i prefer you

Chapter 10

Although there was no stubble on Xu Yong's face, he looked haggard as if he hadn't slept for several days and nights.

Seeing Xu Yong like this, Yingrou couldn't help but flinch, his eyes looked so cold!
She has never seen Xu Yong lose his temper, he is always very elegant, well-educated, and a urban yuppie, but now...

"Xu Yong, you look like you haven't slept for several days? What's wrong with you?" Yingrou asked timidly, unable to imagine why he became like this.

"Are you surprised?" Xu Yong's face was stiff, without any smile. "When you threatened Ying'ai, you should have thought about how I would react!"

"Threat?" she exclaimed. "What are you talking about? Why can't I understand? Xu Yong, are you too tired?" Ying Rou still looked concerned.

Xu Yong rubbed his forehead, annoyed why he never saw through her disguise, was it her disguise that was a great success?Or is it because he never takes her seriously?
In the past, he didn't care much about Ying Shuang, let alone Ying Rou!He only regarded her as a future relative!Unexpectedly, after Ying Shuang's death, she was still very determined to be by his side. Finally, with the tacit understanding of the two parents, he, who was discouraged by love, finally agreed to the marriage, but he never thought about what kind of person Ying Rou was!

"Aren't you too tired like this?" Xu Yong stared into her eyes and found that she was dodging. He was even more sure that what Xiao Wen said was absolutely true.

"Did Sister Ying'ai tell you something? She misunderstood me a little bit, and I was also very distressed. I wanted to explain it to her..."

"You are enough!" Xu Yong shouted angrily.

Ying Rou flinched from his aura.

"Let me tell you one last time, the person I love is Ying'ai, and I will marry her no matter what. If you try to hurt her, I will be rude to you." The torture of the past few days made him completely lose patience .

"Why do you have to marry her? Do you know that she can't conceive?" Yingrou was not reconciled. She had worked so hard for so many years, but Xuan Ying'ai came from behind and forcibly took away her achievements.

"Ying Rou, enough is enough!" Xu Yong said angrily. "Because you know that Ying'ai's health is not good, so you hit her against this point, and even threatened to hurt the child. I was not there at the time, otherwise I would pick you up and see if you dare to hurt my child!" The heartache of a child who was lost before he could meet him is incomparable!

Ying Rou was taken aback by him.

"Why do you all like her? What's so good about her? Both you and Mama Xia! I've worked hard for so many years, but you never looked at me. And your mother, although Mama Xia didn't say anything, I know she likes Xuanying Love! It's not fair!"

"Apart from complaining, have you ever thought about what you have done for others? Can people experience your love, can people feel that being loved by you is a happy thing?"

"Could she do it?!" She was not convinced.

Xu Yong nodded vigorously. "That's right, she can." Thinking of her bravery, and the way she cried to keep him, his heart burned. "In order to love me, she can try her best to do something she can't do normally. That's called bravery, you know?"

Listening to the gentle tone in which he talked about Ying'ai, Yingrou was really shocked.

he loves her!Ying Rou clearly saw that this man's heart was not on her at all.

"So what?" She still didn't want to admit it.

Xu Yong sighed deeply.

"I want to tear you apart just based on what you have done to Ying Ai! In the future, I don't want to have anything to do with you, and the Xia family won't welcome you in the future. You'd better not bring shame on yourself!" His face was grim, but his attitude was unexpectedly firm.

She flinched.

"Uncle Xia won't promise you to do this." Her last shield was Xu Yong's father. For the sake of family friends, he was the one who wanted Xu Yong to marry her the most.

"If my dad knows how you plan to harm his grandson, I think he will drive people away more fiercely than me. If you don't believe me, you might as well try!"

Ying Rou fell silent.

Xu Yong strode away.

She knew she would never be able to get him in this life.

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Xiao Wen arrived in front of Ying Ai's suite with some food, and saw Xu Yong standing at the door for the Nth time.

She gave him a sympathetic look. "She won't see you?"

There is a pile of tonics piled up at Xu Yong's feet, and he comes to give things away every day, but Ying'ai never wants to see him.Not only was it like that when he was hospitalized, but he refused to see him even when he was discharged from the hospital.

