Arts and Sciences

Chapter 13 Stream of Consciousness ([-])

Li Sansi squeezed the pen in his hand tightly. Outside the window, the street lights downstairs were as dim as beans, and the sky above was like a black night. This kind of night is the best time for daydreaming and fantasizing. Li Sansi's greatest hobbies are sleeping and boundless imagination. I used to think that if I won 500 million one day, I would first pull two big carts of instant noodles and smash to death the little glasses next to me that made him drool from eating instant noodles in class every day, and then I would start a company anyway. After seeing Su Zixuan's high-end sports car recently, he made up his mind to buy such a sports car first, but thought that after buying it, he would probably have little left of his 500 million yuan, so Li Sansi didn't dare to buy it again. That sports car idea.

"Think twice, work so hard. Mom has cooked chicken soup for you. Let's eat some later." The mother opened the door and saw Li Sansi sitting at the table thinking hard. I have been working hard to study and study, and I am much more sensible than when I only knew that I was a person for a day.

"Well, Mom, I'll go eat as soon as I get better, and you don't have to worry about me."

Mother stepped forward, put her arm on Li Sansi's shoulder, and like a well-tested spy, approached her and asked, "Why hasn't Lin Qing'er come to our house to play recently? Did you bully him? What about the girl you saved last time? Are you still dating now?"

Li Sansi quickly shook his head and waved his hands, "No, no, mom, Lin Qing'er looks like a typical image of a strong woman in the future. I can bully her, so why don't you care if your son is being bullied by her?"

The mother snorted, and said with a low snort: "I think Lin Qing'er is a quiet girl with a good temper, how could she bully others! You must have offended her, so she won't come to our house to play."

Li Sansi understood his mother too well, and was a typical outsider who didn't help inside, so he was certain that his son was a combination of incompetent, incompetent, lazy pigs, and he knew to follow Lin Qing'er in a day, eating, eating, and beautifying.

"Do you like Lin Qing'er?" The mother took a step closer and said winkingly.

"Scared!" Li Sansi was stunned by his mother's sudden question.

"Let me ask you," the mother was indomitable and would never give up until she reached her goal, "Have you fallen in love with Qing'er?"

Li Sansi scratched his messy hair, not knowing how to answer.For a moment, he caught a glimpse of the corner of his room door, where his father was also standing there, eavesdropping as if nothing had happened.When his father saw that Li Sansi had found him, he gave a dry cough, and went out of the house pretending to be stretching and exercising. Li Sansi could almost guarantee that he would find a corner that he couldn't find and continue to eavesdrop on the mother and son's conversation after turning around.

"No, I don't like it!" Li Sansi said hesitantly.

"Yeah." The mother was thoughtful, and patted Sansi's shoulder after a while, "The family runs a company, and the family conditions are very good, which is unmatched by a family like ours. If you want to take good care of others, I can only rely on myself, study hard, and find a good job in the future, so that I can support my family and not worry about daily necessities!"

"Oh, the chicken soup is ready, I'll get you a bowl of soup." Mother went out and took a bowl of soup.

Li Sansi was holding a large bowl of fragrant chicken soup in his hand. The warm light shone on his mother's smiling face, which touched him for a while, and his eyes began to moisten. A tear fell into the soup and no one saw it.

Even if it is to love my family, I have to work hard.

For a moment, Li Sansi thought of that strong figure in the arena during the day, that powerful existence.The one who is surrounded by countless honors and flashing lights.

"If you can have the physique of Huang Shihu, you shouldn't be afraid of Yan Yu and the others."

Of course you won’t be bullied if you have a strong body, but in the future when you will be in society, as Lin Qinger said at the beginning, knowledge itself is a kind of power, a weapon for a person to survive in this modern society. In today's materialistic society where money is paramount, what can he do if he has no physique, no knowledge, nothing and nothing?

There are many choices in life, each choice is like a fork in the long road of life, the details affect the whole life, life is like chess, treacherous and changeable, every choice is like every murderous Luo Zi, as for whether the killing is hearty or fearful, it depends on one's fortune and fate.

But life is not like a chess game at all. There is no regret in real life, only the time that is gone forever, and the years that are lost in the time.

