"Pit" you for three lives and three lives

Chapter 78

Sima Yu has been in a coma for two days.

His situation this time was even worse than in episode one.At least he woke up in the first week, but he was depressed due to his illness, and he didn't get better for a long time.This time, he couldn't even wake up.

Ah Li has been guarding Sima Yu's bedside.Emotions have also changed from worry to anxiety, and now it is almost collapsed.

Because she suddenly realized that Sima Yu might die before her.She suddenly didn't know what to do.

She had cost him two farewells.And now the retribution might be upon her. She held Sima Yu's hand and bit the back of her hand, but even the pain was a little numb.

No one dared to persuade her to rest, she looked like a pile of precarious ruins, as if a little disturbance could completely collapse her.

Sima Yu wandered aimlessly.

He knew he was escaping, and it was about time for him to wake up and face reality.But people seek advantages and avoid disadvantages.After going through the same tragic ending twice, anyone would shrink subconsciously when they went up to it.

Sima Yu is no exception.

He sat alone by the water for a while.

I don't know when, the spring rain is pouring down.The apricot blossoms climbed up the branches and bloomed one by one.

In the reflection of the pool, there is a girl who is looking up at the apricot blossoms on the branches.She walked around an apricot tree a few times, finally found a slightly higher place, and tiptoed to break it.

The back looks a lot like Ah Li, but Sima Yu knows it's not.

He took a reed in his mouth and leaned against the pillar of the water pavilion, watching boredly.

Then he saw himself rushing in from the courtyard door in a hurry.When he saw the figure from behind, his eyes softened immediately.Seeing the girl standing on tiptoe and stretching out her fingers vigorously, but just a little bit out of reach, she faintly smiled.

Admit it wrong, Sima Yu thought to himself—you can admit it, how stupid you must be, can Ari not be by your mother's side at this time?Why go to the back garden to pick apricot blossoms if you have nothing to do? Do you think everyone is as unreliable as you?
He saw himself breaking off the branch of apricot blossom with a smile, and the girl turned her head in surprise.

He covered his eyes and sighed.No matter how many times he watched it, he still couldn't do anything about it.

This girl appeared at an impartial place at an impartial time.It's almost like a disaster.

If she had appeared earlier, Sima Yu might have been amazed at her appearance, but he might not have decided that she was the girl of his dreams.If she had appeared a little later, Sima Yu would have probably sensed that he liked Ari, and she would not be able to attract him even in appearance.But she happened to appear when he was moved by Ali and didn't know it, or when he felt confused and confused.With a beauty that exceeds expectations, he has an inner heart that is almost the same as Ahri.

Moreover, she is still his concubine, with a legitimate status.Sima Yu thought, even if there is a little deviation here, then he will have time to cool down and think about whether he is really fascinated by her and really wants to get her by his side that much.

He is bored.That feeling was the same as when reading a history book and encountering a plot that made me want to tear up the book.Although he made it unreliable, this kind of plot is actually his thunder point.

But he read on anyway.

He saw that he was getting along with Zuo Jiasi nonchalantly, giving a thrush today, and a bouquet of roses tomorrow... Although he rarely has free time, he still spends as much time with her as possible.

At that time, he wanted to pamper Zuo Jiasi exclusively - he must exclusively pamper the person he likes, this is the result of three views.But he is so unreliable that he can mistake who he likes.

He felt guilty towards both Ari and Zuo Jiasi.The guilt towards Zuo Jiasi is easy to understand.As for Ahri, even he himself couldn't figure it out, so he tried not to think about it.

He still likes Zuo Jiasi very much, although this liking is not the same as what he thought.This girl is too simple, it seems that if he treats her better, she can survive vigorously for a long time.

He is too busy.Even if they stayed overnight in Zuo Jiasi Hall, most of them would sleep in the study.Zuo Jiasi also often went to the study to help him grind ink and drink water. She was basically illiterate, and he didn't want to tell her about the court affairs.In the end, most of the time it developed into Zuo Jiasi dozing off, and he asked her to sleep first.Then she obediently went back to the bedroom.

The only thing Zuo Jiasi asked him for was to take her brother and sister-in-law to Jianye.It's not a big deal, so Sima Yu naturally sent someone to do it.After receiving the person, the prospective female relatives also came to the East Palace to visit Zuo Jiasi.

Then suddenly one day, when he got up to leave, Zuo Jiasi hung his head and grabbed his sleeve, "...the moon is beautiful outside."

