because i'm a zombie

Chapter 105 Fear

"Am I going to die?"

I murmured what Xiaoniaoyou Future said just now, frowning and thinking for a long time, but to no avail, I could only raise my head and ask her.

"What do you mean... I'm really going to die?"

"will die."

Xiaoniaoyou Future said with a certain tone on his dull face.The dim purple light shot from her pupils on my body, swept from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet, and then from the bottom of my feet back to the top of my head, just lingering like this.

"No..." Xiao Niaoyou's voice paused, and the purple light emitted from both eyes froze on my chest, motionless.

"You are dead, or... you are a dead person."

I don't know how to describe my inner feelings anymore, and now I am completely speechless by Xiaoniaoyoufuku's words.

I am a dead man...

She knew my identity and the fact that I was dead...all because of her inexplicable eyes.

From the very beginning, I felt as if I had been completely exposed to the purple eyes of Xiaotiaoyou Mirai, and there was nothing to hide. The facts I wanted to hide were completely exposed in front of those strange glasses.

"but……"

Xiaoniao Youlai raised her right hand, stretched out her index finger lightly, and tapped it on my heart. Her finger slowly drew a circle, and my face became paler and paler.

Because... the circle she drew... was exactly the size of the knife mark on my chest, exactly the same, completely overlapping.

"I will still die..."

"Pfft."

After saying this, Xiao Niao You Future closed his eyes and fainted on the ground.

I stood there blankly without any movement, not because I didn't want to help her, but...my brain was completely filled with her words.The words of the little bird swimming in the future echoed in my ears, once, twice, three times, a hundred times!Thousands of times!

This sentence is all in my mind!

still die!

still die.

Will I still die... huh...

She knew that I was already a dead person, but she said that I would still die...

What exactly does that mean?
And... what does the knife mark pointing at my chest mean?
Fear... invisible fear.

With the immortal body of a zombie, I do everything with all my might regardless of the consequences of my life.

Now, when I know I'm going to die... I feel a vulnerability inside of me.

The body began to tremble.

"It turns out that...you are also afraid of death."

I leaned against the wall weakly, watching the bird swim future of the unconscious person on the ground with both eyes.

Her words were sudden, the light in her eyes was also sudden, and her performance today was even more sudden.

But.This 'sudden' but so 'natural' event seems to be bound to happen.

But I didn't question her words, or why she became what she was just now.

Or... In fact, in my heart, I have been fearing death.It's just that I never calmed down to think carefully about the fact of my own death.

I am afraid that my previous exile was also a way for me to escape from fear.

Now that someone pointed it out, my cowardice was completely exposed.I am afraid, I am in a hurry.The shadow in my heart is like a huge wave, stirring my inner world.

The trembling that grows stronger and stronger in the body is evidence of fear.

"Will I die..."

After a long time, the bird swims in the future and gets up from the ground.

Her eyes returned to black, and she stood beside me in a daze, looking at me trembling.

She didn't speak, and I didn't have the energy to talk to her again.

In the silent night, the two of us stood at the stairway like stone sculptures.

I don't know how I got here this night. By the time I recovered from my fear, it was already dawn.

Xiao Niao You Future sat on the stairs with his back against the wall and fell asleep, and there was the sound of someone opening the door on the second floor.

After a while, Laura's figure appeared at the corner of the stairs.

"Good morning, Lloyd." Laura waved to me, and then she saw the bird You Future leaning against the wall with her eyes closed, and said in a sympathetic tone: "She's going 'nervous' again... hey , she looks so beautiful."

Laura walked to Xiaoniaoyoufuture's side, picked her up with both hands and placed her on the sofa in the living room, and she pulled off a piece of white long cloth next to the sofa, and covered Xiaoniaoyoufuture's body.Her movements are very gentle, just like Xiaoniaoyou Future's older sister. In fact, when Xiaoniaoyou Future's adoptive parents 'dropped' her here with Su Yiqing, Laura began to take care of Xiaoniaoyou In the future, it's unbelievable that Laura, who used to get into fights with Liu Huier, would be so gentle.For this, Laura explained that she has always been gentle, but Liu Huier really made her want to beat her up...

After a while, there were footsteps coming upstairs one after another, and then, Luoli, Youzi, and Qin Yun walked down the stairs one by one.

They greeted me, but I could only reply with a pale smile.

A night without sleep, a night filled with fear.

This feeling...is uncomfortable.I really want to find a quiet place to be quiet.

"I'm going out for a while, I won't have breakfast."

After saying hello to Laura, I walked out of Su Yiqing's residence.

