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Chapter 1023

Taeyeon's sudden outburst obviously stunned Han Yu.

He watched in a daze as tears fell from the red eyes that were glaring at him like broken beads, and then wet the white mask on her face... as if it was wet in his hands. same as above.

a time.

A feeling of being at a loss, feeling a little bit anxious, and accompanied by a thick and incomprehensible mixed mood stirred in his heart.

He thought about it, but because his mind was in a mess when the person in front of him cried, he couldn't think at all, so he could only open his mouth, follow the words that the two of them had just finished, and hesitantly continued, no matter what, It's always right to apologize first.

"Yes, I'm sorry Taeyeon...it's OPPA's mistake, it's OPPA's mistake, I..."

"Where did you go wrong, OPPA?"

"Eh... um, huh?"

Seeing Han Yu who really looked like someone who had done something wrong, bowing his head first, apologizing to himself full of helplessness and self-blame, Kim Taeyeon suddenly bit his lower lip slightly, and asked him a question.

Afterwards, when meeting Han Yu who suddenly raised his head and looked at himself, Kim Taeyeon shook his head for no reason.

She didn't shy away from Han Yu, raised her hand to wipe the tears on her face, then took a deep breath, looked at him with red eyes, and said in an affirmative tone: "OPPA, you are actually not Don’t know why I’m like this, or what I did wrong, right? But you’re apologizing to me because I cried, right?”

As soon as Han Yu heard her words, his appearance suddenly became silent in a little stunned.

"Hey... I knew it."

Seeing him like this, Taeyeon smiled as expected, but that low laugh seemed particularly weak and tired.

"Hey, what happened to me today..."

While wiping the still uncontrollable tears in her eyes with her fingers, Taeyeon slightly turned her back to Han Yu, and turned her face sideways. Through the mask, the crying and nasal sound in her voice seemed to be aggravated a lot: "OPPA, do you know? Your innocent performance really makes people feel as if you are the one who made the mistake... OPPA, do you know?"

"Taeyeon, I—"

I couldn't help making a sound, but when I raised my voice, seeing the petite and thin figure in front of me, some words got stuck in my mouth, and I couldn't say anything.

Han Yu tried again and again, but finally lowered his head hesitantly, and let out a sigh of relief. He frowned tightly as if he had a headache, raised his hand and rubbed his forehead, and while lowering his volume, his tone of voice was With a little bit of unspeakable concern and doubts:
"Taeyeon...yes, you're right, I really...I really can't think of what made you angry. Is it because of my previous proposal? Or is it because of my self-assessment today? Angry? But, Taeyeon, don’t you know it well? You can’t go on living like this..."

"Why not? OPPA, didn't you live like this yourself?"

Hearing the interjected rhetorical question beside him, Han Yu couldn't help but put down his hand, raised his face, and stared blankly at Kim Taeyeon who turned his head to look at him again.

She seems to have controlled the momentary collapse of emotions just now, at least the tears no longer overflowed from the red eyes, but for some reason, looking at her at this moment, Han Yu felt more melancholy than before a feeling of.

"OPPA, you said that it is better to live with everyone than alone. You are right, but OPPA, you said that to me, why do you still live the same life as me? OPPA, you would rather be alone alone You don't want to reach out to touch the world, don't you? OPPA, something you don't even want to do... What qualifications do you have to ask me to do it?"

Having said that, Kim Taeyeon gritted her teeth secretly, she tried her best to hold her cheeks, so that she would not show that weak and sad look again, and then, word by word, she spoke seriously to the person sitting in front of her. The tall figure said:
"OPPA, do you know? It's not selfish to live the way you want, even if you cut off contact with the whole world... that's not selfish, at most... it's just your own choice. But—— !"

The lips under the mask were pressed tightly together, seemingly sad, but also aggrieved and angry.

"But... OPPA, you ask others to live in the way you want. This is called selfishness!"

The voice fell, ignoring the momentary stupefaction in his eyes, Kim Taeyeon turned her back to him again, she lowered her head, and her light golden hair hung down like a protective cover, covering her constant Under the trembling eyelashes, those eyes filled with tears again.

It seemed that only in this way could the emotions in her heart...be temporarily relieved.

"OPPA, you definitely don't know the reason why I was so angry and sad just now... right?"

"Okay...then I'll tell you now."

"OPPA, do you remember that compared to the me now, the me in the past, the Kim Taeyeon who was not famous before... was much worse? At that time, I was even more lonely than now."

