my unparalleled way

Chapter 1369
In the afternoon of the next day, Lin San saw Yi Han's familiar figure in the library of the First College.

After seeing herself, she managed to squeeze out a smile, but he seemed to be able to see the tears behind her back.

He stood up and waved to her, with a gentle smile on his face: "Yo, I haven't seen you these days, where have you been? I thought you gave up on me as a book friend, ha! "

"I don't have any... I just feel a little uncomfortable." Her expression became more unnatural, but she still slowly sat beside Lin San.

"Is it serious, is it all right?"

His tone is full of concern, this is not acting but a real heartache.

"It's okay, I've always been in poor health, I'm used to it..."

"Oh……"

"Well, the "Yingcao Collection" that I recommended you to watch last time, have you read it?"

"I've seen it, but when you ask me this way, I suddenly feel like I have been assigned homework by the teacher, and now I have to check it, haha, Teacher Yi!" Lin San tried her best to make the atmosphere more relaxed and relieve the depression in her heart. get relief.

However, it seemed futile. She really wasn't very good at joking, so she didn't smile when she heard this joke.

Instead, he waved his hands apologetically, and said anxiously as if he had done something wrong: "No, no, I didn't think so. I just think those sentences are beautiful, so I want to share them with you. I didn't force you to read them." mean..."

The smile on Lin San's face became helpless, sometimes he really hoped that she would be 'stronger' and stop thinking that she was wrong and offended others all the time.

"I'm joking, you don't have to take it seriously."

"Oh..." Naturally, she couldn't blame him, and she probably didn't know how to blame others.

Afterwards, the two began to discuss the contents of the "Yingcao Collection".

In fact, Lin San is not very interested in beautiful prose poems. What he prefers are simple things that are straight and flat, and can be understood at a glance, even though his thoughts are often complicated.

He was a practical man, even in literature.

But if the object of the discussion is her, he is willing to make some changes in himself.For him, there is no such thing as reluctance or reluctance.

It's just that at this moment, his mind is not on the conversation in front of him.

Haven't invited yourself to the woods tonight?
To be honest, after eavesdropping on that conversation and understanding her difficulties, Lin San's mood was extremely complicated.

Although she won't deal with herself by herself, she can't help herself anyway, she is more pitiful than herself.Sandwiched between herself and Yuan Yao, the bet was her elder brother's life. For a girl like her, this game was indeed a bit cruel.

Last night, he tried to kill Yuan Yao several times. Yes, as long as he died, her troubles would be gone, and she would be able to return to her carefree appearance.

However, he didn't dare to do that in the end.

He is Lin San, not Mu Zheping who kills people like mowing grass.

Although he had served as a soldier and fought in wars, he had never killed a single person in the past three years, let alone the peaceful and peaceful experience in those years in another world.

Maybe he couldn't be so cruel until the moment when life and death were at stake.That was a desperado, and he was a sane man.He won't go to the point of murder until he has nowhere to go.

Killing is a common thing for many practitioners, but for him who was born in another world, it is a taboo heavy word.

Besides, can you kill if you want to?After the killing, how should I deal with the aftermath?Once exposed, he is completely finished.This time, it wasn't as chaotic as Xinyu City was back then.

So now, he doesn't know what to do.

He didn't want to see Yi Han suffering all the time, but what could he do to help her?He can make Yuan Yao listen to him?Can you intervene in the Southwest Corps on the front line?

No, even Fu Bo couldn't do it.

The only thing he can help her is to withdraw from the competition, so that Yuan Yao will not force her...

However, how willing it is!
That's what I should have gotten, and if I quit by myself, didn't I fulfill that bastard's wish and let his plan succeed?In the story, isn't it always good people get good rewards, and bad people get the tragic end they deserve?

At this moment, he couldn't even comfort her, and he still had to pretend that he didn't know anything.

At this moment, he only felt extremely powerless.In the past, I saw the so-called love-hate entanglements of the rich and nobles in the story books, and saw the things that many big figures in the history books have done, and I just felt that it was nothing more than that.Afterwards, I also had children from wealthy families around me, and I thought that was very normal, because they are actually ordinary people too!
But now, Yuan Yao, who is not considered a big man, just revealed a little bit of shady things, and it made it difficult for ordinary people like them to turn over, like a nightmare haunted them with nowhere to go.Even if you know that the other party is going to deal with you, even if you know that he is bullying this girl, what can you do?
All of this is because of power, because of the power that power brings.

