"Pit" you for three lives and three lives

Chapter 66

After half a year of marriage, Sima Yu finally took the initiative to find Ari for the first time.

It was Mengqiu in July, when the weather was about to turn cold.

It was still cloudy because of the autumn rain.The green grass and trees are flowing, and the moist sandalwood fragrance permeates in the wind.

Ari is instructing the palace people to move in and out of large utensils—because the house has been somewhat humid these days, she is thinking about changing the furnishings to change the feng shui.It just so happens that autumn is here, and it's time to remove the mosquito nets and bead curtains, so let's clean them together.

—She is always so busy.

In fact, Sima Yu rarely saw her idle time.When she has free time, she is either studying how to eat or how to wear clothes. She even goes to the study to read documents, and draws sketches on the desk from time to time with great interest.

Even if she wasn't focusing on him, she'd have plenty of things to do—and all of them gave her a lot of fun, even if it was silly fun a lot of the time.

When the palace people saw Sima Yu, they hurriedly bowed their knees to salute, and it was not until Ari knew that she was coming.

Joyfully stepped forward to inquire, "Why did you come back so early today?"

Her joy was not fake, Sima Yu thought for a moment, maybe she didn't deliberately snub him?
——It is fun to play hard to get yourself, but it is dull to be played hard to get by others.If possible, Sima Yu would prefer Ah Li to stay a bit longer and not play tricks on him.

Seeing how busy she was, she was already sweating on her forehead.His face was pink, and his eyebrows and eyes became clearer and blacker.He casually helped her wipe off the sweat from her nose, and said: "There is nothing to do, I will come back to see you."

Ah Li rolled his eyes and smiled, and said, "Go to the east hall to rest, the room here is chaotic."

The two walked side by side, bypassing the bamboo shade in the east corner, and meandering through the small garden from the pebble path.A peach leaf fell on Ari's hair, and Sima Yu raised his hand to pick it up for her.He casually asked, "What have you been up to lately?"

Ah Li said: "It's all trivial things—" He counted them one by one with his fingers, "It's about to change seasons, and I want to change the furnishings in all the halls. The old queen mother has an autumn disease and doesn't like to eat. Auntie..." She paused for a moment, but still covered her words, "I often tell me to talk. Princess Changyi is pregnant, Shang Shuling's grandson Bairi, and Ahu also want to talk. Getting married...but the Qixi Festival and the Obon Festival are over, these few days are actually quite free."

Sima Yu made her dizzy, but she ended up saying "it's quite free", and she was speechless for a while.

"Grandma has palace people and imperial physicians to take care of her. Just remember to greet her often, and you don't need to wait on her." Sima Yu thought about his words, "How much affection does the Queen Mother have with you?"

Ari smiled—actually, I heard him mention these things a lot in the first episode, but this time I heard it, and I still feel warm.Just answer, "I can save it."

"Aniang...she always has nothing to worry about, just listen to it."

...This is really hard to say.Ali was a little sad.After all, the empress was in a hurry to hug her grandson.But she couldn't even fulfill such a natural wish for her.

"The rest of the rewards, inquiries, etc., are all custom-made. Let the servants remember for you, and just remind you when the day comes - you have to learn how to control people. You are my first wife, not the housekeeper of the Eastern Palace, so you are so busy. what?"

"Uh... to be idle is to be idle."

Sima Yu was a little speechless. It is easy for women to be troublesome if they think they are smart, but it is also very troublesome to train them if they are not enlightened.

I couldn't help muttering: "Who said you are idle?"

"Ok?"

"You mentioned such a long list, including the irrelevant grandsons of Liu Jie's family. Don't you think you missed anyone?"

Ari: "Uh..."

Sima Yu pointed at himself dissatisfied, "Here. Isn't this person the one you put first?"

Ah Li still had a smile on his face, but the smile in his eyes slowly settled down like dust.

At the end of July, even the peaches have already been picked, and there are only a few blue cracked fruits left on the branches, which are hard.In a few days, the weather will completely turn cold, the sunshine has begun to shorten, and the peach leaves will soon fall.The time to mature them has passed.

Ah Li still looked up at Sima Yu.

"In my heart, you have always been ranked first. But why does Your Highness ask such a question, is there something I did wrong?"