The first choice Li Sansi faced in his life was that in the late autumn of that year, when he was promoted from junior high school to high school, should he choose to enter the society and gain experience, or choose to go to high school to learn knowledge at all costs? Few people choose the former. I remember that a very good friend patted Li Sansi on the shoulder before boarding the train going north and said something that impressed him deeply: "I am leaving, this road is a hard life. , No matter whether you can get ahead in the future, it is certain that you will suffer a little bit. Your talent is better than mine. Continue to study. In this society, after all, it is better to read more books. But, don’t study dead books! Next time I When I come back, I don’t want to see a nerd who drops book bags all day long!”

This sentence is simple and unremarkable, but that moment did move Li Sansi a little bit. Was it because of the parting mood that day that made him lose his composure, or was the sound of the train starting to beep too sensational?Li Sansi had no way of knowing, just as he was at a loss and unpredictable future.

When the score line for the final entrance examination came down, the first thing Li Sansi thought of when he learned that he had failed the ranking was the infinitely long train track that stretched into the distance that day, and the flashing yellow light on the railway line beside him.

Whether life is like that track, it seems that the future seems to be at a loss and unpredictable, but in fact there is a definite number.

For a person like myself who has no talent and no perseverance, daydreaming all day long and hoping for good luck from the sky to give him a miracle, if he doesn't even have luck, is he doomed to live a mediocre and mediocre life? The rest of my life.

Mother and father had already left the room, and Li Sansi buried his head between his elbows. He used to be able to face everything with a smile, but now his expression was only contemplative. Some people, some feelings, did not show it, which does not mean does not exist.Even, it is deeper and deeper.

In this world, some people are born to be worshiped and held high by others; If you want the wind, you will get the wind, and if you want the rain, you will get the rain.And some people are born, they have to bear the severe pressure of life, and work hard for a little bit of survival capital; some people are born in the dark low-level of society, facing all kinds of misfortunes, lingering on their last days.

Life has always been cruel, and society has never been equal. What you pay may not always be rewarded, and the law of heaven may not necessarily be reincarnated. Retribution and karma are vague and empty. Under the sun?

Because of this, you should not give up hope, and you should not give up on yourself!To become stronger, stronger, at least have the ability to reverse the unequal things around you!You have the ability to protect your loved ones, friends, and loved ones around you.

"At least ten places must be advanced! Otherwise, please invite the parents!" The words of the head teacher, old man Mi, sounded like thunderous hallucinations this night.

It is not a small challenge for Li Sansi to advance to the top ten. Li Sansi scored 205 points in the test this time. Not to mention in the class, he is even the bottom one in age. Such a score and the bottom No. Compared with the score of 10, there is still a difference of more than 50 points. The concept of a difference of more than 50 points is just like what old man Mi said at the time. It is the gap between developing countries and developed countries. Closing up these gaps in just a few months is as incredible as Indonesia's gross national product catching up with the United States at the end of the year.

Complaints are complaints, and reality does not shift with the shift of human consciousness. This is the materialism that Comrade Marx and Lenin taught us in the last hundred years. If he was asked to invite his parents again at the end of this term, his father would probably kill him.

Li Sansi spread out the math book in front of him, studying and reading desperately, wishing to put all the content in the book into his stomach like eating bread, and digest and absorb it.But it was always the same as before. I got stuck after reading a few questions. That feeling was like the consciousness in my brain was cut off abruptly. It was unsustainable. Li Sansi had to stop. Put the math books aside, if this continues, my head will really be burned.

"No, I can't just give up like this!" In the past, Li Sansi felt a sense of emptiness and fullness in his heart when he couldn't continue reading a book, as if he had received a lot of knowledge. Accompanied by this emptiness, Li Sansi Sansi put the book aside with peace of mind, read his own novel, or played something else, but now, since he has decided to read it carefully, he can no longer give up halfway like before.

Li Sansi opened the schoolbag under his feet and took out a thick chemistry textbook. At the beginning, Li Sansi could barely understand the atomic structure and basic reaction equations. Later, when it came to the intricate knowledge points and complex chain reactions, Li Sansi could I started to be dazed, my mind seemed to be covered with a layer of white mist, I read the pages, and when I looked back, I couldn't think of anything.I just remember that the hydrogen atoms like poached eggs fluttered on the head, revolving around the head like oxygen atoms, forming a seamless H2O.

(End of this chapter)