within Temptation

Chapter 222 The Last Chance

Since that day, I have never seen Zhang Wen again.For more than a month, maybe she really gave up on me, and she never even called.In addition, the relationship between Tang Xiaoru and me became increasingly cold, so I couldn't get any news about Zhang Wen from her.Therefore, I have never known how this woman who once liked me has been doing recently.

Seeing her coming up with a man at this moment, the first thought in my heart was to breathe a sigh of relief.Very well, she is finally dating another man, whether it is her boyfriend or not, it is a good sign anyway, and there is no need to worry about her recent situation.

Zhang Wen didn't see me. After coming up, she walked to a corner far away from us and sat down with the man in suit and leather shoes.I didn't look too much, and immediately looked back, seeing Shi Shanshan who was looking at me with a questioning face, I smiled and explained: "Oh, yes, that woman...is a friend of a friend of mine. "

Although Shi Shanshan and I have broken up, I'm still habitually reluctant to talk about Tang Xiaoru in front of her.Therefore, it is not said that Zhang Wen is Tang Xiaoru's friend.

"A friend of a friend?" Shi Shanshan glanced back at Zhang Wen who was in the distance, then turned back immediately, frowning and asked me, "Which one of you..."

Just after saying three words, Shi Shanshan seemed to suddenly realize that she is no longer qualified to question me thoroughly.His face darkened quickly, and he stopped asking questions knowingly, but shook his head, sighed softly, and said, "Forget it, anyway, it has nothing to do with me now."

As she said that, she fixed her gaze on the envelope I had withdrawn in front of her, sighed again, and said, "Actually, I'm not in a hurry to spend the money. If you don't have enough money, you can pay me back later."

I smiled and said: "Who said I don't have enough money? You have only left for a month, and you are not ignorant of the company's treatment. Just today, we issued another bonus, but unfortunately...you can't get it anymore Arrived……"

Having said that, my smile suddenly faded.Shi Shanshan left the company because of me, and her new work unit doesn't know how her salary is. If it is too much worse than her original income, I will really feel guilty.

Seeing that Shi Shanshan was still hesitant to take the envelope away, I sighed inwardly, and continued in a low voice: "Take it, sooner or later, I will always return the money to you."

Shi Shanshan didn't speak. She looked at the envelope on the table for a long time, and finally stretched out her hand silently, picked up the envelope, and put it in the bag beside her without opening it.

I know I don't need to remind her to count the money. She may not trust me in matters of relationship, but she should know best about me.

After that, Shi Shanshan and I seemed to have no more topics to talk about, and we all drank tea in silence.After a while, Shi Shanshan suddenly raised her hand to look at the watch on her wrist, and said, "I still have something to do, the time is almost up, I have to leave soon."

I feel a little sour in my heart, I'm not boyfriend and girlfriend anymore, don't I even want to sit for a while longer?

"Okay, wait a minute, I'll pay the bill and send you down."

I had no choice but to stand up, waved to the waiter, paid the bill, and sent Shi Shanshan out of the teahouse.Zhang Wen was still drinking tea with the man in suit and leather shoes over there, so I didn't go over to say hello to her.Since she is already with another man, there is no need for me to cause any trouble.

Shi Shanshan seemed to really have something to do, her home was nearby, and after leaving the teahouse, she immediately hailed a taxi on the side of the street.Before getting into the car, Shi Shanshan suddenly said to me again: "Dai Yong, you really don't think about it and go to confess to Tang Xiaoru?"

I was stunned again, unexpectedly, she suddenly brought up this matter again.

Seeing my puzzled expression, Shi Shanshan said again: "I know it's impossible for you and her, but do you really plan to like her this much for the rest of your life?"

I didn't know what to say, so after thinking about it, I had to say, "Since you all know it's impossible, why do you want me to make a fuss? She's the boss of the company, and I'm her employee. Reckless Go confess, then how can I have the face to work under her?"

Shi Shanshan smiled helplessly, looked at me gently and said, "Is this job so important to you? Or... are you unwilling to leave Tang Xiaoru?"

Immediately, I fell silent.Thinking of what Shi Shanshan said to me just now, I slowly fell into deep thought.

I don't know if I am reluctant to leave Tang Xiaoru in my heart.But this job is really important to me.I am a bit self-aware. It is really not easy for an ordinary person like me who needs a diploma, no diploma, and no ability to find this job.My family is very difficult, and I plan to save a sum of money to treat my sister's eyes.If I lose this job, all my good wishes may come to naught.

