Lord and leave

Chapter 104

But this was the first time that Zhu Bingling took the initiative to hug him, and it was also the first time that the two of them trusted and relied on him so much. This was the first time Shen Boling experienced this feeling, and his heart was immediately infected by an inexplicable emotion. , but sank even deeper.

After a while, Zhu Bingling calmed down, raised her head and gently broke away from Shen Boling's hand. Although there were still tears on her face, her expression was no different from usual.

Shen Boling didn't stop her, let go of her hands to let her leave his embrace, but suddenly felt a little lost at this moment, but raised the hand that was intended to be placed on Zhu Bingling's shoulder to comfort her, but in front of her recovered expression Putting it down, he sighed and said, "Sometimes crying doesn't mean weakness, it's also a way to vent. You know that during the time when the people at home left me, I ran for my life every day, and I didn't have a chance for anything else. think.

When I escaped the chase and finally calmed down and thought about them, I couldn’t cry anymore, not even tears, but my heart was as uncomfortable as a group of ants gnawing every day. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better if I cried out. I know that no matter how much I cry, they will never come back, but it is a way to commemorate them and let my pain vent. Ben lives so tired, there is always a way to vent, right? "

Shen Boling seemed to be narrating his own affairs, but through these persuasion, he wanted her to feel more like an ordinary girl, at least crying was a way.

"But it doesn't necessarily mean crying. Since I was five years old, I have never cried except for purposeful crying and using tears to achieve some purpose. Like laughter, it seems to have become a part of me. Such unnecessary emotions should not be there." Zhu Bingling shook his head lightly, "Actually, I should thank you. Since I met you, my emotions seem to have returned, and sometimes I feel like a normal person. There is no reason. I didn’t cry just for the sake of crying, I just laughed for the sake of laughing, although I don’t think it does me much good, but at least it made me feel what a normal person should feel.”

"Ling'er, why can't you laugh loudly when you're happy and cry loudly when you're unhappy? It's a good thing for a girl to be strong, but she doesn't need to be so strong forever. Be weak and find a shoulder to rest on for walking. Farther away does not mean you are useless." Shen Boling said softly, he was speaking from the bottom of his heart, sometimes, he really hoped that Zhu Bingling would be weaker, instead of relying on everything no matter what he did now. No matter what I face, I always act so tough, but I can only bear with myself when I have grievances and unwillingness.

After listening to his words, Zhu Bingling sat down slowly, but suddenly asked. "Shen Boling, is this shoulder you're talking about you?"

Maybe Shen Boling didn't expect her to ask such a question, so he couldn't help being stunned for a moment, but he immediately reacted and replied with a smile, "Although my shoulders are not thick and strong, at least I am a man, no matter what happens, I can resist it, As long as you want, it can lend you to rely on at any time."

"Thank you, thank you very much." Zhu Bingling looked at him in a daze, seeing his sincere eyes, her heart was sour again, but this time she didn't lose control again, but she seemed to have found someone to confide in, He said slowly, "You may not know, but you are the first man to say such a thing to me, and I can see that you are sincere, and no one has ever cared about me like this."

"How is it possible, you..." Shen Boling was about to say something, but when he thought of her experience, he immediately shut up.

"I know what you want to say. I have been married before. Not only did I have someone I liked or someone who liked me before I was married, but so what, they either took a fancy to my appearance, in order to get my body And approaching me is either to gain some kind of benefit from myself, and to talk sweet words just to achieve my own goal. No one has no purpose.

And I have long been used to this, and I have also learned to act like them. I can also smile perfectly, open my mouth to say things against my will, and even face the person I want to kill, but I am intimate, all As soon as I acted like the real thing, I made the other party think that I loved him badly, but in fact, I hated him to death. Both of them are purposeful people. Do you think there will be any sincerity? Whenever I think of these things , I feel sick.

So I hate smiles, because I think every smiling face is a mask, and you can never know what the real face is behind the mask, sometimes I don't know which one is the real me, hate Those fake faces of myself. "Zhu Bingling seemed to have found a channel to confide in, and slowly said what was in her heart.

Listening to her words, Shen Boling's heart felt even more painful like a needle prick. He couldn't help but reached out and held her in his arms, letting her lean on his shoulder, "Ling'er, we are still young, and the future is still long. But I can assure you that as long as I face you in the future, no matter if I am angry or happy, every expression will be true, and I will never face you with a mask, it will be the real me. "

"You promise?" Zhu Bingling seemed to be questioning Shen Boling, but in fact, she didn't have self-confidence, she didn't know whether to trust him, but at this moment, she suddenly looked like a child, as if she had found a harbor that could protect her.

"Yes, I promise." Shen Boling nodded, his voice was soft but extremely firm.

The corners of Zhu Bingling's mouth turned up slightly, "Shen Boling, thank you, thank you for letting me find the feeling of having friends, this feeling is so good, I have never experienced it before."