"Help me warm the chicken soup for her to drink, my mother said that a woman has a miscarriage..." He would shrink back when he said these two words, and this matter hit him hard. "It needs to be as simple as confinement. Also, she can't blow the hair, you help me watch..."

"I know! You have to say it every day, isn't it bothering you?" Xiao Wen tried to stop him. "I will persuade her."

"Is she... okay?" His face was full of loneliness and exhaustion.

Xiaowen sighed again. "I can't stand you two! Did I owe you in my previous life? One moaned outside the door every day, as if he hadn't slept all his life; the other shut himself up in the house, as pale as a ghost. Really... "

"You said Ying loves her... Is she too tired? Do you want to go to the doctor again? Or should I ask the doctor..." He panicked.

"Stop!" Xiaowen stopped him. She couldn't have imagined that the creative director of "Guan Yu" would be so neurotic before, but recently she has seen it so much that she doesn't want to watch it anymore. She is still alive!It's very autistic!Forget it, if she still doesn't understand, I'll wake her up. "

"Don't be too harsh on her..."

Xiaowen rolled her eyes. "Otherwise you go!"

Xu Yong had a bitter face. "If she would see me, I would have gone in."

While the two were talking, the elevator opened and Shao Zhongxin appeared.

"Shao Zhongxin, how do you know this place?" Xiaowen asked.

"I heard that Ying'ai was not feeling well, so I came to see her." Shao Zhongxin said.

"Ying'ai is in a bad mood, so I won't see you." Xiaowen said.What time is it, why are you here to join in the fun!
"But I called, and Ying'ai promised me to come." He looked at Xu Yong, who had a gloomy face beside him, and felt a little happy in his heart.

Of course Xiaowen saw it too, she kicked Shao Zhongxin. "Go in and put down your gift and then you can go." She winked at Xu Yong signally, reassuring him!

In fact, Ying'ai had mentioned to him about Shao Zhongxin's pursuit of her, so Xu Yong was very vigilant.

As a result, Shao Zhongxin went in smoothly, and Xu Yong waited outside worryingly. The wait lasted for an hour or two.

"Manager Shao, aren't you very busy?" Xiaowen finally couldn't listen to the meaningless words of Shao Zhongxin.

Of course Shao Zhongxin understood that Xiaowen was chasing people away. He saw that Yingai really didn't care much about his visit. She was absent-minded even when he was talking to her, so he didn't want to make fun of himself any more. He finally accepted himself. Pursue the fact of failure.

"Then I'll go first, take care of yourself!" Shao Zhongxin finally left.

It was not easy for Shao Zhongxin to leave, and Xiaowen finally couldn't help asking.

"When will you be willing to see Xia Xuyong?" Xiaowen put her hands on her hips.

Ying Ai's face turned pale, and her already pale face turned a little transparent.She turned her head away and pretended not to hear.

"What do you think of yourself?" Xiaowen stuffed her with a big mirror, forcing her to face her own appearance. "Who do you want to lie to? If you leave Xia Xuyong today and live a happy life without seeing Xia Xuyong, then I will admit it, and you can go as you please! But look at yourself, what have you made of yourself? "

"I... just haven't recovered yet, you don't have to make it sound like I'm a patient." Ying'ai said stiffly.

'Oh, it's almost there! Xiaowen rolled her eyes. "You let him wait outside every day, is that what you want?"If yes, why are you still unhappy?Why can't you sleep every night? "

The matter in her heart was punctured by Xiao Wen, and Ying Ai didn't want to pretend anymore. "I don't know if I can forget how much he hurt me..."

"Then you go and tell him!" Xiaowen exhaled. "You are angry, you are angry, you are sad, you have to tell him! I didn't ask you to forgive him, but to recognize what you want..."

"What do I want?" Ying'ai muttered to herself in a daze. "I don't want what I want, I'm doomed to be alone...everyone will leave me, everyone...without one exception!"

"Stop!" Xiaowen grabbed Yingai's hand. "Stop those self-pitying conversations! This is not the Xuan Ying'ai I know, Xuan Ying'ai is not such a coward!"

Ying'ai broke free from her hand, lay back on the bed, and curled herself into a ball. "But being a coward saves a lot of effort. If the end result is the same, why are you so aggressive?"

