Satan school grass, say love me

Chapter 102

He sighed, took out a pen, and wrote down neatly in his diary:

It's been four years.But my memory is still fresh.From the beginning of the story to the end of the story, I can remember every plot, even the details, very clearly.It's just that everyone in memory has changed—in fact, no one is not changing.I think I may have changed too.But why can I still remember it so clearly?

For four years, I have not had the courage to open this book.But today I mustered up the courage to revisit the scar that made me feel so painful.

If I hadn't stood still at the beginning, would the scene be different today?
The moment of the fall is vivid.At that moment—the moment when Ye Bing fell from the building—now that I think about it, what I lost was not only Ye Bing, but also the beautiful, cruel, happy, and sad days that I once had in my life ——The memory that was destined to change my life——With Ye Bing's fall, I lost it forever.

There are still people coming and going on the street, and the sun still rises and sets every day. They will not change in the slightest because of Ye Bing's departure. Everyone walks according to their own path.Only me, only the me who is still deep in the mud, can't get out of this shadow, this trap - I can't go back - it's like time is always ticking forward, but it can never learn to go backward.

The hesitation at that moment may be due to fear, or it may be due to excitement.No matter what the reason is, that was the reason why I lost Ye Bing, but so far, I haven't figured it out and straightened it out.

But I can clearly understand that everything will be irreversible!yes!I should realize that after Ye Bing's sudden change, as her boyfriend, no, even ordinary friends should care about her.And I just run away.

I just feel tired and need to rest.This is a very simple and small wish, but it is such an inconspicuous, small wish that forced Ye Bing to embark on the path of destruction and made me lose my favorite forever.

In the days after she left, every expression of her flashed before my eyes, and even every word she said would be repeated hundreds of times in my ears, each time was so clear, So powerful.

I can't get rid of these thorny memories, and I dare not.It wasn't until the end that I realized that I had always loved Ye Bing.I ignored this feeling for a while.Because of Ye Bing's wanton killing, his hatred for her overshadowed his love for her.

Now that I think about it, my love for her has not diminished at all, and it is extremely strong.Hate is born of love, but ends up drinking hatred.No wonder people often say that "the authorities are obsessed, but the bystanders are clear".Because I was greedy for freedom, obsessed with comfort, and was blinded by hatred, which hurt her, and even ignored my true heart because of this hatred.

I am responsible, and to Ye Bing, I have an inescapable responsibility.

Sometimes when I stand at the intersection and watch the passing people go along different roads, I will feel palpitations.His own choice turned out to be one of the reasons that forced Ye Bing to choose him.

Am I wrong?I can't find the answer, but the scar left in my heart will be with me for the rest of my life...forever...will never fade away...

Ye Bing apologized to me.

The "I'm sorry" that I couldn't say because of my misunderstanding finally blew into my eardrum along with the strong wind before she fell from the building.

She is such a fool, in the line between life and death, what she thinks of is not asking for help, but the phrase "I'm sorry".

God!What did I do to her?Her long-cherished wish turned out to be so simple, just to say "I'm sorry" to me, just three words.But I was so stingy that I didn't even give her such a small chance—not to mention that she was my lover, my favorite—until I died.

God is punishing me.Because of my greed and my stinginess, I lost Ye Bing and my favorite again, and this time it will be forever.

Tagore once said: "The furthest distance in the world is not the distance between life and death, but that she is right in front of you, but you don't know it."

Now I can ignore Ye Bing's sins, no longer have any estimates, imagine that Ye Bing has turned into the wind, and will be by my side at any time.Such thoughts made me feel that I was getting closer to Ye Bing.Ye Bing... This name will forever be stored in my memory... Although originally, she could be mine...

Ye Bing... You who are as gentle as a breeze, have you already felt my heart?
I love you……

(End of this chapter)