How much love has become a cloud of smoke

Chapter 15 I love you, the only promise I can give you (2)
"Chen Jiayan," I looked at Chen Jiayan and said, "Why did you do this?" He smiled slightly and said, "What did I do?"

"No matter what happens, whether you are a gold medal lawyer or the son of a rapist, whether you are a good person or a bad person... Is this what you mean?" I looked at him, expecting to find the answer from his eyes, but Those deep pool-like pupils were completely empty.

"I told you to wait for me," he took my hand, "now I'm back." I knew a long time ago that waiting won't bring any good results.I withdrew my hand, put the materials I had just distributed back on the conference table, and said:
"Mr. Gao is still in the hospital." He turned around and walked towards the door. Just as he was about to pull the door, the indifferent voice sounded again: "Why do you have to leave me at this time?"

My hand that was stretched out to pull the door stopped. "You told Gao Tianming, right?" I looked at Chen Jiayan who was approaching, and said, "You told Gao Tianming all this, otherwise how would he go back to the hospital, why would he come here, how would he know all this You are manipulating all of this, aren't you?"

When he lowered his eyelashes and looked at me again, he said, "I did it, but..."

"I don't want to hear it." I interrupted him.All my guesses were confirmed at this moment.The power of genetics is really jaw-dropping.I repeated my mother's mistakes and fell in love with the last person I should not be in love with.I don't know if it is true that the waves behind the river will push the waves ahead, and my life will be more miserable than my mother's.

"Do you think I did something wrong?" He looked at me with a trace of sadness in his eyes. "It's not you, it's me." I smiled bitterly and said, "I was wrong because I shouldn't have fallen in love with you." I took out a white envelope from my backpack and put it on the table in his hand.The letter was printed after coming out of my father that day, but I never found the right time to hand it over to Mr. Gao, but I never thought that it would be handed over to Chen Jiayan at this time.

It's really appropriate, but a little out of place.I turned around and didn't look at Chen Jiayan's indifferent face again.That kind of indifference and coldness hurts more than any sharp blade.It was as if there was nothing but air and nothing left between us, not even a trace of it.

I opened the door and strode out.The moment I walked out of the building, I stopped suddenly, as if some kind of connection had been severed by a sharp blade. The pain hit me instantly and I couldn't move on, so I could only curl up into a ball.Am I wrong about Chen Jiayan, or am I wrong about this world?Or do we have to fight with all our heart and soul every minute of every second we live in this world?

I felt pain in my cheeks, only to realize that the tears that I didn't know when I fell had been dried by the wind.When I was young, the director of the orphanage once said to me that everyone's destiny is like a Ferris wheel, once it starts to run, it cannot be stopped no matter what.Then I said, "Turn it off." Now I know, I can't even find the power source anywhere.

The most fatal thing is not its operation, but my powerlessness.When I returned to the hospital, Gao Tianming was sitting outside the emergency room.Different from the crowded corridor in the morning, the corridor now suddenly became cold and empty. The nurse walked by wearing flat shoes without disturbing sounds. I slowed down and walked carefully to Gao Tianming's side and sat down.

Although the time of master and servant is not long, Mr. Gao treats me well.It was Mr. Gao who taught me how to read the statements and accounts, and how to make statistical charts.He took me to the credit department to teach me to read customer information, and he explained to me the value and playing methods of fund stocks.Whenever I stay and work overtime, I can always meet Mr. Gao who "coincidentally" is also working overtime.I know he sees that his son treats me badly, so he secretly compensates me.

I don't believe that such Mr. Gao will be the one who designed Chen Zheng to be imprisoned unjustly.I do not believe.

Time passed by, taking away those churning thoughts in my heart, like a beach after low tide, leaving only a faint imprint and a quiet beach.

Gao Tianming suddenly looked at me and said, "Are you crying?" I said, "How is Mr. Gao?"

"Chen Jiayan," Gao Tianming answered irrelevantly, "Did he make things difficult for you?" I continued, "What did the doctor say?"

"I'll go find him." Gao Tianming stood up suddenly.

I felt that we could no longer talk like chickens and ducks, so I had to stand up and stop him and said, "Now Chen Jiayan is secondary, and Mr. Gao is the main one, so let me ask you how is Mr. Gao?" He still didn't want to answer. I mean, I stood up suddenly and said, "If you don't tell me Mr. Gao, I will ask the doctor myself."

