Yi Yang Qianxi the other shore fleeting song Weiyang

Chapter 23 Ronin
{Turn back when you can’t walk the road, let go of those you can’t love, and let go of the enthusiasm you can’t get.Don't mistake wishful thinking for enthusiasm, and don't mistake boredom for hard-to-get}
After coming out of Yemei, the sky was already very dark, looking at the sky covered with dark clouds, it was so oppressive that one could hardly breathe
It turns out that God is not happy today
Seeing the passers-by who just got off work on the side of the road rushing home, I guess they didn't bring umbrellas for fear of rain.

I looked down at my toes and smiled bitterly, like a homeless child

Yeah, am I just a homeless kid?
There will be endless money in the card every month, but there has not been a single phone call from my parents for condolences in these years
I once asked them: If they don’t support me, why give birth to me?
I always make my tone sound very angry, hoping that they will care

They always find a random reason to prevaricate: Nanxun, mother has to hang up first, take care of yourself
Before I could answer, the other party hung up the phone in a hurry.
Is it because it is a long-distance call, is it too expensive?I'm so disgusted that I don't even want to talk to me anymore.
If one day I stop calling them on my own initiative, will they forget that they once gave birth to a daughter?

Her name is Nanxun
Tears finally fell unscrupulously

Some people say: look at the sky when you are wronged, the sky is so big that it can hold all your grievances
Look up at the sky 45 degrees, leave the sky with a perfect smile
sorry i can't do it

I can't hold back my tears, I can't stop thinking about messy annoying things, I can't not like Yi Yang Qianxi.

Jiang Han on the side looked at me with a smile on her flushed face, rubbed her eyes silly and then looked at me and grinned, "Hey, Nanxun, are you crying?"

I hastily wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, tried my best to put on a smile that was uglier than crying, raised my head and smiled at Jiang Han, "No, the sand got into my eyes accidentally."

I patted her on the back and held her hand, "Let's go, let's blow the river breeze"

Jiang Han clapped his hands and applauded, holding the bottle with a little wine in his hand, he pulled me and ran towards the road by the river, "Let's go, let's go"

Nanxun, turn back when you can’t walk the road, let go of those you can’t love, and let go of the enthusiasm you can’t get.Don't take wishful thinking as passion, and don't take boredom as lust, okay?
In the future, be nice to yourself, okay?

When I came to the river, I gently reached out to embrace the cold wind waving at me.

Sober up, sober up.

Trying to wake me up with the cold wind and mess up my thoughts.

Stop thinking about things you shouldn't think about.

For a long time, Jiang Han and I didn't say a word, just lying quietly on the railing, blowing the river wind, feeling the slightest chill, but no one proposed to leave
Suddenly, Jiang Han turned around and pulled me to smile.

I looked at her and saw that she was out of her mind.

I patted her hand gently, "It's okay, Wang Yuan left and I'm still there, no matter what you do, I will support you, idiot"

She smiled at me faintly, a little sad and bitter, and then said to me with a sincere tone of voice, "Nan Xun, I may not be able to accompany you anymore."

After finishing speaking, she turned around, no longer facing me but facing the river, and sighed heavily.

At first, I didn't understand what she meant by this statement.

I want to ask clearly, to understand.

Didn't you promise to be together forever?

Didn't you agree to work hard for them together?
So what now?

What is it!
It took me a long time to understand what she meant by this sentence.

This idiot Jiang Han is leaving, she wants to follow in Wang Yuan's footsteps and leave me.

Leave this city where you have lived for so many years.

Looking at her back, I can only smile knowingly, why?

I patted her on the back, went up gently and took her over, "It's okay, I said that no matter what decision you make, I will support you"

She pursed her lips and smiled lightly, before saying "thank you" after a while

I looked at her disapprovingly, and smiled at her pretending to be relaxed, "You still tell me these things? But the ugly words come first, tell me as soon as you get there, and then take care of yourself, don't just Wang Yuan. And oh, if you are wronged there, you should call me as soon as possible and tell me not to be alone in your heart. The most important thing is to get there. There is no me, no uncle who guards the door, no old Tao who opened a bar just to support his family, you have to understand, no one will spoil you unscrupulously over there, sometimes you really need to restrain your temper, And there is..." Before finishing speaking, Jiang Han interrupted
"Okay, okay, I know everything. I promise to call you as soon as I get there, but you, you have to take care of yourself after I leave, so as to save me some trouble"

I turned my back to Jiang Han and nodded, not daring to look at her again, for fear that my tears would flow down again inadvertently.

I can understand Jiang Han's mood, so I won't say that she values ​​sex over friends and left me for Wang Yuan.

I once said that Nanxun is nothing without the old man.

The same is true of Jiang Han.

Jiang Han without Wang Yuan is nothing.

I won't look at Jiang Han looking out of his mind all day long.

I don't want to see Jiang Han sighing all day.

I can't bear the look of Jiang Han, a fool who is powerless all day long.

She should smile more, she looks pretty when she smiles, but without Wang Yuan by her side, how do you want her to smile, wry smile?

If one day, you have enough disappointment, just leave.

——A 16-year-old promise

I have prayed silently in my heart, hoping that there will never be such a day.

I think, there will never be another day like this now, that idiot Jiang Han is about to leave me.

It seems that there are only cheaters around me.

However, it seems.

He is far away from me too!
It's good like this, alone, free and unrestrained, how good it is.

In the future, turn back when you can't walk the road, let go of those you can't love, and stop the enthusiasm you can't get.

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Don't mistake wishful thinking for passion, and don't mistake boredom for lust.

—— Nanxun

(End of this chapter)