Han Yu silently stared at the thin back with indescribable eyes. He felt that at this time, he was more suitable to be a person who only listens but does not speak.

"I don't know what's wrong with me, is it born like this, or I don't know how to develop such a character the day after tomorrow. I have hardly had any friends since I was a child. In my memory, I can count There are only a few people in total, that's it... There are many of them, and now they have become strangers to me."

There was no response, and Taeyeon continued to talk. Rather than confiding, she seemed to be talking to herself now. Between her low-covered hair, the faintly glowing red and swollen eyes seemed to be shining with a kind of Indescribably sad.

"My mother and father always like to say that I am just an introvert, but only I know that I am such a person, and I am more suitable for a person's life."

"However, adapting to a person does not mean that I like a person. In fact, it may be because I spend too much time alone. In fact... I seem to be more eager to get along with other people than other people of my age. But I really don't know what to do. Because I don't know how to make friends, because I feel that I have to take the initiative to contact them. This kind of behavior makes me feel too awkward and uncomfortable..."

"So... I'm like this. On the one hand, I long to be like others and have many friends, but on the other hand, I don't want to take the initiative to take action. Maybe the real thought in my mind is to hope that others can take the initiative to contact me? I hope they Being able to actively cater to my personality. It's a cheeky idea, right?"

Hearing this, Han Yu subconsciously opened his mouth, but he couldn't say words of comfort.

He sighed heavily in his heart, and looked at the girl with a deep pity that he didn't even notice.

"In my memory, I lived alone for a long time. The first time there was a change, it was when I was 16 years old, that is, in 04. During the summer vacation of that year, I participated in the SM's selection, I signed up for a cram school."

"It's not just about professionally learning vocal music, but also teaching us some cultural lessons. Because my father heard that those big companies in Seoul have high requirements for their trainees, and I haven't been good at homework since I was a child. , so I thought that I could make up for it temporarily, after all, my dream at that time was to become a real singer, so I made a lot of jokes in the cram school..."

"But! Looking back now, I really think that time was very happy, very happy."

"Because, not only did I meet two friends who had the same aspirations as me, but I also came into contact with something called 'MSN' for the first time."

"For me at the time, that kind of instant chat software was really amazing. Not only was it like a phone, you could chat anytime, anywhere, and...you could meet new friends?"

"I was really like a pure idiot at that time, and I passed a person's add request in a daze, and then he became my first contact on MSN. Now that I think about it... Maybe that's not a coincidence , it’s not fate, but he planned it long ago?”

One hand couldn't help but raised and touched the mask on his face, and the corner of Han Yu's mouth under the mask made an awkward and bitter smile silently.

"In short... just like that, I started my study in the cram school. At that time, I was actually very tired, and there was a lot of pressure every day. I thought about whether I could pass the selection, and what to do if I didn't pass. Dad helped me study Vocal music has been very hard...but, fortunately, at that time, I had two friends to comfort me, and...a friend on the Internet, who kept encouraging me, chatting with me, joking with me, and making me happy. "

"Actually, I became friends with that person before I met those two new friends, that is, on the first day after I joined the cram school. I never knew who he was, what his name was, he Just tell me that his surname is Jin, and he is also from Quanzhou."

"Until one day, when we were in English class, we talked about choosing an English name. I heard that companies in Seoul used stage names and so on. Then I asked him if he had an English name. He told me I said, his English name is Peter, and I asked him why he was called that name, and he said that he likes Peter Pan very much, because although Peter Pan is a child who will never grow up, he has enough courage To challenge this world that is decided by adults, to work hard to protect the people you want to protect."

"I was really naive at the time... I actually thought his statement was much more handsome than mine, so I shouted at him and said, 'Well, since you are Peter, I will call you Wendy. ', Princess Wendy...so he is Kim Peter, and I am Kim Wendy, the person he should protect..."

"call……"

Suddenly, as if he couldn't bear the increasingly suppressed mood in his heart, Han Yu straightened up slightly, looked up at the boundless dark night sky above, and let out a long... breath.

If you look carefully, you will find the slight changes in his eye sockets.

And the petite figure beside him who had entered the memory state was not affected by him at all, and continued to speak in that whispered tone.

"Peter and I were really close at that time. I don't know what kind of thoughts I was in at that time, but I just felt that I could chat with him very well. Every day, every day, I want to have a good time with him. Even if he is a boy. So I also increase the time spent on the Internet every day... Thinking about it, I am really sorry for Dad. His daughter is not working hard for her life as he thinks, and she is also short-sighted. It was raised at that time..."