"I always feel that you have paid less attention to me recently."

"Like?"

For example, the taste of the diet is not satisfactory, the smell of incense is not good, the casual clothes for going out have to be ordered to find out, and there is no money in the purse when shopping...

But he just said that Ali is not his housekeeper.These things are usually the responsibility of the maid rather than the wife.In fact, what he cares about is not these little things, but these little things make him feel that Ari doesn't care about him anymore.

Sima Yu was stopped by her question just like that.

In the end, I could only answer angrily, "What I did for me before, I don't do it now—a person must start and end!"

Ali sighed again.Every time she sighed like that, Sima Yu would be very irritable, as if she knew something and he didn't.It seems that she is older and sensible than him, so she tolerates his arrogance and ignorance everywhere.As if she was tired of the status quo and could only miss some of the past through him.

He was already trying very hard to sort out his feelings for her.At this time, she should be patient, what a sigh!It seems that his efforts and entanglements are futile and funny.

Ari seemed to read his mood from his eyes.The expression suddenly softened again, it was the feeling that she always showed before marrying him, wanting to cry but not crying.

"I just think that you are thinking about something." She said, "I thought you would want to be alone for a while. If I insist on you at this time, it will only make you more upset and more difficult to distinguish." Clear your mind—"

He really couldn't tell.

He couldn't resist the temptation when she was in front of him, and he couldn't resist missing her when she was not in front of him.He was distraught when she was aggressive, uneasy when she drew back.If that's not liking, then what is?

But at the same time, he also knows that being tempted is not the same as being in love, and being distracted may not necessarily be because of liking.He repelled her instinctively, there was no doubt about it.In his subconscious, she was like a huge trap.

It is said that there is a man-eating flower demon in Nanban, and she is sweet and fragrant only when trapping.A hunter fell in love with her, but if she ate his flesh and drank his blood, she would forget him forever.If he wants to possess her forever, he must never fall in love with her.

Sima Yu also didn't understand why this irrelevant fable suddenly appeared in his mind - as I said earlier, his feelings towards Ari were very confused.

He didn't know what to say.

He really needs to be alone for a while, but whether Ahri insists on forcing him up, or quietly retreats, he can't help being upset—maybe he doesn't know what he thinks about Ahri, but he is very Know what you want Ahri to think about him.He hopes that Ari will always put him first, he hopes that Ari has him in his heart, and only him.

People are selfish.Once you have it, you want to occupy it forever.

Ari sighed again, she stepped forward to hug him, and said, "I understand. Ah Li, I can wait for you to figure it out slowly. But ah, sometimes the grass and trees wither, and people's youth is limited. You can't let I've been waiting."

"It won't be long!"

"Yeah." Ari nodded with a smile, and let this matter go.He bent his eyes and smiled at him again, "I made cured meat soup, and it tastes good. Do you want to stay for lunch?"

Ari made it clear, she really wasn't lying to him.

She began to keep silent again, and took care of him meticulously.

This kindness often makes Sima Yu feel guilty.Because he refused to give her equal affection in return, but kept asking her for more love.And she paid what she billed, but never asked him for anything.

This guilt made him keep sending things to Ari's room again.

Ari sometimes feels speechless—could he really treat her as a housekeeper?She pays for labor, so he pays?Doesn't he feel that this kind of relationship is very distorted between husband and wife?
Of course, sometimes I feel uneasy, thinking that he won't do anything to apologize to her again, right?
Of course, she couldn't ask such words, and it would be too hurtful if she really asked.It can only be said that Sima Yu finally succeeded in making her uneasy too.

Autumn and winter come.

Ari lost weight, was worried and worked hard, and finally made himself malnourished.She caught a cold during the first snowfall, and she fell down on the bridge when she came back from Xianyang Palace that day.

The queen was so nervous that almost the entire hospital was moved to the East Palace.

To put it bluntly, although Chinese medicine is unreliable in various ways, gynecology still has a way of regulating the body.The goatee-bearded old Chinese doctor took his pulse and realized that Ari was suffering from weight loss.By the way, Ahri's cold syndrome was also found out.

He earnestly warned Ari, "No matter what, a woman must be plump and plump to give birth. This is a major event in a lifetime."

Ari was poked at the sore spot, and she held her heart to the ground: This is too careless to say it!