As he spoke, he leaned on Shen Boling's shoulder and closed his eyes. Maybe it was because of the alcohol, or maybe it was because of the pain that he vented all the grievances in his heart, and then he relaxed, and just closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Shen Boling was also very happy to make her feel so relieved and sleep on her body, at least she had taken the first step, which was much stronger than her thorn-covered appearance before.

But after hearing what she said just now, Shen Boling couldn't calm down in his heart. Shen Boling looked down at her, didn't move, and just let her fall asleep like this, but a bitter smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "Could it be just friends? I couldn't have known you earlier, do you know that I was actually one of the candidates for the wedding, but I escaped, so I missed you. If I hadn't escaped at the beginning, would it be different now? For the first time, I really regretted the decision I made.”

It's a pity that no one answered him, only the steady breathing of Zhu Bingling, so he could only sigh, blaming himself for being useless.

Shen Boling didn't move and let her fall asleep leaning on his shoulders. The shoulders that had been stiff all the time were a little numb, but he couldn't bear to put her on the bed, but he had never felt this feeling in his heart, and he couldn't help but show a smile on his face. smile.

At this moment, a person suddenly walked in from the door, just about to open his mouth to see the appearance of the two of them, he stood there in a daze, neither entering nor going out, and suddenly froze there.

Shen Boling looked up to see him, and asked softly, "What's the matter?"

Standing outside the door was Mo Yan who had just taken over Chu Liyue's intelligence work. Hearing his question, he walked over. Perhaps because he was afraid of waking Zhu Bingling up, his footsteps were much quieter, and he came in front of Shen Boling. He gave him the information in his hand, and said, "There is news about Ruoyan. She ran away with her maid when Yichun Court was sealed off. Afterwards, although the eunuch did not want her, he also searched for her through the people below. She, Kuyan, could only hide everywhere, but she didn't leave, she was still in Zhaozhou County.

Moreover, their activities have not decreased at all, but have become more active. We found that in addition to having more staff these days, he has been inquiring about a person, and his visits have become more and more frequent. He is obviously in a hurry, even exposing the target. I don't care.Who are they looking for? "Shen Boling was also a little surprised when she heard that. She was in danger and had to find someone. This behavior itself was very strange. Now that someone is helping her, it shouldn't be her fault alone.

"You must have never thought of it." Mo Yan suddenly revealed a mysterious smile, "What they are asking about every day is your news, and they have been looking for you."

"Me?" Shen Boling was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help moving, but it also woke up Zhu Bingling beside him.

Zhu Bingling woke up and heard the last sentence of the two. Mo Yan saw the intimacy between the two. When she woke up, she couldn't help being stunned, but she didn't look embarrassed at all. Instead, she immediately entered the state. After analyzing what he meant, "You mean that Kuyan is looking for the only remaining son of the Shen family?"

Because whether it is Shen Boling or Zhu Bingling himself, their identities are somewhat special. Even if the consultation is not developed now, the people of Chu State know very little about the affairs of Zhao State, but they can't hide it from the investigation of those who are interested.

So after they settled down, the two changed their names. Only the insiders knew their real names, and their identities had nothing to do with Zhao Guo. Zhu Bingling even asked the prefect to do something for them assumed a false identity.

I have to say that they did a good job of keeping secrets. Although most of the people in "Ling Wei" knew the real names of the two, and even Shen Boling's identity, they didn't spread the word out, which also made Ruoyan find them so It's been a long time, but I don't know that the person I'm looking for is not far away from me, and I have been in contact with her before. Maybe it's useless to give them some time to find them in their way.

"She is looking for the young master of the Shen family." Zhu Bingling immediately understood the way, "This Ruoyan thought she was not simple before, but she didn't expect that she really has something to do with us, and even came here after us. , I just don’t know whether it’s an enemy or a friend.”

"But I don't know her, and I can guarantee that my father has never touched her. What's going on?" Shen Boling was silent for a while, then shook his head.

Zhu Bingling looked at Mo Yan, "Have you found out why she is looking for someone?"

"I don't know yet. I only found out that she was frantically looking for someone. Now she is a little bit disregarding her own safety. She was almost caught by the prefect several times." Mo Yan didn't say much, just said what he knew. "But seeing how anxious she is, she should show her flaws soon, and then they will know why they are here."

"We can't wait that long. When they come to investigate us, it's better for us to take the initiative. I guess it's because there is some big revenge to avenge, or because we have a special relationship with the Shen family. Seeing the current state of the Shen family, I want to help Young master of the Shen family, but no matter what, we can't just ignore things, young master Shen, don't you think so?" Zhu Bingling looked at Shen Boling with a half-smile.

Shen Boling felt helpless after hearing this, sighed and said, "I really don't know her, and I believe she doesn't know me either, otherwise we've all met her before, why doesn't she recognize me, and keeps walking around Look, I think they may have found the wrong person?"

Zhu Bingling shook her head, and didn't say too much on this matter, she turned to look at Mo Yan, "Mo Yan, what do you think?"

(End of this chapter)