mermaid toe dance

Chapter 1

Spring is approaching, and there is still a strong chill in the air.Every night, most students choose cats to keep warm in the bed, and the self-study teaching building can be said to be "rarely seen by students".

Zhang Nuanxue insisted on me, and came to the empty self-study classroom in the northwest corner of the top floor, pretending to help me with my revision.However, as soon as she found a corner seat and sat down, she held a hand warmer and went to read a novel by herself.

There were only the two of us in the entire classroom, and the chilly wind seeped in from all directions, and even the cracks in the walls were filled with cool air.

In fact, I, Gu Yun, am an honor student majoring in mathematics, and she, Zhang Nuanxue, is a literary girl from the Faculty of Arts. The intersection of our majors is empty.Moreover, classmate Zhang Nuanxue's mathematics has been pretty bad since junior high school. It is no exaggeration to say that she can't even pay for some snacks in a small supermarket now.

So, since "self-study" is just an excuse, it doesn't matter what excuse you use. I'm her first choice, so why not do it?I have been secretly in love with this girl for six years, but she has been in a daze. I really don't know if she is deliberately pretending not to know or if she is really dull to this extent.

Six years ago, the teacher used her composition as a model essay, but she only had a slight smile on her mouth, looking at the sky outside the window, opening and closing her mouth to the clouds, like a fish that has been spitting out clouds.I don't know why she likes to write essays so much, but fortunately, she writes at a certain level.At that time, we didn't understand love, but ignorant teenagers were often attracted by quiet and talented girls, so I naturally fell in love with her.

At that time, I could write well, flamboyantly, and attracted the admiration of many girls, but Zhang Nuanxue's handwriting was really unsatisfactory.Isn't this God helping me?But later I found out that her peaceful appearance when she was smiling quietly was completely an illusion, this guy is a scoundrel at all!

At that time, many girls liked to gossip with each other with nympho expressions during recess: "Look, Gu Yun is still studying that math problem. Do you think he is very handsome when he is serious? Seriously, he is in a different world, and he is the only existence in it, and his concentration is amazing." I turned deaf and dumb on the surface, but I was very beautiful in my heart.But every time at this time, Zhang Nuanxue couldn't help holding her belly and laughing, while holding her best friend Mu Xi's shoulder and saying: "Gu Yun is so handsome, he is obviously cute, he must not be able to solve the problem." Let’s make a little guess, haha!” It made my hair black, Zhang Nuanxue, you dead girl, do you think I’m deaf?

In an instant, the goddess in my mind became a woman with short, badly cut hair and a smile that could be heard in the classroom next door.I deeply doubt how her delicate literary heart can survive under her rough appearance.

The wheel of time was rumbling by, and the relationship sprouted and thrived at some point, and when I realized it, I couldn't extricate myself.

In the second semester of the second year of junior high school, she actually started to receive love letters from little boys. I felt awkward, and then I realized: "I seem to really like this girl..." She looked optimistic like a fool, but that kind of love all the time Being inactive made me feel more alive every day—I was captivated by her fearlessness before I knew it.Her every frown, smile, and coquettishness all turned into the warmest sunshine.

But now, the sun was replaced by the cold moonlight.

She tucked her feet into the high crossbar of the table and curled up into a ball.His long black hair was straightened and let loose on his shoulders lazily. His big black-rimmed glasses took up almost half of his face. He held a warm handbag in both hands and occasionally turned his face, staring intently at the novel.She looks serious and beautiful, just like the one I fell in love with at first.

In the empty classroom, only the sound of flipping books can be heard, and time is also slowly flowing in the air with the chill in this silence.The cold moon hangs high outside the window, the shadows of the trees downstairs are cool, and there are few pedestrians.

Wait, why is her book wet? Could it be that the hand warmer is broken?

"Zhang Nuanxue, your hand warmer..." Before I finished speaking, she turned her face full of tears and startled me, "Why are you crying like this?!"

"I..." Before she could finish her sentence, the phone rang, and she answered the phone. It was her brother Zhang Yang who called.

"Hello? Little sister, why are you crying? What happened?" Zhang Yang was shocked when he heard her crying on the phone.

"Brother... I, I miss him..." As soon as the words fell, the tears burst completely, becoming even more unscrupulous.

She cried to Zhang Yang, my heart was like this empty self-study classroom, full of sadness and coldness.Zhang Nuanxue, I have guarded you for six years, but I have never confessed to you because I was afraid that I would not be good enough for you.I am willing to guard you carefully by your side as a friend, but you came back full of holes in Shen Ruiqian.

You won't laugh anymore, you won't make trouble, you won't act like a baby, you won't be optimistic, you won't be lively anymore, even your former good friends are lost to sporadic, for such a bastard, you even lost yourself Well, the whole person only knows him, is it really worth it?
Why do you never think about me?Can't you feel that I've been watching over you?Can't you feel that I've been protecting you?Can't you feel that I've been waiting for you?Can't you feel that I've been loving you?
Zhang Nuanxue, you are an idiot, a complete idiot!i really hate you...

Gu Yun wanted to hate her so much, but what he hated was that he couldn't love her.I didn't say before that I was afraid of delaying her studies, so I didn't dare to confess. What I said now, I was worried that she would think that he was just pitying her.

Zhang Nuanxue, do you know the feeling of "wanting to cry without tears"?It's just that men don't shed tears easily, otherwise you will know that I love you more than you love him.

"Brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Zhang Nuanxue on the side just kept apologizing on the phone, crying uncontrollably.

Dear brother, I'm sorry for you, I broke your heart because of the "lifelong person" I once naively identified.

Dear brother, last Christmas, I quarreled with you on the street.

"I just love him! I just want to be with him! Why do you care about me?!"

"What's so good about his bastard?! He actually took you to a hotel?! How is he worthy of your bottom line for him?! Aren't you afraid that your parents will be sad?!" You roared angrily in front of me, Hysterical, eyes red.

"I'm an adult! Why do you care about me?!" I clearly remember all the hatred gathered in my eyes at that time, they were like a group of ghosts holding knives, throwing weapons at you collectively.

With heartache all over your face, you punched Shen Ruiqian who was silent at the side.

"Get the fuck out of my sister! What are you going to do to her before you're willing to give up?!" I've grown up, and I've never seen you like that night, you're like an angry lion, pointing and staggering Shen Ruiqian cursed.

"Zhang Yang, for the sake of you being Brother Xiaoxue, I don't care about this punch. But, since we've reached this point, I don't have to be polite to you. Xiaoxue is my woman now, and I It's not up to you to take care of what to do with her!" After standing still, Shen Ruiqian raised his head and looked directly into your eyes, arrogant and domineering.

Is it because his words trampled on your last bottom line, so you kicked him down hard.He stood up and wanted to fight back, but he heard a very clear and loud sound - "Snap!"

It's me, I'm sorry, brother, it's me who slapped you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

I remember my cold expression and stinging words: "Zhang Yang, I hate you."

Is it true that no amount of sorry can erase that hurt.I am sorry for many people and many things.

Shen Ruiqian, later I often wondered why I loved you so relentlessly at the beginning, I lost my friends, my family, and myself just to keep you, but in the end I even lost you, I was dumbfounded...

(End of this chapter)