"However, I have never regretted it, because I feel that I really fit in well with Peter, even though my real character is actually that bad..."

"Think about the fact that human beings are really strange creatures. They obviously can't get along with anyone. Suddenly one day, when you meet such a person, the world becomes brighter, as if you found a monster of the same kind..."

"In short, in this way, my short and happy life in the cram school was spent with my study and the company of Peter and the others."

"Later, before the end of the summer vacation, I went to Seoul to participate in the audition of SM company, but at that time, a very disappointing thing happened. The two friends who had made an appointment together missed the appointment. They Did not meet me in Seoul as promised."

"My relationship with them was also broken at that time, because although I got an explanation from the other party at that time, I still felt betrayed and abandoned in my heart. This feeling made me feel very uncomfortable. "

"Fortunately... At that time, at least, at least, among the three friends, there was the last one who was by my side."

"Just when I was feeling down, I got encouragement from Peter and the support from my father, so I quickly cheered up and finally passed the selection of SM. Think about it, it was at 7 I had a successful result on the 17th of March, the day before today, which is the 11th year that has linked me to the company."

"However, I didn't choose to enter the company at the first time, but asked the company to go back to Quanzhou to spend the last time of my summer vacation. Because I haven't had time to say goodbye to my family, because... I haven't had time to talk to Peter Say goodbye."

"Because I became a trainee, I couldn't access the Internet. Peter and others were in Jeonju, so it was impossible to meet me. I don't know why. After thinking about this on the car back, I was very excited and happy. The child became a little depressed."

"At that time, I told Peter the news that I had passed the selection. He seemed surprised and behaved a little strangely, but I didn't think much about it at the time. Looking back now, I realize that since then, the relationship between us There was already a problem between…”

"After returning to Jeonju, I suddenly became a little idle. I have achieved my goal all along, and I don't have to go to school. It is really fun to chat with Peter online, but every day passes, thinking that there may be a long time in the future. I couldn't contact him in time, and I was very sad. Until one day, I realized that there seemed to be someone silently watching me on the way out."

"At that time, I felt a little scared, and even more weird, so one day, while he was not paying attention, I ran behind that person and patted him on the shoulder."

"He was intimidated, and then I was intimidated by him."

"Because he turned around, wearing a very scary mask on his face, but then, I recognized him again... It turns out that I actually know this person. When I was in cram school, he was me. My classmate, sometimes we will talk about him when we chat, because he is very strange, he wears a mask almost every day, no one knows what he looks like, everyone is guessing, his face is Not a scar or anything like that."

"After I recognized the classmate in this cram school, he obviously became more panicked. I don't remember what I said to him at that time, but at a certain moment when I looked at him curiously, I don't know what happened. I suddenly felt that...he might be Peter."

"I thought about it, and I didn't hesitate. To be honest, I was the one who was peeked at every day. I still have some confidence. I asked him directly. He was stunned when he heard it. After a long time , asked me in an unbelievable tone... how did I know?"

"I guessed right! He's Peter, he's... my Peter."

"OPPA, you may not be able to imagine that day, on that day, August 2004, 8, the day I have always remembered deeply, I met him for the first time in reality, and I caught it with my own hands. His, at that moment my mood was no less than when I passed the SM audition, I was so happy that I was about to jump up..."

"I met Peter, and that day I did something I'd never done in my life—I went on a date with him, and that afternoon, when the sun was shining, I went all over the place in my life with him. Everywhere I went, I told him about myself and my family."

"I didn't know what was going on at that time. The person who is usually not easy to say anything, on that day, it seemed that he wanted to tell him all the words of the previous ten years. I remember, I was with him that day, Picked out a mask for him, a mask with the Leo logo on it, and replaced the ugly mask on his face."

"He was really stingy at that time, but he refused to let me see his face, but thinking about it, this was the first time we met in reality, so I just let it go, thinking, one day, even if there is a burned face under the mask With an unrecognizable face, I think I will still be the same as before, and will always be as good as him."

"However... this idea, I didn't expect, would be broken not long after. Just when I went to Seoul and recorded a collaboration song with teacher The One..."

……

　"I felt like a monster, and I was shocked to find myself in an unbelievably miserable mess."

　　Two chapters in one.Cooperating with "If I knew this, I shouldn't have broken up", it may be more atmospheric.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)