Yi Han may never know what the ordinary man in front of her is thinking, she is once again immersed in literature, perhaps only at this time, she can temporarily forget the troubles.

But this is only temporary after all. The literary exchange between them is like a wonderful dream to temporarily escape from reality. After waking up from the dream, reality will squeeze in again.

This afternoon, Lin San tried her best to find a topic, trying her best to keep her from being idle and quiet.

However, even so, many negative colors such as fear, worry and panic still flashed from her spring-like clear eyes from time to time. I am afraid that her current mood is more complicated and heavy than her own?
Lin San suddenly discovered that she was countless times stronger than he imagined.Changing positions, if I were her, it would be very difficult to force a smile on my face.

Maybe he has fallen into depravity and simply dragged himself, an 'innocent person' into the water.

But she didn't. From the beginning to the end, she didn't mention the word war at all.There was no mention of the frontline battlefield, she didn't say anything.

Until the evening, it was time for the two to part again.

She just left without following the plan Yuan Yao said.Perhaps the reason why she came here today is because of hesitation and hesitation. One is her elder brother's life, the other is her own future, and the decision is her heart.

In the end, she still made a choice, and she couldn't bear to hurt herself.

Until her back was about to disappear at the door, Lin San finally couldn't control his steps, and he decided to 'make a fool of himself' once.

Forget it, the opportunity to rise is not the only one in this battle, isn't it?

With his military talent, sooner or later he will get a new opportunity.Even if the battle is over, I can still participate in it again after two years, can't I?

Just let that bastard succeed, what's the point of continuing to make her suffer in pain in order to compete with him?I am really soft-hearted!
"Wait a minute!"

She looked at Lin San who was chasing him with surprise on her face, and immediately worried in her eyes, as if she was afraid that he would be used by Yuan Yao if he followed her.

"There is something that I haven't told you, and I don't know how to say it." He took a long breath, and at this moment he finally made up his mind.

"What's the matter?" His mysterious tone made her curious.

"Actually, I don't want to continue the competition. But you only met me because of the battle. This has always made it difficult for me to say it. I am afraid that if I give up, I will lose you as a friend."

"Ah?" Her small mouth couldn't help opening, as if she was confused by the sudden news.

Lin San smiled wryly and scratched his head: "You won't blame me, hehe, I participated in the competition just for fun, I don't want to be on the battlefield at all. This competition continues, in case I get the first place, the imperial court and the military department will send me What should I do if I go to war, I don't want that, my leg was injured on the battlefield, now I just want to live a peaceful life..."

He rambled on about seemingly reasonable reasons, while Yi Han was stunned, losing the ability to speak for a while.

"Why don't you talk? Well, I know you might be disappointed with my decision. It's just that I don't have any big ambitions. Will you look down on me because of this?"

"No, no, how could I look down on you..." She shook her hands hastily, with unconcealable joy in her eyes.

But immediately, she couldn't help but persuaded in a low voice: "But if you give up such an opportunity like this, won't you regret it in the future?"

It seemed that she was afraid that Lin San would change her mind again because of this sentence, and she would regret it first, so she couldn't help but quickly covered her mouth.

That cute and innocent appearance almost made Lin San laugh.

Forget it, it seems worth it to smile for the Bowies.

At least it was much less than the price paid by the king who lit the beacon fire. He comforted himself secretly in his heart, but his mouth was righteous: "How can I regret it? At least now I really think so. I think , before you have made up your mind, it is better not to be impulsive for the time being. As for the future, who knows? Even if you regret it, it will be two years later. Are you still not confident in my strength?"

"Of course there is!"

"But I think you don't seem to be very interested in the battle table. Do you really understand the battle table?"

"Ah... I, I..." This ridicule made her nervous again in an instant. Perhaps it was only at this time that she realized how big a loophole she had been 'behaving' all along.

Lin San couldn't help but secretly sighed that she really didn't know how to joke, so she had to be serious.

"Why are you nervous? There aren't many girls in the command department, so it's normal. If you want to learn in the future, I'll teach you."

"Hmm!" She quickly nodded her head.

"Tomorrow, let's go out to relax together. I have been under pressure for the past few days because of the competition. Now that I have spoken out, I feel much more comfortable."

Her mood should have improved a lot, the haze that had shrouded her head during this period finally disappeared.She really needs to go out to change her mood, and by the way, stay away from that Yuan Yao.

Sure enough, after he made this proposal, she immediately showed yearning.

"Okay!"

"Then I'll come here to find you tomorrow morning."

"Ok!"

(End of this chapter)