cannon fodder queen

Chapter 38 It turns out that this life is like a dream, and I can't help it at all (1)
on the rooftop.

Qian Duoduo and I sat side by side, looking at the bustling lights under our feet.Qian Duoduo was silent, just kept drinking.I feel a little bit sad for her. What happened to Lu Qi and Ye Fei must have hit her hard.

"Are you okay?" I couldn't help asking as I watched her open the fifth can of beer.

In the dark night, Qian Duoduo smiled lightly: "What's the matter? It's always been like this, living in a muddle." She took a sip of beer, "Living in a muddle in her own world."

I'm really not very good at comforting people, not to mention that I'm not much better now, I don't know what to do in this situation, so I can only drink beer with her silently.

"Xia Wei, I'm sorry." Qian Duoduo said suddenly.

"Huh? Why did you suddenly say sorry to me?" I questioned.

Qian Duoduo was silent for a while, as if she was thinking about something, she turned her head to look at me, then turned back again: "The thing about slapping you in Shangri-La."

I smiled: "It's not your fault."

She lowered her head and smiled silently, "Actually, I still hated you a little bit. I didn't know what was going on until the news from Tianlan Media came out today."

"Who told me to have a conflict of interest with them?" I laughed at myself.

"In fact, he has always been like this. Every time he shoots a TV series, he will be ambiguous with actresses. He can't count the ten fingers of women he has dated behind my back. But I am still very angry, maybe because I really put You have become my own sister. Do you know, I haven't tasted the feeling of having relatives for a long time. "

What Qian Duoduo said made my nose sore.In fact, why didn't I regard her as a relative, but our relationship was too fragile, and it was shattered by Lu Qi's conspiracy before it was firmly formed.

Qian Duoduo took another sip of beer and said, "It's me who has been stubborn and deceiving myself. He's right. He didn't apologize to me. I did everything willingly. He never asked me to do anything. Thing. I'm stupid, I'm stupid, I'm stupid, I thought if I would give everything to be good to him, he would love me. I knew from the beginning that he didn't love me, he was only with me because of me Those connections and resources in my hands. He didn’t cheat on his legs, he didn’t step on two boats, he told me to break up with me long ago, I was the one who insisted that we didn’t break up, and it was me who kept pestering him and threatening him to make it public. His scandal."

Qian Duoduo cried as he spoke, crystal tears flowing wantonly on his plain cheeks.I took out a tissue from my bag and handed it to her. She thanked her with sobs, took out a tissue and wiped away her tears, but just after wiping the tears, they flowed again.

When I saw such a lot of money, I was really sad.What did she do wrong to be treated like this.She loves Lu Qi so seriously, and tries her best to help him, but in the end she can only fall to this end.All of this is because she loves Lu Qi, but Lu Qi doesn't love her.

In the war of love, the one who takes the initiative always dies more miserable.Like me and Zhuo Hao.But I am luckier than Qian Duoduo, at least Zhuo Hao is not considered a scumbag, he simply rejected me if he didn't love me, thinking about it this way, I probably have to thank Young Master Zhuo for his kindness to me, otherwise my current situation would be even worse Oops.

Later, I thought that Qian Duoduo was actually much braver than me, at least she had fought for her love desperately.Although that person is not worth it.

"How long has he been with Ye Fei?" I asked.

Qian Duoduo shook her head, wanted to take a sip of beer but found that she had finished another can, she crushed the can and threw it on the ground, and opened a new one: "I don't know. All I know is that Ye Fei has already lived in him." It was the apartment we picked out together when he became popular three years ago. He was busy filming, and I was the only one watching over the decoration. Xia Wei, do you know, that house is as big as a bed, sofa, and wardrobe I personally picked out a nail and a pair of chopsticks. I thought it would become my home, the home of him and me, but the decoration of the house is so good that I haven’t slept in that home for a single night. He said that he would not let me go to the house because he was afraid of being secretly photographed by reporters, but now Ye Fei lives in it and sleeps on the bed I picked for him."

This is really a cruel thing.I feel sad just by imagining it.It is really embarrassing to choose something with my own hands, but it turns out to be a wedding dress for someone else.

"I was so angry the day before yesterday. I knew they were at home and ran to find them. I was going to question him and ask why that woman lived in the house I decorated, but when I got there, Ye Fei smiled and said, When I took out a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet, I saw that they were wearing couple slippers. When I sat on the sofa, I found that the sofa had been replaced. Ye Fei made me coffee, and the cup was The new one, she told me she went to France to pick it out herself..."

When Qian Duoduo said this, he could no longer control his emotions, and burst into tears.I've never seen a grown-up wail like this. It's like those children who lost their favorite toys, crying in despair.

As she cried, she said intermittently: "I can't help it, Xia Wei. I am destined to lose him. I saw all this, and my heart was dying. Everything I thought hadn't changed had actually changed." I'm no longer in Lu Qi's world, I'm no longer here. This time I don't have the strength to keep him and threaten him. I'm tired. He is determined to separate me, and he will never Threatened by me. In fact, he doesn't know, I love him so much, how can I be willing to destroy him. Every time I threaten him to disclose our relationship, I am actually very scared, I am afraid that he will ignore me, not afraid of me Threatened because I would not even have the last hole card."