Xiaowen sighed, let her lie under the blanket and pretended to be dead, and then followed her to sit on the bed.

"Yingai, do you still remember what you did more than two years ago? You encountered your own emotional shock and became a deserter and fled to the United States. When you came back more than two years later, you knew clearly that you still loved him, and you also You succeeded in retaining Xu Yong before he got engaged. You didn’t continue to be a coward, you went to face your love and pursue it. Of course, on the one hand, you are lucky! Because it is possible that he has married someone else, and you can’t forget it all your life This is a self-inflicted regret."

Ying'ai was still nestled under the quilt, motionless.

But Xiaowen knew she was listening.

"It is indeed easier to escape when you are hurt, and it is in line with human instinct. However, happiness does not fall from the sky. Take you as an example, now you have a stupid man waiting for you outside, this does not fall from the sky Yes, it is your hard work and bravery that can win his love!"

Ying Ai's shoulders buried under the blanket trembled slightly.

"You have escaped once, but fortunately, you still have a chance when you want to face it. So in all fairness, should you be fair and give him another chance? If this man is worth it, why should you worry too much about it?" ? If torturing him and pushing him away can free you, I have no objection to you doing it. But you have to ask yourself, can you let go? Can you really stop loving him?"

Yingai's thoughts wandered following Xiaowen's words——

"I know you still have me in your heart!"

"It's too late, Yingai."

"I know you still love me, don't give up on me, Xu Yong!"

She heard her own voice full of emotion, begging for another chance.

"The reward for facing bravely is the possibility of getting the happiness you want. Although it may not be guaranteed, if you are not willing to face it, it is impossible to get what you want. You should be very clear about this." Xiao Wen As he spoke, he sat up, left slowly, and waved to the down-and-out man who was visiting at the door.

Ying'ai's eyes were filled with tears, and when she closed her eyes, the tears rolled down.

A pair of warm hands touched her shoulders and helped her up.

She raised her pale face and looked helplessly at the familiar face in front of her eyes.

What a haggard face!

More tears rolled down, and he caught one after another with heartache.

"Don't cry, crying makes my heart ache." Xu Yong wiped away her tears, but the new tears immediately stained his face again.

"It's my fault. You punished me. You shouldn't have to suffer like this! I promised to build a family with you, but I failed to keep my promise to protect you. I even killed my own child..." Speaking of this, the pain in his eyes could no longer be restrained, and his eyes were wet with tears.

She looked at him with red eyes, and the two looked at each other, thinking of the child who had no fate, and looked at each other with tears in their eyes.

"Xu Yong!" She cried and threw herself into his arms.

"Don't cry, baby!" He held her in his arms. "Fool, don't cry!" He shook her and comforted her, but his voice was broken.

She buried herself in his arms, weeping heartily, her pale thin fingers grabbed the shirt on his chest, trembling and weeping.

"He's so young, I don't know if he's a boy or a girl...he just disappeared! Xu Yong...I really want that child!"

"I know, I know...Me too...I'm sorry, Ying'ai!" His voice was full of pain.

At this moment, they mourned the dead child together.

She knew that he was burdened far more than she imagined. After all, the child was lost in front of his eyes. The regret caused by pushing her with his own hands, the pain he had to face was probably greater than hers.

Thinking of this, she no longer had the heart to free herself by blaming him.

"Don't say sorry again!" She cried and raised her head, held his rough chin, stroked the vicissitudes of life, and said reluctantly. "You have tortured yourself enough, stop scolding yourself! This is not what you want...not what you want..."

"But I hurt the child, and I hurt you, just think about it..." His face twisted.

She spread her palms flat on his face, stroking every inch of his painful tangles one by one. "You are hurting me by torturing yourself like this, because you are the person I love the most, and I don't want you to suffer!"

"Yingai!" He hugged her tightly, and immediately possessed her with his hot lips.

She raised her head, eagerly responding to him.

This process of hurting each other is too painful!

They simply can't afford to risk losing each other, so why bother hurting themselves? !

His lips and tongue were hot and swept across her soft mouth, and the love and enthusiasm that filled their hearts boiled between each other...

For you, I will devote my whole life without complaint or regret.

Wherever there is you, there is my home, my heart no longer wanders, and love finds a habitat...

(End of this chapter)