In memory, you smiling

Chapter 21 Quietly Is Parting Sheng Xiao (1)
After dusk is a quiet night, with fireflies twinkling in search of hope.

Like suddenly waking up from a coma, my mother passed away without warning in her sleep.

Looking at her mother's remains, Hua Zuoyi didn't recover for a while.It seems that my mother just fell asleep as in the past, and it seems that the days when my mother woke up, talked and laughed with her and shed tears for her were just a dream made by myself.

The weather in the next few days was raining just like Hua Zoe's mood.

She took bereavement leave, turned off the phone, locked the door of the house, concentrated on dealing with Mrs. Hua's affairs, and resolutely refused anyone's offer of help.It's like erecting an impenetrable wall around oneself, which not only seals off one's own feelings, but also prevents anyone from approaching.

Today is the farewell ceremony. Hua Zuoyi's expression was stiff, without showing a trace of sadness, and she nodded her thanks to the people who came to the funeral.The thin body under the black veil, with a straight back, looks like a hard and cold rock, indestructible and unkind.

Hua Youling, who had a lot of complaints about her, unexpectedly did not resist, but did not dare to approach her, her eyes were swollen, and she couldn't help crying when she saw everyone, as if she was the only one in the world who endured it. mourning the loss of his mother.

When Chu Qing passed by Hua Zuoyi, he stayed for a long time. He used his body like a hill to separate her from the dark crowd.

Too used to cleaning up the mess, too used to being depended on, so when she was silently alienated and shouldered heavy responsibilities by herself, Chu Qing actually felt a serious sense of emptiness and loss.

He didn't know until he was notified.

"Why don't you ask me for help?"

Hua Zuoyi raised her head slowly, and looked at the tall man in front of her with a worried look through the black veil.

Chu Qing had never looked at her with such serious and heartbroken eyes.In my impression, he is the kind of person who can just smile and shrug his shoulders, turn around and clean up no matter what happens.

Because of this, Zoe Hua has lived so peacefully and safely in these years.If there is anything once and for all in the world, it is to be protected by someone like Chu Qing.

However, she could no longer rely on him.No one's asylum is ever free.

"Zoe, such a big thing happened, why didn't you ask me for help?" Chu Qing asked again, her indifference was too dazzling.

"Can you bring Mommy back to life?" she asked coldly.

Chu Qing was startled and said nothing.

"Then I don't need anyone's help. I'm fine, don't worry."

Like treating ordinary funeral guests, Hua Zuoyi just shook his hand and let go immediately.

He stood in front of her blankly, staring at her in disbelief, the calm expression on his face could no longer be held.

"Did someone say something to you?" Losing his usual demeanor, he grabbed Hua Zuoyi's bare and cold forearm with his big palm, not caring about the surprised eyes that other people cast on them.

Hua Zuoyi struggled to break free, leaving a reddish handprint on her forearm.When Chu Qing saw it, his pupils shrank in shock.

"CQ, I appreciate everything you've done for me, but please leave me alone now?"

After staring at it for a long time, Chu Qing sighed deeply.

"Okay, when you need help, come to me anytime."

Hua Youling, who was not paying attention, cried even more fiercely, which made Hua Zuoyi distracted to take care of her.

"Youling? Do you want to take a rest?" If you keep crying like this, you will lose your eyesight.

Startled, Hua Youling avoided Hua Zuoyi's outstretched hand, and managed to see the deep disappointment in her eyes.

"I'll go out first." Hua Youling ran away without looking back, as if she was escaping the bond of no blood relationship between them.

The younger sister's actions no longer caused sharp pain, but just slid over her chest sullenly and faintly, causing ripples of helplessness in Hua Zuoyi's heart. This is the younger sister who wants to live with her!

After the funeral, Hua Zuoyi closed the door, and the light was blocked out of the window in an instant, and only the candlelight danced in the mourning hall.She sat on the chair where the guests sat, staring at the portrait of her mother in a daze.

This photo was taken by the mother who asked the doctor in the nursing home without telling her. It seems that she knew that she didn't have much time and prepared the funeral in advance.Didn't tell anyone, Lian Hua Zoe only found out when sorting out the relics.

In the darkness, someone came towards her.

"CQ, you haven't left yet?"

The visitor froze slightly.

"I'm not."

He's not as tall as CQ, and he doesn't always help her aftermath, sometimes aggressive and sometimes charming.

A big warm hand fell on her shoulder, he pressed her shoulder with a little force, and then moved away.Although it was only a few seconds, the silent support and understanding was conveyed to the depths of Hua Zuoyi, who was already very tired, through such a brief contact.

There was an unspeakable tenderness in the dark eyes at the moment, even he didn't know it.

Pan Kaichen sat down beside Hua Zuoyi, with white flowers pinned to his black suit, and he didn't express his condolences to her or do any comforting gestures like the others.He just sat there.

"When such a big thing happened, you didn't even know to inform me. Where do you put my boyfriend who is dating on the premise of getting married?"

Hua Zuoyi looked at him when she heard the words, his meticulous expression didn't look like he was joking.