Feelings are illusory to me.It's better to have it or not.But improving the living conditions at home and making my sister's eyes see again are real things that must be done.I can vaguely guess what Shi Shanshan meant.It's nothing more than asking me to give up on Tang Xiaoru completely, and then completely erase my love for her from my heart.It is obvious to be rejected when confessing to Tang Xiaoru.According to Shi Shanshan's thinking, I have worked hard to fight for it, and even if I fail, I will not have any regrets in my heart.That way, I can get out of my feelings and forget about this woman.

Perhaps in Shi Shanshan's heart, losing this job is no big deal.Even if you can't find such a good treatment in the future, where can you not go for a living?It's a pity that I don't think so, because I still shoulder many responsibilities.As it is now, although my relationship with Tang Xiaoru is not as close as before, it does not affect my work.As long as I am serious and diligent, even if Tang Xiaoru has some opinions on my handling of emotions, at least she will not have any opinions on my work.On the surface, everyone can maintain a normal subordinate-subordinate relationship.But once I confess my love rashly, then I will really lose face, and I will no longer work in the company.More likely, Tang Xiaoru kicked me out of the company directly to avoid seeing me embarrassed.

Therefore, I will never do such a stupid thing.

Besides, I don't take Shi Shanshan's thoughts very seriously.If you like someone, you have really worked hard to fight for it, no matter whether you succeed or not, will you not leave any regrets in your heart?Isn't it like this, I can't do anything for the rest of my life, forget Tang Xiaoru from my heart?
Although I don't even have the answer myself, I don't believe that there is no other way than this.

Looking at Shi Shanshan's questioning face, I knew she was waiting for my answer.Smiling faintly, I finally answered: "Yes, this job is very important to me. If there is no better choice, I don't want to lose it."

Shi Shanshan's face was immediately filled with disappointment.He looked at me silently for a while, sighed softly, and said, "Really? I understand."

As she said that, she lowered her head and got into the taxi, and stretched out her hand to close the door, but after thinking about it, she said to me: "If this is the case, then we...don't meet again in the future. Take care, I'm leaving, goodbye!"

With a bang, the door finally closed.I watched the taxi drive forward slowly, and my heart suddenly moved, as if I suddenly understood something.

But in the blink of an eye, the car was getting farther and farther away from me. I wanted to shout loudly and raised my hand suddenly, but suddenly hesitated.Then, I slowly lowered my hand and sighed deeply.

Shi Shanshan, this is my last chance!Although I suddenly understood, somehow I still chose to give up.

Feelings are a luxury to me.When I first lost it, I was a little painful, but now, I have slowly thought about it.Now that it's lost, don't get it back.Because once I regain my feelings, maybe... I will lose more...

Lighting a cigarette, I walked slowly on the way home.At this time, the bus was gone, and I felt sorry for the few dollars I paid for the taxi. Anyway, it was still early, so I might as well walk home.

When I just walked up the Shangguan Bridge, the mobile phone in my pocket suddenly rang.I took it out and took a look. I couldn't help but smile, and immediately pressed the call button, put the phone down to my ear and said, "Hi! Why did you go to bed so early today?"

Fei Leina's familiar laughter came from beside her ear: "Isn't it possible? I have nothing to do at home, so I might as well go to bed early and chat with you."

Immediately there was a burst of warmth in my heart, and I smiled and said, "That's good, what interesting things happened to you again today?"

"Hehe, today, Miss Ben was confessed again. The other party is a famous handsome guy in our school!"

"Really? Oh, congratulations, this month, this is the fifth time, right? Tell me, how did the handsome guy confess to you!"

"Hee hee, at noon today, we... Huh? Why do you hear the sound of cars passing by on your mobile phone? Where are you now?"

"I'm outside, but I'm alone. Tell me if it's okay."

"Outside? What are you doing out there?"

"No reason, just come out to meet someone, just pay back the money she lent me before."

"Who?"

"Shi Shanshan!"

"Shi Shanshan? You...you just met Shi Shanshan?"

"Yeah, what's the matter?"

"You...you owe her money?"

"Well, before I was in a relationship with her, I borrowed 3000 yuan from her for an urgent need."

"Oh, it's just... paying back the money? You... what else did you say?"

"Hey, didn't you just talk about you being confessed by the handsome guy? Why did you talk about my business again? My business is not interesting, let's talk about yours first."

"Oh, at noon today, a boy said he liked me and wanted to date me, but I rejected it. It's over, let's talk about you now."

"Isn't it? It's that simple?"

(End of this chapter)