"I'll prescribe a prescription for you to eat first. When the illness is cured, you still have to take care of your body slowly—one day's debt needs a hundred days to make up for it, so don't torment yourself anymore."

Ari nodded, but still asked: "Will it affect fertility?"

The old doctor said: "If you take care of it carefully, you won't be able to. It's hard to tell if you're going through such a lot of trouble."

Ari could only smile wryly.

She still didn't forget that there was an item of "infertility" in her settings.Right now Sima Yu himself is still a child, and the two of them are getting married in the near future, so no one cares about them.But one day Sima Yu will grow up and ascend the throne as emperor. At that time, the pressure of the successor will be like a mountain, and most of the weight will be on Ari.If they remain childless, it could spark a potential throne struggle and destabilize the political situation.At that time, Ari will most likely still have to take care of the overall situation and raise concubines for him.

That would be too embarrassing.

Ahri never thought of turning to the medicine of this era.But at this time, she suddenly had an idea of ​​"doing your best and obeying the destiny"—or "a dead horse should be a living horse doctor".

Still the same sentence, anyway, if you work hard, there may still be a faint hope, but if you don't work hard, there will definitely be no turning point.

Of course, it is still a matter of finding a reliable doctor.

Otherwise, if someone with an interest hears the news, the East Palace will surely become lively again.

And the queen also learned the whole story of Ahri's diet from the palace people, and she was so angry that she wanted to drag her son down to spank his butt - the daughter-in-law also had to teach her, and she took such nonsense seriously.A dignified princess, do you need to flatter the prince with her beauty?
Of course, the queen is not so frizzy.The prince can't teach in public, and the princess is not in a hurry to teach when she is sick.So when Sima Yu came back, she just sat down and drank tea.

When Sima Yu heard that Ari had fainted, he didn't know how he got back.It wasn't until I entered the hall and saw the queen drinking tea calmly that my heart calmed down a little, and I didn't trip over the threshold when I entered the room.

When I went in, I saw Ari sitting on the bed, with black hair and ruddy complexion, so I breathed a sigh of relief.

Ari saw him, smiled and waved.Sima Yu suddenly became a little annoyed, strode to the bed, and said condescendingly, "How did you do it?"

"Uh...hungry."

Sima Yu jumped on the ground, "Can you shorten your food?"

"Just... I just want to lose weight. I always stay indoors, and my stomach has grown fat."

"Did I say I hate you?"

Ari Black Line: ...you really said it.

Sima Yu finally came to his senses and wanted to pinch her neck and call her stupid.But he stretched out his hand and rubbed her head fiercely, "You just make me feel uneasy. I was at odds with you at that time, and I said it casually, but I didn't take it seriously."

Ali: ...

"Besides, is it because of eating? It's because you are always bored in the house and do not move around—I will take you with me when I go on tour next year, and I will take care of it when I go out for a walk and come back. All the fat is gone."

Ari: You are so impolite!

However, Sima Yu was actually joking with bluff.He himself knew the great emptiness in his heart when he heard the news that Ari had fainted.At that time, his mind was completely dark, as if he wanted to sweep everything into it.

At this time, when he saw Ahri's smile, the strength that he had been supported by something finally dissipated little by little.

He smiled, then suddenly leaned over and hugged Ari in his arms, and fell silent.

Ah Li stretched out her arms to hug him back, her voice was as warm and tolerant as ever, she asked: "Ah Yao, do you understand?"

Sima Yu didn't answer.

In fact, the answer was already clear in his heart.But at this moment, he just couldn't answer directly.It seems that the courage to answer him has been exhausted by the previous emptiness and powerlessness.

He just asked, "Are you really okay?"

"It doesn't matter." She gently rubbed his cheek, "Ah, don't give me coral and satin anymore, I don't like it. Don't feel that you owe me. Feelings are all about mutual consent. .No one owes anyone anything. As long as you don’t fall in love with anyone else, I can wait forever. As long as there is no one else—Ah, this is my bottom line. You see, I have confessed to you.”

She thought: It is about time for you to give a quasi-letter letter.

But this time Sima Yu answered very simply, "I promise there will be no one else. The rest—I'll talk about it when I figure it out?"

(End of this chapter)