"Senior, I thought you were in America, and we were just pretending..."

The slender index finger touched her dry lips, preventing the truth that was about to be blurted out.

"Xiao Hua, don't say things that disappoint her in front of my aunt."

In the empty room, only a small lamp illuminated by Mrs. Hua's portrait was on, like a street lamp in the dark night.Under the light, Mrs. Hua smiled gently and dignifiedly, looking at the two of them kindly and expectantly just like she did before she was alive.

Hua Zuoyi was speechless for a while, her slightly trembling fingers clenched into fists.

Suddenly, Pan Kaichen's warm palm came up to him.He was still sitting upright, but firmly grasped the escaped catkin several times in his palm.

"I said, remember to call me by your side when you are at your worst."

It's hard to say how gentle the tone was, but Hua Zuoyi gave up all resistance.

She didn't want to talk, so he stopped talking, just quietly accompanied her through the long night.After a long time, Hua Zuoyi's hand gradually became warm, and then gently held him back.

When the sky was about to dawn, his unique low, steady and mellow voice sounded.

"Sleep for a while, I'm here."

Like a spell, Hua Zuoyi really slowly closed her eyes.She hadn't closed her eyes for several days, her body fell towards him without warning, and her last memory before she lost consciousness was the warm touch of his chest and the reassuring smell around her.

She had a very, very long dream, dreaming of a healthy mommy gently hugging her, dreaming of a young Hua Youling laughing around her, dreaming of her father whose face was blurred standing quietly not far looking at them.

So happy, she was so happy that she was about to explode.

Suddenly, everything sank into a dense darkness and disappeared.

It was like this every time, every time when she was extremely happy, when she stood extremely high, she would fall from the peak of happiness.

In front of her eyes, around her, there was darkness, terribly quiet, as if the whole world had been wiped out and she was the only one left.

Snapped!
In the darkness, Zoe Hua heard the sound of the headlights turning on.This sound instantly lit up the world.A beam of light appeared from behind, wrapping her whole body inside.She raised her hand, squinted, and saw, at the end of the light, CQ leisurely leaning against his behemoth-like SUV, waving at her.

Someone patted her, and Hua Zuoyi turned her head, and suddenly found Shui Mingyue and Qiao Lisi standing beside her, smiling and hugging her shoulders, standing in a black background, relying only on a light path The illuminated world has a touch of warmth.

Then, she saw Pan Kaichen.The serious and stern man turned his back to her, standing at the front of the light path, as if sensing her gaze, he turned around slowly.In the golden light, he is like a handsome god, sacred and inviolable, no matter how bright the light is, it cannot take away his own brilliance.

Pan Kaichen frowned slightly, he always looked at her like that, as if he was full of dissatisfaction and confusion.Just when Hua Zuoyi thought he was going to leave her in disappointment as usual, he stretched out his hand to her.

He said, Xiao Hua, come, come to me.

Moisture floated in his eyes, and the next second Hua Zuoyi ran towards him desperately, the light under his feet stretched forward infinitely, as if it was a staircase leading to heaven.

Never have I run so hard, I have never been so full of desire, I have never been so clear about my goals.When Pan Kaichen in the light spread his arms and greeted her with a smile, Hua Zuoyi almost flew up.

Hua Zuoyi moved her hand.The man who turned his back to her and was talking softly with others, looked back at her as if he had a sense.

The pale man on the bed still closed his eyes tightly, showing no sign of waking up.

Pan Kaichen looked away, and continued to say to the visitor: "Take the keys when you go out... No, you tell her yourself, I'm going to the company, I need to contact you."

The steady and determined footsteps gradually moved away from her bed, and when she heard the door closing, Hua Zuoyi sat up.She scratched her head, and found that Hua Youling's eyes were wide open, staring at her full of doubts.

It turned out that Pan Kaichen was talking to his sister just now, how did the two meet together?
"You are awake." Hua Youling stared at her.

Every day at this point, she is woken up by the alarm clock for a jog. Even if there is no alarm clock now, her biological clock wakes her up naturally.Of course Hua Zuoyi didn't know that her alarm clock was turned off by Pan Kaichen.

Pan Kaichen, who had been sitting with her in the mourning hall, sent the drowsy Hua Zoe home at dawn. After changing his shirt, he went out to solve the contract issues from New York, Nokia and the reorganization.In addition to the time difference that has not been reversed, in fact, he has not closed his eyes for more than 30 hours.When talking to Hua Youling just now, her eyes were red.

Hua Zuoyi got off the bed tiredly, looking for a glass of water to drink.It was found that there was a coffee cup that did not belong to her family beside the cup that had been filled with warm water. At this moment, the black coffee had bottomed out.The man left in a bit of a hurry, right? He should have been in the distant America at this point.Did he come back for her?
Before Hua Zuoyi could frown, Hua Youling rushed over, snatched the coffee cup, and took it to the kitchen to wash.

"Youling, are you going to move in with me?"

The girl's figure froze, she raised her chin very high, and put on a posture of not getting close to anyone with thorns all over her body, but her hand holding the cup trembled slightly.