As soon as I was about to take a step, he raised his hand to stop me and said, "You don't need to ask, it's liver cancer, at the end stage." I stopped my pace, I knew all this, not the doctor but Chen Jiayan told him.In this whole matter, Chen Jiayan is like the creator, controlling everything.

I didn't speak, and still sat down.

Vol.3
In the silent corridor, the sound of the heart rate monitor in the emergency room could be vaguely heard.

We seem to be cut off from this world, just silently at the bottom of the world, listening to the clock passing by.I don't know when I fell asleep, and when I woke up, I only heard my phone vibrate in the bag.I saw that Gao Tianming was still sleeping soundly beside me, so I quietly moved away, picked up the phone and went around a little further in the corridor to answer the call, but it turned out to be a boring sales call.

When I returned to the bench, Gao Tianming had already woken up, and when he saw me coming back, he asked, "Is the operation over?"

I shook my head, seeing that it was time for dinner.From the sudden incident in the morning to now, I thought he must have not eaten anything like me, so I asked him, "Mr. Xiao Gao, do you want something to eat? I'll buy it."

He shook his head slowly and said, "I'm not hungry." Then he said, "But, just buy something."

"Just buy the kind of sandwich you like." I was about to turn around and leave, but suddenly remembered something, turned back and said to him, "By the way, give me your wallet." He was stunned for a moment, He took out his wallet and said to me, "Don't you have enough money?"

"No." I counted the cash and documents in his wallet before carefully putting them in the backpack and said, "I'm afraid you'll disappear while playing with me. If I come back later and you suddenly disappear, I don't even know." Where should I find you? This way you have no money and no documents, so you won’t run very far.”

He looked at me dumbfounded, and said, "Who did you learn this bad move from?"

"Chen Jiayan..." As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I immediately regretted it.Gao Tianming looked at me, tried his best to smile and said, "I won't run away, you go." I nodded, turned around and took two steps, when he suddenly stopped me and said, "Qiqi."

I stopped and turned to look at him and said, "Is there anything else?" He was still sitting on the bench, looked at me for a while from a distance of four or five meters, and then said:
"Thank you."

When I came out of the convenience store, the morning bank news was being broadcast on TV. I saw the camera sweeping over Chen Jiayan’s face again and again. Amidst all the noise and noise, he always just looked at the camera indifferently.

Just like the Chen Jiayan I've seen before, firm and ruthless.But the other one once took my hand and asked me: Will you stay by my side no matter what happens?I'm on the verge of a split personality.

When I was standing in front of the TV in a daze, someone suddenly took a picture of me.I turned around and saw Gao Tianming standing behind me. Before I could speak, he had already taken the plastic bag from my hand.

"Why are you here?" I could only look at him. "I see you haven't come back for so long, I'm afraid something will happen to you."

"Where is Mr. Gao?"

"A nurse came out just now," he turned around, walking slowly, "The operation...is not over so quickly."

I hurriedly chased two steps forward, looked at his slightly lowered head and said, "What's the matter with you?" He didn't answer me, but just walked forward, I quickly caught up with him and grabbed him and said, "Mr. Xiao Gao, what's the matter with you?" ?”

"I..." he finally stopped and said, "I'm afraid..."

"What are you afraid of?" I looked at him and suddenly understood.It turned out that he did not dare to listen to the result alone, fearing that he would not be able to bear it, so he would rather chase me out to find me than continue to wait in front of the operating room.I smiled, took his slightly cool hand, and said, "Let's go." He just nodded silently.

It was time to get off work, and the streets were full of traffic and noise.I suddenly remembered that when I was working with Chen Jiayan half a year ago, I went to Sheung Wan to pick up documents and bought dinner to go back to the law firm. I encountered a traffic jam on the way, and the law firm called to remind me.Fearing that I would not be able to make it in time, I had to get out of the car with the lunch box and documents and ran all the way back. When I was crossing a traffic light intersection, I was almost knocked down by a speeding private car, and the documents and lunch boxes were scattered all over the ground.

Luckily I didn't get hurt.However, it wasn't because I was able to dodge with the flexibility of my hands and feet, but because someone suddenly picked me up by the waist and dodged the speeding black sports car.Even so, I was frightened into a cold sweat. Seeing those scattered documents being crushed by the wheels, thinking that if I were lying there, I would probably have been... another cold sweat.

That is Chen Jiayan.He saved my life, then pressed the traffic light as if nothing had happened, bent down and picked up all the scattered documents on the floor.I was so flustered and he was so calm.Then he said to me, "Cross the road carefully."

(End of this chapter)