once i loved you

Chapter 31

Sitting in his room until one o'clock in the middle of the night, when he heard the door knock and saw him walk in unharmed, Cen Xiao finally let out a long breath.

"Haven't gone back to sleep yet?" He threw the room card on the cabinet by the door.

She ran over and looked up and down worriedly, "Why did we talk for so long?"

He changed his shoes, without any intention of answering, "I'm going to take a shower first." Then he opened the cabinet, took out the clothes he wanted to change, and went straight to the bathroom.

"Gu Weiye—" The more he remained silent, the more uneasy Cen Xiao felt.

He responded softly, still saying nothing, and finally closed the bathroom door without even looking at her.

When he came out after washing, Cen Xiao had been waiting impatiently for a long time. She followed him and asked, "What did he tell you?"

He threw the towel that he had wiped his hair on the sofa, hooked his hand at her, "Come here—"

Cen Xiao moved over, carefully observing his emotions, but was caught off guard and pulled into his arms.Gu Weiye received it firmly, with his arms tightly encircling the area between her waist and chest.

"Will you sing me a song?" he said suddenly.

She was silent for a few seconds, "Did he tell you about our past?" His forehead was tightly sewn against his neck, and a drop of water flowed down his hair to one side of her cheek, "Those...are all in the past It's all over, don't worry about it."

She is not the kind of person who can sing very well, but once Ye Chengjin celebrated his birthday, in order to surprise him, she stood up in front of the whole cafe and sang him a song he particularly liked.Cen Xiao remembered that he was ashamed at that time, but the other party was very happy to hear it.

"Don't keep talking," Cen Xiao choked up slightly as the uneasiness in his heart intensified with the prolongation of his silence, "Did Ye Chengjin make a move? Did you get hurt anywhere?"

"I'm fine. Since he was nice to you, he's fine," Gu Weiye said, "but one arm is dislocated."

This time it was her turn to be speechless, her body embedded in his arms froze.

"I think I'm weird." After a moment's pause, he rubbed his cheek back and forth on her hair, speaking in a hoarse voice, "He said I wasn't sincere to you, I was playing with your feelings, and even said that I I don't feel angry when I don't deserve you. But I feel very sad when he casually talks about your past. "

With her hand on her back, she tapped the slightly protruding joints on his back like playing a piano, "You are jealous."

"Is that so?" He smiled, "Is this called jealousy?"

"So you lied to me when you said you were jealous?" Cen Xiao suddenly realized, and couldn't help but raise his ending.

He let her go, tried to look into the depths of her eyes, looked for a long time, did not get the answer he wanted, and then asked her seriously and forcefully: "Cen Xiao, I love you. Do you love me too?"

"I..." She was suddenly asked, and she was speechless, not because she was shy, but also because...she really couldn't speak.

"If you were with Ye Chengjin before, you would have said it without hesitation. If you told me, you wouldn't be able to tell, right?" Gu Wei's eyes were full of self-mockery, "It seems that I have been ignoring the most important thing problem—you don’t actually love me.”

He let her go.

Cen Xiao has never felt such a feeling of powerlessness.She looked up at him and wanted to hug him again, but she couldn't lift her arms at all, "It's not what you think..."

"Then tell me..." The light around him seemed to be dimming in clusters, which made her feel distressed for no reason.

Tears were in his eyes instantly, his lips parted and closed again, Cen Xiao saw the disappointment in his eyes, the pain was actually no less than his!

"Okay, I'm tired. Go back and rest too." He patted her on the shoulder with a distant movement, his eyes shifted to somewhere in the room, as if trying to hide his emotions, "It's really nothing. "

It's just that you don't love me.

"My flight tomorrow morning." She chased him and walked over, "I'll stay with you tonight."

When he came back, Ben told her that because Gu Weiye had excused himself from the night scene, he had to rush back at three o'clock the next day, and put on makeup in time before dawn, so that he could catch up on the progress of the filming.It's past one o'clock now.After all, there were less than two hours left for them to get along with each other.And... in this situation, she really can't bear to leave.

