How much love has become a cloud of smoke

Chapter 20 Who loses her forever (1)
Vol.1
The flight was rescheduled because I suddenly fell ill.I feel guilty that my new boss can't go back to enjoy her family happiness as soon as possible, and has to take care of me all night.But because the four things of "birth, old age, sickness and death" are beyond human control, so while I was sick, I secretly made up my mind to work hard in the future to compensate my new boss.

When I was sick, I had a dream about when I was still in the orphanage.I was four years old when I entered the orphanage, and I already have some memories.The initial impression was that children of the same age were taller than me, and many people liked to bully me.I would cry at first, then I learned to type back.Gradually, they no longer dared to bully me, but on the contrary wanted to avoid me three points.

The fact that I can eat very well was developed from that time, because I have to always be ready to fight with the boys in the upper grades, so I eat a lot more than ordinary children every meal.The dean was often surprised by my appetite, and lied that he would increase my meal expenses. I knew my sponsor was rich, so I continued to eat a lot without fear.Later, when I grew up, the dean urged me to participate in the Big Eater Competition, but I sternly rejected it.

Until I was ten years old, one day the dean suddenly said to me: "Qiqi, your father is here, do you want to see him?"

I was learning paper-cutting from my teacher at the time, and accidentally cut my hand with the scissors.But I didn't bother to bandage, and ran out to meet my own father in a hurry.Although I had heard that my biological father was the one who sponsored me, I always thought it was those children who couldn't beat me, so they used this kind of thing to stimulate me.

There is no biological father who would rather sponsor his daughter to stay in an orphanage than take her home.I chased all the way to the school gate, and it was raining heavily outside. I saw the black private car parked at the school gate, and I saw him in a black suit under a black umbrella.I excitedly shouted "Dad".He stopped his footsteps and turned to look at me. Through the heavy rain, I saw him smile at me.I was full of joy, thinking he would wait for me to jump over, but as I ran forward, he was already in the car.

A basin of heavy rain poured on my head, and my feet stepped on the muddy pond, which was cold and wet.I know my father is a cold person, but I didn't expect it to be as cold as minus four hundred degrees Celsius.I cried to the dean, and the dean said, "When you grow up, you will know that adults can't help themselves." I wiped my nose and said, "You can't help yourself." The dean beat me I shook my head and said: "Girls should be gentle."

I also tried many ways to get my father's attention, such as studying hard, winning an award, etc. Later, I realized that it was impossible to become one of the top ten outstanding teenagers with my qualifications, so I changed my direction.Instead, I collected a lot of father's briefings, watched the shows he would appear on, waited for him to come to the orphanage once in a few months, and then took a look at him from a distance, and the result was that I became a small fan.

Then, nothing changed.That's how I knew that no matter what I did, it wouldn't change his mind or his behavior.

Because that person is Meng Junshan.All this is because I am Meng Junshan's daughter.

I never complained, and I am much happier than the children in the orphanage.At least I still have my father, at least he is willing to support me, at least on my birthday, he will let the third brother come to give me a gift.Although it was the same strawberry cake every year, and there was another year when I miscalculated and gave away two, I ate them all.

In fact, I already knew what kind of person my father was, but because he was my father, I had to accept all of this unconditionally.

Until I met Chen Jiayan.Thinking back carefully, when I saw Chen Jiayan at that time, I saw the shadow of my father in a trance.So cold and firm, but also looks like a celestial being.I remember my father was at the same age when I was young, with such a demeanor.At that time, all my attempts to attract my father failed, so I didn't plan to try on Chen Jiayan either.It's just that I didn't expect that he would take the initiative to walk into my world and disrupt everything.

So I thought that not all people in the world are the same, and Chen Jiayan is just a little bit like my father, after all, he is not my father.It's my wishful thinking that he's not a bad guy, he shouldn't be.I firmly believed in this, and fell in love with what I "thought" Chen Jiayan.

As a result, I finally knew the power of genetics, which made me irreversibly repeat the mistakes of my mother.

I fell in love with Chen Jiayan, no matter how far I was away from him, no matter whether I fled to the southern hemisphere or the northern hemisphere, he was always in my heart.

I love him.When I woke up, I found that the pillow was wet. I thought I was drooling from hunger, but I realized it was tears after I woke up.

It was raining heavily outside the window, with the sound of crackling raindrops.I think the air is too humid, even my eyes are wet.There was no one else in the room, so I thought Zhou Youlin might be out busy with her work.I feel very guilty for not being able to help and making trouble like this.So when I woke up and couldn't see her, I felt more at ease.There was a basin of water on the stool beside the bed, and the towel on his forehead was already warm.Only a weak wall lamp was turned on in the room, and the thermometer was on the bedside table, with pills and water beside it.

I tried to get out of bed, and my feet didn't feel like I was stepping on cotton, and touching my forehead didn't feel as hot as before.And clearly heard the noise downstairs.As soon as the fever subsided, I walked to the window to watch the excitement, which immediately refreshed me.