Sima Yu clearly knew what she meant, but felt at a loss.

The ladies in the court do not need hints, the atmosphere is arranged just right, the red candles are not clear, the gauze curtains are in the wind, the wine and dishes are few but delicate, and there are ditties to add to the fun.People can't help but have reverie.

But Sima Yu started to feel a little restless, he couldn't help but wonder, did Ari sleep?How come you haven't seen her these days?Are you sick, are you unhappy?He is too busy, it seems that he hasn't seen her for some days.

He is unwilling to eat.When he came back to his senses, Zuo Jiasi had moved to his side and was looking up at him.The red candle flickered, her eyes were dark and her eyelashes trembled slightly.

Sima Yu suddenly thought of the drizzle that day, when he got out of the carriage and stretched out his hand to Ari.Ari lowered her eyes and put her hand in his palm.At that moment he was staring at her, unable to look away.The whole world is only her gaze and the warmth of his palm.

He and Zuo Jiasi looked at each other, speechless for a while.After an unknown amount of time, Zuo Jiasi lowered his head and said, "If your Highness has something to do, please go first."

Sima Yu stood up abruptly, "Well, then I'll come see you tomorrow."

When "tomorrow" came, Zuo Jia became sick.When Sima Yu went to visit her again, she closed the door and disappeared.

Sima Yu felt uneasy and guilty.He came to the door three times a day until the palace maid of Zuo Jiasi let him in.It was rumored throughout the East Palace that Sima Yu was bewildered by Zuo Jiasi, and Sima Yu knew that was not the case.But what was going on, he himself couldn't tell.

Zuo Jiasi looked haggard, as if she was about to wither.Sima Yu knew it was his fault.When she thought he could cling to him, he brutally tore her apart.

The maid took the medicine, and Sima Yu took it in his hand, and went to feed her.He didn't know what to say, so he finished the bowl of medicine silently.Before leaving, he finally asked, "...what do you want?"

Sima Yu knew that this was a shame, but he just felt that if Zuo Jiasi could feel better by giving pearls, coral and satin, he would probably not feel so guilty.

Zuo Jiasi looked out the window, "Kiss me," she said, "I actually wanted to kiss you that day. I haven't kissed anyone before, so I don't know what it feels like."

Sima Yu was silent for a while.Closing his eyes, he leaned over and kissed her lips.

Zuo Jiasi said, "It's different."

Sima Yu was puzzled, but Zuo Jiasi turned over, pulled the quilt to cover her face, "I'm not that similar to my sister," she said, "Your Highness, don't admit your mistake again."

Sima Yu felt that he needed to think about it carefully, and when he figured it out, he would definitely give Zuo Jiasi an answer.

But Zuo Jiasi didn't give him a chance.

When Sima Yu received Ahri's letter on the front line, he already had a bad feeling.At that time, he was actually already on the road, so he hurried back to Jianye.When he saw Zuo Jiasi, he couldn't say anything.

You can't imagine a girl who once bloomed like a flower can wither like this.Just by looking at her face, you can imagine how much she has suffered.He has no way to express his true feelings to Zuo Jiasi at this time.

Zuo Jiasi's death also made it impossible for him to confess his feelings to Ari.

When Ari went to break the white apricot on the branch in the drizzle, he was so distressed that he couldn't breathe.She was belittling herself, but it was Sima Yu who hurt her.No matter how hard he tried to treat her well and cherish her, she would not believe it.

But Sima Yu couldn't tell that he didn't like Zuo Jiasi, the only thing he liked from the beginning to the end was Ari's words.That is blasphemy against the dead.

People must take responsibility for their own mistakes.

In the autumn rain, the chrysanthemum dew is fragrant, and the sweet-scented osmanthus is falling.Ari raised his head, his eyes were full of tears, but he still opened his eyes and looked at him vigorously, "What do you like, does your Highness really know in his heart?"

Sima Yu thought, you see she really remembers, she remembers everything.It must be a great resentment to remember after dying once, and to remember life after life.

But she asked this question too late, and they just missed it for a lifetime.

He reached out to wipe the tears from her eyes, but couldn't touch her.

"Even if His Highness ordered me to like it," she said, "people's hearts are not easily changed."

He thought, don't you understand very well?Why do you have to lie to yourself in vain to like Xie Lian?

It's obvious that he likes what he likes.

(End of this chapter)