"No, can't you?" She was tentative with hesitation and fear of being rejected.

Hua Zuoyi answered quickly without any hesitation.

"Okay."

Hua Youling breathed a sigh of relief and turned on the faucet to clean the cup. Tears and tap water flowed out at the same time.She took a deep breath and cheered herself up. She must tell her sister later, she must.

Yesterday, Hua Youling ran out of the farewell party while crying, and Liu's sister stayed alone in the mourning hall to deal with the guests.Because she really didn't want to see her sister who was obviously very sad but pretended to be strong again.

This reminded her of her sister when her father passed away.From then on, my sister seemed to have lost her true nature and became a different person, carrying everything in the Hua family.And she and her mother can't do anything but cry, and can't do anything except rely on my sister.

In this bad mood, Youling met that man again.

On a rainy day, he wore a black suit and stood outside the farewell ceremony. He had no intention of going in at all. He held an unlit cigarette in one hand and a big black umbrella in the other. His whole body was shrouded in haze. There was an awe-inspiring air in the atmosphere, which made people dare not approach easily.

Several times Hua Youling saw him by her sister's side, his seriousness and rigor were incompatible with her laziness, but his eyes never left, and he didn't seem to be forcing himself.

How could there be such a person?How could my sister have such a boyfriend who didn't match her at all.

"You, why don't you go in and help my sister."

Pan Kaichen lowered his head upon hearing this.For a moment, he almost thought that the tear-stained but stubborn girl in front of him was her.

No, not only do they look alike, but they also have very different personalities.Pan Kaichen slowly retracted his gaze, and continued to casually look in the direction of the farewell ceremony.

"I was not invited."

Does this kind of thing need to be actively invited?As a boyfriend but he doesn't want to help, why does he become my sister's boyfriend?Hua Youling saw Pan Kaichen's expression so indifferent that he almost ignored it, and she couldn't get angry.

"Are you serious about my sister? Why don't you go in and help her when she needs it most?!"

"Then why don't you go in and help her?"

Pan Kaichen's rhetorical question immediately made Hua Youling speechless.

"I, we are not real sisters. That person pretends to be strong, why does he always carry other people's affairs on his shoulders, he is so exhausted, and even his personality is exhausted, if only we are not sisters, if we never meet Alright..." Obviously he was saying cruel words, but tears fell uncontrollably, splashing ripples on the ground of the storage pond.

Yes, she could clearly see the tears falling, in this continuous heavy rain.

Because there was a big umbrella tilted slightly, covering her in a clean space, even though the expression of the person holding the umbrella was so cold and dismissive.

"You don't like your sister's appearance?" The cold tone couldn't be said to be soothing, but it hit the nail on the head. Hua Youling stopped crying immediately, and looked up at the stern man.

"It's okay, I don't like it either," he said.

How can this work, how can the boyfriend that my sister finally found doesn't like my sister?
Pan Kaichen's words successfully aroused her sister's panic. She didn't like such a sister, but she didn't want to demolish her sister in front of her boyfriend.What if Mr. Pan no longer likes his sister because of her? !

"My sister was not like this in the past. She is very strong, loves to laugh, and is super energetic. Looking at her, I feel full of strength!"

"I know."

"And my sister is very kind. Although she is impulsive at times, it is also because she is always willing to help others in her heart."

"I know."

"She seems to be shining, looking at her, as if no matter how difficult it is, she will definitely get through it."

All the faults that were scolded just now disappeared immediately, leaving only the shining advantages.Seeing his younger sister dancing and dancing, he wished to apply all the qualities of a vigorous girl he had seen to his own sister, but Pan Kaichen just repeated three words.

"I know."

"No, you don't know, you don't know." Because that is the past that only she and her mother know, it is her treasure.

As if to prove that he was not just playing with the child, Pan Kaichen reached out and took out the old photos that he had always treasured, showed them to her, and said, "I really know."

The sister in the photo is the same as in memory, she laughs and glows, giving light and heat like a little sun.Ever since Youling could remember, both vicious dogs and bad boys were afraid of her sister.Her elder sister is the greatest figure in her small world, even more admirable than her father who sits in a big company.Because my sister is always by her side, whether it is happiness or pain, she will never leave her and give her courage.

The side of my sister that was never known, the most authentic personality in the past, is still known!
"I'm your sister's senior in junior high school. I've been helped by her, so I know all about it."

Hua Youling's eyes changed when she saw Pan Kaichen. This person knew her sister's original personality, and the two of them had a secret that only they knew in this world.Hua Youling, who was in the rebellious period, suddenly respected this man, and automatically regarded him as a partner of her own country.

"Well, I don't hate my sister. I love her very much, love her so much."

That's why I don't want her to stay here and suffer.

Rather than saying that Hua Youling always loses her temper at Hua Zoe, it is better to say that she is angry at her useless self.Obviously they are not real sisters, obviously they don't need to carry everything for the Hua family, and obviously the older sister should fly on a wider stage, but the Hua family binds her wings like a huge shackle.

(End of this chapter)