In the early morning, there were very few pedestrians on the road, the streets looked a little desolate, and the air was a little chilly.

It's the end of autumn... Xing Tian's holding shield automatically simulates the weather changes in the outside world.

I looked up at the Gaolang sky, and my thoughts drifted further and further away.

Identity as a zombie has been around for half a year.

Half a year, but it gave me a feeling of tiredness that seemed to be decades.

In the past six months, I have experienced too many things... From meeting Su Yiqing for the first time, being hired by her, being with Liu Huier among the artillery fire in SH City, being shown love by Liu Huier, meeting Lolita... Joining Xingtian, the combat team, for the first time The mission...for Luoli and Xingtian to get into a stalemate, and to fight Su Xingtian...and, until now.

My body strengthening also broke through from 100% to 500%.

But... why is my strength getting stronger and stronger, but I don't feel the slightest sense of security? At 100%, I think that at 500%, I must be invincible. However, the stronger I am, I find that my original thoughts are really simple. At 500%, I still can’t pose a threat to others, even at 300%. I don't feel...

Not to mention that now... even an ordinary person is not as good as...

"Lloyd?"

A voice sounded behind me.

I turned my head to look, and it was Su Yiqing who had been busy until the early hours of the morning.

She looked tired, as tired as I was.

"So early? Where are you going? Shall I take you there?"

Su Yiqing came up and said to her with a smile.

I shook my head.

"I'm not going anywhere, I just want to go shopping..."

"What happened? Why do you feel that Lloyd is in a bad mood... Is it because of the disappearance of strength?"

"Yes or no."

I was silent for a while and said.

Su Yiqing grabbed my right hand and pulled me towards where her car was parked.

"Go to a place with me, you will definitely like it. Every time I'm in a bad mood, I go back there to relax." Su Yiqing opened the co-pilot's door, pushed me in, and went around to sit in the driver's seat.

"Let's go."

There was a happy smile on the corner of Su Yiqing's mouth.

Half an hour later, I stood in a sea of ​​flowers, blue, red, and purple flowers were everywhere.

A sea of ​​flowers.

"It's beautiful." Su Yiqing raised her hands to the sky and closed her eyes to feel the smell of flowers.

"This is a gift from my brother when I was a child. In this area, the climate will always be spring."

"I still remember what my brother said to me when he sent me off."

Su Yiqing stopped her movements and looked at me with her eyes bent.

"'I can't give you spring, but I can at least give you a place where you can feel spring anytime'."

"Lloyd, that's what I want to tell you too."

"I... Su Yiqing."

"I can't give you spring...but! I hope I can make you feel warm! At least! Smile when you're with me!"

After Su Yiqing finished speaking, she hugged my neck with both hands, and pulled my head on her shoulders, and she gently stroked the back of my head.

"Lloyd... tell me what's on your mind, and I will be your qualified listener."

"Su Yiqing..."

I don't know why, when Su Yiqing said these words, my heartbeat actually beat along with Su Yiqing's words.

That feeling... touches the bottom of my heart.

I hugged Su Yiqing with my back, hugging Su Yiqing, a thin girl.

Now that I think about it, this girl has endured more than I have ever been through.

A young lady who was born into a powerful family, she must be called the title of 'Missy'.She is constantly working hard and learning to make herself conform to all the temperament, wisdom, and chest that a "big lady" should have.

Therefore, when her favorite brother died, she had to drain the sorrows of ordinary people for years in one day; therefore, even if she experienced the battlefield herself, she had to force herself to stand at the forefront of the battlefield; therefore, she had no time for love. Can 'waste' on this 'boring emotion'.

She has been 'forced' all her life.

The girl in front of me needs to be listened to more...

"Speak out, Lloyd."

Su Yiqing patted my back.

"Say it and you'll feel better."

I stroked Su Yiqing's hair, soft and smooth.

The fragrance of hair essence floats into my nasal cavity along with the elegant girly fragrance.

"Actually..." I started.

I told Su Yiqing what Xiaoniaoyou said about the future, I told her my guilt that I couldn't help Su Yiqing, and I told her my depression about losing my ability.

I kept talking, and Su Yiqing listened quietly, only occasionally smiling gently at me.

She is really gentle and must be a good wife.

I thought.

The two of us were sitting on a mound in the sea of ​​flowers, Su Yiqing leaned her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arms around my arms.

"I've always been afraid... I was afraid that I would really die... I never thought about this problem, but now that I think about it, I realize that this problem is so terrible... Yiqing, what should I do... Now I , can we just wait for death to come?"

(End of this chapter)