Downstairs, there was clearly something lively to watch, the sea of ​​people was overwhelming, and there were many news vans.I don't know if there is some important person staying in this hotel, and my heart is eager to join in the fun.I hastily changed into some decent clothes and rushed out, but as soon as the door opened, I stood there in a daze.There was a man standing at the door, with his back against the wall and seemed to be smoking, reading a newspaper in his hand.

Seeing me open the door, the other party was taken aback, and the newspaper in his hand fell to the ground.I think he probably doesn't want to see me, and I don't really want to see him by such a coincidence.I turned my face away and decided to go downstairs from the elevator on the other side, but I didn't want Chen Jiayan to hold me back.

"Where are you going? You're still sick." I was probably confused by the fever, and I didn't think about how he knew I was sick for a while. I just wanted to go down to watch the fun, but he refused. I let go, I was anxious, pointed to the newspaper he dropped on the ground and said: "You dropped something." I thought he would let go and I could take the opportunity to escape, but I forgot the other's master, so I bent down and picked up the newspaper up.

I was so angry that I stared at the newspaper in his hand with all kinds of annoyance, maybe my heart of gossip was too enthusiastic, I caught a glimpse of the large photo on the front page, it was none other than Zhou Youlin.However, although it is obviously 20 years younger, thanks to my sharp eyes, I really couldn't recognize it all at once.

"What is that?" I pointed to the newspaper, but Chen Jiayan seemed to be hiding the newspaper.I didn't expect him to be so stingy, so I grabbed my hand and said, "If you take a look, you won't miss a piece of meat."

But he found another little surprise, the person standing next to Zhou Youlin in the photo looked more familiar than Zhou Youlin.Because I have seen him at that time, so I don't need too high resolution, I can recognize the person next to Zhou Youlin - Meng Junshan.

"Why is my father with Zhou Youlin?" I held the newspaper and stared blankly at Chen Jiayan. He took the newspaper and folded it without saying a word, and said, "You should go back to your room to rest now." He stretched out his hand Come to pull me, I avoided his hand, and took the opportunity to think quickly, could it be that Zhou Youlin is also my father's romantic account at minus [-] degrees Celsius?
But now he has a happy family and a successful career. He is much happier than my mother-in-law who had a rough fate and lost her life.

"Go back to the room." Chen Jiayan ordered me suddenly.I was startled by him, and stared at him with wide eyes.He sighed a little, raised his hand to touch my forehead and said, "You still have a fever, you can't stand here and blow the air."

"Understood." I pushed his hand away, and while he was going to open the door, I suddenly turned around and ran upstairs quickly.There is really nothing that can stop my enthusiasm for gossip, not to mention that it is gossip about my father, so I have to ask Zhou Youlin to find out.

I ran up the stairs along the fire escape in one breath. I am very agile in running the stairs. After all, there are no elevators on the floors where I live. I have already practiced my skills by climbing up and down like this every day.But Chen Jiayan is not weak, I almost forgot that he is a master who likes to go up and down the [-]th floor.

When I hurriedly opened the swing door and wanted to be the first to attack, I suddenly stood there stupidly.The floor where Zhou Youlin lived was empty, but there were seven or eight people standing at equal distances in the corridor, all of them had pale faces and cold eyes like eighteen bronze figures.Seeing me emerge from the fire escape, they all looked nervous, as if they had seen a human bomb.

"It's okay." Chen Jiayan came up from behind me, raised his hand to stop the bronze brothers who approached me, and said, "It's my own."

After hearing this, the man retreated to his original position, but I didn't appreciate Chen Jiayan's favor, so I took the opportunity to run inside.Those bronze brothers didn't stop me for the word "my own people".Chen Jiayan called me twice and saw that I didn't stop, so he hurriedly chased after me. I was about to run to Zhou Youlin's apartment, but suddenly someone rushed out and stopped me.

I fell headlong into the man's arms, stared at me, and heard a familiar voice say, "Qiqi, you can't go in."

I was taken aback for a moment before I saw it was the third brother.

Vol.2
It seems that the gossip is really nothing without waves.I was about to argue with my third brother for a chance to enter the room, but I heard the quarrel coming from the door.The door is ajar, so you can hear it clearly without going any closer.And I don't want to get any closer, because I heard my father's voice saying: "Then tell Qiqi, the teacher Zhou Youlin Zhou she admires is the mother she left behind! "

Really, this joke is a little too big.I stared blankly at the gap in the door, and then raised my head to look at the third brother. He had a serious face, which was already a bit scary, and now it was even more scary.I managed to squeeze out a smile to look at the third brother, and said: "What are they talking about?" Chen Jiayan pulled me behind me, but I ignored him, grabbed the third brother's arm with both hands and shook it vigorously, saying: "They are saying what?"

"Qiqi." The third brother held my shoulder and slowly shook his head at me.The dispute in the room did not stop, and the father continued: "If you want to go, go by yourself, Kiki must stay."

