Yi Yang Qianxi the other shore fleeting song Weiyang

Chapter 51 Lonely patients

{I come alone

from void to void
from vast to vast
only you are real}
The moment Jiang Han opened the door, I was a little confused

mess, mess, mess
The wine bottles were randomly placed on the ground, and the wine was spilled on the carpet, making the wine-red carpet very eye-catching

The sofa is messed up, and there is a smell when the door is opened
It's exactly like the scene of a robbery that just happened.

Jiang Han scratched his head in embarrassment, put down the vegetables in his hand, bent down and picked up the red wine bottle on the ground

Oh, so Jiang Han is still the original Jiang Han
I thought she let it go, but she didn't
I thought she didn't want to mention Wang Yuan because she wanted to let it go, but she didn't

I thought he would be better off than before when she left, but no

In fact, our life is not as easy as we imagined, but we pretend to be free and easy
We didn't actually let go, but we pretended it didn't matter

It doesn't matter, the one who is sad in the end is myself, and the one who regrets is also myself
Why bother?it doesn't matter
The three of us stood at the door without speaking, without much movement

Just quietly looking at Jiang Han who was squatting on the ground holding a wine bottle

She is so stupid
She is actually not happy

She, in fact, still hasn't really let go
Feelings are such a thing, how can I let go of them?

She said it's good to be alone, I'm used to it
But who would like to be alone, just because they are afraid of disappointment

That kind of feeling of worrying about gain and loss is really bad, every day I worry about it

I'm afraid that when I wake up the next morning, that person will no longer belong to me.
I'm afraid that the relationship will become strange when I wake up the next morning

So, still didn't get the pleasure
The girl behind me passed by me, walked up to Jiang Han and patted her on the back gently
For the first time, I also felt redundant
It's like, I'm standing here and it's a joke

Laoqian has Ranran, Jiang Han also has her

But me, nothing
That's good, at least you won't worry about losing it

Just as I turned around and was about to go downstairs, Jiang Han stopped me
I don't know where I am going, where should I go, where can I go?
I just want to go downstairs to enjoy the wind and rain
If you can wake up in the rain, then it's really okay to catch a cold

"Nan Xun, do you know? I have liked him for a long time, he knows everything, he knows everything"

"It's just that he pretended not to know, stupid, really stupid"

"I still disturbed his life, he wouldn't be what he is now"

"He has star eyes, and his smile is very sunny."

"Nan Xun, am I wrong? I was wrong at the very beginning"

"I shouldn't like him, yes, I shouldn't like him"

"It's all my fault, it's my fault"

Jiang Han said to herself, she still pretended to be so strong and the tears never fell

I looked at the girl squatting next to Jiang Han, she patted Jiang Han's back lightly, comforting her without a word
"Jiang Han, it's okay, I think your he will definitely not blame you"

"Certainly not."

Jiang Han shook his head, but still smiled and denied, "He, he was never mine."

"Actually, sometimes it's really good to not be together, at least not afraid of losing"

"Yes, I have never owned it, so why lose it?"

"Look, I wrote and directed it myself from the beginning to the end, and it's my own fault from the beginning to the end"

"I just did it to myself, I deserve it, I can't blame him."

"It's a one-man show, it doesn't matter anymore"

I walked over, gently hugged Jiang Han into my arms, and patted her on the back
It seems to be talking to Jiang Han, but it seems to be mocking myself

"I told you a story"

"Once upon a time, people liked to go to the theater"

"But often, there is always only one clown on the stage"

"He put on a good show and made people laugh."

"But a clown is still a clown after all. By accident, he accidentally fell off the stage."

"It hurts, it really hurts"

"His expression was struggling and uncomfortable, but it still made people laugh."

"Only a little girl, a little girl saw it and he cried"

"The little girl took her mother's hand, pointed to the clown in the audience and said: Mom, he is crying"

"..."

"But ah, no one heard"

I tried my best to suppress and finish the story.

The story is very short, I always want Jiang Han to understand something from what this story tells us

But I forgot, I still don't understand
　is there a kind of

　　How does it feel after eating this meal and not knowing where the next meal will be?
　　
　
(End of this chapter)