Qian Duoduo cried so embarrassingly, her face was wet with tears, just like raindrops from the eaves, it kept hitting her skirt.I was a little overwhelmed and could only silently pass the tissues around until she used up the whole package.

"There are no tissues. I'll get some." I was about to get up when I said that, but Qian Duoduo suddenly hugged me.She hugged me tightly, and the tears were still flowing, and I could feel the slight impact of those drops of water on my shoulders.I quickly hugged her, and patted her on the back like a mother putting a child to sleep, hoping to comfort her, but unexpectedly, she cried even harder.

"Xia Wei, I hate him so much now!" Qian Duoduo cried, "I hate him not because he cheated me for so many years, not because he was sorry for me, but because he made me lose you, and I know I lost you You, we can't be friends anymore. I hate him so much, he made me lose love and friendship, I have nothing!"

I quickly comforted her: "Why, we are still friends. Now that all the misunderstandings have been resolved, why can't we be friends anymore? We can still go shopping together, we can sit on the sofa and watch idol dramas together, nothing. Change."

"No, you don't understand. Soon you will know that we can't be friends anymore. I'm sorry, Xia Wei, I'm really sorry." Qian Duoduo cried, she hugged me so tightly, it made me panic Extremely. "You didn't apologize to me."

"The matter of the Truth Charity Association was done jointly by Xu Jingying and I." Qian Duoduo let me go and said.

My mind froze for a moment: "What did you say?"

"Xu Jingying knows about your relationship with Young Master Zhuo. That day, in Shangri-La, you fell and went to the hospital. Young Master Zhuo went to see you quietly, but Xu Jingying found out. She followed Young Master Zhuo to the hospital and peeked at everything outside the door. , I heard Young Master Zhuo tell you about Zhou Tingting's child. She found me and said she wanted to join hands with me.

"She also exposed Zhou Tingting's child?"

Qian Duoduo nodded.No wonder, no wonder she would say such things to me at the scene of "Dancing World", it turns out that there is meaning in her words, and it turns out that my premonitions and guesses are all true.

"She didn't dare to offend Young Master Zhuo, and she was also afraid that he would take action if Young Master Zhuo was involved in this matter, so she concealed the matter between you and Young Master Zhuo, otherwise, you might have to bear another crime now. I'm sorry, Xia Wei. I'm really sorry. I know it's useless to apologize, but things are beyond repair."

In the end, Qian Duoduo got drunk and was as drunk as mud.I helped her go downstairs, found the key from her bag and opened the door of her house.I carefully put her on the bed, tucked her in the blanket, turned off the light and left.

Before going out, I looked back at Qian Duoduo who was sleeping, she was so drunk that she was unconscious.His face was pale, but his cheeks were flushed red with tears.What she said just now is still in my ears, but I can't equate her in front of me with the person who framed me.

I can't blame her.After knowing what she had done for Lu Qi, I can't blame her.Perhaps this is my destiny. It is my destiny to wipe out everyone without a name. No matter how hard I try to change my destiny, prosperity is always a flash in the pan and a dream. When I wake up from the dream, the reality is still cruel.

It was late at night, and I lay quietly on the bed.The curtains were not drawn, and there was a bright light coming in from the window. I looked at the room.It took half a year to move into the apartment that Huayu rented for me, but I slept here for less than a third of the time.I still remember the excitement of moving in, but now, I guess it won't be mine anytime soon.

Maybe soon I will be forced to move out like its previous owner.

What to do, what should I do?
At this time, the first person I can think of calling for help is Zhuo Hao, but he is far away in South Africa now, and I can't contact him at all.Maybe I can go to Aunt Jiang, and Aunt Jiang will definitely be able to contact him.But why should I go to him?Who is he to me?I don't want to look for him, I don't need his help, I have already been given alms by him once, and I don't want to beg for his help again.

That's a shame.

I asked Mo what the worst would be. "Will I go to jail?" Embezzling charitable funds is no longer an entertainment event. If I really pursue it, I will be sentenced.How many years will you be sentenced to?One year, three years, ten years, or 20 years?I don't want it, the ghost will go to that cold prison to go to jail!

Ah Mo said that the situation is not so bad, the official donation ceremony has not been held, and the Truth Charity Association cannot sue us for embezzling donations.The company is also involved in this matter, and will definitely spend money first to clear itself.It's just that my public image has been completely ruined, and it may be difficult to rebuild it.

"So, what will happen to me?" I asked.

Ah Mo took a sip of strong coffee: "I don't know. If I'm lucky, I might be able to get some jobs."

If you're lucky, you can still get some jobs, but it's impossible to be Lin Xiawei again, and it's impossible to be that rising star again.No one will praise me anymore, and no director will be willing to use me as the protagonist or even the female supporting role.Even if I can still hang out in this circle, every appearance will be accompanied by countless insults.

This is what Mo called luck.Terrible luck.