"She is my daughter!" Sure enough, it was Zhou Youlin's voice. "Your daughter? Then you go and tell her now, tell the reporters downstairs that Meng Qiqi is your illegitimate daughter with Meng Junshan, go!" The father's voice was deafening.Zhou Youlin sat on the sofa blankly and didn't fight back.

The father sneered and said: "Let your Italian musician husband know how her wife from a famous family got together with a young and Dangerous boy who didn't even have 100 yuan and gave birth to an illegitimate daughter." !"

Zhou Youlin took a step back slowly, and sat on the armrest of the sofa almost limply. After a long time, he said: "I know you hate me for leaving you back then. But if I didn't go with my father then, he would leave The child was sent to a place where I couldn't find it, and it was impossible for me to find my daughter again. At that time, you were nothing, how could you protect my daughter and me? What else can I do if I don't leave?"

"I don't want to hear this." The father interrupted her. "In short, you have to go yourself. If you dare to play Kiki's idea, I will take it from you. It's not as simple as just one daughter."

Zhou Youlin was completely defeated.With Meng Junshan's domineering and impeccable aura, anyone would be defeated, let alone a mere Zhou Youlin.She finally surrendered and gave a low voice: "Junshan..."

"It's useless." Facing the tenderness like water, his father maintained a coldness of minus [-] degrees Celsius, "I'm not the Meng Junshan I was back then. If I didn't think that you are Qiqi's biological mother, I wouldn't let anyone Arrange to see you off." After finishing speaking, my father opened the door and walked out of the room, shouting "Su San" hastily, and suddenly saw me standing at the door, then turned around and slapped third brother across the face.

The deafening sound echoed in the corridor, shaking my eardrums a little. "Didn't I tell you not to let anyone come up." My father said through gritted teeth. "I'm sorry, Third Master." Third Brother turned his face and slowly wiped away the blood from the corner of his mouth.Zhou Youlin who was in the room also stood up abruptly, his gaze resting on me.I think she probably didn't expect the mother-daughter reunion scene to be in such a situation, in fact, I didn't expect it either.Since I always thought my mother was dead, I never imagined what it would be like to meet again.

What's more, I didn't expect that when my mother saw me, instead of being ecstatic, she looked bewildered.No matter how bad a TV series is, it won't act like this.After a long, long time, she finally called me: "Qiqi..." I suddenly pushed away the person beside me, turned and ran towards the stairs, but was stopped by Chen Jiayan, who put his arms around me and said, "You want me again?" Where are you going?"

"Let go of me, let me go." Since his hands were bound by him, punching was not enough, so I had to kick.

But I couldn't kick Chen Jiayan, I got anxious and bit the back of Chen Jiayan's hand, he was stunned for a moment, and hugged me motionless.

There was no sound in the silent corridor, but suddenly the sound of water dripping on the carpet was heard.My tears have always been big, one by one like full dew.I breathed a sigh of relief, and Chen Jiayan also let go, but he still held me and said, "You want to go back to your room, I'll take you down." Zhou Youlin walked up and said, "No, Qiqi has to follow me."

"Do you want me to say it again?" Father dragged Zhou Youlin away and said, "She won't go with you."

"Yes, I won't go with you." I looked at my father slowly and said, "I will stay with my father, because I don't have a mother."

I saw a trace of astonishment in my father's eyes. He probably didn't expect me to say that, and neither did I.

But this is the first time I feel that this thermostatically frozen man in front of me is my father.Although he wasn't close to me, he at least remembered bringing me cake for my birthday, remembering that he had a daughter in an orphanage, remembering to keep me with him, and remembering that I was going to protect me.

"Qiqi..." In the silence, Zhou Youlin's excitement seemed abrupt.My father suddenly stopped me three steps away, and said in a deep voice: "I said, you go by yourself, Qiqi must stay."

"no……"

"Then, take me away!" I pulled my father away, stood in front of my mother and said, "And then?" I looked at the boss who treated me better than my own mother, and said with a sneer, "Take me to America, Tell your husband and kids what am I? Your new assistant? Or anyone else?"

She looked at me, but didn't say the answer I wanted. "What do you think I am! When you don't want me, you give it away, and if you want me, you pick it up and put it by your side. Am I your toy? For 25 years, I have been thinking that my mother is dead, and you still What are you doing back?" I angrily pushed Zhou Youlin away, tears streaming from my eyes.

Behind me, Chen Jiayan hugged me tightly, wrapping his arms around my flailing hands. "It's not like this, Qiqi, you don't understand..." When Zhou Youlin tried to grab me again, my father pushed her away and protected me behind me. "The plane is already waiting upstairs, you go or not, it's up to you, but Qiqi must stay."

"Why, you don't need this daughter at all." Zhou Youlin argued, "You already have that nephew."

"You don't need it either." He lowered his head and said to Zhou Youlin, "She's right, you brought her back just as a display by your side. You don't want the plane to crash within a kilometer and never see you again If you come to your husband and children, just go upstairs obediently. I said, don’t force me. I don’t know what I will do if I am in a hurry. Maybe you will accidentally “stumble” and fall downstairs. , I can’t even get on the plane.”

(End of this chapter)