place relatives. The Crown Prince is also a clumsy person with zero sensitivity to politics. Under such circumstances, he fought with His Majesty in the early years. Jiangshan's important ministers have all been suppressed and excluded by foreign relatives to varying degrees.

Daddy and Uncle Ann bear the brunt of it.

However, Uncle An has always been honest and honest, he is not a person who flatters his master. The queen mother complained about Uncle Uncle An's character in front of her father many times, saying that he does not know how to adapt, and is always persuaded by his father, and everything is calm on the surface.

His Majesty's lamp was exhausted, and after his death, this peaceful pattern was broken. When Daddy had a secret conversation with me in the study again, he talked about a mysterious military talisman in Uncle Am's hand. The first soldier he secretly trained cannot be called unless it is absolutely necessary.

Today's qualifications are mediocre, and it is difficult to achieve a great cause. In the past three years, the prince of Daqi has conquered all over the world, and he has acquired the small kingdoms affiliated to Daqi. Father always secretly praised the prince of Daqi Yingwei, and he never followed the wrong master.

Dad said: "That boy An Yi has always obeyed your advice. You just need to find out where the soldier talisman is hidden from him. It would be even better if you can trick him out. Having this soldier talisman is a great achievement."

Unexpectedly, I thought of those lacquered pupils, their brilliance flowing, ignorant of the crisis around them—how could he be so naive?
Not having to make a choice and not being aware of the crisis around me is simply shameful.

That night in the small boat by the lake, he kissed him gently, his lips were soft and had an irresistible sweet fragrance, I was confused for a moment, a voice kept shouting in my head: not enough... I have to restrain myself for a long time , so as not to overwhelm him in the small boat...

How could there be such a seductive man in this world?

I feel like I can't hold it anymore...

Before I could get anything out of his mouth, there was news from the palace that Uncle Amber was dying soon.

The one in the palace only had the same knowledge and strategy as ordinary women, but he was ruthless but like a husband.

Prince Rui wanted to get married, that night my father signaled me to take Princess Yuzheng to go out together, I spent the night on a boat by the lake, my mind was not in the right place, and I asked myself countless times if I really had unreasonable thoughts about men... ...with horrifying results...

My future wife is supposed to be a woman who is as warm and fragrant and nephrite as the princess of Yuzheng... I keep reminding myself.However, in the pouring rain, when I saw her standing wetly at the door of my house, the blankness in her eyes made me almost unable to hold myself back to comfort her.

With his skill, I thought he would definitely avoid my palm...

I was angry with the person in front of me, and I was so angry that I couldn’t even explain my emotions. After many years, the past had accumulated. When I looked back on my childhood emotions, I was finally able to come to a conclusion, and I was closely followed by such obsessive eyes. , even a piece of iron will be melted...

...It's just that I have never seen such an infatuated look in her eyes since then.

Naturally, she still likes to laugh. Even if Uncle Am is buried, and she is demoted to become a small colonel in Huang Jieying, the most unpopular marshal, her future is not bright, and there is no dissatisfaction on her face.

There is a kind of grass, which is very common and spreads all over the mountains and plains, but it can't be trampled on endlessly. In spring, it blooms in the wind, in summer it blooms yellow pistils, and in autumn it dries up every year.

I used to think it was not as precious as the peonies and peonies, but now I am standing at the head of Suicheng, where the war is everywhere, and suddenly I feel the preciousness of this grass, because it is too ordinary, so it will not be cherished...

Just like him, because he is too used to the eyes that follow closely behind him, when one day his eyes no longer follow me closely, I will feel lost and unable to control myself...

It was then that I realized that he was not the dude I thought he was, but the kind of plant that was tough enough to move to any place and rooted its roots firmly in the soil and was self-sufficient.

I can't say anything to her, for fear that if I say a few more words, I will pour out all the remorse in my heart.