So when Ah Mo appeared in front of me with scarlet eyes and put the company's final decision in front of me, I was relieved from the bottom of my heart.

"Things can't be controlled, Xia Wei, I'm sorry, I tried my best. But it's really irreparable." Mo's expression was extremely tired: "Xue Zang, no deadline."

"how about you?"

Ah Mo told me the answer in silence.I felt sad in my heart: "I'm sorry, I got you into trouble." Ah Mo shook his head, "No, I got you into trouble. If I hadn't been so happy to post the news in advance, what happened today wouldn't be like this. I should be more Be careful."

Zhou Tingting's fate fell on me so quickly.And I am more pitiful and miserable than her. She is only a private life at most, but I am morally corrupt and cheated on donations. As if overnight, I fell from heaven to hell and directly completed my transformation from the goddess. The transformation into a female ghost has become the target of everyone shouting and beating, like a mouse crossing the street.

The company confiscated my house and stopped accepting all jobs for me, although now there is no job for me, except for some variety shows that want to consume my scandal.All the income from the previous work was confiscated as liquidated damages for not fulfilling the contract with the company to actively maintain its own image.

I have nothing, even worse than before I became famous, at least I still had a Mo at that time, and I could occasionally appear on some variety shows to earn a small announcement fee, but now Mo was fired by China Entertainment, and started to earn a living Running around looking for jobs, and I couldn't take any more jobs.I only have 2000 yuan left in my savings, and I need to live on 2000 yuan for a long, long time, and I don't know how long it will take.

It turned out that this life was like a dream, and it was not in the slightest.

It's spring, but the weather is still cold.I hurriedly finished eating the instant noodles, washed the dishes, packed up my things and went out.For more than a month, I made a living by going to a stall under the overpass to sell some small jewelry every day. When the business was the best, I could earn 50 yuan a day, which was barely enough to support myself.Sometimes when I think back to the past and wondered if I would have to set up a street stall that day, I feel that it is really a bit of a prophecy.

When I was going out, I met the landlady, and when he saw me, he smiled and said, "Girl, should I pay this month's rent and last month's utilities? They all paid and you are the only one left."

I was a little embarrassed: "Oh, yes. I forgot. I will go to the bank to withdraw the money tomorrow and I will definitely pay it."

The landlady nodded in satisfaction, hummed a little tune and left.I touched the passbook in my pocket with a heavy heart.Now I have less than 1000 yuan left in all my assets, and the monthly rent is 400 yuan. If the business is not good tonight, I am afraid that I will not be able to survive this month.

It was a little late to go out today, and almost all the stalls were occupied when I rushed to the bottom of the overpass.Ah Liang, who had been standing next to me to put a film on his phone, saw me and hurriedly called me over: "Come here, I've got a good seat for you!"

A Liang is a friend I met after I set up a stall here. His hometown is in the west, and he went to the city with his father to work, so he set up a stall here to stick mobile phone film for people.He has a very sincere face, so his business is good, and he can earn eighty or ninety dollars a day.

"Weiwei, why are you wearing so little clothes today, isn't it cold?" Aunt Liu, who sells lean meatballs next to me, tugged at the sweater on my body, "These clothes are not cold-proof! Here, Aunt Liu will give you a spoon Some hot soup." She said, quickly took a plastic cup containing lean meatballs, put some seaweed mustard in it, and scooped a spoonful of hot soup from the pot and handed it to me: "Drink it, warm it body."

"Thank you, Aunt Liu." I took a sip, um, it was really warm.

The weather is cold, there are not many passers-by, and the business is not good.A few uncles and aunts nearby started chatting. "Hey, Lao Liu, didn't your girl say she was going to participate in some competition, did she go?" Uncle Zhang, who sells fried rice noodles, asked Aunt Liu.Aunt Liu rolled her eyes angrily: "Don't talk about it, go! Yesterday I was very excited and told me what kind of audition she passed and was promoted."

"Oh, congratulations, you will be the mother of a big star from now on!"

"What kind of big star? What kind of big star can she be with her looks? Just look at those women on TV. How come they are so beautiful! Well, a new TV series was released recently called "" So I love you so much, the heroine is really good-looking. The male protagonist is played by Lu Qi. My daughter said that Lu Qi and that girl are really a couple!"

A Liang also got interested: "Hey, I also watched that TV series. Are they really a couple? I think they look very suitable. Didn't that girl act in a movie before? Last Christmas, my girlfriend Fei pulled me to watch it. She played the third female role in it, but now she is the first female role? But I think the heroine in the movie is prettier than her, and her name is Lin Xiawei."

My body trembled suddenly, and I only felt a burst of cold air crawling up my back.

"Really, so beautiful?" Aunt Liu exclaimed.

A Liang nodded: "That's right, after acting in this movie, it became very popular, but then it died!"

"Why?" A group of uncles and aunts were very curious and hurriedly asked.A Liang spread her hands: "Hey, that woman is so bad-hearted, she lied to others for money! She also lied to other people to donate money to children in mountainous areas, and she was exposed."

(End of this chapter)