"Are you sure?"

Gu Weiye walked in front of her and completely blocked the faint light from the standing bedside lamp. Cen Xiao couldn't see his expression clearly, so he nodded, "Yes."

"it is good."

He cautiously and slowly lifted her cheeks, the strength of the lowering was very light at first, but gradually, it seemed to be attached with a force of destruction.

Thinking that he was in a bad mood and needed to vent, she kept enduring the pain and indulged his movements until his hands snaked up her arms and reached her neckline, and then, "呵啦" from top to bottom With a sound, her blue skirt was split into two.The two pieces of cloth fell silently from the shoulders to the ground like fallen leaves.

Cen Xiao looked at him with wide eyes, but from his face, all he could see were two groups of lifeless jet-black eyes.

"Are you willing or not?" He asked her suddenly, with an unusually cold voice.

A stewardess with delicate makeup frowned, and impatiently repeated the question just now, "Miss, would you like...to drink?"

Cen Xiao said "ah", and turned his head, the marks on his neck also fell into the eyes of the stewardess.There was a strange look in the latter's eyes, and then a touch of ambiguity was mixed in his expression, "I'm asking what do you want to drink?"

She cleared her throat, intentionally concealing something wrong with her, "Coffee."

"I'm sorry, but the coffee for this trip has run out, can I bring it to you later?" said the stewardess.

Cen Xiao: "Then don't bother."

The stewardess smiled politely, then pushed the car to the next row of seats.

She once again focused her gaze on the layers of clouds outside, and the scenes she experienced yesterday seemed to be replaying in front of her eyes one after another.

In our early 20s, we can be presumptuous and bold enough to fall in love with someone easily, but when this relationship is exhausted, especially after it ends in a not-so-good way, you meet the next person, even if you know The other party is impeccable, so can you still fall in love completely without complaint or regret?

He blamed her, she could understand, but she couldn't explain it.She was more excited about him than before, and she was more cautious than before, but just like this, she kept tense and did not dare to indulge herself completely.

No matter how angry he was, in the situation last night, he knew that negation was the right way, but she couldn't do it.

When he put her on the bed, he touched her face inch by inch with trembling hands. After a while, he still closed his eyes and left with a slight smile.

He didn't want her because he thought she was trying to cover up, not sincerely.

"Auntie—" A childish voice interrupted Cen Xiao's meditation.

She leaned over and saw a boy whose eyes were rounder and brighter than glass marbles, looking at her with a lollipop, "Auntie, please eat a lollipop!"

The lollipop in the brown wrapper that was handed to him seemed to be chocolate-flavored.

"Thank you, kid." Cen Xiao squeezed out a smile, "Auntie won't eat it, you keep it for yourself."

"My mother said, learn to share." The little boy muttered, a little unhappy, as if he insisted on asking Cen Xiao to accept the candy.

"But why did you give it to me?" Besides her, there were other passengers on the plane.

"Because Auntie looks the most unhappy." The little boy smiled, "My mother won't let me eat so much sugar, saying it will damage my teeth. Since I don't need it, I'll treat you to it!"

"You can save it for tomorrow, or eat it in a few days!"

"But this is my favorite. If I don't give it to you today, I will definitely not be able to resist eating it!"

When the little boy disappeared from sight, she looked down at the chocolate lollipop she got.

Chocolate taste is the boy's favorite flavor. If he doesn't eat it, it's not because he doesn't like it, but because he is afraid that eating it will affect his teeth.Childlike innocence is kind and simple, and it also reveals the simplest truth.

Whether she loves Gu Weiye or not, the answer is already obvious.It was the experience of being hurt and the gap between her and each other that kept her from moving forward, and she didn't dare to face her heart calmly.It's not that she doesn't love him, she has accepted the relationship of a lover, but she has been afraid to indulge this love without reservation because of stinginess.

"Gu Weiye, forgive me for being a coward, okay?" Cen Xiao's tears fell on the line of words displayed on the screen of the phone one drop after another.

(End of this chapter)