Before the Battle of the Yellow River Valley, I plucked up the courage to hold his horse's head. For the first time in my life, I looked up at this young man who had always stood behind me, and for the first time I saw the absolute posture from him... The eyes of death will sweep over me indifferently...

——Even though I succumbed to etiquette and couldn’t accept his feelings, I wanted him to live well and live well in this world…

I think my father didn't know his intentions and my restless sway day and night, so he managed to send him to General Huang Jie's forward battalion... and because although Huang Jie is a general, he is too honest and loyal, so he will definitely stop the prince His Highness's great cause of unification is already one of the great Chen generals who are going to try to get rid of...

He straightened his back, sat high on the horse, and walked towards his destiny... I stood at the top of the city and watched his back gradually drift away...

There are many close friends of my father, I don't know how to make him live well... He probably hates me... He must hate me... But because he hates so much, he doesn't even have a trace of affection. No more, when those smiling eyes looked over, there was nothing but charred black...

It was the scorched blackness after all the passions of life burned out...

My heart was fried, and I waited and waited. Not long after, I finally received the news that he had hurt his brain and had blood clots in his brain.

I was looking forward to him forgetting the past, but I was also afraid that he would really forget me completely...

I haven't seen him for more than half a year, and he still looks like a dangling boy. His naturally smiling lacquer eyes hide a cold and decisive meaning... It is probably that people who have never died can't deeply understand...

He will probably never know how I suppressed my joy to welcome him back to the imperial capital.Even if the next moment the country is destroyed and the family is destroyed, he and I have to be surrendered ministers, but he and I, I and him, are all living in this world...

But I never knew that he was determined to die!

When I followed His Highness closely to Jinxiu Pavilion and saw him standing in the middle of the fire with a smile, my heart suddenly ached unstoppably.

He is naive, so naive that he doesn't understand the world.

He is just an infatuated child, whose fate is tricky, in a troubled world, he is not tolerated, wandering alone...

But if the rest of my life is destined to never be able to see such a bright smile again...isn't this world too dark?
His Royal Highness drew a bow and an arrow, I waited with bated breath... When his figure flashed from the window, the last window of the Jinxiu Pavilion in the flames was tightly closed, and I felt that my heart was broken. When it came out, it stood in the middle of the fire, screaming in pain: "Xiaoyi..."

——I haven't had time to tell you, actually... I don't hate you at all... Not at all...

——I like the gaze you follow closely behind me...I admit that I have a habit that is incomprehensible to ordinary people...

You have nothing to worry about anyway, I want to hide you quietly...

There is only one you, only one me, with four eyes facing each other, and no one else will stare at you. At that time, you can look at me any way you want...

His Royal Highness the Crown Prince was going crazy and wanted to rush into the Jinxiu Pavilion. The fire covered half of the palace wall, Tie Yiwei hugged him tightly, and was kicked and kicked several times by him. A dozen guards, disregarding their dignity, finally took him away. Pressing it firmly, I sat blankly not far from him, the veins were showing on his face, and the hot tears flowed down slowly along the knife-sharpened face.

I only felt that all this was thrilling, and there seemed to be a clear voice in my ear, laughing and shouting: "Daughter-in-law... Daughter-in-law..." The sound shocked my eardrums to burst...

I pointed to His Royal Highness and asked: "His Royal Highness, why are you crying?"

You have only been together for half a year...

His Highness the Crown Prince suddenly laughed hoarsely, like a wounded eagle whose wings were broken off.He pointed at me, couldn't help laughing, and burst into tears: "Don't you hate him the most? If you get too close, you will kick him into the lake... Why did you fall when he died? Tears?"

I reached out and touched my face, and I was surprised to find that my hands were full of tears...

"Yeah, the person he hates so much..." Death doesn't want to look at me again...

His Royal Highness said, "That's right, a rascal and hard-hearted guy, I really hate it to the extreme!"

As he spoke, he covered his face with his big palms, and the tears flowed down between his fingers, soon soaking his front...

(End of this chapter)